Chapter 2.1
"Close your eyes.""Do you think I can persuade them?" I asked her as I close my eyes and let her do my makeup as she volunteered last night."Of course!" She put something on my eyes. "Don't doubt yourself. You're so good at this field, Sheena." Pagpapalakas niya pa ng loob sa akin na medyo nakatulong naman.Nagku-kwentuhan kami tungkol sa trabaho niya at trabaho ko habang may pinaglalagay siya sa mukha ko. Mga ilang minuto rin ang lumipas bago niya ako hinayaang ibuka ang mga mata ko. Agad akong napangiti nang makita ang itsura ko. I looked good, I looked so good with this makeup. It's just simple but it made me so formal and I looked professional too, not that I'm not, but yeah.Everytime I go to work, I didn't usually put too much effort on my makeup, as I'm just inside the office racking my brain with ideas."Thank you!" I beam at her."Yeah, yeah. I know." She teasingly told me. "You better hurry if you don't want to be late."I immediately stood up."Oh shoot!"I literally ran to my closet and get the clothes I'll wear today that I prepared last night. It didn't take me too long to get dress. Because we've already ate our breakfast, we leave my apartment immediately.I'm well prepared today, but it looks like the luck is not on my side today. We were only just twenty minutes on the road, but we immediately stuck in the middle of the traffic because of an accident. I bit my lower lip when I looked ahead of us.I started getting nervous when I saw that it's still a long line of cars ahead and we're still far from the meeting place. If this continues for the next thirty minutes, I'll surely be late for the meeting."Does it have to be now?" I murmured and I thought I'm the only one who heard it."We'll get out of here soon, don't worry," Iris tried to calm me down but her voice sounds unsure so it only added to my nervousness.Nakahinga ako nang maluwag nang nagsimula nang umusad ang mga sasakyan. Kahit pa alam kong aabot naman kami sa saktong oras, hindi ko pa rin maiwasang hindi mapakali. Palagi akong sumisilip sa relo na nasa pulsuhan ko at sa unahan."Calm down, Sheen. We'll make it in time." Pagpapakalma pa sa akin ni Iris. Tumango na lang ako at pinilit ang sarili na kumalma.Hindi rin nagtagal ay dumating na kami sa harapan ng isang fine dining restaurant sa kung saan kami magkikita ng team. I immediately open the door to my side, and was about to run when I noticed that I only have five minutes before the meeting starts, when Iris called me.I turned to her and I saw that she's waving her hand. And I wanted to slap myself for forgetting the most important thing, my portfolio. I ran back to her car and get the portfolio."Be careful!" Sigaw niya nang muli akong tumakbo papunta sa restaurant. Lumingon ako sa kaniya at kumaway. Kumaway naman siya pabalik bago niya pinaandar ang sasakyan at umalis.Pagpihit ko paharap ay bumunggo ako sa kung anong matigas na bagay. Natapon ko sa kung saan ang hawak kong portfolio at agad kong naramdaman ang lamig sa dibdib ko dahil sa kung anong natapon.Napasinghap ako nang makitang may natapon na ice americano sa puti kong blouse. Sinubukan kong alisin ang mantsa pero dumikit na 'yon sa sout ko."Are you watch—" natameme ako pag-angat ko ng tingin nang makita ang isang lalaki na masama ang tingin sa akin. Magkasalubong ang mga kilay niya, madilim ang mga mata at nakatiim ang panga niya. Napalunok naman ako sa takot.Napansin kong medyo na dumihan rin ang sout niyang puting long sleeves na nakatupi hanggang siko ang manggas. Dahil doon ay nakita ko ang tattoo niya sa braso na agad na nagpangiwi sa akin. I'm not a fan of a tattoo persons. I just find it so dirty putting a permanent ink to the skin.Nang muli akong mag-angat ng tingin, nakita kong nakatingin pa rin siya sa akin at nakataas ang kilay. Dahil sa tangkad niya, halos yumuko na siya sa akin. Napalunok ako at hinanap ang portfolio kong tumilapon sa kung saan. Hindi ko siya magawang tingnan sa mga mata, kahit pa gaano nakakahumaling ang light brown niyang mata kapag nasisinagan ng araw.Nakita ko ang portfolio ko hindi kalayuan sa paanan niya. Wala sa isip akong lumuhod at kinuha ang ilang tumilapon na papel, na salamat sa Dios ay wala namang nadumihan. Napapikit ako nang ma-realize kung gaano ka-awkward ang posisyon naming dalawa ngayon.Pagkatapos kong maayos ang portfolio ko ay halos lumuwa ang mga mata ko nang makita ang oras. Inayos ko ang medyo nagulo kong buhok at lalagpasan na sana siya nang bigla na lang may humawak sa braso ko. Natigilan ako at napatingin sa kamay na nakahawak sa akin. I saw that he also had a tattoo at the back of his hand. I gulped and looked up at him.His gaze are stern and dark. Halatang iritado siya sa nangyari. Muli kong inalis ang tingin sa mga mata niya at napatingin sa pulsuhan ko. Napapikit ako nang limang minuto na akong late."Aren't you going to say sorry Miss?" I almost gasped when I heard his deep and manly voice. His voice sounds controlled."I, I'm—" nang muli akong nag-angat ng tingin ay kumiling ang ulo niya sa gilid, halatang hinihintay ang apology na sinasabi niya. Napangiwi ako nang muling dumako ang tingin ko sa sout niya."What?" He asked again."I'm sorry!" I immediately said as I quickly escape from his hold and ran inside the restaurant.I've prepared too much on this and now I'm such a mess. Muntikan pa akong makahanap ng away sa labas. Sana naman tanggapin niya ang sorry ko kahit na medyo insincere ang dating no'n.Pagkapasok ko ay agad akong sinalubong ng isang waiter at agad ko namang sinabi ang reservation ng team ng Lankov. He ushered me to the table at the corner where four people are already sitting. There were two women, one man and a gay, I guessed."Oh I'm so, sorry, for being so late," I told them the moment I reached the table. They looked shocked after they saw me."Oh, what happened?" The woman, in her mid 30's asked me, concerned laced in her voice. I smiled politely."Ah, I bumped into someone on my way here, but it's okay now. I hope I didn't made you wait for so long."Gusto ko nang ngumiwi nang maramdaman ang lagkit sa bandang dibdib ko. Gusto ko na lang lamunin ng lupa ngayon.Chapter 2.2"It's okay," mabait na sagot naman ng isang babae na hula ko ay ka-edaran ko lang. Nakahinga ako nang maluwag nang makitang wala namang masamang reaksyon ang iba pa nilang kasama. "How rude of me, I'm Sheena Reva—" I cleared my throat. "Sheena Montez," I extend my hand to them and they introduced their selves to me one by one. The woman who talked to me first were Raquel, the woman who's the same age as me is Leah, while the man is Rafael and the other one is Jeffrey. They didn't only looked nice, but they also are actually nice. We ordered first before we get into the real thing, the reason why we're here. I gave them my portfolio and explained it to them. They're impressed with my designs and I'm glad that they like it. They suggests some minor details that I took note so I can change it immediately and send it to them. "This one, for all of the rooms, I think it's a good choice that you put these kind of furnitures there. We've got some feedbacks that sometimes when
Chapter 3.1When I confirmed that he was the man I bumped into this morning in front of the restaurant, the first thing I want to do was to hide. I badly want to runaway, even though I'm not sure if he saw me nor recognized me. I harshly turned my whole body to Iris who's now enjoying another glass of alcohol, I don't know. It seems like she's enjoying this more than me, seeing that she's throwing her hands up to the air while swaying her body together with the beat of the music. She didn't even noticed that I'm being restless now. Gusto ko na lang umuwi! I froze on my seat when I smelled that familiar scent. He's just right behind me! Oh God! "A glass of Jack Daniels— whiskey sour mash old no. 7 black label." Despite the loud music around, I still heard him loud and clear. His deep and low voice that made him even more manlier than he already is. No matter how much I stopped myself from looking at him, I still did. From the corner of my eyes, I saw him leaning at the counter, ar
Chapter 3.2"They're on the top lists of the most eligible bachelors in the Philippines! They're heirs, Sheena! Heirs!" She told me like I should know that. "Their family owned chains of hotels. Not only that, but they has a lot of properties all over the world. They have a big share at their hotels and they didn't even get their inheritance yet. They're so freaking hot too! The women would die to at least have a one night stand with them!" She whispered but almost yelling at my face. I grimaced at her last remarks. It looks like they're treating them as Gods. "So you're like, having a crush on them?" "Crush would be an understatement but acceptable my dear," she told me. "They're my w*t dreams..." She whispered while fluttering her eyelashes. I almost puke. I wouldn't go that far with my crush. "Iris!" Sita ko sa kaniya pero tinawanan niya lang ako. "Don't be so innocent please!" She rolled her eyes and took a sip at the glass of water. She's now the one who's grimacing. "Why ar
Chapter 4.1The constant ringing of my phone woke me up. I tightly closed my eyes and covered it with my arm, still sleepy from taking care of Iris the whole night. She's a bit handful when she's drunk. I grunt when the ringing didn't stop no matter how much I ignored it. I swear to God, whoever's calling me this early will really not hear the end of this. I slowly lift myself up and lean my back at the headboard, before I reached for my phone at the bedside table. I grunt as I felt a pain on my head. I tightly closed my eyes and the memories of last night started flashing back at the back of my mind. I sat up straight when the scene before we went home, flashed. "Oh God..." I groaned and rub my forehead. Iris vomited on him! On his dress shirt that seems to cost more than my monthly salary! Oh God! I can't believe that it happened.I was again interrupted when I heard the loud ringing of my phone again. My forehead form a creased when I saw that it's an unregistered number. I hes
Chapter 4.2Pinunasan ko ang mga luhang kanina pa pala tuloy-tuloy ang pagtulo sa pisngi ko. Inilayo ko ng kaunti ang cellphone mula sa akin bago suminghot. I don't want her to hear me breaking because of this. "I'm still hurt because of what you did before, it's still etched in my mind. It's replaying vividly, reminding me of that day. God knows how much I wanted to forget it, but I can't," I told her. My voice is laced with pain. "I'm sorry anak. I'm sorry," she cried. Tanging pag-iyak at hikbi na lang niya ang naririnig ko mula sa kabilang linya dahilan para muling tumulo ang panibagong mga luha sa pisngi ko. Oh how much I've been wanted to hear this. Kahit sa kaniya lang. Kahit siya lang ang magsabi ay sapat na sa akin. Hindi na muling nagsalita si mommy pagkatapos niyang umiyak. Nagpaalam na lang siya at pinatay ang tawag. I stayed on my room, staring at nothing particular. I don't know how everything went into this. I was just enjoying my work, almost got late in a meeting,
Chapter 5.1I ran passed through the revolving door. I almost bump to all of the people at the lobby who only walk normally, while I looked like I have been chased. I keep on saying sorry without looking at them. I have no time to do so, I'll be very late at this moment.I tried to catch the first elevator I saw but, unfortunately it closed before I could even reach it. I moved to the next one, it was about to close and I don't know how, it might be the adrenaline, but I managed to slip my hand in between the two doors to open it again. A sigh of relief past through my lips, but not long after, I'm having a difficulty in breathing again. I stared at him. My eyes were wide open. My jaw almost dropped at the shiny floor. I should've believed what Iris told me. I should've considered that coincidences happens in real life. Because the moment the door of the elevator slowly opens, I saw him again. Standing magnificently on his dark blue suit. His dark brown eyes peering on my black one
Chapter 5.2 I was pulled out of my trance when someone nudged me from the side. When I turned my head to my right, I saw her nodding forepart. I followed her line of vision and that's when I saw Sandy mouthing; "come here" to me. With a slight hesitation and nervousness, I stepped inside and it feels like the world stop while my eyes were on that one person who's gaze are piercing through me. Una akong nag-iwas ng tingin at dumeretso kay Sandy na naghihintay na sa akin. "The President wants to hear about the re-design of some of the designs you gave to their team personally," she whispered. Bahagya akong napalingon sa likuran ko. Napalunok ako nang makita siyang nakaupo lang at nakayuko. The little light illuminating his face indicates that he's looking at his cellphone. "You're already done with that, yes?" She hopefully asked me. Her voice waver and the more I stayed silent, the more she became restless too. She's looking behind us every second she could get, so when I slightl
Chapter 6.1I stretched my arms above my head as I yawn without taking my eyes off of the screen of my laptop. I've been sitting here for hours, squeezing my brain for ideas. I grew frustrated each second, doubting if this designs reached, nor surpassed their set of standards. After thinking about what he said for a hundred times today, I ended up agreeing with what he told me. It was really complicated not only for the guests but also for the hotel itself.I was thinking too much that I failed to notice that I'm steps ahead of myself. So I thought of designs that is minimal and pleasant to the eyes but not common. There's still uniqueness and originality with the designs despite of it's minimalism. Considering that their hotel is one of the top three hotel, the number one to be exact, the designs should be beyond what the guests expected to see. The luxury would still be there but not too much. After being satisfied with my designs, I decided to bring myself to sleep. I almost cur
Chapter 12.2Bumuka ang bibig ko para sana ipaintindi pa sa kaniya ang gusto kong sabihin but Dad beat me to it. "Hayaan mo, Victoria." Napalingon kaming dalawa ni mommy sa kaniya. He's now sipping his wine. But I can see it, he's mad. Like raging mad right now. "Christopher..." "Kailan ba nakinig sa atin ang batang 'yan? Noon pa man ay sinasaway na tayo. She doesn't care about the company or about this family. She's that selfish that she only think about what she wants to do. Hayaan mo siya sa gusto niya." His words dripped like an acid in my throat. Sumikip ang dibdib ko sa sinabi niya. So now I'm not only a disappointment? But selfish too? L"Christopher, don't say that. She's still our daughter." "Magiging anak ko lang 'yan kung makikinig na siya sa atin. When she's still this stubborn and selfish, I'd rather have no daughter at all. I didn't raise an ungrateful brat." Napakurap-kurap ako. He stood up and left. Napabuntonghininga si mommy sa tabi ko. "I'm sorry about your
Chapter 12.1Halos alas dose na kami nakauwi galing sa party kagabi. Wala naman akong ginawa boung gabi kung hindi ang umupo at makinig, pero ramdam ko 'yong pagod ko mula ulo hanggang paa. Sagad sa buto. Mabuti na lang at may lakas pa akong magbihis at magtanggal ng make-up bago nakatulog. Nabawi ko naman ang lakas ko kinabukasan dahil napahaba ang tulog ko. Halos lunch na ako naggising. I don't know kung pinatawag ako sa breakfast kanina o hinayaan na lang nila ako. Kumunot ang noo ko nang di mahanap ang cellphone. I looked for it inside the purse I used last night. Na-lowbatt. Ngayon ko pa lang icha-charge magmula nang dumating ako. After that, I decided to take a long shower to refresh my mind and think all of these. Habang naliligo ay iniisip ko ang dapat kong gawin. Should I go back to Amsterdam now? Napapikit ako nang maalalang may project pa pala akong naiwan do'n. Nawala 'yon sa isip ko dahil sa dami ng mga nangyari. Hindi rin naman tumawag sa akin si Miss Natalie tungkol
Chapter 11.2Gusto kong itama ang mga sinabi ni mommy pero hindi ko ginawa. Itinago ko ang nakakuyom kong kamay mula sa mga mata nila. I remain my beautiful and soft smile on my face. I can't show them my true emotions right now. "Really? My daughter also travels a lot. Might as well—" "Good evening ladies and gentlemen!" Lahat kami ay napatingin sa stage. I never felt so relieved ever since I came here. That emcee just saved me from an endless questioning. "We'll go to our table now. We'll see you around." Pagkatapos nilang magpaalam ay hinanap na namin ang table namin. It was just two tables away from where we stood earlier. Bago ako makaupo ay naramdaman ko ang bigat ng isang tingin mula kung saan. My heart started to beat erratically. I wanted to stop myself but it was already too late. Napatingin na ako sa likod para hanapin siya. It only took me seconds before I found his intense eyes looking straight at me. Kung gaano kadilim kung nasaan siya, gano'n din ang mga matang nak
Chapter 11.1"You looked so beautiful hija." Napalingon ako kay Mommy nang marinig ko ang boses niya sa may pintuan. Nakita kong nakangiti siya pero iba ang sinasabi ng mga mata niya. My throat contracted and I looked away. Narinig ko ang tunog ng takong niya na papalapit sa akin. Nang mag-angat ang ulo ko ay nagtagpo ang paningin namin sa salamin na nasa harapan ko. Malungkot siyang ngumiti at hinawakan ang magkabilang balikat ko. She lovingly looked at my reflection without looking away. I gulped. My eyes started to get misty. Hindi ko alam kung bakit ako naiiyak. "I'm sorry, hija..." Biglang sabi niya na nagpatigil sa akin. "I'm sorry for making you so worried about your Dad. I just want you to go home, anak. It's been years since I've seen you and I missed you so much. It's the only way I could think of to make you come home." Nag-iwas ako ng tingin nang humapdi ang mga mata ko kasabay ng pagkirot ng puso ko. I just felt like she manipulated me with that reason. She knew how m
Chapter 10.2He's flipping the pages of the magazine, legs crossed. Before I could even stop myself, Im already checking him out. Again.His hair is fixed in a man bun now, better than I saw earlier. I can see that he has a pointed nose, thick and long lashes. And oh, a red lips too.I unconsciously wet my lower lips using my tongue, when I saw his red tongue brushed his lower lip, when his mouth pop out the lollipop. Taking advantage of the situation, I scan his being. I clearly saw some tattoo on his neck because of his angle from where I am standing. I grimaced.He looked, rugged.He's wearing a baby blue long sleeves. He probably removed the jacket he wore. It's sleeves rolled up until his elbow and that gave me an access to see his tattoos on his arms too. This man screams bad news."Miss Sheena?"Nawala ang tingin ko sa lalaki nang marinig ko ang boses ni Thalia. Lumingon ako sa kaniya at nakita ko siyang nakangiti na sa akin."Yes?""Have you already choose miss? Or you want to
Chapter 10.1 Hindi ako mapakali habang papasok sa loob ng boutique. What is a Lankov doing here? I mean, sobrang imposible lang talagang makita siya dito ngayon lalo na't ang laki ng Maynila o ako lang talaga ang nag-iisip ng gano'n. First was yesterday and then now? Are we getting played by fate now? Hindi ko maiwasang mapalingon sa likuran ko para silipin si Adam. Since the walls are made of glasses, I could clearly see him outside. He's talking to someone on his phone. Hindi ko mapigilang maging kuryuso kung sino ang kausap niya, dahil sa seryosong ekspresyon ng mukha niya habang kausap ang kung sino man ang nasa kabilang linya. Gano'n na lang ang gulat ko nang pagkalingon ko ay may nakangiting babae ang bumungad sa akin. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko at huminga ng malalim. "Good morning ma'am, we've already informed by Madam Victoria of your arrival today," saad niya. Tumango naman ako. "We've already prepared the dresses she requested to show you." Hindi na ako sumagot at
Chapter 9.2"Grow up, Sheena. Hindi ka na bata para mag-tantrums dahil lang hindi mo nakuha ang gusto mo." Napayuko ako at napahawak sa mga daliri ko, pilit na pinipigilan ang mga luha ko. Nag-uumpisa nang lumabo ang mga mata ko. Sumasakit na rin ang lalamunan ko. Marahas na tumunog ang upuan palatandaan sa pagtayo niya. Hindi na ako nag-angat pa ng tingin dahil alam kung oras na ginawa ko 'yon, tuluyan nang tutulo ang luha ko. Dad left the dining room without saying anything and after a minute, it was the cue for me to leave too. Total naman ay wala naman na akong ganang kumain pa. Hindi ko na hinintay pa si mommy at dumeretso na ako sa kwarto ko. I immediately lay down at the soft mattress of my bed and took a deep breath. I closed my eyes and relaxed myself. Ngayon ko lang naramdaman ang pagod. Ang sakit ng paa ko dahil sa kakalakad kanina. Ang sakit ng ulo dahil sa jet lag. Ngayon ko lang talaga nararamdaman ang dapat ay kanina ko pa iniinda. Ang gusto ko na lang ngayon ay an
Chapter 9.1"Dito lang." I shyly told him. Lumingon siya sa akin nang bahagya at buti na lang talaga at sout ko ang helmet niya kung hindi ay baka napansin niyang nakatitig ako sa kaniya. Itinigil niya ang motor sa tapat ng gate ng subdivision namin. Tinulungan niya akong makababa sa motor niya at tanggalin ang helmet. I fixed my hair a little. Ngayong nakakain na ako at nakakapag-isip na ng malinaw, ramdam ko na ang lagkit ng boung katawan ko. And to think that I was with him almost the whole day made me so embarrassed to death. Ramdam ko ang init ng magkabilang pisngi ko dahil sa pagkapahiya sa sarili. Sana lang talaga ay hindi niya naamoy na amoy araw ako kanina. Nakakahiya! Napaatras at napalayo ako ng kaunti nang bumaba siya mula sa motor niya at lumapit sa akin. Napatingin ako sa magkabilang gilid ko bago muling ibinalik ang tingin sa kaniya."Thank you. For the— ahm," I could only looked at his chin. "For the ride and for the food." I finally told him. I don't why I stutter
Chapter 8.2Dahil sa pagkakatanggal ng helmet ay mas malinaw ko nang nakikita ang boung paligid. It's refreshing to see greens again. Ngayon ko lang napansin na nasa harapan pala kami ng isang eatery. Gawa sa kahoy ang eatery at may dalawa itong palapag. "What are we doing here?" Tanong ko habang hindi inaalis ang tingin sa eatery. "You're getting comfortable already," imbes ay sagot niya na nagpalingon sa akin. Kumunot ang noo ko habang nakatingin sa kaniya na nasa unahan ang tingin habang nasa loob ng magkabilang bulsa ang dalawa niyang kamay. "Huh?" May kinuha siya sa bulsa ng sout niyang jacket pagkatapos ay nakita ko na lang siyang nagsisindi ng sigarilyo. Ang isa niyang kamay ay tinatakpan ang dulo ng sigarilyo habang ang isa namang kamay ay may hawak na mamahaling lighter. Agad na sumama ang reaksyon ng mukha ko. I hate the smoke of the cigarettes. Agad akong napahakbang palayo sa kaniya dahilan para mapatingin siya sa akin. Kumunot ang noo niya sa ginawa ko at pinagtaasan