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Chapter 38: Mixed Emotions
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2024-10-29 19:42:56
Anna KendraHey guys…I’m so sorry for nearly giving up on this story. I just wasn’t in the best state of mind for the last couple months and I’m still not feeling a 100%, but I’m trying my best to get up and write. So please bear with me. And I hope you enjoyed the chapters! Love you guys and you’re the reason I get up in the morning to keep fighting! Thank you for always being my strength and being so understanding about my situation! Truly…you have no idea how much your support means to me!
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