It had not been easy to fight the temptation. Seeing him again had opened old wounds making them fresh. He always had that effect on me no matter how I tried to ignore him he would always bring out my hidden emotions.
I had always lost control whenever I was with him.
My dreams had been filled with him from the time I came to know that he was dying and I could remember the way he had whispered, “Tesoro ….” and it went on and on in my head I had never imagined that I would ever hear him speak those words again. It was like the time when we were together and he would hold me in his arms and whisper lovingly in my ears kissing, " Tesoro, I love you ......" and kiss me passionately and I would always melt deep into his arms. I would feel like I am in the safest place and no one could enter our world as it only belonged to us but a witch called Bella Costa came and ruined our world and we are no longer together. IAs MathThe housekeeper tapped on the door and entered saying dinner was ready and I followed her and went down towards the dining room.As I entered the dining room I saw Cathy and Mathias seated there and they both smiled at me as I entered. I did not see Ria, Marc's sister and was told that I will be meeting her tomorrow as she had stayed back at the hospital. Neither of us spoke throughout the dinner as if we were fighting our demons.After the dinner, Cathy told me to follow her to the library. Mathias excused himself and went off to his room.I sat on the sofa facing Cathy and asked. “What is it, Cathy?”Her dark eyes were steady. “Will you come to meet him tomorrow Carmen?”“I'm not sure I want to see him again as today everything came black in flashes and I am in an ocean of emotional turmoil,” I told her honestly. Seeing him after all these years had not been easy for me and I was not
The entire night all I did was think about Marc and his bruised body he looked so helpless and I had never seen him so weak. My heart trembled as I remembered how he controlled things all around him but now he was unable to do so.I had a sleepless night again and had to hide my dark circles in the morning with concealer as I was going to meet him again.While we were traveling to the hospital in the car Cathy was seated beside me and asked :"What did your fiancé say when you told him about Marc ?““He was not ready to let me come here but as I had to take his signature on the divorce paper, he let me come.” I replied brusquely I did not look at her and recalled how Don reacted when I told him I might have to stay for a longer period. I knew he was disappointed with me.“Does he know that he's having amnesia?” Cathy asked me immediately.“Yes he's aware of it.” I told
I wanted to know the depth of situation about Marc's condition so I followed them.As we entered the corridor leading to the doctor's chambers we met a man who was wearing a well-cut suit and he walked towards us and smiled as he held out his hand “ Mrs. Garcia, I'm very happy to meet you.”"The pleasure is all mine doctor but please address me as Carmen and not Mrs. Garcia,” I said sharply looking at Cathy.“This is Doctor Terence the specialist, who has been called in to take over Marc's case.” Cathy explained.I looked at him and said.” You are a psychiatrist?”“Among others,” He said cheerfully as he looked at me curiously. “ And why shouldn’t I call you that?”“We had separated a while ago but not divorced,” I told him firmly.“But he thinks that you are still married to him.”“Whatever he thinks doesn’t matt
Against my better judgment, I stayed back and continued to visit Marc at the hospital. Daily I spent an hour with him reading the newspaper to him seated by his bed, holding his hand, watching the mocking light come and go in his dark eyes when he looked at me. He teased me gently as he had done in those first months of our marriage showing me tenderness, which I remembered with grief now. It was as if the moment we had spent together was embedded in his consciousness and he wanted nothing but be with me but what an irony soon everything will be over. Once he gets better I will tell Cathy to book my tickets as I was missing Tio. But was strange I thought walking out of the hospital one evening because his moods in the weeks before we went to Seychelles had been dark and brooding and one would have imagined that he would have gone back to the feelings he had then but he seemed to be the man she had first married a passionate and gentle lover. I was happy to be beside him taking care o
My heart hammered against my chest, as I watched him, hating and loving it as well.” My dark eyes were wide with frantic emotions. He looked up and I hurriedly drop my lashes over my eyes afraid of letting him see what effect he had on me. “We should go to Seychelles sometime later.” I said huskily. “when you are absolutely fine Marc.” He gave me a long look from his dark eyes and said.” I will recover much faster if I go somewhere and have you for myself.” I blushed and said pulling away from him. “ I have to go.” And ran to the door and his eyes followed me, narrowing the dark eyes with anger. “Come back, Carmen !” He said sharply but I ran out pretending not to hear my body trembling. I went to see Cathy straight from the hospital. Mathias was waiting for me outside and drove me towards the Garcia house which belonged to Cathy. I had spent a lot of time there, after our marriage. And I must say it's awkward coming
Was Marc pretending? I asked myself after returning to our apartment or was he merely blocking out certain memories because he preferred not to remember them? It was impossible, I admitted reluctantly that he was hoping that he could Wipeout the past. He might believe that if he could get me to see him often enough, I would gradually forget what had happened. And it was coming through just like he wanted. Wasn't I getting a little soft-hearted towards him. I thought admitting it myself. I must remind myself of the anger that I had for Marc and it shot up like Mercury inside me. If he was pretending he was a lying swine, I thought furiously.I told myself the tenth time that day that I will not go and visit him I would stay away from him from now on and tell Cathy that the game was over. But in the end, I went ridiculing myself for my weakness arguing with myself every inch of the way to the hospital. Even as I stood outside his room I hesitated. I was several hours late from the tim
I went to his mother’s house at last and Cathy came and sat beside me holding my hand, listening quietly while I tried to explain my complex emotions. Gently Cathy said, “You make it all too complicated Carmen. There is only one question for you to answer for yourself. “Do you want to go with him or not?” I groaned and said. “You know very well I do Cathy.” I saw the satisfaction in his eyes, but I could not even feel angry with her as I was to disturbed and troubled with my own emotions. I had no time to worry about other people. Cathy had not made any secret of her desire to get us back together again. She hesitated a moment and I could feel she wanted to tell me something but was hesitating, so I urged her. “ Cathy please tell me what is bothering you?” “Carmen before he had the accident he wanted to see you again,” Cathy went out hurriedly. “I knew that. He had you permanently on his mind from the beginning as there were hundred little pointers, pointing to the fact but he wa
The next day I was on my way with Marc in the car and the nurse who accompanied us was a woman of fifty, her comfortable body seated in her blue uniform her shoes were very formal but she was very stern with Marc. And I was very pleased with Cathy's arrangement as I had never expected her to act immediately. Marc looked at me as the nurse was put into another car which followed us along. “ I have to thank you for my new nurse, I gather, or was mom making that up?” I lifted my chin in defense not letting him see how pleased I was and said. “I don't know what you're talking about.” I lied, and he gave me a quick glittering smile. “No !” He exclaimed.I gazed looking out of the window and his hand covered my own but I did not say anything to him and stared continuously out of the window. But when his hand held mine a shiver ran through my whole body. For a few breathtaking minutes we just sat like that but my body was responding in quite a different manner. His touch was enough to bri