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Chapter 33: The Conscience and Fear

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last update Last Updated: 2024-03-09 03:21:36
Carrie's POV

"And I was truly satisfied with my life as acting Luna of Blackmore until Diesel cheated on me with his young mate."

I managed to choke the words out through my constricting throat, and now all I wanted was to run far away and avoid that look of understanding on his handsome face. I was such a fool for falling for Asshole Diesel's charms. How had I been so brainless?

"Acting Luna?" Madoka was very still, and it made me nervous.

"Yes," I agreed. "Since I was Alpha Diesel's chosen mate, he suggested that I become his chosen luna." I was pleased at how calm my voice sounded considering the way I was shaking.

I couldn't look at Madoka because I was too afraid of his reaction. I didn't want to see his disgust or pity that I had been so easily fooled by pretty promises.

He took in a deep breath, but his expression was hard to read. "Then why did I find you as a rogue and not with your pack?"

I inhaled as well, mostly to buy myself some time. "Well, we were in a rela
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Joanne Julian
there was no fight at all! wtf are you talking about. why don't you proof read your own writing. There Was no fight, no challenge, no nothing. she had an argument with diesel and Cameron over heard it. alpha asshole banished carrie. there was never any chapter where Carrie was training. crap!!!
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Stevie Bissett
Her recollection and telling of past events does not agree with the way you told the story originally. There was no mention of this fight or the other incidences you now tell when the break up scenario was actually happening. You need to learn consistency in your story telling.
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