CALIFF I was soaking in my own sweat. I was burning up inside and shivering outside. I was convulsing. At first, I refused to give in. When another surge of pain seeped through every cell and bone in my body, it fucking hurt like hell. I surrendered. It felt ten times worse than in heat. Restless, my wolf was growling and howling as the spike of pain flooded my entire system— it was agonizing, traumatizing. I’d never felt so helpless that I couldn’t do something to ease his pain. I was trapped in a worse nightmare, the feeling of taking something so important to you by force— separating my body and my wolf, and it was the worst feeling in the world— it was earth-shattering— as if someone ripped my soul off of me and caged inside my own fear and nightmare for eternity. I couldn’t fathom what it felt like. No words could express it, and I wanted to bolt out, but my luck ran out a long time ago, and I was trapped in hell. I thought, maybe I was dead, and this was what the hell felt
SHADOW “You could use a nap, honey.” Eleanor sat next to me. “I could, but not until he’s back on his feet.” I stared up at the ceiling. I was exhausted. Even if I tried to look okay and hid it from them, a blind could see it. I hadn’t slept in three days and was losing my mind. I could barely breathe, let alone stand and eat, but I needed to be strong for Califf, the pack, and these guys with me. It had been three agonizing days for me and everyone, and it wasn’t the right time to give up when I saw progress. Now he was in the bathroom, and I was here, counting every second in my head. I let go of a long sigh of relief. “I’ll go knock and check if he needs something.” Zack hadn’t taken a step. Lyon was already gripping his arm to stop him. “I know this has been tough for us, but we should give him time. I’m sure he can link Shadow if he needs anything, and they can share thoughts. So, just relax, man. You’re making me anxious.” “Who wants tea?” Zarah broke the silence. “I’m g
CALIFF “I’m grateful for your patience.” My wife just shook to hold her laugh. “You’re shitting me, Alpha. I have all the patience in the world when it comes to you.” “Come here.” I opened my arms, and she came to me willingly. “I don’t want to crash you, and you’re still recovering. You will get another fluid tonight. Do you want anything else?” “I wanna kiss you.” She smiled. “Just kiss. We’re at Zarah’s house.” “Just kiss.” I cupped her face before she could protest and kissed her like my life depended on it. I always felt at home with her. And three days felt like an eternity before I could kiss and feel my mate. Our lips moved in sync. The moment she felt my tongue at the seam of her lips, she opened them for me, granting me access. Our tongues collided, probing deeply, swirling in her mouth. I missed her taste, the sweetest I’d ever tasted. I missed feeling her skin against mine, her touch, the warmth of her embrace, the tightness and hotness inside her. And I missed h
SHADOW “Take off your necklace. Take this one.” Zarah had another necklace in her hand. “Why, what’s wrong with this?” I removed the necklace she gave me. “This necklace is linked to me.” She put it around my neck. “It will send an alert to me if you are hurt. Don’t worry, I won’t know if you and Califf get kinky.” “Jeez.” I looked at the pendant. It was almost the same as the first one she gave me. “Thanks.” “You have five minutes with the priestess. Just tell her your purpose.” “Zarah—” The portal already appeared before I could protest because I still had in mind to lay to the priestess. “See you later.” She pushed me into the portal. I ended up in Margaret’s living room. “I know why you’re here, Shadow.” Margaret, the High Priestess, welcomed me to her minibar. “I assume Alpha Califf has recovered well.” “Yes. And thank you for meeting me. I’m here because I want to find out who is doing this. Elder Aciano has been missing for two days, and his wife is worried. He was s
CALIFF My guts told me that Shadow was hiding something from me, and it was never wrong, but I was willing to wait until she was ready. Watching her freeze like that terrified me, and it wasn’t like her. She was tactical alert and could sense danger a mile away, but not today. She saw the man coming towards us, though, and she was able to warn our guys ahead of time. Something was bothering her, distracting her from focusing on the job. I wanted to ask Zarah if she noticed something different about Shadow’s behavior, but that witch would never betray Shadow. But I still tried my luck. CALIFF: Can we talk? I sent the text and slipped my phone into my pocket. We just arrived back at the compound. We came back home yesterday since I had already felt better. And I couldn’t depend my job on Duke when he had work. “Here.” Kairo handed me discreetly the folded manila envelope. “Thank you.” I slipped it into my jacket pocket. “Guys, come with me.” “I’m hungry.” Shadow grabbed the han
SHADOW “Can mercury, like STD, be passed on to someone?” “That’s a stupid question. It can’t,” my mate answered. “Your emotions are just more human than Lycan. And maybe you should finish whatever you have unfinished dirty business with your mate. It helps a lot more than you know.” That last part made my cheeks flush. “You’re not listening, Zarah. I watched the man walk toward us, and he would shoot me. He was already pulling the gun from his back, and I just stared like a scared deer caught in headlights. If it wasn’t for Califf, I could be dead now.” “You froze, Shadow. It’s normal. It happens to everyone in that situation when it brings back bad memories. There’s nothing wrong with you.” Zarah was hiding what she saw in my head and wasn’t planning on telling me. “I didn’t have a flashback. And you said it yourself that something is blocking you. And I supposed to sense dangers and hear it a mile away,” I explained, needing more of her support than telling me there was nothin
CALIFF “I’m so sorry, Claire. I wish I had good news.” “I want you to be honest with me, Alpha. Is my husband dead?” “I don’t know, Claire.” I shook my head. I didn’t know how to answer a grieving woman waiting for her mate to return to her. And she looked like she had been crying and hadn’t been sleeping well. “The PD in the city and the sheriff hadn’t found a body. So we have hopes. That’s why we’re not giving up.” She smiled sadly. “I know he’s still alive. I may not be able to reach him out through our link, but I know he’s just somewhere having a midlife crisis and will come back to me once he realizes he has someone waiting for him at home.” “I’m sure they are doing their best to find him, and we are doing the best we can.” She stood up. “I can feel him, Alpha. I know he’s still alive.” I held the woman’s hand and smiled. “Then we will hold on to that.” “Thank you.” “No, Claire. Thank you. Just stay home. When he comes back, you will be there for him.” Once she left th
SHADOW My eyebrow arched. Califf’s phone rang, and I didn’t know it was a call from Grady, who took over the pack after Keane lost his chance. Well, he deserved it. Keane was nothing but a dirtbag and took advantage of his power, killed werewolves, conquered packs, and slept with women because he was the alpha. “Alpha Grady, it’s good to hear from you. How have you been?” He put it on speaker before putting his phone on the nightstand. “I’m good. Thank you. The pack has been great. We managed to salvage what was left, and now we’re starting to get there.” I lay back in bed as I listened to their conversation. I was already dressed in my hiking gear while Califf was still in his towel. Water drops rolled down his shoulders to his bare chest. “Good to hear that. By the way, you didn’t call just to say hello. Is there anything I can help you with?” His eyes glimmered as he caught me ogling him. I let my eyes wander down his abs. Damn, those eight packs made me drool, and the deep
CALIFF One year later “Are you okay in there?” I knocked on the bathroom door when my hearing couldn’t grasp Shadow. “Just a minute.” “Since when did we lock doors, baby?” A growl of frustration escaped her throat as the toilet flushed. “I said just a minute.” When the door unlocked, she was wearing a deep frown on her face. “I’m sorry, but I promised you a romantic getaway, and Zarah would be pissed if we wouldn’t be late when the portal appears.” A sigh rolled over her lips as she fixed her summer dress. “You’re fussing over your outfit? You can wear a shirt and shorts, baby. Look at me.” I gestured at my jeans and shirt, but I had a feeling she was upset over something. My life couldn’t be any more perfect. Our pack had been peaceful, and I had almost two hundred werewolves in my protection. My allies were everywhere. My relationships with lycan and witches were strong. Kain’s pack of werecats and I became friends. Shadow and I worked tirelessly to keep the peace and
SHADOW After eight months, Califf and I just moved into our new house. We finally got our own home and privacy, but of course, these guys were my family, and our home was always open for them. I watched Kindra and Duke’s twins rolling over the grass from the patio. Sometimes, I felt a pang of jealousy in my chest that one thing was missing in our lives— kids. Now, the pack had been peaceful for more months. I’d been ready to have kids of our own, but every time we planned, it got interrupted. “You will have your own. Just work hard on it.” I rolled my eyes at Raven. “Shut up, will you?” “A little prince and princess playing with their kids would be nice.” “I can’t hear you.” “Oh, our mate just arrived.” She was right. Califf just pulled off the driveway. August opened the door for him. “Take the car. I don’t need it, and I will use the SUV if I want to go out.” “Are you sure?” August asked. He gained some muscles and color on his cheeks. If I noticed it right, he became more
CALIFF Surprised, we stopped in the middle when Everlee yelped as Calder carried her and spun her around. “I think she just said yes.” I smiled as I looked at them. “I thought she said it already. She’s been wearing the ring for a week now.” “No, baby. She wore it but hasn’t said yes.” “Finally. I can’t wait to attend another wedding.” “Guys.” Kain caught our attention. “Hey. You’re leaving?” Shadow asked as she noticed Kain looked ready to sneak out. “Yeah. I have to catch my flight in the morning. Your father found a pack of werecats in Hawaii, but I’ll visit soon.” “What about your other job?” I was referring to his Obsidian duties. “I took a vacation.” “Well, don’t be a stranger. And take care, Kain.” *** We barely made it inside the bedroom. Considering she wore a lot of things like a corset and stockings, it took us minutes to get rid of her clothes before she was bare-naked before me. “Spread your legs apart,” I said, throwing the last sock on the floor. My ja
CALIFF “God, this is ridiculous. Is this really necessary? I’d rather wear an oversized suit than this.” It wouldn’t be Shadow without complaining of her beautiful floor-length white gown and silver-white hair in a halo braid. “Leave us,” I ordered the staff of five women, making her beautiful. She didn’t need them. Shadow was already gorgeous. “Yes. Your father said it is.” “I missed my hair.” She touched her locks, still complaining, turning silver-white when she became Lycan and hybrid again. Getting her wolf back was one of the highlights of the night, but even Zarah couldn’t explain the changes in Shadow’s hair color. “I like this more. You look like a goddess.” “You’re just saying that because you love me.” I groaned. “I love you, baby, but I swear you’re beautiful in this color. It pops out the color of your eyes. I’m pretty sure Raven would agree.” “I look like Elsa, Califf.” That one made me chuckle. “So you’re on team Anna?” “Shut up. You’re not funny.” “I like
SHADOW “Hey. Are you okay?” Califf wrapped the robe around me as I had just come back from the run. Duke and Kindra rushed to us. They were still wearing the shocked look on their faces. “What just happened?” She looked at me from head to toe. Then she touched my hair. “You get your hair colored while going for a run?” What do you mean?” I touched and checked my hair. I had the same reaction as her. “What’s going on with me?” I looked at Califf, then to Duke and Kindra. “I will call Zarah,” Califf said. “Let’s go to the pack house and get you cleaned up. “Guys.” I felt so bad for them. “I’m so sorry I ruined your party.” “Are you kidding me?” Duke was even happy and relieved. “If I’d known that the party is one way to get your wolf back, I should have thrown a party months ago.” “Yeah. The party is almost over anyway, and it was a blast.” Kindra hugged me. “I’m glad you’re fine. Go and get changed. I’ll see you soon.” “Thanks.” Califf and I left for the pack house. He hadn’t
SHADOW “Fuck.” He grunted out a curse as he held my hips steady, thrusting his rigid cock deep inside me. I mewled as I felt helpless above him, watching him devouring in his own desire. The familiar pleasure rippled through my core in fast urges. My inner muscles clamped around him, making him groan loudly. I rode his cock, preparing to come undone around him. My senses soared, overwhelmed by how much he made me feel so good. “Califf, don’t stop!” I threw my head back. My eyes popped open, staring at the ceiling as the intensity of my pleasure became too much. “Fucking good,” he said through gritted teeth as he sped up his plunge. Each thrust sent me to my own euphoria. One moment I was writhing in pleasure as his hands cupped my breasts, pinching my nipples, his hand traveling down my abdomen, his finger massaging my clit as he pumped faster and harder. My body shuddered in sweet surrender. “Look at me as you come.” His command was my undoing as he continued pounding. “Yes!
CALIFF “Hey. Where have you been?” I held her hand as she leaned down to kiss me. Most of our enforcers came to join me for breakfast, which was a fantastic morning. “I was with Zarah and Kain.” She took a seat to my left and rubbed Kindra’s growing baby bump. “How’re the babies?” “Healthy, and they make me eat a lot.” Kindra’s reply made me smile. “I can’t wait for this Saturday. I will help prepare the picnic.” “You don’t have to do that.” Kindra smiled shyly. “You have the whole pack you help you, Kindra, and I don’t take no for an answer.” “Thank you. And I invited Calder and Everlee.” “The more, the merrier.” Shadow squeezed her hand. “Don’t stress it out. Show us what you like, and we will make it possible.” After breakfast, Shadow went up while I checked the progress of the house. When I got back into our room, she was staring at the dirt on the sheet, which I didn’t even notice was there. “I sleepwalked, and I don’t remember how it happened.” “Are you sure?” I came
SHADOW I woke up from a vague dream of walking to the cliff. That was the only thing I remembered. I got up from bed only to see my feet were dirty with mud. I also saw traces of dirt on the sheets. My heart pounded. Did I sleepwalk? It was only four in the morning. I cleaned my feet and texted Zarah. She would hate me to disturb her sleep at this time, but it was a kind of emergency. While changing into jeans and a shirt, I checked Califf, but he was still sleeping. I got out of our room, and the portal was already there. “What the hell is wrong with all of you?” I was met by the mad bull Zarah. “All?” “Yeah.” She walked away from me. “Your father just left for a business meeting.” “You don’t even wanna know what’s the emergency.” I followed her to the kitchen. “I take it you would tell me,” she said as she filled the kettle with water. Then she put it over the fire. “I think I’m sick.” I opened her drawers to check if she had a silver cutlery. I wanted to test the theory I
CALIFF “The boy is telling the truth.” Zack leaned against the opened window of the car. “I just dropped the medical supplies to their apartment. Two small bedrooms, not a good neighborhood.” “Is he here?” Zack tipped his head. “Yes. He’s working eight hours. Later, a dish-pig at the diner.” “Thank you.” “I’m thirsty.” Shadow had already got out of the car. “His mother was surprised, and she said thank you.” He pulled the door open for me. “She raised a good son and would do anything for his mother, even risking his life.” I got out and buttoned my suit. “What’s your plan with the boy?” He kept saying boy when August was an adult. “He’s twenty, Zack.” I entered the convenience store. “Well—” “Fill the tank, will you? And don’t worry, he’s human, and you’re a werewolf.” Zack just stared at me. I knew he had a special place in Shadow’s heart, and he might just scared of the undivided attention we were giving him. I looked around, and I didn’t find August. “He’s over there.