It isn't like before

❤Billie Rolene❤

"Who is the girl on the picture?" i asked and he narrowed his eyes at me

We stared at eachother for long and he said in hesitation

"She's called Nina..my first love"

"Alright.." i said.

He still kept his gaze on me..like studying my expression.

I wasn't ready to hear him say those words but i had to know the truth somehow..

The was silence as he spinned the bottle and it landed on Elsa

"Truth or dare?" he asked

"Truth" she responded

"Did you remove those letters from my cupboard and trapped Billie with Ninas' picture?" Adrian asked and i turned my gaze to Elsa giving her a confused look.

What is Adrian talking about?

She was nervous trying to respond

"Elsa.." Adrian said 

"Yes..i did" Elsa responded and i shrugged

I looked at her unbelievably and asked

"Why?" she didn't respond. 

She spinned the bottle and it landed on Adrian..

"Truth or dare?" Elsa asked

"Dare" Adrian said

"I dare you to tell us what's on your mind right now.." Elsa said

"Why did you do that?" he asked her as i was still staring at her in disbelieve

"Unfortunately i can't answer that..i was just asking you to tell us what's on your mind" Elsa said and Adrian sigh

Adrian spinned the bottle and it landed on Ashley

Ashley was startled because she didn't expect it to land on her.

"Truth or dare?" Adrian asked her

"Truth" Ashley responded

"Give an advise and a word of truth to someone here without mentioning their name?" Adrian asked Ashley

"Stop forcing your self on someone you know doesn't feel same for you..because you'll end up breaking their trust and hurting the people around you.

Whatever is meant to happen will happen and there's nothing you or anyone can do about it!" Ashley said

I knew who she was talking to and what she meant

Adrian just gave her a confused look..

While Elsa looked hurt and speechless.. 

I felt pity for her at a point but when i remembered what she did i was so hurt.

I understand that she has feelings for Adrian but if not that Adrian is friendly to me..who knows what he would have done, Knowing i hurt his feelings.

Ashley spinned the bottle and it landed on Elsa

"Truth or dare?" she asked

"Dare" Elsa answered

"I dare you to go on your knees and apologize to Billie for what you did..NOW!" Ashley said and Elsa shook head 

"I can't!" Elsa

"You have to or you quit the game!" Ashley and i raised my hand and stopped her

"It's ok. No one is quiting the game yet. Just go ahead and tell her to do something else" i said

"Go and apologize to Adrian then" Ashley said to Elsa and she obeyed

"I'm sorry..Adrian" Elsa said and Adrian kept quite 

I couldn't read his expression that time because he was just normal.

He nodded after a while and she woke up and went to her sit.

When she spinned the bottle, it landed on Adrian

"Truth or dare?" She asked 

"Truth" Adrian responded

"Do you still have feelings for Nina?" Elsa asked and Adrian shrugged

I studied his expression and most specifically waiting for his answer. We all looked at him as he said

"I don't know.." he said and i sigh in relief

I don't know why i felt insecure..

"But i still do have feelings for her..but it isn't like before" Adrian said again and my heart skipped.

Did he mean that!?

It was Adrians turn but he refused playing saying he wants a break..

He just sat there watching

So Elsa has to play again

She spinned the bottle and it landed on me

"Truth or dare?" Elsa asked 

"Truth" i said

"What happened to your previous relationship that made you sill your heart?" Elsa asked and my heart so bad 

Why did she choose to asked me this question!?

Adrian turned his gaze to her and said

"Enough of this game Elsa..no one is playing anymore. I brought this idea up..and now it's close!" 

I looked at him and said 

"Let it go Adrian. I'll answer her question. It's time i face the reality." he still didn't agree but said

"If you feel like stopping on the way, just do it. Okay?" i nodded slightly

I took a deep breath and started

"It was my 3rd year in college when i met my ex. Everything was going well..but then he kept his real personality from me. 

When i was so deep in the relationship, he started hanging out with other girls in my back. 

I had no idea what was going on..but Ashley kept giving me feedback on his life style.

It was too late for me because i felt i loved him so much..so i didn't listen to any of that

But one day..he came late at night to my apartment. I opened the door for him and asked why he came this late?

He said he was bored and was thinking about me all day. So he just came to spend the night with me.

I said okayy..'cause he has never done this. I found that strange.

Usually we sleep on the same bed but, i gave a gap and he respected that decision because it was mine. 

But, this day..it was different.." i said and took a breath

Adrian..just gave me a soft gaze.

"He..he started touching me. And i scolded him..but he kept on. At first i thought he was just being stuborn..so i tried talking to him calmly. 

And he raised his hand and slapped me hard on my jaw.

I fell backwards on the bed and blood came out of my nostrils.. when i saw it, i screamed.

So he injected me a drug and i felt..weak.

I wasn't seeing clearly..i just..laid there helpless..and..powerless.

He..started kissing me allover and..he undressed me..

But not completely..leaving my bra and panties...

I knew it was over for me..but then  Ashley got in forcefully and saw him over me.

He stood up immediatly and left. She tought of calling the police but she didn't know what to tell them.

She had no evidence. She took me to the hospital and called my mom and my mom called my dad.

I took me months to recover 'cause i was traumatise.

And that drug he injected in me, affected me so bad..my dad wanted to revenge on that but i refused..saying it was my fault.

If only i listened to Ashley..non of this would have happened.. non. I was so stupid." i said in a shaking voice.

"So..that's what happened. Are you satisfied now?" i asked Elsa and looked away. 

As my eyes became watery..i couldn't control it anymore.

So, i rose up and went to my room hastily..and Adrian stood up and followed me.

I entered my room and Adrian came in after

"What do want?" i asked him breathing heavily as tears dropped down my cheeks.

He came closer.. and i stoped him

"don't get any closer" i said in a shaking voice and shook my head

"It's ok..it's ok. You don't have to blame yourself anymore. For it's not your fault." he said and i started sobbing

He came very close and said

"Look at me.." and i did

He wiped my tears and said.

"Everything is gonna be ok" 

I nodded and embrased him..he held me so tight and kissed my head. 

"It's gonna be ok..I'm here for you." he said again

I held his shirt tide from behind and laid my head on his chest..as he kept sleeping my hair..and kissing it.

❤.....❤