I can't tell what hurts the most. My head, or my back.
Grimacing, I battle past a swarm of colour, forcing my eyes open. Beneath me, the ground moves, lurching and undulating with a force that has my stomach turning. I'm staring at a celling, lined with red satin, which stretches down to curtains that match.
My memories reshape themselves in my mind slowly, battling through a foggy haze that surrounds my mind. The moment they do, I jerk up, nearly striking my head against the ceiling. I'm in a carriage, splayed out across a plush bench. A carriage, which means I'm travelling, which means I'm not at Blue Glass Inn.
I've been kidnapped.
I look straight at Marek, who sits opposite me, watching me silently. His eyes have darkened, to the point those cornflower blue irises I began to trust have turned navy blue, like the deepest depths of an ocean I've seen only in pictures. His slick black jacket consumes his figure, making him all the more intimidating. Yet I refuse to give him the satisfaction of flinching.
“Where am I?” I growl, keeping my voice low. Looking out the window, we pass through snow, which means we are still in the Azure Province. But grass is starting to peak through, the ice becoming sparse. I feel panic rise within me, but as the fog layered over my brain starts to fade, I assess how I need to react to this situation, and it's not what I'm considering.
“Somewhere close to the Azure Province border," he tells me, glancing out the window vacantly. I look down, seeing a blanket has been draped across my legs, which I kick away immediately.
Does he think I'm going to believe his feigned pity?
“Why me? What do you want with me? You drugged me," I say, voice hoarse. Pain still echoes wildly between my temples, whatever herb he used in the drink must have had me out for hours. It renders my limbs practically useless; not as if I would stand much of a chance if I flung the cabin door open and leapt into the snow outside, which blurs vividly at the pace we move.
“I’m hoping you will be willing to impart some valuable knowledge to me," he tells me smoothly.
My eyes widen, bewildered. “Willing? You’ve kidnapped me?”
“I’m not going to hurt you. I’m taking you home," he says calmly. The tension within me deflates, but with his expression remaining as frozen as the ice we glide over, my nerves still persist. The kind, attentive man I met at the Inn has vanished, replaced by this stoic, serious hunter.
“Home? To my village?”
“Close. To the Jade Province at least.”
I fall back into the seat, gaping at him. His passive serenity is a dichotomy to this situation, this kidnapping. Surely he realises how serious the charges would be if we are found; he could be thrown or prison, or worse. I'm not familiar with the authority in the Azure Province, but I have no doubt it will be harsh, uncompromising.
I pull my legs to my chest, wrapping my arms around them. “What knowledge do I have that you need?”
“I’m going to kill your Tani. I want to know everything about him. Habits, where he may be, how powerful he is," he affirms flatly. I flinch. I'm not sure what stuns me the most. Of course the idea of him killing my Tani leaves my stomach hollow, but the way he has changed so dramatically has my breath halting at my lips.
“You think I’m going to allow you even a chance to kill my Tani? You’re insane," I growl, letting my anger surface for a fleeting moment. I turn, pressing my shoulder against the seat as I rest my head, still blinking through the fog.
“If he truly does exist, I will find him. With your help of course.”
I frown to myself. “Why are you doing this? Why my Tani?”
“It’s simple, Akara. Tell me about your Tani, and we will make a stop by your village, and I will release you," he assets, leaning forward, resting his arms on his legs. His eyes dare me to accept his offer, matching the way my rational mind begs me to take his offer. I could be home, safe.
“Even if I tell you...I couldn’t go back. I would be dishonouring my people, everything I believe in. My family will disown me," I tell him. Shame is a heavy burden in my village, especially involving out Tani. If the Beast were to die, it would be on my shoulders that our crops fail, that my people mourn. I would be out-casted, forced away from my family.
“Belief in Tani does only one thing,” Marek mutters, shaking his head. “It makes good people turn against each other.”
I grit my teeth.
“That’s not true. My people, my village, are kind, generous and honest. We pray for our Tani, and in return, each Plantation it rains, and our crops grow," I insist, although my pleadings seem to fall on deaf ears. Marek has no interest in become personable with the idea of my Tani. He is going to kill him, slaughter him with little remorse.
“Do you ever consider that it just happens to rain often in Spring, and that this Beast is nothing more than a man-eating, hungry creature that destroys all in its path," he questions, looking out the window instead of me, although his eyebrow quirks.
My anger falters. He has done his research.
“So you’ve heard the rumours...about my Tani killing people," I murmur, the words leaving my lips burning, like just speaking ill of my belief would poison me to the core.
The rumours surrounding the Beast have existed for many years. It began after an infamous case of a young girl showing up at the edge of the village, utterly brutalised. Other little girls suffered the same fate in the area, and due to the nature of their deaths, blame fell on my Tani. Ever since, many people still remain skeptical, and cases such as that one still continue to happen.
“I’ve heard a lot from those who don’t believe. But never from a believer," Marek comments, watching the snow dance by, the speed of the carriage increasing.
“I told you, I’ll have nothing if I tell you anything.”
“Your words are no guarantee of the creatures death. It will be at my hand it dies," Marek assures me, his tone lowering to a deep, coaxing one. I'm not going to fall for his vacant words that make sense in theory, I just know it's not as simple as that.
“Why kill anyway? Don’t you strictly hunt the Tani of the Azure Province?” I question.
Marek settles back into his seat, sighing through his nose. “I’ve done so for many years, yes. But my reasons for hunting your Tani are different.”
“It’s only fair that in return for my knowledge, I understand your reasons.”
“There is talk of your Tani having power so strong, that whoever kills it will gain some of that residual strength," he explains, his tone hardly matching what he is talking about. He seems bored, tired. Kidnapping me must be taking its toll, even if he expresses no interest in letting me go. Why would he, when he could get power from my Tani?
I shake my head solemnly. “You’re killing a creature of my belief for strength?”
“It’s more than that. But that’s besides the point. Tell me what you know," Marek demands, although he doesn't sound angry, or eve desperate. He knows I have no other choice but to say yes, to agree to his expectations. He's kidnapped me, and if I tell him all I know about my Tani, then I could be free, back to my family again.
Suddenly, the carriage comes to a jarring stop, my body lurching forward, only to be caught by my hands digging into the cushions of the seat. Marek frowns, grabbing the ceiling to steady himself. Whoever is controlling the carriage makes no sound, and by the expression on Marek's face, this isn't a scheduled stop.
“What’s going on? Why are we stopped?” Marek demands, directing his voice to the behind the front cabin wall.
“Come out with your hands up, or watch your carriage burn," someone yells from outside.
My body goes ridged, as the calm but authoritative voice soars into the cabin. Marek and I exchange uneasy glances. Policing groups usually avoid the borders to each Province, as to not step upon either's laws. People have the right to travel freely between Provinces, as by demand of the King, which means only one thing.
These must be rebels.
“Stay here. They don’t need to know you’re in here," Marek demands, before he pops open carriage door, stepping out confidently into the snow. The door shudders closed, the icy wind making me shiver. Part of the Jade Province will be doused in snow at his time of the year, but it will melt the further to the centre you get.
“So what are you lot anyway?” Marek mutters, his voice muffled through the door. My fingers beg to pull back the sheer curtain and see who is speaking to. Evidently, it's a group of people, which is only more frightening. If they are rebels, they will burn this carriage with me in it, and drag Marek to their den, and torture and interrogate him.
“We are the law of behalf of the King. Show your identification or be escorted to his majesty himself," one demands. Listening closer, I quickly identify their lack of accent. Must be Jade Province origin, but not from a small village like mine. Their voices are clipped immaculately with a well manicured accent, which can only be bred from education you wouldn't find in a place like where I grew up.
Can't be rebels.
“I have every right to bring my carriage into this Province,” Marek says casually. He's acting, that boastful, confident attitude not familiar to him at all. “Did you have to kill my foot man?”
My breath falters. For a moment, I had considered stepping out to announce myself, to let them know Marek had kidnapped me. But killing an innocent man is not the King's usual procedure. Whoever these men are, and whatever authority they belong to, it isn't an honourable one.
“Only identified personnel of the King have the right to enter through this access to this Province," they say.
Marek scoffs. “King? What King? There’s only one King and he’s in Emerald Province.”
I've had enough. The aggression in the man's tone suggests only one thing. Without a distraction, they will likely kill Marek, or take him away, leaving me here. Without a footman, I will survive less than a day out here in this weather. Night will fall, I will freeze, and Marek will be dead.
I push the door open just as he begins to speak. “That’s where you’re wrong, Foreigner. Now show us why we should let you pass, or you and your carriage will be detained.”
I drink in the sight, as it all begins to change in a single moment.
Marek is surrounded by a group of three men, all of which stand in a curved formation, hands hovering over weapons at their hips. In what feels like the longest stretch of a minute, I see Marek begin to transform in front of me, calling on whatever demonic Summoner powers are buried deep within his skin, that travels through his veins.
It only takes a blink on my end, and suddenly, Marek is gone. In his place, is a replica of the man in front of him. Much thinner, paler, with golden hair, wearing the exact velvet uniform of the man before him. Two of the exact same men are staring at each other, one happening to be more surprised than the other.
All three of the men stumble back, gasping and exchanging wary glances. Their Jade Province origin is betraying them, being unfamiliar with a Summoner's abilities.
Marek doesn't waste the moment, taking advantage of their shock as he steps forward. Even with no weapons in hand, I know immediately what his intentions are. I recoil, falling back into the cabin of the carriage, swinging the door shut behind me. Conflict isn't my strong suit, and neither is watching my kidnapper kill three men. Innocent or not.
I wince, revaluating my situation. My kidnapper is fighting off whatever chance at safety I have outside, and there is nothing I can do about it. My fear about those men being anything other than what they said they were ensured that I didn't brave revealing myself to them, and my situation.
Would it have mattered? Would Marek have still used his powers to kill them?
Suddenly the little door is swung open, the gauzy curtain fluttering wildly in protest to the cold wind that follows. I gasp, my hand splaying across my chest, as I see Marek's face. He looks wildly different without his marking, but I hardly have time to dwell on that, as he holds a velvet covered hand out to me. A hand that surely just killed multiple people.
“Come. We need to get out of here," he murmurs promptly, the calm to his tone making me shudder. This isn't the first time he has done that...kill.
“It’s snowing. We won’t last more than a few hours," I reply anxiously, looking out toward the forest beyond, towering trees dusted with a glistening frost. It's an excuse, in all honesty. My fear has escalated to an impenetrable numbness, as I refuse to think about the bodies lying within the depths of the snow outside, still warm.
Marek senses my unease. “We will find shelter. It’s better than waiting for their backup to arrive.”
Backup. Either my savour, or my imminent death. The fact that I haven't heard of any King reigning in the Jade Province, but I've heard of plenty of unique rebel groups, so I step out into the snow after Marek. If he planned to kill me, he would have, and if I tell him about my Tani, my safety is guaranteed.
“You used your abilities. Some of the colour is draining from your face," I say over the soughing of the wind, my feet gliding uneasily over the thick layer of frost that coats the grass here. Glancing over at Marek, I can practically see the silver blue hues seeping from his skin, his usual colour returning.
“I had no other choice. It’s not something I enjoy doing," he replies, as we clamber past the line of trees, disappearing from the carriage view.
“Do you kill people often?”
“No. Almost never.”
He doesn't say any more to me, continuing to guide me through an endless scatter of trees, the undergrowth and bush becoming thicker with each step. With light shoes I wore for work, and no winter coat, I know I won't last long out here. Yet I keep walking, stepping in Marek's footsteps, glaring at his back.
Just as I feel like I might scream, the cold having set deeply into my bones, my shoes soaked with ice water that numbs my toes to the point it leaves me stumbling, Marek stops, brushing back a thick layer of thicket to reveal the entrance to a small cave.
“Here. This place is sheltered enough. I’ll go find something to make a fire. I have a lighter," he murmurs, motioning for me to step inside. Ducking to avoid smashing my head on rocks, I nearly cry at the relief of being out of the snow, even if my shuddering breath does fog in front of me.
“Okay…”
Marek pauses by the mouth of the cave, looking back at me. There's a moment of vulnerability written all over his face, that strikes me in the chest. Dark shadows have mingled deeply into his dishevelled bronze hair, turning it a deeper brunette colour that offsets his atlantic blue eyes. He seems tired, shoulders slumped beneath his coat, which he begins to peels of his body.
“Are you alright? Cold?” he asks lightly, leaning into the cave to hand me his coat. Had I not been so jarringly cold, I wouldn't have grabbed it, but I did. The moment the heavy woollen material is in my hands, I sink to the ground, and wrap it over myself.
“Of course I’m cold. I shouldn’t be here," I murmur, looking up at him, as his expression softens.
“I know sorry won't mean anything right now,” he breathes. “I wouldn’t try running. You’ll either die, or be dragged into the King’s clutches.”
He turns at that, walking away into the flurry of snow, leaving me to consider his words, and know assuredly, that I'm not running anywhere.
Managing to have found the smoothest slab of stone in the cave, I lay myself upon it.
My hands are planted firmly on the wooden seat, dampness gathering upon my palms.
A servant girl leads me to my room for the night.It's beautiful, even if it's small. The architecture of this manor is magnificent, and this room does not undermine that. It's been dressed and furnished with a mix of colours; navy blue and grey, which is unlikely to be the creative choice of the King himself. Other than a bed, a couple bedside tables, and an armoire, the room has little to it.This time last night, I was in a cave with Marek, wondering what my future would hold. Now I'm being invited to dinner with a King. But I'm not excited, as I kick off my shoes, digging my toes into
Taius is at dinner when we walk in.Marek and I arrive at the same time. I feel foolish walking into this large dining hall, dressed in a tight fitting dress, that I tug at awkwardly. Mercilessly, Marek never made a comment on it, but as I walk toward where Taius sits, I notice his gaze sweep over me brazenly.The dining hall is decorated beautifully, a panoply of paintings strung across the wall which drip wealth I will never understand. Atop the long dining table, is a variety of food, which my stomach immediately reacts to. I don't know the last time I ate something.
I wander up the stairs, defeated, and thankfully not being escorted by anyone.That did not go as I expected. Here I was hoping I would be going back to my family, leaving this mess behind me. But now I'm walking to what will be my room for an undetermined amount of time. I refuse to allow it to be awhile, though. Whatever it might take, I'm going to escape this place.Suddenly a figure appears from around the corner. Pausing, I watch them approach, head down as they stare into a book, oblivious to each step they take before them. A girl, close to my age no doubt.
I stare at the porcelain bath, considering it.My bedroom door is firmly closed, away from Vaia, Taius and everyone else in this place. Yet the thought of bathing has me shivering, not wanting to feel vulnerable for a single moment in this place. Yet I'm desperate to wash this day off me, and with the chill that has fallen over this place, a bath sounds delectable.Running the bath, I add some fragrant oils and salts, and begin to undress, looking out at the stars that wink and glimmer tauntingly in the distance. Who knows when I will have any semblance of freedom again.
I walk into the dining hall for breakfast the next morning with my head held high.Taius is alone, sitting at the table, having not touched a single piece of food on the table. What I can see of the breakfast, looks foreign, with fruits and citrus found only in the warmer climates such as the Golden Province, cut and displayed in a way that has my stomach yearning for a taste.His eyes find me, more olive green this morning rather than the shadowy forest colour like what I stared into last night during my bath. My blood chills at the intensity of his gaze, the sensuous way it sweeps across
I can't breathe. I don't want to breathe.I'm waiting for something, that never comes. I at least expect my skin to start burning, and then for every molecule in my body to dissolve. Instead, nothing comes. The only change I feel is the slightest breeze, wistful and soft, as it playfully flutters along the hem of my dress. Disobeying Taius's request, my eyes open.My knees nearly give out beneath me. In all honesty, I didn't expect it to work. No, it didn't work.
Eight days later. I stare out the window, but see nothing but my own face staring back at me. The nights here in the Azure Province are long and cold, snow falling ever since we arrived a few days ago. We decided this would be the best place to flee to, hidden in the back of a freight train that Tai smuggled us onto. We almost didn't survive the cold, but we had both agreed this Province would be the last place Marek would look. It's too obvious. The door opens from behind me, the heavy wood creaking on it's metal joints. Glancin
My hands brush against the wall, letting it guide me down the hallway as the darkness blinds me.I'm not sure where I'm going, but it's far from the commotion downstairs. The screaming has ceased, but there are a lot of people moving, like the rebel group are rounding people up and moving them about. How many are there? Tai should be okay down there, but what if he isn't? He needs to stay for his people, but part of me wishes I had encouraged him to come with me.Suddenly, the lights in the hallway flicker on. Flinching, I cover my eyes until they adjust to the sudden assault of light, and once they finally do, I realise that Vaia is standing in the hallway with me.
Tai sits on the edge of his bed, a frown etched into his features.Only five minutes earlier, we were downstairs, Tai have to have addressed the guests who he has offered rooms to here. He claimed that Marek has been obsessed with me for months, and that he has been taken into the prisons to be held. None of that is true, of course. In fact, Tai's guards have been unable to find Marek."You don't have to stay in my room tonight, even if our guests will want to gossip seeing you wander around the halls," Tai says softly, finally releasing his frown, breathing in deeply. The guests already have a lot to gossip about tonight after the incident with Marek.After a
Tai pulls the curtain back, glancing through before closing it again.Beyond, people chatter, seated as they await the beginning of the ceremony. The nerves in my stomach accompany the sound of their unbothered voices, knowing that I'm going to have to step out there soon and exchange vows with Tai, and then kiss him in front of all those people."Don't be nervous," he murmurs, turning back to look at me. Mercifully, Tai has ordered the seamstresses to keep my dress as minimal as possible. The fabric and beading is still decadent and soft, the veil I've pulled behind me is beautifully sheer, hanging off a small crown glittering with silver jewels. This wedding isn't about the show, but about the substance, about what a union will mean for his kingdom.
The next few weeks past by so quickly, I hardly have time to grasp everything.Tomorrow, Tai and I will be married in front of a strategically chosen guest list. From then on, we will be closely monitoring the rebel presence, and the strength of the local villages support. If all goes well, I may not have to stay here much longer, but that is all hypothetical. Right now, nothing is known for certain.Jessa and I lie in bed together, night nearing on early morning. Sleeping isn't a realistic possibility right now, my mind busy trying to process everything that has been going on. Tomorrow will be a defining moment for all of us."Are you nervous?" Jessa asks sof
"I can't believe you convinced me into this."The golden glow of the lamp light above guides Tai and I down the street, the moonlight bathing the cobblestones of the street with a pale sheen. The darkness of the night is a stark contrast to this morning, when Tai approached me and asked me if I would come to dinner with him. I didn't expect us to go so far out from the estate."I promise it will be worth it Akara," Tai murmurs. I glance at him, his hands shoved into his jacket pockets, his emerald eyes watching me with gentle intention. He's dressed nicely, simply. There is no evidence in his attire that he is a King, although it's so obvious in his face. He has a regal nature about him, the tilt of his lips, the sweep of his cheekbones...You could see one
I woke to all the feelings of frustration and anger having vanished, leaving a hollow feeling in my stomach. Another morning of waking up to my own cruel reality, and yet another day of trying to recover from it, trying to move on.As usual, the day dragged on, Tai gone off like he usually is, dealing with both the rebel presence, and the cruel reality of the war, which has been bothering the King more recently. He hasn't shared much with me about the war, other than that it's been a financial and emotional drain, knowing that he is sending men to die.My father never spoke much about the horrors of the war either, leaving much up to my imagination. All I know is that it's a battle between independent rebel groups within the Jade Province and the Scarlet Pr
I'm going to go home.Hours have passed since I spoke to Marek, since I saw what he was doing under Tai's demands. I've been pacing back in forth in my room since, wondering if I should bother packing the clothing Tai's people have brought from nearby villages. I don't want a reminder of this place once I leave...Even if I don't know where to go yet.I haven't changed, my clothing and hair still wet when I decide want my plan moving forward is.I need to get away, but quickly. If I tell Tai I'm leaving, he will surely allow it, although will attempt to convince me out of it. So I'm going to steal his band, the one that can transport a human from place to place
Tai spent the next week being closely monitored by healers, leaving me to my own vices.Most of the week I spent writing, trying to make sense of my tumultuous thoughts, finding a place for it all within my brain. When I finally felt like I had compartmentalised it all, I was exhausted, both emotionally and physically. At least I've healed, only what appears to be small scars the last reminder of what happened that night in the cave.Today I've forced myself outside. The morning has been glorious, the dewy grass glistening under the sunlight as I wander aimlessly through the gardens. However dark clouds chased me back inside, yet another storm threatening to roll in.