Breaking Down Barriers

Don't just break your walls down to let someone in, make them work for it, make them show that they are worth it. Wait for that one that is willing to climb your walls just to find you that will break them down just to get to you. The one that is looking for you, all that you are in body, mind, and soul. The worst reason to break down your walls is just for the physical, let love in before giving that part that you are not willing to expose.

I have done my very best to ignore Isabella again. It's day count two, I answer her briefly when I think it warrants. Yes, I am the dumb ass that starts it and when it comes to pulling through, I do my famous now you see me and now you don't hear from my act. The damn woman is fine and god knows I want her, not only physically but on a much deeper level than that, I just wish I can get past that part that is in the way...my leg.

I am sitting in the lounge with Matt and his new girlfriend when my phone rings.

It is Isabella.

"Stop ignoring the woman and answer the damn phone," Matt says with a hint of irritation in his voice. "You should have figured by now that she is not going to go away."

"I can't and you know it."

"Bro she likes you for you, not your damn leg."

"Matt! Watch your mouth. She does not know. And anyway she likes the full version of a person that is me, well that she thinks is me."

"Bro, I just wish you will out with it. You know that the old man is going to blow a valve when he finally finds out. I don't think Isabella will even think near the same."

My phone buzzes.

It's Isabella.

"I am starting to feel like a stalker bitch soldier, throw a girl some rope here."

"HAHAHA. Are you drowning girl?"

"Aha, he is alive! You're a sight for sore words. I am missing you over here in my whore house."

"Are you dreaming of spanking again?"

"Only of you my soldier. When am I going to see your sweet ass again, well I still need to see it and oh boy can't I wait to see it, I mean when can a girl see her man?"

"Mmmm your man? Now that I like the sound of. When did I become your man?"

"Since you have been feeding me all those honey kisses which by the way I am out of. I need some more like yesterday already!"

"Hahaha you will give a guy some serious big head here"

"HAHAHA, soldier get your ass here! There is some real head I would like to give you."

"What about me and Matty and his new attachment come for dinner?"

"As long as it brings me you then I am up for it."

"Perfect, this sweet ass will be coming up in an hour."

"I will crack out one of my finest whips just for you."

"Hahaha see you later my boo."

I wish I knew what I am doing, I mean I want to see her, yes, but I know I am going to push her away as soon as it gets too serious, I guess that is why I am taking Matt with. Maybe I should just stick my pride and tell her about it. Let's wait and see what happens tonight."

"Listen here dumb ass," I turn to look at Matt. "Whatever you had planned for this evening has just been canceled."

"Are you throwing me and my girl out the lounge for Isabella for Isabella?"

"No, you and..." I turn to the girl sitting next to Matt. "Sorry girl but I don't think I caught your name."

"It is Chloe."

I turn back to face Matt again. "You and Chloe are coming for dinner at Isabella."

"Are you perhaps trying to not be alone with her?"

"I am trying to avoid a situation where I need to lie to her or push her away again."

"Well," Chloe says. "I need to go home and change then and grab a few bottles of wine. Do you want to come with Matty? My parents aren't at home."

"Fuck girl," Matt excitedly says. "Only if you let me take them off with my teeth this time."

I listen in horror to the words coming out of his mouth. "Fuck man, that is not what I wanted to think about now, I hardly know the girl and now I got an image of her in my head with just her panties on."

"Damn bro, who said I was talking about her panties? You seriously need to get laid."

"Just get your ass out here and be there at seven, I will have your balls to the cat if you are late."

"Yup you need to get laid."

Matt and Chloe are out the door to her place so she can go change while I head upstairs to go do the same. I bump into my mother just as I am about to enter my room.

"Are you guys going over to Isabella tonight?"

"Mom, are you listening to our conversation again?"

"Your dad is annoying me, so I ignore whatever he says."

"Is he commentating on the story he is watching again?"

"I don't know why he watches it if he thinks he knows more than the presenter. It drives the shit out of me."

"I would invite you with to Isabella."

"Please no. I see enough of your brother's face down every girl in town's throat, I don't want to see yours too."

"Mom my face is not going to be down Isabella's throat."

"Oh my son, every time she is going to try touch that leg or talk about the core, it is definitely going to be down her throat."

"Mom I am just not ready yet."

"I understand, I really do. Now go have fun before the old man comes with his shit."

I head into my room and lock the door behind me so that I can change.

It takes me several attempts later and a very chaotic room full of clothes and I am finally ready to head off to Isabella."

I bump into my mom again as I leave through the back door.

"Good luck Clay."

"Thanks, mom, I think we are going to be home quite late, Matt's girl is whipping out the wine."

"Just be careful down here that late at night."

"Will do mom, love you."

I give her a kiss on the cheek and start heading up the road.

With every step that I take, it feels like my heart is getting smaller and smaller from the suffocating feeling I feel surrounding it. What the hell is wrong with me, it's only a girl, a girl I feel that I am about to die over. I have never felt so anxious in my life before, this is a good anxious but also a good scary one. She is worth every scary moment I feel but is she worth letting that wall down tonight.

As I get closer to her house, I see her sitting outside on the deck with a glass of wine in her hand. She is breathtaking, watching her brings a smile to my heart, god I wish, I wish so many things that I would want to do to her. The thing is, I have not even tried being with a woman with my leg like this. I mean, do you take it off or do you leave it on when you do it? And what can I do, is there like only certain positions that we can do, how do you even begin to have sex like this.

I clear my head and make my way up to her.

"Evening Miss Stubborn."

"Evening my soldier."

"You look amazing."

"Not half as amazing as what you make me feel now that I see you."

I take her glass of wine from her hands and put it on the table. I pull her into my embrace and deep into my chest.

"There is that rippled stomach that I have missed." She says as she runs her fingers over every inched of my rippled abs.

"I think you are confusing my muscles with my lips."

"Mmmmm there is that too."

My hands drift to her hips and I pull her closer. Slowly I press my lips against hers. Her plump, velvety lips against my slimmer, warm ones, dancing around and bonding together. My insistent mouth is parting her trembling lips, sending wild tremors through my body, and inflicting sensations I have never known I had. No one has ever kissed me like this, she is waking a feeling and slowly crumbling that wall.

"Mmmmm keep doing that and we sending your brother home."

"Talk about Matt, he is late."

"Early bro." Matt and Chloe come walking out of the house.

"We got here before you." Chloe hands me a glass of wine

"Glad we did cause by the looks of that you would be having each other for dinner," Matt says with a slightly amused smile on his face.

I reach over and slap him behind the head.

"Says Mister Casanova himself. You were probably trying to suck out her third lung inside the kitchen there."

He slaps me behind the head.

"Duh bro, you only have two lungs."

I slap him behind the head.

"I am sure Chloe has none left."

He slaps me behind the head.

"Are you boys going to slap each other the whole night like that?" Isabella asks as she watching the ping pong match of slapping heads. "I can always bring out that whip."

"Boo, I thought you keeping that for us for later? I wink at her and smile.

"Hahaha be careful what you wish for soldier."

Matt goes to feed wood to a big bonfire he is building, while the girls go inside to grab snacks and a full bottle of wine. "Just so you know for you f.y.i this girl is crazy about you bro."

"Why, did she say something?"

"He asked if you did not like her cause you keep pushing her away. Told her she must be patient, the core fucked you up."

"Geez I don't know if I should say thank you, but you right, the core did fuck me up for this woman."

"Bro the worst the girl can do is tell you to fuck off. Now just give her a chance maybe she won't."

"Matt, I hope you are right, she makes me feel things, you know things deep down inside that stir every string of your heart."

"Bro I think you call that being in love."

Just then the girls come back outside, we all cuddle up around the fire. Isabella is sitting on my left-hand side with her fingers interlocked in my hands. Her head is resting on my shoulder, the sweet scent of her almost feel her heart beating through her ears. Her touch and smell is overwhelming every feeling I feel inside. I gently take her hand and lay it on my leg.

"Is this the one that was broken?"

"No this is the better one of them."

"Was it sore?"

"Was what sore?"

"When you broke your leg?"

"Bella, boo, I never had so much pain in my life before, I thought I would die."

"Is that why you don't want to let me touch or talk about it?"

"There is a lot more to that story my boo."

"Are you going to tell me one day or are you going to keep on pushing me away?"

"You know how it is to be with a soldier."

"Yes, maybe I should call you Mr. Stubborn then."