Chapter 1

Such a peaceful feeling you felt as if you finally reach the highest of heaven, bathed with breezeful and pure light that ultimately grace you with eternal life. I may have dreaming this for much longer time, but I wish... it's true this time!

“Oh, Heaven... forgive me, p-please,” I softly said, my voice weak. “I am a sinner, alright. I... asking for forgiveness!” 

There in front of me is the altar I barely able to make out of sight. Just the sight of it gives me a feeling of bitterness and the never-ending feeling of unfairness. How can I sinned... just by following this foolish heart?

The figure have been slowly darkened, and I thought it's just my vision has been flickering to distinguish. But I didn't seem to lose consciousness, and I'm yet felt the aura of death to surround me. Nevertheless, that's could be a good thing... However, this just prove that my vision is not wrong here, but the figure really is darkened, and prove that time been greatly passed since then!

“How much years have really passes?” I glance to the rusty and old close door in my right. Though I'm weak to even lift my head, there's seems to be a strength just for this. I hoping...for it to slammed open and to reveal someone that he slowly forgotten!

“So it's been ages,” I said in my weakest voice just as the door reveal clearly. But it never open, whatever I wish to who-knows existence that came to accept this feeling. I murmured, “I wonder if he's fine on his own... Surely, he resent me for.staining his name...” I silently laugh to the selfishness brought upon the memories that flowing like a river stream. 

“He sure resent me... That's why he's forgotten I'm also punish as him...” I felt the slice in my heart, as if countless of needles pierce through the deepest of it. 

“No way he will choose to remember... But atleast he will live,” my thought to lessen the pain brought by the countless needles. 

I'm sure he's alive! That's the very reason I'm here...

I face the highly as ever figure, and turns, this figure felt as if face back the pitiful existence such myself, as if caught just now that I face the door with a strength I never have done for it. 

The way the eyes lingered on me feels like it tells me I'm such a foolish, only look at the door but never thought of it as my chance for escape. 

It as if wishing me to do just that and I'm already forgiven. But how can someone is forgiven when he don't even accept the so-called sin?

“I never...sin,” this after the prayer of forgiveness. I am conflicted and thought asking for forgiveness... only prove this heart must crumble from existence!

I would like to think the figure's eyes deliver such a face look to agree, and I even thought I hear a faint voice, said with gentleness and love, “Go... Run...”

But there's this voice behind my mind, it as if this day will come, he said with a threats that I can't just set-aside, 

“Think of escaping, and you'll see the tragedy,” that words echoed now and then, feel like exploding my mind for overwhelming. “Dare and you'll see, you stupid child!”

I remember my response with acceptance, “If I remain inside...” I negotiated, risk the chance for the future to come. “Can you help him escape... and avoid the punishment?”

“I can do everything!” he sure confidence as he said. But his voice strange when he added, “Even saving the sinner... you share the same disgrace...”

I look unwaver and felt relieve. At the back of my mind, I'm certain he's alive... And if he forgiven me, sure will save me from my fall!

However, it long pass the point of no return, and I am afraid to realize the truth about this matter. 

“There's no way he can't just abandon me,” I thought and have been waiting for the door to explode and for the light to illuminate this dimmed of world I was imprison about. 

“But there's no way he unable to avoid the death. Perhaps he don't really felt it... the way I felt it for him,” this thought can actually helps, though weakened me for ultimate degree. 

I thought what's the purpose of this confinement?

I can only plead to the figure. Asking to show some mercy for a sinner such myself, thought it really is a sin to force the man with this downfall with me. 

“You said there's magic deep within our faith,” I said, dissecting the verse of the sacred words that shower this world from the beginning. “You know why I immerse and accept this fate, right? You are highly, knows what's inside my head!”

My voice slowly defeated by the tremble of my heart. I scan around, afraid some sort of ears lurking about before I said what's really in my heart, “One thing is to prove that this feeling is really what I want!” 

The pierce within my heart can only felt to intensified. Is it really worth it? What's there to prove when the feeling I given don't really want it?

How can it be a sin when the fruit I want to taste is leave unbitten?

I gulp to find the dirty floor and trace the red and darkest stain in it. My eyes cloudy as I whisper with a light laugh, “How can I forget... I slowly eaten by this place...”

I cough a mouthful of blood now and then, but I can only laugh away my bitterness. 

This the longest time I face the altar, and for the last time, I gently scan the figure with much careful, copying in memory all the traces of it. 

This figure place by someone in the town, but I'm afraid it's not from the people who expect light in me. This figure is the God believed by the otherside of the town... where I meet the forbidden I slowly learn to love...

“You...” I remember his face when he make a face of shock. 

I shrugged, look around the green field that was his home. “I came with father,” I said to inform him, and refuse to hide the truth. “I... will stay here for the maintime.”

As I slowly bowed my head, and slowly felt the cold of the floor after, the scene slowly gone in my head but my heart used my mind to say in my head, “The day will come... and I can fully show my heart to the one I love...” 

This is the wish my heart, one that trully without the backing of crumble belief inside my head. As my head slowly cleared and to my heart to fully felt again that distance I'll never come across again, a smile escape my lips as I slowly close my eyes. I added before finally reach the darkness,

“More... and much freely...” 

Just as I close my eyes to clear my mind, the door burst into open. As the world darkened, my heart skip to beat. I hear the words came out from the door's broker, it fill with resentment and fury. 

“Now,” she whisper just behind my ear, “you will to see for yourself how I punish!”

She laughed maniacally. Just I fall to the deepest of consciousness, I feel the deepest reason behind this madness. I sure...she come for the darkest turn of event. Yet my mind trying to analyze, searching through the deepest of my memories. Who is she?

I visits through all the memorie that I bury deep. Now they resurface boldly, trying to mock me from restraining them for so long. And they wouldn't stop until I bleed once more to find how destructive those memories is.

Just then, the woman's there...at the corner of everything.

Silent, messy, and depress!

She's a best example of the future of one who walk the path of sin.

Atleast just as the elders says...

So what's possibly her reason of breaking the door...and almost kills me?

Wait, am I even alive?

Just as I thought the matter, I can felt the pump of my chest. I am alive, enough to feel the pain of banging to a hard metal that clenching about. I slowly finding myself conscious, felt the eyes befall at me.

The blinding light enough for me to realize I was no way below-ground, waiting to be forgiven.

Or atleast for a certain person to open the close door, show up in front of me and tells me I am no way of sinned. 

That our love...is acceptable.

And yet...nothing. Time passes for that to happened.

I curiously eyed the man who cover the metal with his hand before my head bump again to its hardness. It was no way of rust, it just my head was as hard as diamond that metal is no way of breaking it to half. 

But the man who eyed me with strange light was no way of thinking the same as I am. He's sure to not even blink, not even show how disastrous my way of pushing mysellf too much.

Except that the surround people voice out there worry that I able to realize he's indeed weird. 

“I'm fine,” I said, inwardly look the surround people. The sight of him looking deeply, unmoving, only remind me of the figure in the altar. Everyone sigh in relief, even goes so far of joking of how my head withstand such an impact. Hearing such a statement, though they laugh after, I came to realize I may have gotten bumped to it the harder as I expected.

Looking to the man who gripped to the metal pole, now I realize his trauma of upon witnessing this madness. I tap his shoulder and gasp to find it's tense. He's shaken, heart race to a height that I hardly manage to look away, feeling the force that I hardly believe exist.

“Arsy, are you listening-” the man behind him says, only to be pause, blinking and ultimately point his finger as if seeing a ghost. “You-”

“You are risk for head injury,” he interrupted the man, look at me as if I am no way of someone he knows too well. He didn't even say a words before grab the man who can only shrugged his shoulder, as if I am some sort of hallucination that hardly believe.

“What's with them?” I ask, feeling the strange upon their presence. In an instant, the strange room is devoid of nothing but empty chairs. In one glance I feel like everything is natural, nothing's there to even question.

Just as I believe that I naturally live this moment, the woman passes in front of me, looking so strange while waving her hand as if leaving for good.

“You...”

“The time...is coming,” she mouthed, unable to hide the scorn in her face. “Are you prepared?”

I stepback, slowly looking behind. There I can see the world is so far from what I know. However...everyone exist the same way I exist with them before I falling the deepest.

I realize who the woman was... 

The one said to be a holder...of the Myth!