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#Chapter 59: Newfound Feelings

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“Of course, I’m not jealous, don’t be ridiculous,” I said, trying to sound casual, but my own words felt off as soon as they left my lips. It felt like I was deceiving not only James but also myself.

With a forced scoff, I attempted to hide my unease, pretending to be nonchalant as I stared at the dirt under my nails. "Besides, what would I have to be jealous of, right? I'm definitely not the jealous type."

James gave me a small smile, tilting his head as he observed me. "You keep repeating that word, 'jealous.'"

It was obvious that I wasn't convincing him. Hell, I wasn't even able to convince myself that I wasn't jealous.

God. This was not good.

Is that what this feeling is? Jealousy?

Is that why I said something so harsh and cruel to Lucas? To hurt him back because I was... jealous?

"No!" I blurted out loud, even though I meant to keep it to myself. My true emotions escaped my attempts to keep them hidden.

"No?" James asked. He was staring at me harder than he was a few seconds ago.
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