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Chapter 29: Regrets
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Carrie's POV "And I was truly satisfied with my life as acting Luna of Blackmore until Diesel cheated on me with his young mate." I managed to choke the words out through my constricting throat, and now all I wanted was to run far away and avoid that look of understanding on his handsome face. I was such a fool for falling for Asshole Diesel's charms. How had I been so brainless? "Acting Luna?" Madoka was very still, and it made me nervous. "Yes," I agreed. "Since I was Alpha Diesel's chosen mate, he suggested that I become his chosen luna." I was pleased at how calm my voice sounded considering the way I was shaking. I couldn't look at Madoka because I was too afraid of his reaction. I didn't want to see his disgust or pity that I had been so easily fooled by pretty promises. He took in a deep breath, but his expression was hard to read. "Then why did I find you as a rogue and not with your pack?" I inhaled as well, mostly to buy myself some time. "Well, we were in a rela
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I turned the corner to find the open foyer with the beige spiral stairs. Golden lights mounted on the walls protected by zigzag semitransparent glass. It gave the walls an elegant glow with jagged slices of lights against the exposed brick wall.Annoyed, I stepped inside to leave through the front gate when suddenly, high heels clicked against the grey stone tiles stealing my attention, halting me in place. I waited for the woman to pass.Tall slender legs appeared from behind the wall. The lighting made her legs look like molten caramel. The navy silk dress slid behind as she stepped forward revealing her silky thighs. Her long hair waved around her perfectly semi moon ass. My gazed caressed up her hips to her luscious chest that were barely hidden by the scrap of clothing hanging of her creamy shoulders.My lower region tightened. It's been a while since someone evoked an arousal like that from me. Actually, no one had ever been able to evoke the fire I left inside. My eyes finally
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If I was lucky, the shadow of the gigantic sofa would swallow me and leave no trace of where I was.I waited, breathless, for what seemed like hours. In reality, barely seconds had passed. I heard footsteps drawing near to me, heavy on the tiles beneath them. They came quickly towards where I lay, but stopped feet away. I could hear whoever it was panting hard, clearly out of breath.“Carrie?” A quiet whisper rang out in the night.I recognized the voice immediately, and sprang from my spot on the floor.“Brigit, I’m here.” I whispered back to her.I saw her face turn towards me, and her body relaxed. She ran towards where I was, half standing on the ground.“Thank god you’re safe. I thought I was too late.” She helped me up and brought me into her arms in a rushed hug. “Now come on, we’ve gotta get out of here. We don’t have a lot of time. Lucas’s minions are still lurking in this house. We need to hide and go far from them.”Brigit grabbed my arm and began to lead me back to the mai
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Thoughts swarmed my mind. Why would they hesitate? I don’t understand. Leonardo lingered over me, breathing heavily with rage. "By the time you die, you'll be nothing but bones. Once this poison is in your system, I'm afraid there's no going back. You are so dumb Carrie. You’re trying to kill every one of my kind and yours." His voice was low, almost a whisper. It seemed the time for yelling was gone. Now there was a rage so malicious and a hint of fear. I wished he would scream.I smirked. “Well, that would be fun. Even if I die, I’m dragging you two with me.” My voice came out in calm breaths. The burning inside of me was still growing. “It’s such sight seeing fear in your eyes, Lucas. What happened to the proud and ambitious vampire?”Lucas looked at me with disgust."Oh, my dear Carrie. Haven't you figured it out yet?" I met his question with a glare, at which he responded, laughing. "This 'poison' you and Brigit keep talking about isn't a poison. It's a weapon. But not just
