Managing to have found the smoothest slab of stone in the cave, I lay myself upon it.
It's cold, but the fire Marek has created helps. Despite the flames licking up the cave wall, magnificent shadows dancing tauntingly upon us, the heat doesn't reduce the chill that has crept across my skin. Seeing Marek use his abilities, kill someone...I can't get it out of my head. And despite the fact that he saved me, when he could have sacrificed me and escaped, he chose to protect me, I refuse to trust him.
And he's still protecting me. But I'm not foolish enough to think I can trust him, especially since I'm likely still his prisoner. If I try to run, he will chase me, or maybe even use his abilities on me again.
Marek sits on a rock a few steps away from me, prodding the fire with a singed stick. I can't read his expression, but that doesn't bother me. I'm fascinated with his face, where the markings of a Summoners unused power dwells has now vanished. Remnants remain, dusted along his hairline, now in a dark shade of sapphire.
"They are going to be coming for us," he murmurs. Loosening a breath, I stare out to the edge of the cave, where a flurry of snow dances, leaving patches not far from us. It's going to be a cold night, so I'm grateful for the fire Marek created, and his coat which is still draped across me.
Even if it's taking every part of me not to get up and run away. I would never survive in this weather, and even if Marek has made it clear he doesn't want me dead, I don't want to test his trust by making a run for it.
"Comforting."
His eyes find mine. "I'm simply warning you."
I sigh, sitting up. He watches me do so, my movements still slightly uneasy, with the drug still ebbing through my bloodstream. That may be concern, or maybe even regret that flickers through his eyes, before he blinks, and it vanishes.
“You must get lonely, spending your whole life hunting," I find myself saying. It's a risk, digging under his skin with these remarks. But he doesn't flinch, or appear irritated for even a moment. His mask reduces, revealing somewhat of a solemn expression.
“It’s no lonelier of a life than what it would be if I didn’t hunt," he admits, setting his stick down beside him.
I want to ask about his family, his past, but the words fall short before the touch my lips. It's not business any of mine, nor should I care, but I can't help my curiosity. I look at him and see a beautifully dangerous, lethal man with unspoken magic - magic he hadn't used in years, and never intended to. I can't help but wonder...
“Why do it, is all?”
“Why believe in your Tani?” he questions. I can feel incipient anger increasing within me, which I quickly shun down. He comes from another life, another way of being raised that is unfamiliar with my villages practice. I can blame him for wanting to kill my Tani, but not for that.
“It’s all I’ve ever known," I admit.
Thinking back to my village, I was always schooled from home. Once a week, our community would gather to pray and sing and connect with each other, sharing knowledge on our Tani. Because my schooling was so focused on my belief, I've developed little skills or hobbies. I regret that about my life everyday.
“Exactly.”
I settle back against the cave wall. Has all he ever known hunting? He's so strange, his backstory frosted over, never allowed to be touched. I shouldn't ask anymore about him, though.
“Believing in a Tani is peaceful, however blind my faith may be," I tell him pointedly. A frown flutters across his face, his eyebrows furrowing. He seems shocked at what I've admitted to him, which I can't blame him for. I don't know how many people from my village would admit there is a possibility my faith could be unjustified.
“You don’t believe?”
“Sometimes. But in my heart I believe my Tani is good, and that’s the most important thing," I say softly. I mean that.
A comfortable silence settles over us, as we dwell upon what each other has said. I can forgive him for having a complicated relationship with Tani. That's the beautiful thing about faith in Tani. It can take so many different forms, whether it is positive or negative. I just hope after this, Marek won't go after my Tani, and will reconsider.
“Do you have a boyfriend?” he asks suddenly. I flinch, turning my head against the slate of stone to shoot him a wary look.
“No...What’s that look?”
His eyebrows are risen, looking genuinely shocked. I'm too shy to admit to him that my family have been corresponding with particular families to set up a marriage for the future. They wanted to give me options, so I could at least find love in what was offered. But as much as I tried to get to know those young men, none of them fit.
“I’m surprised, that’s all," he admits, stepping away from the fire which has settled into a comfortable blaze. I watch him sit down a few steps away from me, my heart rate accelerating.
“Surprised? I’m a girl who just moved away from a strict home for the first time. My life has been encompassed with supporting my Tani," I say, my tone half-joking, but my blood has run cold. Marek shrugs loosely, not fazed.
The fire casts shadows across his already sharp features. “You’re pretty, young, innocent in an inexperienced kind of way. You don’t see that much anymore," he comments, as if it's meant to flatter me.
“Inexperienced?”
“Innocence. Where I’ve been, I’ve met too many people who have seen a lot of bad things. It corrupts a person," Marek describes, to which I sigh. I've never had the chance to be corrupted. Until now I suppose. I can't help but wonder if this will stick with me when this is all over.
It's not as if I'll ever forget Marek.
“Well, I refused to be flattered by a Summoner who is also my kidnapper calling me pretty. I’m better than that," I murmur, stumbling over my words foolishly. It may be easy to say that, but my own thoughts betray me. The way Marek talks about me, like I'm deserving of all the affections in the world makes my heart flutter foolishly.
He chuckles. “Fair. I wouldn’t be either.”
“At least you’re reasonable...well, as much as an obsessed man may be," I comment. It's refreshing, having a semblance of his humanity return. Do Summoner's have humanity? Their magic originates from the Demonic River, then passed down through generations.
“Obsessed? It’s more like a hobby," Marek retorts, the corner of his mouth tilting up.
“Unlikely. What other interests do you have?” I ask, wondering if my gentle proving will allow him to be less reluctant in revealing parts of himself. He must realise I'm attempting to make conversation, as he leans back on elbows, staring up at the ceiling of the cave, fascinated by the patterns that play out from the fire.
“Swimming, exploring, being outside. You?”
I think about that. My interests are rather pathetic, in all honest. I have no skills, no viable hobbies that could benefit my life in any way, but I answer regardless. “Walking in nature, being with my family, singing."
“You’re not as insufferable as I thought you would be," he admits softly. I shift on my rock, feeling oddly satisfied with myself, before I have to strictly remind myself his opinions about me shouldn't matter.
“Me? Insufferable? What have you that impression?”
“It’s not personal. Every town dweller seems to be a bit self-consumed," he admits, to which I scrunch my nose up. I'm not town-dweller, but I suppose I know what he means by that. If I'm honest, I would have to agree with him. I was only at the Inn for less than two weeks, but a few clients were near insufferable.
“Well-“
Suddenly, a light flickers from outside, brazening licking it's way to the mouth of our safe place. Marek stills at the sight of it, while my heart soars right into my throat. I'm imaging this forest is mostly uninhabited, so it's not as if we would have passer-by's.
My suspicions are confirmed, as two figures appear before the mouth of the cave, their lit torches illuminating the cave in unwelcome light. Marek is on his feet in less than a second, but the weapons that glint maliciously in their hands stops him short.
Rifles.
“Look what we have here. Fugitives," one of them says, the firelight dancing across his face menacingly. The two men wear the same uniforms I saw a glimpse of from earlier. Velvet in a royal blue colour, a red band wrapped around their waist. Those are colours I'm unfamiliar with. The ruling authority from where I'm from a women, who does little in interfere in our lives. And of course, the overruling King.
“We broke no law. We are nomads," Marek says uneasily, trying to remain calm, but the sight of their guns has clearly caught him off guard.
The two men exchange glances. “Interesting excuse. The King will be beyond fascinated.”
“We mean no one any harm. We aren’t a risk to the King, or any of you. Just be on your way," Marek warns, motioning toward the outside of the cave. They step inside regardless, blocking our path for escape. Either we fight, or go with them to this King they speak of.
Marek steps forward, hands up to defuse the situation. The men flinch, but they don't react with their guns. My mind lingers; are those guns even loaded? I somehow doubt it. Jade Province members are typically ver peaceful. And with their dark hair and soft features, I have no doubt of their origin.
“We are wearing charms, so don’t think about using your Summoning powers," one spits, nodding to a thin band around his wrist. Marek frowns, baffled by this unknown technology.
“Summoner,” Marek corrects smoothly. “And I don’t think you know how much power I actually have.”
There's defeat in the way he speaks, a suggestion of his willingness to comply with these men. If Marek figures there is no safe way to get out of this situation, then surrounding must be the only option. The two men sense the slip in his demeanour, and nod between each other.
“Cuff him. He’s useless,” one of the men mutters, his partner stepping forward to Marek, who holds his hands up. Then, the mans gaze finds me, and he sneers at me. “As for the girl. She’ll come along nicely, won’t you sweetheart?”
“Pig," I growl.
He moves toward me, going to grab me, but I rear back, and slam my fist right into his left cheek, sending him stumbling backward in shock. Everyone in the room is taken aback, including me. That comment created enough fear and anger for me to react with enough force to do some damage.
The man corrects his stance, holding his face, rifle falling from his hands. I knew it. The gun isn't loaded, just there for show and intimidation.
He comes at me again, and this time, I lash out with my foot, striking him right below the knee. The man's associate doesn't make a move to defend him, too busy apprehending Marek. I look at Marek. He saved me, but he's also my kidnapper. I don't want to fall into his trap again, but walking into the snow alone would be a death sentence in itself.
My hesitation gives the man enough time to right himself, and come at me with a fresh sense of vengeance. I fight and protest, but to no avail. He's clearly got some training, as he slaps silver cuffs around my wrists.
“You’ve made a mistake pretty lady,” he growls in my ear, pulling my back against his chest violently. “The Kings going to take a liking to you.”
My hands are planted firmly on the wooden seat, dampness gathering upon my palms.
A servant girl leads me to my room for the night.It's beautiful, even if it's small. The architecture of this manor is magnificent, and this room does not undermine that. It's been dressed and furnished with a mix of colours; navy blue and grey, which is unlikely to be the creative choice of the King himself. Other than a bed, a couple bedside tables, and an armoire, the room has little to it.This time last night, I was in a cave with Marek, wondering what my future would hold. Now I'm being invited to dinner with a King. But I'm not excited, as I kick off my shoes, digging my toes into
Taius is at dinner when we walk in.Marek and I arrive at the same time. I feel foolish walking into this large dining hall, dressed in a tight fitting dress, that I tug at awkwardly. Mercilessly, Marek never made a comment on it, but as I walk toward where Taius sits, I notice his gaze sweep over me brazenly.The dining hall is decorated beautifully, a panoply of paintings strung across the wall which drip wealth I will never understand. Atop the long dining table, is a variety of food, which my stomach immediately reacts to. I don't know the last time I ate something.
I wander up the stairs, defeated, and thankfully not being escorted by anyone.That did not go as I expected. Here I was hoping I would be going back to my family, leaving this mess behind me. But now I'm walking to what will be my room for an undetermined amount of time. I refuse to allow it to be awhile, though. Whatever it might take, I'm going to escape this place.Suddenly a figure appears from around the corner. Pausing, I watch them approach, head down as they stare into a book, oblivious to each step they take before them. A girl, close to my age no doubt.
I stare at the porcelain bath, considering it.My bedroom door is firmly closed, away from Vaia, Taius and everyone else in this place. Yet the thought of bathing has me shivering, not wanting to feel vulnerable for a single moment in this place. Yet I'm desperate to wash this day off me, and with the chill that has fallen over this place, a bath sounds delectable.Running the bath, I add some fragrant oils and salts, and begin to undress, looking out at the stars that wink and glimmer tauntingly in the distance. Who knows when I will have any semblance of freedom again.
I walk into the dining hall for breakfast the next morning with my head held high.Taius is alone, sitting at the table, having not touched a single piece of food on the table. What I can see of the breakfast, looks foreign, with fruits and citrus found only in the warmer climates such as the Golden Province, cut and displayed in a way that has my stomach yearning for a taste.His eyes find me, more olive green this morning rather than the shadowy forest colour like what I stared into last night during my bath. My blood chills at the intensity of his gaze, the sensuous way it sweeps across
I can't breathe. I don't want to breathe.I'm waiting for something, that never comes. I at least expect my skin to start burning, and then for every molecule in my body to dissolve. Instead, nothing comes. The only change I feel is the slightest breeze, wistful and soft, as it playfully flutters along the hem of my dress. Disobeying Taius's request, my eyes open.My knees nearly give out beneath me. In all honesty, I didn't expect it to work. No, it didn't work.
I knock on the door, my breath hitched in my throat.The note is crumpled in my hand, but I brought it nonetheless. I'm here less out of necessity, and more out of curiosity. Vaia summoned me to her quarters with a quickly written note, containing nothing but a few words. I'm frightened she's here to pummel me over the head for being in her brothers company, or rip the clothes from my body and claim them as hers.As much as Vaia is not my favourite person in this place, she does have a beautiful quarter all to herself, that I find myself envying. From rich wooden floors sweeping up to pale wallpaper, the place is furnished neatly with a few rugs, furniture and most impressively, hand-built, carved bookshelves laden with an endless supply of books.
Eight days later. I stare out the window, but see nothing but my own face staring back at me. The nights here in the Azure Province are long and cold, snow falling ever since we arrived a few days ago. We decided this would be the best place to flee to, hidden in the back of a freight train that Tai smuggled us onto. We almost didn't survive the cold, but we had both agreed this Province would be the last place Marek would look. It's too obvious. The door opens from behind me, the heavy wood creaking on it's metal joints. Glancin
My hands brush against the wall, letting it guide me down the hallway as the darkness blinds me.I'm not sure where I'm going, but it's far from the commotion downstairs. The screaming has ceased, but there are a lot of people moving, like the rebel group are rounding people up and moving them about. How many are there? Tai should be okay down there, but what if he isn't? He needs to stay for his people, but part of me wishes I had encouraged him to come with me.Suddenly, the lights in the hallway flicker on. Flinching, I cover my eyes until they adjust to the sudden assault of light, and once they finally do, I realise that Vaia is standing in the hallway with me.
Tai sits on the edge of his bed, a frown etched into his features.Only five minutes earlier, we were downstairs, Tai have to have addressed the guests who he has offered rooms to here. He claimed that Marek has been obsessed with me for months, and that he has been taken into the prisons to be held. None of that is true, of course. In fact, Tai's guards have been unable to find Marek."You don't have to stay in my room tonight, even if our guests will want to gossip seeing you wander around the halls," Tai says softly, finally releasing his frown, breathing in deeply. The guests already have a lot to gossip about tonight after the incident with Marek.After a
Tai pulls the curtain back, glancing through before closing it again.Beyond, people chatter, seated as they await the beginning of the ceremony. The nerves in my stomach accompany the sound of their unbothered voices, knowing that I'm going to have to step out there soon and exchange vows with Tai, and then kiss him in front of all those people."Don't be nervous," he murmurs, turning back to look at me. Mercifully, Tai has ordered the seamstresses to keep my dress as minimal as possible. The fabric and beading is still decadent and soft, the veil I've pulled behind me is beautifully sheer, hanging off a small crown glittering with silver jewels. This wedding isn't about the show, but about the substance, about what a union will mean for his kingdom.
The next few weeks past by so quickly, I hardly have time to grasp everything.Tomorrow, Tai and I will be married in front of a strategically chosen guest list. From then on, we will be closely monitoring the rebel presence, and the strength of the local villages support. If all goes well, I may not have to stay here much longer, but that is all hypothetical. Right now, nothing is known for certain.Jessa and I lie in bed together, night nearing on early morning. Sleeping isn't a realistic possibility right now, my mind busy trying to process everything that has been going on. Tomorrow will be a defining moment for all of us."Are you nervous?" Jessa asks sof
"I can't believe you convinced me into this."The golden glow of the lamp light above guides Tai and I down the street, the moonlight bathing the cobblestones of the street with a pale sheen. The darkness of the night is a stark contrast to this morning, when Tai approached me and asked me if I would come to dinner with him. I didn't expect us to go so far out from the estate."I promise it will be worth it Akara," Tai murmurs. I glance at him, his hands shoved into his jacket pockets, his emerald eyes watching me with gentle intention. He's dressed nicely, simply. There is no evidence in his attire that he is a King, although it's so obvious in his face. He has a regal nature about him, the tilt of his lips, the sweep of his cheekbones...You could see one
I woke to all the feelings of frustration and anger having vanished, leaving a hollow feeling in my stomach. Another morning of waking up to my own cruel reality, and yet another day of trying to recover from it, trying to move on.As usual, the day dragged on, Tai gone off like he usually is, dealing with both the rebel presence, and the cruel reality of the war, which has been bothering the King more recently. He hasn't shared much with me about the war, other than that it's been a financial and emotional drain, knowing that he is sending men to die.My father never spoke much about the horrors of the war either, leaving much up to my imagination. All I know is that it's a battle between independent rebel groups within the Jade Province and the Scarlet Pr
I'm going to go home.Hours have passed since I spoke to Marek, since I saw what he was doing under Tai's demands. I've been pacing back in forth in my room since, wondering if I should bother packing the clothing Tai's people have brought from nearby villages. I don't want a reminder of this place once I leave...Even if I don't know where to go yet.I haven't changed, my clothing and hair still wet when I decide want my plan moving forward is.I need to get away, but quickly. If I tell Tai I'm leaving, he will surely allow it, although will attempt to convince me out of it. So I'm going to steal his band, the one that can transport a human from place to place
Tai spent the next week being closely monitored by healers, leaving me to my own vices.Most of the week I spent writing, trying to make sense of my tumultuous thoughts, finding a place for it all within my brain. When I finally felt like I had compartmentalised it all, I was exhausted, both emotionally and physically. At least I've healed, only what appears to be small scars the last reminder of what happened that night in the cave.Today I've forced myself outside. The morning has been glorious, the dewy grass glistening under the sunlight as I wander aimlessly through the gardens. However dark clouds chased me back inside, yet another storm threatening to roll in.