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2024-10-29 19:42:56Takumi POV
“Who said I was?” She asked.
“Then it's true.”
“I didn't say that it is.”
“And you didn't deny it either. So, which is it?”
“Fine. It's true, I was pregnant. So what?”
I honestly didn’t expect her to admit it right away but then again, she’s a terrible liar so I would’ve gotten the truth either way.
“How did you know?” She asked.
“Sora dropped a hint by asking me if anything unusual was going on with you before we split. I remembered all the weird things that were going on with you. I didn’t want to believe it because of the pills but I guess the effects wore off. And it made everything make sense. Why didn't you tell me when you found out?”
“I told you that I'm not your problem anymore, so you don't have to bother yourself with me.”
“Were you ever going to tell me?”
“Obviously not. What part of “you're dead to me” was unclear?”
I won’t lie, her words cut deep.
“So, how's the baby?”
“I don't think that it's any of your concern.”
“Actually, because I'm the father, it is.”
“Funny, I don’t remember ever giving a damn about that bit of information.”
“Ok, you're just being difficult.”
“There it is. And here I was thinking that you said all that you needed to about me but of course, you weren't done. If there's you want to add more, then go ahead and finish so I can leave and never come back.”
“You know that's not what I meant.”
“Do I?”
“Yes, you do.”
“I thought I knew you but turns out I didn’t. So, I have no fucking clue what you meant.”
“That’s not fair.”
“Oh, that’s such a shame. I’m playing the world’s tiniest violin for you.”
“Did you just come here to fight, and hurl insults my way?”
“Well, I wouldn’t be here if your sister hadn’t decided to trick me. All I’m doing is making the most of this situation.”
“I know that you’re still angry and that I’m your least favourite person. I get it but it doesn't mean I don’t want to care.”
“That was a waste of oxygen.”
“What?”
“Don't you think that I know better than to believe or trust anything you say? You lost my trust and now, you have to live with the consequences. And we both know that you wouldn't be saying all that if there was no baby in the first place.”
“But...”
“Don’t bother. But since you wanted to know so badly, I got an abortion. Before you say anything, I don’t want your excuses because that’s all they are. Excuses. And I don't want your apology either because it's pointless. When you break a plate and say sorry to it, does it repair itself? No, it doesn't so spare me whatever longwinded speech you had prepared.”
Third-person POV
They sat there in silence.“I lied.” She confessed.
“Hmm?”
“I lied about getting an abortion but there was no point if she's just outside anyway. And it does save me the trouble of vaguely answering any questions she might ask about you.”
“I already knew that you were lying, and it was a little overkill.”
“I thought by now, you’d realise that opening your mouth isn’t doing you any favours.”
As if on cue, Sora came in with Natsumi.
“Hey, she wants you. She said she’s sleepy.”
Twilight went over to take her. afterwards, Sora left them alone.
“Thanks.”
“So that's her, huh?” He asked.
“Yeah, and her name is Natsumi.”
“I see.” He smiled.
“Let's get one thing straight: I’m not going back to you. I’m not going to let her grow up seeing me pretend to be happy. I’ll be damned if she thinks that it’s ok or that she doesn’t have choices. I don’t have to like you either.”
“Understandable.”
“If we're going to make this whole co-parenting thing work then it's going to be on my terms. First, you stay out of my business like I'm doing with yours. The only person whose business you should involve yourself in is Natsumi's. Second, I don't want to fight with you in front of her and I won't as long as you follow the first term. Third, you can be involved in her life as much as you, I don't care but if she sheds even one tear because of you then I won't let you off so easily like last time. To put it simply, you damn well better be the best dad you can be to her. And fourth, I'll only let her visit if and when she wants to and if she ever decides that she doesn't want to see you anymore, which I’m praying happens, then that's that. Am I clear on all that?”
“Crystal.”
“Do you still live in the same place?”
“No, I moved back in with my parents.”
“I'll let you know through Sora when I'm bringing her over.”
Twilight POV
I got up to leave. Luckily, Sora left the door unlocked. I was ready to rip it off its hinges.
“Hansuke, what are you doing here?”
“I live here.”
“But isn't this her place?”
“It is.”
“So, it's not yours?”
“No, it is.”
Oh, so they're living together. Ok, that's new. Well, to me it is.
“Since when did you two start living together?”
“A couple of months after we started dating,” Sora answered.
“What about that guy your dad told me about?” I asked. “You know, the one you wanted to marry even though you just met him.”
“I'm that guy,” Hansuke said.
“What?”
“Let me summarise the long story. It all started the year after I met you, it was also the year I met her. She was picking up Takumi from my place and I thought that it'd be the first and last time I'd see her. But surprise surprise, she shows up at my door the next day to confess her love. And get this, she didn't stop there. She went on to how we'll get married and have kids and then grandkids. At which point I stopped her; told her she was nuts and closed the door. You'd think she'd get the message but, not surprisingly, she didn’t, and she became a pest who wouldn't stop harassing me. I thought she'd grow tired of it, but years passed, and she didn't. Eventually, she started growing on me and I decided to give it a shot. That's pretty much it.”
“You forgot to add that we're happy,” Sora added.
“That too. Not that we’re trying to rub in your face or anything.”
I'll be honest, that story sounds a little familiar. If you know what I mean.
“You know what, good for you two. Honest. But please, don't ever let her pull this crazy stunt.”
“Trust me, if I knew about it, I would’ve put a stop to it.”
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