Several times, I have pictured myself into imagining that my beet friend was interested in me. Multiple times, I had ignored the way he stared at some males butt as we passed by them. I have shielded myself away from this truth because I wanted to believe I was wrong. Most times, people want to believe they are right about something so they could deal with it in a way they would know. Most people love to see things beforehand to know how to handle the matter but I, had been quite the opposite. It started out as a harmless thought. Trying to give myself excuses as to why he hadn’t asked me to be his girlfriend. ‘Maybe he’s gay’ harmless thought that I had laughed over immediately it spilled out. It had been, until when I started to notice the signs. My best friend sat in front me, the opposite direction of me and I thought I had not heard him well, only I had. And I was lost of speech. I didn’t know the right words to use because my mind was blown. I had thought I would be the one to
“Remy kind of insinuated I make a decision fast before I hurt them all. Do you know that they all are a pack? So they can feel the bond I have with Adam. I don’t think it is as intense but they can also feel this thing in me. You know how it is with the Lycans and they’re packs. She told me the story of how she and Martin met and fell in love. Well, I think Remy is nice and brutally honest. Ella is also kind and really sweet. Her mate too. Although, he doesn’t speak much. I like the Lycans. I really want to be friends with them but they cannot be possible if I don’t want to be Adam’s mate. And as for Adam, I told him I wanted to be friends. That is what we have been trying to respect because he challenged me that I cannot help but stay mad at him. Oh, I didn’t even tell you that he confronted me about how wicked I always am. I was so remorseful I apologised and then invited me to his house. Can you believe that? It’s like every time I try to give him an inch, he goes hundred miles an
At times I wondered why Mr Lycan couldn't accept the fact that we cannot be mates. Did he have some weird spiritual problem? Or is it that he doesn't listen and just prefers to be stubborn all the time? I kept thinking that I would not be able to find the right reasons as to why he behaved that way. I knew Adam was stubborn and always did everything to get want he wanted but I was not about to bend to his will. I wanted us to talk more about the whole mate thing, I want him to understand that being a princess isn't something I want at this point.I was getting ready to go to bed but couldn't sleep at first, scenarios playing in my head, things that have happened since he started attending our school. After much turning and tossing, sleep consumed me, taking me far from the real world and I let it.I'm in a weird looking place right now, there's something that looks like water in front of me, like the beach but without sand. The ground was pretty normal, I stood there wondering how I g
I didn’t understand the feeling, it was draining yet exciting. It was really toxic I felt that I won’t breathe if I didn’t kiss him, like my heart was going to burst. Adam was staring at me with so much intensity. His eyes moved to my lips and I swallowed, unable to resist the urge to touch him, hold him, kiss him. And I kissed him. Straining to reach his lips because he was pretty tall, I held his shoulders for support and gosh they were so strong and broad. I pressed my lips on his and that's when he clearly lost it. He held me and kissed me hard and slow at the same time, demanding entrance which I gave him, moaning softly. His tongue filling my mouth, tasting and drinking me in and me doing the same. His hands wrapped around my waist, he was holding me right, his fingers moved briskly to my butt and grabbed tight. I moaned into his mouth and Adam pushed me forward so my front could rub on his pronounced erection. I let out another strong moan. We broke off, breathless but he ju
Subsequently I had thoughts of my mom, I never met her but I couldn't help but ask myself how things would be if she were here. How dad would feel. I wanted to think only happy thoughts but I knew it wouldn't last. I pushed that aside too.After the cooking and eating, I said my goodnight to dad and headed to my room. With a long sigh I jump on my bed, counting my glow in the dark stars once again. I haven't called Jimmy nor Remy and they both called but I didn't pick up. I wouldn't know what to tell them that's why I haven't called them. Another long sigh.I turn to stare out my window, the moon is shining brightly, shaming me. Sleep finally overtakes me, consuming and pulling me down with it.The water. The beach with no sand. The man that saved me. I saw it again but something weird happened. I dreamt that same dream. The same way, the same events, the same outfits, the same feelings. Everything was the same.I woke up sweaty, questions that I wanted to ask but didn't know whom to
I fall asleep as soon as my head touches the pillow for the third time today. I deep dream less sleep that I'm grateful for. I would always want to dream but this time I don't wanna dream. I just want to sleep.The next morning I'm woken up by my dad and his signature breakfast in bed and I smile a bit at his kind gesture."Good morning dad, thank you for breakfast" I greet him." It's okay my dear. You seem okay, your fever is gone and you're up early as usual" he stated."I'm okay dad. I'll be leaving for school today, I feel a bit better" I affirmed."If you say so then. I'm leaving for work now, I love you" he kissed my forehead getting up from my bed."Love you dad" I answered.'Byeee" we both said at the same time." Don't forget to call if you need me" he called out before shutting my door"Sure thing dad" I answered.I got out of bed and prepared for school, I was feeling quite alright today so I wore a tight blue jean and a yellow wrap top I got from target. It was actually v
The day goes by normally, we have two more classes and then I try to find Jimmy. Although if I find Adam too I guess that wouldn't be so bad.I sight Jimmy talking to a guy I've never seen in my life and I don't get a chance to meet him as well because he walked away even before I got to Jimmy."Hey Jim. Who's that?" I eyed him."Uh, it's no one important. Just you know school stuff" he stutters slightly. Now I know he's lying but I'll let him be for now."Okay then, if you say so" I answered."Yeah. So are you okay? Everything alright? Wait, before you answer can we please get to Macdonald's, I'm so hungry right now" he pleaded, giving me his infamous puppy dog eyes."Ughhh, okay okay fine we'll go. And yeah I'm fine, I'm okay. Everything is good" I replied"You wanna tell me something don't you? Something happened between you and Adam right? The lycan got you in between-" I cut him off with a smack on his head."Shut up Jimmy" how can he know? I was literally blushing right now and
It took him a while to speak, he probably wanted to calm down before telling me anything. He must be going through something, maybe home related or some lycan business thing he had going on.I just kept holding his hands and squeezing gently. He was hurt by something but I didn't know what it was and it ticked me off."I'm sorry Cody. I didn't mean to bombard you with anything. Nevermind what I just said, I hope you know I'll never force you or make you go against your plans. I just want you to choose me willingly Cody, I want you to want me without me interfering in it." Is he serious this time? He was pretty weird after our talk the last time, we even kissed and didn't talk about it anymore."It's okay Adam. I want to Adam but I'm so torn between that and my own life, what I want for myself. It's something that I've been longing for and it's not your fault. I'm here whenever you want to talk. I'm here to listen, I know the whole mate thing isn't the main reason why you're like this
CodyI was sitting next to Adam, after he had forced me to drink and almost finish a whole bottled of water. Apparently, drinking water helped drunk or tipsy people. I was starting to get to my senses back a little, but I was still lost in that haze. The same haze that tempted me to want to jump around, and dance around the airplane. That same one. Adam was next time, and he had not said a word to me after, except force me to drink more water. At this point, it felt like we were both ignoring each other, when it was indeed far from it. I just wanted to take a break, and not think too much about what was going to happen next between the both of us. Remy had indeed said some things that were starting to just clear on my head. The things she had said had been true, but the way in which she had passed it was what I was not going to agree with. It had not been as much of a big deal as she made it seem, and I did jot know nothing to clear on that. It was very obvious Adam was still pisse
THE PRINCE’S DIARY, 9, November, 1999The end is walking slowlyCrawling blindly in the light Cradling my head with might My other self is staring at me through the ghost of a mirror. And I detest myself for seeing her. Yet, I cannot lose her. Her feet are barely touch the floor. Yet she stands so tall I have to crane my neck. My other self is walking towards me, about to crown my head with thorns of pain and beauty. Beauty through the pain, My other self is staring at me through a broken mirror. Mirror of my broken self, mirror of the broken soul She is screaming, Screaming silently at me for leaving her to decay. Leaving her lost, to burn To end. The end is walking fast. Moving like the wind Moving till I can’t see. Silently gazing at the way the wind rushes towards the water. The sunset, drinking in the beauty of the sky. Beautiful. Amazing. Wonderful. Your heart is dancing at the triumph against sadness. And it’s quietened down the wailings. The bones of your form are e
Remy then got up, like if she wanted to be eye to eye with Adam, like she wanted him to understand what it was that she was saying so clearly. Although, Adam still towered over her, she refused to back down. “You mean how the both of us take care of our business and we don’t make it to the part where everyone notices that something is this wrong with us? Adam, wake up. I can sense your immaturity over this plane. I get the fact that you have never been with a mate, neither have you ever been in a relationship. But watch everything that is going. Watch her, watch the way she kept staring at you in the car ride. Did you even hear the things you said to her? Did you notice how nervous she was to take the plane rides, and how she kept closing her eyes to take deep breath, to inhale in and exhale, she also spoke to herself at some point because there was no one there to comfort her, there was no one there to hold her hands. You just came over buckle her seat belt, walked away, and then
I was still in the plane, waiting for that moment was going to get to me. His pace was slow, it felt like he was walking to me, as if it were a movie, I wanted to count each and every of his step, if there was a way I could. My eyes shone with anticipation, and at the same time, I felt this excitement in me, I could not wait for him to get to me. I was sure my eyes shinning from afar. At that moment, I did not care if me and Adam were not on speaking terms, I did not care if he was going to get to me, and remind me of how annoyed I was, at him from the beginning. I just wanted him to get to me, he was like the prince that was running towards his princess, And there was nothing that could be done about it. It was not like I wanted anything to be done about it. I just wanted Adam in my face, I wanted him to come close to me. It was at this hazy and dizzy thought I realized that I might indeed me more drunk than I had thought. My mind was clouded, and I could only breathe heavily at th
It took several hours before the jet finally took off. I finally released my nerves, and Adam disappeared back to the other side of the room, where he had been right before the plane took off. I was starting to get convinced he had something to do with the other girls who were now on the other side of the room, but I did not bother myself. “Let’s get drinks. I asked the air hostess to bring us some booze, let’s go gets wasted, or what do you say?” Remy asked, and I nodded my head. I sure needed something off my head, before I was going to overthink every single thing, and think that Adam was indeed doing something with girls over there. “I want us to do a toast. I mean, we should do a toast to cody, joining us for the first time, and to the better lives we are all hopefully going to get.” It was so obvious that Ella was drunk already, and I was starting to wonder when it was that she had started drinking. She was doing a toast, while it was very obvious she was the only one holdi
We finally got closer to the plane. The fan was already moving really fast and high. I studied the body of the plane more. There was just no way anyone was going to move close to something like that without having to access every part of it. I looked closer and I saw the same endearment by the side, that had been on Adam’s neck when I had first moved closer to him and accessed him. “Is that the royal symbol?” I asked, and Ella nodded. She was absent minded now, of course. I looked back and noticed that men had moved closer to us. Alongside them was Ben, and the three other guys who were also in black. Right now, they all had sun glasses on, even if the weather was really cool. “She really does love him, doesn’t she?” I whispered to Remy, as we both watched Ella lose her sene or thinking as she stared at Edward, who was also smiling at her, he kept stealing glances at her, and I was very sure that at that moment, he was clearly not listening to whatever it was that Adam was tellin
I was still in Adam’s arms waiting for the time where I was finally going to get off him. I felt suffocated from everything. I just wanted out, and Adam was not even letting me go. I tried to pull away several times not to no avail. I was puffing and groaning in frustration when we the car finally stopped. That time, he let me pull away. I went out of the car after Remy, and stood close to her. I was not planning on staying with Adam anymore. His thought infuriated me. He was just a selfish person that did not care about other peoples feelings when he was being a possessive bastard. I grunted once again. That was when I took in our environment. We were in a tarmac obviously, it was so wide and the wind dusted the skirts of my top. There was bushes surrounding the whole wide space which was located in the middle, making it give this nature vibe. I was very sure this was far away from the pack because I was we have driven for over two hours, roughly. I had no idea somewhere like this e
I was about to move completely away from Adam, when I felt arms wrap me up from nowhere. It caught me off guard, and I knew that I would have panicked, and screamed my head off if I was not in the car, and the rest of the Lycans were not next to me. I glanced behind me, and that was when I realized that Adam had removed his arm and had adjusted them to come close to me. All this while, I had thought he had simply done that to avoid me. I wanted to smile, I would have, if there was still not this renaming prickling hurt that was still in my chest. He had a weird way of showing how he actually felt. In a bid, still in my own anger, I refused to put my hands around him back. He was not just going to come from anywhere, and act in anyway that befitted him, just because he felt like I was looking at another person. When of course, I had just been appreciating the beauty which meant nothing more. He was always the one stressing on how much I did nit care about his feelings sometimes, bef
We were in the car already. I had not realized that the only occupant was just Martin Remy, and me and Adam. Adam was stalked to the other side, pulsing with his arms folded. It felt like he had not even realized that I was sitting next to him already, my head was starting to radiate with heat. Sometimes, there was just some way that he acted that did not sit well with me. Adam could be such a baby. I had not even done anything with Ben, and at the of the day, he was being mad at me for nothing, Adam was such a possessive somebody, it came down to really annoying, Remy understood the struggle I was going through, so she just sealed her lips. I knew she was taking a struggle, not to say anything to Adam. Since he was going to behave like a kid, I was simply going to ignore him all through till he dropped all his tactics. I was not in any mood to speak to anyone that was was not going to speak to me too. My eyes went back to the bracelet that was sitting pretty on my hands. It was gli