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10. Self Doubt

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David;

I keep my eyes outside, listening to Only Love by Ben Howard from my earpiece as I watch trees and cars zoom by. I shut my eyes as I remember the first time I met Salvatore, how he had me tied up. The things he said, the way he spoke, and the way he made me feel. I remember how heartlessly he tortured that man. The darkness and fury in his eyes and how vicious and scary he looked covered in so much blood.

I take a deep breath when I remember how lively he was this morning with that man. And how cold he is now. I don’t know why I feel the way I feel or what is wrong with me. I turn to steal a glance at him, and sure, his eyes are fixed on his laptop. It’s bright light illuminating his face. I stare at the scar on his cheek for a while, and then at his lips. I blink when I remember that he almost kissed me and I was ready for it. The embarrassment washes over me again, and I turn my gaze back to the road outside.

I look up at the light blue sky that's slowly fading into orange
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