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The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 93
JAXONEmotions were underrated.They could make or mar you. It was one thing to have control over them and it was another thing to shut them out completely. Our emotions are like windows into our souls. They define us. They make up the essential part of us. And shutting it out only renders us void. Shutting my emotions nulled me completely and I began seeing being emotionless as a form of normalcy.I could barely differentiate between what was real and what wasn't.Of course, there were times when ruthlessness was a necessity. I have had to go through some phases in my life, and looking back now, if I didn't handle it with the right amount of ruthlessness, I wouldn't have scaled through that phase. Being dangerous could be necessary at times, but turning off the ability to feel wasn't a necessity.It's a coping mechanism.From the pain, from the grief, from the anguish, from the torture, from the despair, from the sheer agony.And the funniest thing about a coping mechanism was that
Last Updated : 2023-08-02The Mafia's Wanted Desires. 94
JAXONMy fists were clenched tightly, my jaw locked as rage simmered through my veins, icing up the blood coursing through them and freezing me from the inside out. My insides were on fire at the same time, my body was freezing. I was feeling two things at the same time. The veins that ran from my neck to my head threatened to pop and my face was heavily flushed. I chewed on my bottom lip, nearly drawing blood from it. The stinging pain that shot through the soft flesh was enough to elicit a wince from me, but I couldn't even bring myself to make a sound. Trying to get myself to speak would just seem as though I wanted to poke an angry dragon. At the opening of its mouth, spitballs of fire would erupt everywhere.I was trying my best to stay calm, but the way my legs shook disagreed with my plans. I shifted in my seat for the umpteenth time, staring out through the window of the car. The air that filled the car was toxic and tainted with sulphur. I could taste it in my mouth…the acid
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JAXONWhen I saw the look in her eyes, I just knew it.I knew that I had ascended a certain level of trust in her and it puzzled me so much how she was able to trust someone like me. I tried searching those honey-brown orbs for flickers of doubt but there was nothing. Her eyes mirrored the trust that filled up her soul. She had shown me on several occasions how much she trusted me and knew I wouldn't hurt her, but today was different. She gave up control and surrendered to me, leaving it all up to me to lead the way. And no, she wasn't terrified. She was just appalled. I could see it in how her eyes wandered around the dark grey room. She was driven by a burning desire and anticipation, rocking back and forth on her feet with a smile on her face like a little child that was offered her favourite candy. My heart fluttered softly, astounded by how much she had grown from hating me to trusting me with her life. I chuckled.The massive space that was coated in a dark grey paint, surro
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JAXON"There's a probability that you might not get it on the first try and that's okay, baby. Remember what I told you, learning how to shoot takes practice. It takes patience in abundance," My voice was soft, laced with comfort.I took a step forward. Another.And another.Until I closed in on her. I was only a few inches away from her and I could pick up on how tense her body had become. She dragged out a shaky breath. I reached for her shoulders, dropping my hands on them and massaging them softly. She moaned softly, easing into my touch like it was the elixir she had desperately needed to calm herself down.My hands travelled down her shoulders and I pressed my body to hers, eliciting a sharp breath from her. I worked my fingers from her shoulders, carefully brushing them past her breasts and stroking her protruding nipples in the process, causing her to wiggle in my arms, arching her back to meet my touch. My hands rested on her waist, squeezing it softly and I breathed on her
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ASHLEYThere is no greater joy than watching the people you love get everything they deserve and more. It just leaves the feeling of warmth spreading all over, a knot of immense pride swirling like bubbles within you. It ignites a wave of pure, undiluted happiness in you.That was exactly how I felt today. That was exactly how I felt about Ivana getting married today. Heck, if I didn't know any better, I would say I was happier than she was and was the happiest woman on earth. But then, there was no denying the fact that I would top the list of one of the happiest humans on earth. I have looked forward to this day for years. I have looked forward to this day since the moment the duo professed their love for each other. I looked forward to the day they would make everything official and seal it with the approval of God. The moment they would bind themselves to each other in every way that was humanly possible.I was used to wondering how Ivana and Vincent were able to stay in love wi
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ASHLEYIvana's dream wedding has always been a fairytale wedding. This was the most anticipated wedding of the year. The highest-paid actor in the Hollywood industry and one of the top event planners in the country. You can imagine the number of dignitaries that were in attendance at the reception that was being held at the Floral Hall.Ivana was known for bringing her A-game to any work she did, but she went all out with the interior decor of her wedding. The hall was completely transformed. I haven't been able to keep my eyes off it since we left the church and headed to this place for the reception event. My mind wandered to the event at the church. A light giggle flowed breezily from my lips as I remembered how Vince couldn't control himself from breaking into tears while he watched Ivana walk down the aisle.He couldn't keep it to himself.The church program was beautiful and concise. It evoked emotions in me. Both the ones I knew I was capable of feeling and the ones I didn't kn
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ASHLEYThe bubbly atmosphere of the hall slowly dissipated into something dimmer…something colder than normal. The soft, beautiful music in the background slowly faded into nothingness. The tension that hung in the air was so toxic, accompanied by a deafening silence. The temperature in the room made my skin feel like it was being pricked with ice splinters, and at the same time, it made me feel like the room had reached a certain boiling point, incinerating me from the inside out.It seemed as though it was just the three of us in the big room, the tension nullifying every ounce of happiness that filled the room earlier. My heart slowly picked up a faster pace as my eyes darted to Arden's rigid, leanly muscular figure, clad in a navy blue shirt. The top few buttons of his shirt were undone. I remember undoing them in the morning before we left home, telling him I loved it when his shirt wasn't fully buttoned.It gave him a reckless look that I was shamelessly obsessed with.His jaw
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ASHLEYI sank my fingers into my wet hair, pushing it backwards and massaging my scalp to soothe the scalp with the remnants of the shampoo that hung in my hair. The warm water that drizzled from the shower cascaded my body, soothing my skin. My eyes fluttered open and I moved to the switch, turning it off. I stepped out of the shower cubicle, grabbing two towels. I wrapped one around my hair, wrapping the other loosely around my frame.I strutted out of the bathroom, shutting the door behind me. I trudged into the closet, drying my hair with the towel. I patted my body dry and plugged in my hair dryer, blow-drying my hair as quickly as I could. I fished out pink panties from the drawer, sliding it on, after which I pulled a pair of shorts from the rack, alongside one of Arden's shirts, which I have acquired as mine.I walked out of the closet, prancing to my dresser. I picked up my lotion and moisturised my skin with it, proceeding to put on my shorts and shirt. I snatched a hairband
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The Mafia's Wanted Desires. EPILOGUE
Four years later…ASHLEY."Duncan, I do not give a fuck!" Arden's strident voice boomed across the room, threatening to bring the house to its feet. The resonance of his voice was thick and rough.I exhaled and turned off the gas cooker."Get it done!""I do not care how you are going to do it but find that fucker---you know what? Just get out!" He fired and I flinched.I wasn't near him but the effect of his brazen voice made my heart slam against my ribcage."Where's my wife, Alberta?" I heard him ask Alberta and I rolled my eyes, strutting over to the counter to pick up a napkin.His loud footsteps echoed behind the door and he pushed the door open in no time. My head shot up from the kitchen island. My eyes drifted to his tall figure standing a few feet away from the door.His eyes were pinned on me and the intensity in them made me feel so conscious of the little black dress I was wearing. My mouth ran dry as my eyes roved his shirt-clad body, unabashedly.Age has nothing on my h
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JAXONI pushed the glass doors open, letting myself onto the rooftop. The chilling breeze that lingered in the air wrapped me up in its airy and soothing essence, running swiftly across every inch of my skin that was bare to its touch. It cocooned me and I couldn't help but release a soft sigh. A wave of tranquillity washed over me, luring me into its embrace, and I found my stiff muscles succumbing to the sensation.The chills that settled on my skin pierced their way through it, easing me off the weight that seemed to burden my shoulders before I stepped onto the rooftop.I tucked my hands into my pockets, striding toward the strong iron bars that made up the rails. My hands dropped on it, wrapping around it immediately while I soaked in the beguiling view of the city from where I stood.There was a distinct allure the evening possessed from up here. I literally felt like I was floating in the air, utterly captivated by the sheer beauty the night held. The moonlight cocooned the da
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JAXONMy hands hung mid-air, a few inches away from the surface of the door. I swallowed the lump that gathered in my throat, wiping my hands on the trousers I hadn't changed out of in days.They did try to get me to change it.But I didn't want anything that would take me back to a place where she wasn't. So, I was stuck here looking utterly dishevelled.Heaving a sigh, I twisted the knob and stepped into the room, shutting the door behind me.I spun around and I didn't miss the look of surprise that flashed across his face. He wasn't one to display his emotions, but it was hard for him to conceal his shock. The hospital wear made him look very weird and the chuckle that tumbled out of my mouth was hard to submerge."Good morning, boss." His chapped lips quirked in a small smile that elicited a grin from me. There was no need to keep my guard up right now. It was useless anyway. After all, he was on that bed because he was trying to save me. To save her. If he hadn't shot Micah, the
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JAXON"Jaxon,""Jaxon,""Jax—""I can hear you!" I snapped.I stopped pacing and spared Aunt Caroline a glance. Her eyes were soft with assurance but it didn't do anything to quell my restlessness. It only left me more perturbed than I was."Jaxon, have your seat for goodness sake," she implored me. My stone-cold gaze seemed to have given me away that I wasn't about to listen to her, so she took a step forward, grabbing my arm.My eyes stung with unshed tears, thickening the lump that settled in my throat. It was hard trying to keep my tears at bay, and at some point, I gave up on trying. I allowed it to stream down my face effortlessly."She's–" I breathed shakily. "She's in there because of me!" The quiver in my voice overpowered its octave."My wife is fighting for her life and it's all because of me!" I yelled at her, snatching my hands away from her grip."Do you think yelling and pacing down the halls of the hospital would change the situation?" Maria's harsh tone had me whiskin
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JAXONThe car came to a halt at a safe distance, in the middle of nowhere. I furrowed my brows, looking through the windshield in confusion. I was propelled to believe that I had the wrong address but the GPS couldn't be wrong. "It's the right place…" Duncan's voice trailed off beside me and my frown deepened."Son of a bitch," I mumbled under my breath."He just had to choose a less obvious hideout. Fucking coward." I sneered and got out of the car, slamming the door shut. I looked over to where Duncan was standing."Get the guys on guard. I don't trust that bastard," I instructed. He nodded in response. "Yes, boss."The only sound akin to noise was the chirping of the birds in the distance, alongside the crunching sounds my boots made with the dry leaves as I weaved my way deeper into the woods. My vision and my hearing seemed more enhanced as I navigated my way forward. I wasn't even giving myself any chance to be caught off guard.Micah could be a fucking fool, but the bastard is
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JAXON"Arden--Arden...""I think someone's following me.""Please, pick your call!"Her voice echoed in my head, incessantly. It was pointless trying to shut it out because it only emerged stronger than before. It haunted me. It destroyed me. It shattered me. It consumed me.The fear and distress that oozed off those words crushed my soul. It didn't help the guilt that overwhelmed me. If I hadn't been such an asshole. Such a stubborn prick, I would have been able to save her from him. From Micah. That bastard. He's going to wish he had never laid his hands on her when I find him. The fucking coward couldn't come directly for me. He just had to get to me through the woman I love.The thought of what she must be going through in his hands aggravated my punches. It got more aggressive and I wouldn't stop ramming it against the punching bag that was swinging backwards, due to the weight of my hard punches.It never got the chance to stay back in balance before I sent it flying backwards
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ASHLEYThis was the most numb I have felt in days and strangely…I liked it. It wasn't so bad. Compared to the rollercoaster of emotions I have been tossed into these past few days.There was so much quietness, compared to the loudness in my head. It felt like I was hanging in a delicate balance. Stuck in oblivion, even, where my conscious mind and unconscious mind were struggling with a breach.As peaceful as it felt, it made me feel so empty and I was struggling to snap back to my consciousness, but it was like I was being held back by an invisible force. It soon occurred to me that I was the one holding myself back.And that was because somewhere between the numbness that enveloped me, there was a part of me like a fireball, struggling to resurface, and somehow, I was convinced that I knew what awaited me if I woke up and that was the reason I was holding back.But then, the numbness and the darkness slowly began clearing off. I struggled to hold onto it but it slowly slipped out of
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JAXON"So, you mean to–" I chuckled, raking my fingers through my hair in frustration. I chuckled again. And again. And again. I was infuriated, but at the same time, I found the whole situation amusing. My workers knew the kind of person they worked with, yet they found new ways to aggravate me. It was as if they derived some sort of sick pleasure from watching me dish out punishments to them.He shifted on his feet, looking down at his feet. His composure was beginning to falter. His trembling gave him away.The air in the boardroom grew hotter by the second. It was thick with deafening silence, the temperature fluctuating now and then. With the tension that accompanied the loud silence, I was so sure I would hear a pin drop. They sat in their seats like statues, unable to utter a word. No one wanted to be the scapegoat, but with the way my anger was escalating, one of them was bound to go back home without his body intact."You mean to tell me that our sales have gotten this bad
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ASHLEYThe wave of tiredness that washed over me got stronger with each passing second, heightening my distress. Staring out through the window of the conference room was something I loved to do.But right now, all it did was spike my anxiety further than it was. It ought to serve as a distraction, but it had me drifting in and out of my thoughts. The scenery, the atmosphere, none of it seemed appealing.In a way, it was getting on my nerves.Reverting my forlorn gaze to my employees, I arched my brow at them rudely. They were all staring at me like I had grown two heads and it was very irritating. At some point, I began thinking I had dirt on my face, judging by their bewildered expression.My frown deepened when my eyes flitted to Aurelia, who was standing by the projector, sporting a blank face."What?" I barked harshly and I wasn't even sorry for it. I didn't like how they were staring at me like I was an Alien that dropped from the sky."We are sorry, Mrs. Gray." They apologised,
