5. Despair

Amber Brown

 

"Dylan ..." My eyes couldn't believe my eyes, this wasn't possible, why the hell, of all the fucking men in the world, did he have to be the one in that position in front of me? how many guys have I dated? Ten? Twenty?

I can't even count, and just the relationship (it never became a relationship because we never made it official) that was the most troubled, with the most consequences and completely adverse situations, the one that had the most tragic ending is the one that's here, his evil smile making me suspicious of the conditions under which I got here.

No! It wasn't possible, Bob asked his daughter to help me, Dylan certainly knows everything I've been through, there were newspaper stories about my father, when Clara appointed me he must have been delighted at the opportunity to put me in this position.

"I'm afraid this isn't the right position, well, I think I'd better go, I'll withdraw my application, in any case, thank you very much for the opportunity" I opted for cordiality, there was no way I was going to just scratch that beautiful face until I saw it all bruised and bleeding, I needed to go off on a tangent immediately, and that's what I was going to do, or my situation would get worse and worse.

"On the contrary Amber!" It was scary the way he appreciated my name coming out of his lips, I swallowed my distress with sand at that moment "I think you're just perfect for the job, when Clara gave me your name I thought it was an interesting coincidence, that you were the person who needed a job, I'd already seen the news about the incidents that happened to your family, so having your name on the table, what a terrible ex I'd be if I didn't help you."

"You didn't..."

"Oh, of course! I'm not my ex, I'm just one of the countless cases you've had! I'm sorry for my bad choice of words, it's just that as you already know..." He took a few steps towards me and stopped short "I'm a very emotional guy "He smiled again, in a very evil way, he was enjoying seeing me in that subordinate position, I felt my blood boiling, and the urge to swear at him almost foaming at the mouth" I know you're going through adversity, and since I don't repay evil with evil, I'll give you a chance.

"I'm afraid you're wrong Dylan, even with all the, how did you put it? Adversities I've been through, I still have reserves that can keep me going for a while" I put on my best indifferent face and my words sounded as firm as I would have liked, I wouldn't accept being demeaned by him.

"I hope you're sure of what you're saying, the job is yours now, if you want it of course, but if you walk out of that door and don't get anything, I have to warn you that it won't be so easy to get it again! There will be a price to pay for it" The bastard was having fun at my expense, it was so clear, but so clear that it was driving me completely mad.

"I won't need it, Dylan! I need to go now! Have a good time!" No longer keeping myself in that den of doom, I walked out the door and didn't look back, even though something I'd call intuition told me to go back immediately and take that damn job.

"Thank you for everything Clara, but unfortunately, that won't be possible, apologize to your father for me - I spoke to her as soon as I left Dylan's office"

"No problem! No problem!" There was something strange in her tone, but I was so desperate to get out of there that I was unable to understand what it was.

I went down the elevator taking deep breaths, trying to regulate the rapid beating of my heart, this couldn't be happening. Dylan had always been very humble, he worked as a gardener at our house, I thought he was handsome, very handsome in fact, but he was much skinnier then, not as strong as he is now.

I'm sure he worked out a lot to get the body he got, I liked to stay with some of the staff, poor men love rich girls, and I slept with all the handsome employees we had. Not in a million years could I have imagined that a simple gardener like him would become the owner of such a renowned company, this was certainly one of the greatest plot twists I've ever seen someone take in their life, I smiled wryly at the thought that I suffered from the same affliction.

But the truth was that Dylan was more delicious than he had ever been in the past! You can judge me for that, I never really cared!

I was never prudish, virginity for me wasn't worth much, I liked to feel pleasure, and I liked the pleasure that sex gave me, so I never had a problem having sex without commitment, however, they always fell in love with me, it was impressive, they always wanted to take the relationship seriously, it was no different with Dylan, but my situation with him was much more tragic, he fell in love, I got involved too, but our end was not pleasant at all.

I sighed in annoyance, I didn't talk about it, I didn't think about it, and I hated being reminded of it.

I left the building and went for a walk in Central Park, it was very close if he wasn't the boss, I would certainly have left there employed and come for a run here every day after work, but unfortunately, things didn't go as I planned, I would never work with him, this man wants to see my corpse, in a very, very deep hole.

Dylan wants revenge, I know he does, that was clear to me in that room, I knew him too well to be able to say that, but I can't let him get it, I just have to stay as far away as possible and everything will work out for me, confidently I went to the subway station, it was crowded, I hated the smell, but at least the journey was quick and I would soon be home.

As predicted, it didn't take long for me to get home, I climbed the stairs that creaked with every step I took and went to shower, there weren't many clothes, so I needed to wash my underwear in the shower, so I would always have clean clothes to wear, as soon as I got a job I would buy some more, I had thousands before, I barely remembered to repeat any of them, but now?

It was with sadness that I remembered my suitcase, which was so absurdly expensive that selling it was the only way to support myself, even without too many luxuries, for at least a couple of years. I sighed dejectedly. After my shower, I went downstairs to prepare some soup for dinner. Mom wasn't moving to do anything in this house, and I was already tired of it. I knew I needed to have a very serious talk with her, it was unfair to put everything on my shoulders.

I shouted for her to come down for dinner, but I didn't get any answers, I didn't feel like going upstairs right now, so I ate alone. After eating my soup, I went up to her room. When I got there, I saw a letter on her bed:

I can't live in this misery, I wasn't born for this life, I had a boyfriend before I married your father, he was always very in love with me, I met him in the street and we talked, with that I found out that his wife had died, but the best part was that he was still in love with me and never forgot me, so he decided to give me a chance yesterday, today after you left for the interview I moved to his house, I asked him if I could take you, but he said that only I could go, I'm sorry, I'll try to get some money for you! I hope the interview went well and you got the job.

Take care of yourself, find a man to support you, you're pretty, you'll soon get something with someone in the new job, focus on the CEOS, you were born for greatness, don't settle for employees like you did at the mansion, they're no longer just an option for fun, catch the biggest fish and hook it with your vagina.

Love, Mom!

I was alone, that was it, not that my mother was good company, she was always a bit dry with me, but sometimes we had good times, but after so many misfortunes, everything between us completely fell apart, and now she's just gone and left me alone in this crumbling old house, in a neighborhood where everyone hates me, with no money, no job, what kind of mother is she who abandons her daughter to her fate?

I felt my eyes gradually fill up with water, my heart was torn apart by the recent abandonment, I lay down on her bed and cried like I hadn't cried since Dad was arrested.