Chapter 5 - Mira

It’s been a week since they brought me into the SilverCrest Pack, and a week since I’ve seen another person besides Josef, my supposed bodyguard. 

They’ve moved me to another bedroom; there are no bars on the windows and my door does not get locked, but I am a prisoner nonetheless.

I’ve healed completely, though, and according to Josef, the pack doctor will be coming to see me from tomorrow to start with the insemination process. 

The last time I saw her, she asked me about my heat cycles and when they usually occur. I’ll be coming into my heat in three days’ time, but this time things will be different for me.

Mikhail had me on medication to suppress my heat, and so did my father. I’ve never truly experienced it to its fullest before… To say I’m scared is putting it lightly.

“You’re deep in thought today,” Josef says, snapping me out of my thoughts. 

I look toward him and offer him a light smile. He’s been kind to me, nothing like the warriors I’m used to, so it’s made the transition a bit easier. 

“Just thinking about tomorrow,” I answer truthfully. “I am… a bit nervous about everything.”

He nods. “You’re to bear the Alpha’s child. It cannot be easy for you. So perhaps don’t think about everything right now.”

Breathing out a sigh, I hug my body closer and shoot him a smile. “You’re right, there’s no reason to worry so much since it all will be taken care of by the Alpha, anyway.” I don’t know why I’m saying this since I have everything to be worried about. 

When he finds out who I really am and what I know…

I shake my head; I cannot live with what-ifs right now. This is my path to freedom, to safety, and to a life where I’ll be free of abusive Alphas and their hold on me. I know I sound selfish, but I have never been selfish in my life.

I have to be stronger.

**

“Mia, you’re looking healthier,” doctor Lilah, the pack doctor, says when she sees me again. She looks me up and down and smiles with a satisfied look on her face. “Yes, definitely.”

What exactly does that mean?

She asks me to strip so she can do a full body check-up again and I freeze, knowing what my back and legs look like. My skin resembles the Eastern art of repairing broken things with gold, in my case silver strips of healed lacerations; it’s ugly either way. Then there’s the tattoo on my inner thigh…

Doctor Lilah places a hand on my shoulder and a chill runs up my spine, but then she gives me a smile and nods her head. 

“I saw it all and did not mention it to the Alpha; patient-doctor confidentiality and all that. You went through something horrific and I know it has something to do with the people you ran from, but please know I will do everything in my power to help you with this. I will not hurt you, Mia.”

The way she phrases it makes me want to believe her, so I breathe out a sigh and strip my clothes off. The pity in her eyes causes goosebumps of shame to pucker all over my skin; I have never had anyone feel pity for me and it is such a strange feeling.

I know I am broken. I know Mikhail ruined me, but I don’t want anyone to know just how much.

Her gentle touch as she starts her check-up, makes me feel a bit better about everything. No one has ever touched me gently before, not even my mother, who claimed to love me.

She prods and probes, checking this and that, and draws blood and a separate fluid before finally giving me an internal examination. As someone who has never been to a doctor before, I wasn’t aware of what an internal examination would be.

Well, I learned quickly.

Apparently, it’s normal to have this kind of examination done, but it feels too darn invasive. It feels like she’s looking for any flaw that could present itself while I carry her Alpha’s heir, and I suppose that’s to be expected.

After what feels like hours, she finally tells me to get dressed while she reviews everything. She remained quiet throughout the check-up, and it has me wondering if she finally found a flaw in me. That wouldn’t be surprising, though.

“You were on heat suppression medication, correct?”

“Yes,” I answer.

“Hmm…” she says as she looks over the results she has received. A few markings with a pen and nodding, then she turns her head up to face me and offers me a bright smile. 

“Looks like we’re fine to go ahead since the medication has all but worn off. Actually, we’re at a perfect time to start with the insemination!”

My eyes widen to dinner plate size. “What?! But… my heat…”

“Actually, starts tonight!” she exclaims with a giddy look on her face. “Oh, this is even better than I expected too; your body is perfect to bear the Alpha’s heir. Everything is ready to go.”

Wait, wait… This feels like it’s all happening way too fast! I’m supposed to get another two days to prepare myself for this. Now she’s about to do it?

My heart is pounding in my chest and it feels like the air has gotten thinner in this room. I stand up and try to level my breathing, but the more I try to calm myself down, the more it feels like my heart is about to burst.

This is happening, this is really happening!

A gentle hand on my shoulder brings my focus to the now, and when I peer up I notice Dr. Lilah’s gentle, glowing green eyes. I frown as I look up, sure of the fact that her eyes were a calming brown just now. 

“Your eyes…”

She smiles. “It’s one of the reasons I became a doctor, and why the Alpha keeps me in his pack. My touch can calm anyone down, it’s one of the gifts the Goddess gave me,” she says before gently pushing me back down into my seat.

The Goddess blessed her with the gift of healing as well as a calming touch; what an amazing woman. With one touch, my worries all float away and it actually scares me how calm she’s made me.

How many people has the Alpha asked her to make calm like this, only to send them to their doom?

“It’s going to be okay, Mia, I promise. I’ll be here for you every step of the way; you believe me, right?” she says in that soft voice of hers and it has me nodding.

“Y-yes… I believe you,” I stutter as a smile spreads over my lips. “It’s going to be okay…”

That warm smile on her face grows into a proud one, and I feel much better for making her proud of me. She leads me over to the bed and asks me to get back into the hospital gown while she starts the process.

“You should feel proud, Mia. Alpha Nikolaos chose you to be the mother of his first-born heir,” she says while grabbing her instruments and prepping things. 

“Most women would kill to be in your position; you’re precious to the Alpha now,” her words of affirmation have me buzzing with excitement.

I don’t know what she has prepared for me, or what she’s doing. All I know is that she is proud of me for keeping calm and that the Alpha sees me as precious.

But that little wave of happiness comes crashing down when I lay in my bed that night. Doctor Lilah made me compliant as she prepared my body for the Alpha’s seed.

She made me feel like I was important to whatever plan he had for me. She made me feel stupid, coaxing me, and praising me all while I had a blissful smile on my face. I thought Alpha Nikolaos was dangerous, but now I know it’s the doctor I need to look out for.

No wonder she’s important to his plans, no wonder he trusts her completely - she can bring him everything he wants, and all she has to do is touch someone. That woman is a devil in a white coat.

I realize this when something else occurs to me… my heat starts tonight. Something I’ve never fully experienced before will have a hold on my body and nothing will stop it. 

Just as these thoughts run through my mind, a hot wave similar to standing in front of an open oven, slams into my body and a whimper escapes my lips. Every inch of my body feels like it’s on fire and an even more intense sensation starts in between my legs.

My fingers travel lower, exploring the heat that’s pooling at my center. I’m soaked through my panties, and when my fingers gently touch the oversensitive nub, that whimper becomes a moan. 

I’ve never felt this before, even as Mikhail claimed my body every night. This need for more friction, this ache to have something more - he never made me feel like this. Is this what the medication suppressed? 

But the more I touch myself, the more I realize that my own touch will never be enough. I need more…I need more!