Chapter Ninety Four

SIENNA

“So what was your reason for avoiding me then?” I asked.

I hated that I sounded breathless and I was giving away my anxiety. But with Benjamin it was complicated. I didn't always know what to do. I was always at a loss for the right things to say.

“It was all you. I didn't want you to make you feel uncomfortable or make you obligated in any way to put up with me. I also didn't feel want you to feel as if I was pressuring you to do anything you didn't want to do,” he said.

All I had done was hurt him and yet here he was being intentional about my feelings and trying not to hurt me. I didn't deserve him. I was aware of it and at the same time, I didn't want him to leave. I wanted him to stay. That was selfish but it was the way that I felt. I didn't want him to leave me.

“And yet It felt like it. You steered clear of me for days,” I said.

“That doesn't mean that it's because I wanted to. Something happened,” he replied.

My brows furrowed almost immediately. Then I watched the