Chapter 1
The basement office was starting to get to him. He looked around and wondered if this was his life now as he could smell the dankness with the musty scent that was in the hallways as well. He was one of the best the newspapers had called him. They had said he was the one to get the case closed. That was how his supervisors had put out the call to every station in the country. He was an asset to be used. He felt like a used tissue or one of the handkerchiefs that the older generation used over and over.
He felt like he was used. There was no getting around that fact. He was burning out quickly between the two things he was currently doing. Things were getting rough. Things were getting lonely as well. He knew what he wanted out of life, but a detective who could hunt any clue and find the most hidden facts couldn't figure out how to get a girlfriend. He knew he had problems. He just didn’t know how to work around those problems. It was the same day every day, no matter what.
Max Anderson rested his head on his arm as he leaned into the desk. He knew he had made some sacrifices for his jobs. He hoped he hadn't ruined all of his life in choosing this pathway. As he looked around the office, he knew he wanted to go out and work in the field this weekend. He honestly needed to get out of the office and outside doing something other than grading papers. Some fresh air to stimulate his blood was needed. He needed to use his skills other than going over files for others.
All the students were the same. He had been doing this for four years now. He was working the two different things in being a professor and super detective, according to everyone who talked about him. He certainly didn't feel that way. Max knew that he wasn't all that much older than most of the students when he started this new journey. He had started when he was twenty-four. No one had really thought he would go as far as he had. Most of all him. Max had shocked himself more than anyone he had met along the way. They all assumed that he would do great things.
He was surprised from the moment he came back from overseas. He had lost part of the use in his arm. Therefore, he wasn't useful to the army any longer. However, as he worked to build up the muscles in his arm again, he was able to get the use back. He had already been discharged, so while in college, he applied for the police academy. He went through the schools and then worked his way through the ranks rather quickly. It was a small district. So as people retired from it, he could move up. Then at Twenty-five, he was in charge of the entire department. He was known as the one who could get things done. People knew despite his age, he would be the future of the force.
His supervisors all saw that he was good. He was even more than he thought he was. It was time to use that to the benefit of everyone in the area. When they brought up the idea of using him as the newest professor, he jumped at it. He had a lot of input in the program from basically rewriting it from the other manuals he had seen that didn't really ever get used. He wrote his own instead starting from scratch.
As the professor, the first year he had made up his mind, there had to be a few lines he couldn't cross. He would never date a student though he had seen a few of the professors do just that for a few favors in changing the grades. The professors, when they met, would often talk about the young female students. It almost turned his stomach. To regard these young women as nothing more than pieces of meat who could get the older men off was disgusting. He would never say he didn’t look at the women. He was male, after all. He could admire the female form without being a perv about it.
He needed a break. He got up and stretched his long legs and stretched. He decided to go get a breath of fresh air. He walked up the back stairs that were down the long dark hallway that nearly half of the lights never had worked in the time he had been there. He continued up the stairs and out the door that was there in front of them. He propped open the door so he didn't have to fish out his keys.
That was when he spotted the lone female in the field looking up to the sky. He knew who she was without thought. She was the one student he had ever thought of as something more than just a student. Though he knew that could never really happen. He had tried to push her out of his thoughts but even when he had tried to move on, and he had run into her over and over again.
Now was no different, he thought. She was like a small little fairy that was always around when he needed to steady himself and think about the next move he was going to make, either for work or his life. He decided to just watch her off to the side of the building. He would be concealed for the most part. That way, whatever she was doing, she wouldn't be embarrassed if he saw her.
She had an issue talking to him. When she was his student, there had been an incident early on in the year. She had wanted to say something to him, but she froze. That was when another person came into the room, and he looked away, and she bolted out of the room. He had watched her ever since. She was nearly perfect even though she was young.
She was stunningly beautiful, but he thought she had no idea. He had watched her over the years as she grew as a person. The school had not broken her in any way, and she had instead stayed busy and kept to herself. She was the smartest of the that year as well. He knew he could watch her for years and never get tired of it. She was the one woman who had gotten under his skin and stayed there.
The fact she had helped him with one of the hardest cases he had that year, as well as something he couldn't get over. He knew he was stunted when it came to dating. He didn't trust women. Most women, that was. All stemming from his first real date. That had gone horrible. He knew he had to get over it. He didn't know how, though.
She was staring at something in the sky. Max watched the tiny elfin woman in the field. She didn't seem to notice that someone was there watching her. He could feel the cool air fill his lungs, and it felt so much better than being in the office. However, now that he saw her again, he knew he would be full of images of her over the past few years for the next few weeks.
He knew he was never going to be able to fight himself on the idea of her being perfect, though. She was simply that. She had grown over the past few years. He closed his eyes and wished for her to be happy one day. That was all he could really do. He did hope one day she could find someone who would keep her on that pedestal he had placed her on. She deserved that much in life.
He watched her from his spot against the building until she walked away from the field. He sighed with the loss of her being close but not that close. He had to wonder what she was actually doing there at night. He turned his wrist to look at the time. It wasn't that late, but it was dark. He wanted to go after her though he knew he couldn't. Instead, he turned and went back inside. He let the door close behind him. Max hated the idea of this one person so close but not close enough.She was so much more than he deserved in life. Though she seemed to be there and trying to do big things as well. He sighed as he thought of her finding any other person but him. He could only have her in daydreams. Though he would never, not even to himself, admit how much he really wanted her.Deanna Watson was everything he wanted in life. He would try to forget her. Though as he made the way to his office, he could only see her in his mind.
Gigi flew out of her seat and after him. She was through the doors and almost to his car before he was. She leveled a stare at him that made him want to laugh. "Where the hell do you think you are going?" she demanded as she nearly wobbled from the high heels, she was wearing and stomping her foot so hard. Max had to believe no one had ever turned her down for a night of fun. He could see why but that wasn't what he wanted. He didn't want the shiny showpiece that everyone around him might have wanted. He knew her type. The bunnies, as they had been nicknamed, only wanted to be with a cop or someone in law enforcement. He wanted someone who wanted to be with him. It didn't seem like that would be all that hard to find, but someone it was."I told you that I don't think this is working out. I was rather nice in the restaurant, and I think pretty clear. I don't like wasting time, though." Max said."How do you know what I can do for you?" she a
As he got to his office at the university, he was really feeling it everywhere on how he was exhausted. He didn't want to do anything as he sat in the teacher's parking lot near the building he worked at. That was one of the only perks of the job. The other was he was getting really good at finding the right combo of pain relievers to get rid of headaches. The younger people seemed to bring them on in droves. He enjoyed working on a mostly unsolvable case much more, and the headaches often were fixed the minute he put the puzzle together. He had never thought he was good at puzzles either, but he had proven that he could see things and know things about human behavior that helped in his line of work.He started to get a phone call on his work cell, and he pulled it out of his jacket. "Anderson." He said into the speaker."Max." a male voice said that he knew well."What do you want, Paulin?" Max laughed.
When he looked at the file he had picked up, he didn’t recognize the name on it. He then opened it and saw the first report. A name he knew from the past was there. He shook his head and tried to clear it. He must be projecting this somehow. He had thought of her earlier in the night. That had been a first in a long time. Though he ignored the thoughts most of the time. He could find something to distract himself easily. This was the one person he never wanted to think of again. This was the one person he hated on the planet. This was the woman who had taken his life away from him.This woman was dead.The pictures were her. She hadn’t changed that much. It was easy to see her again still in his mind. He looked at the name again. She must have gotten married because the name was different on this one file. His department
He drove to his house that he had thought might be the answer for him to cure his boredom. He had thought that maybe one day it would be the best place to come back to after a long day at work. However, it was still empty. It was quiet. It had none of the things that he wanted to be there, there.He had blamed all of his issues on one thing. It was the fact he didn’t know how to trust women. He had seen the things that they had done to him and other men when they didn’t get their way. He knew all women were not like that. Reasoning with himself didn’t help. It was the same for men. Not all men were horrible and rapists, but it was far easier to believe a woman and let the damage be done to the man’s life. It was a sad fact of life.When he tossed off his jacket and then knew he had to hang it up. He had only a few good jackets to wear along
Tossing and turning all night when he woke up, he didn’t want to get out of his bed. However, he knew that he had a class in an hour. He rolled out of bed and looked down to the ground, and picked up the towel on the floor. He then moved to the bathroom to begin his morning shaving. Though he normally would get a cup of coffee first, he was already going to be dragging throughout the day. It was pointless to start off with the coffee, he thought.After he cut himself three times, he gave up. Luckily it didn’t look all that bad. He then removed a shirt from the hanger and grabbed a tee shirt and a pair of boxers. As he started to dress, he took the pair of pants that were in the front of the house, which he had not worn the day before. He then looked at his shirt and saw that he had buttoned everything wrong. He shook his head an
Max started to go over the folder point by point for the class. Though he noticed that he was having some issues speaking because of his burnt tongue. He wanted to laugh at himself. His glasses now on his face though he normally didn’t need them. His headache from not sleeping well the night before was already throbbing. His mouth hurt. His face felt like it was in ribbons. He shin was killing him. He couldn’t shake the feeling that more was headed his way.Every second was lasting forever. It was like time wasn’t moving at all. He was halfway through the folder when the fire alarm went off for the building. He looked up, and then he nodded, “Go outside and wait by the light by the field. Make sure to check in with me.”He had to check in with each of them after they went outside. Everyone didn’t listen about leavi
When the building was cleared for everyone to get their things, a campus-wide alert was sent out as to why people would be late to their classes. Max went into the building and took the stairs up to the hall and then back down to the basement. He overheard the Dean of the department talking about how some of the classes would be changing over the next year.The admin would be reaching out to all the students affected. Max knew what that meant. People would be out three years of work or so. He felt bad for the students. He was wondering what things were going to be cut. He figured it would be something like his classes. The admin had vetoed all the things that he had wanted to do. Though he tried over and over to get his new ideas passed through, nothing seemed to work. He wasn’t good at politics.As Max went to his office and opened it and saw there was no d
The next few days Max was completely engrossed in going over the course from the beginning to the end. He had already rewritten at once and now he was going to make it more specific period he was already looking up case files and everything else that he could possibly do to get everything completely set. Though the paperwork Adam actually come in yet he was betting that it would any day now. He was OK with the fact that it wasn't totally official because he had the men’s word and his own captain's word working for him. He knew that they just had to make it more transferable on paper. He would leave that to them knowing that that was what it was going to be.the next few days he was also dealing with Deanna who is still in the middle of her grief. Though it seemed to hit her at random times it was still hitting her out of the blue. She was dealing with everything as she always did with her head held high even if she had tears in her eyes. She was really try
Max stop Deanna and the kids off at the university and then he went to the Academy. He knew that it wasn't going to take very long for him to go over everything. When he did get there he was ushered into their conference room and he passed out the folders to the three Deans of the different academies. He knew that that was going to be the number one thing that he had to do was make sure that he sold the program. He was good at selling himself as well. He had been doing it for years since he left the military. One of the things that he had to learn that in the civilian world it was his reputation that was going to get him very far. The fact that he had been in the military and woon did in battle wear something that people wanted to know about. So he had found a way to tell them without actually telling them anything.He had a normal way with words that was able to make the most complicated thing seem uncomplicated. That was also one of the reasons w
“what did she mean that it's part of the code?” Dana asked when they got into the car and Max had already started driving back to their house.“law enforcement spouses usually stick together. just like they say that there is a blue wall sometimes meaning that officers will stick with each other and not let the civilians know what really goes on. The same goes for their wives. Despite the fact that penny is also a part of it she is add detective wife. She knows all the rules in jazz who knows what it's like to be a new mom. And also have things surrounding you that you don't particularly want there. When they got married it was pretty rough. however I really didn't know them then I had only just heard what happened. It's not a pretty story but one day maybe I'll tell you. For right now just know that you always have her friend in her. So you can tell her anything that you need to plus she's a doctor so she can help out at times.” next said
Max had been surprised the entire night. Everybody had been on their best behavior when they actually saw Deanna standing next to him. And then of course the two kids. Henny was smiling like there was no tomorrow because she knew that he had finally gotten what he always wanted. Mac kept smiling too but it was for a different reason and Max knew that as well. This was definitely going to be one of those things that they were going to have to do frequently enough that Deanna needed to feel comfortable around them. He didn't actually believe that couples should have too many friends that were not other couples. He was kind of old fashioned in the way that he thought. She could have as many friends as she wanted that was perfectly fine but they would probably spend more time with other couples. It just seemed not to cause as many problems in any relationship. At least that was his view of it and like he knew he could learn something else.Mac was more
Max knew that he had to explain a few things on the way over to the other couples house. So he began to give them a rundown of everybody that was there including the kids. He also explained how him an Mac were friends to the point that it was like Max was one of their kids as well even though he was pretty much the same ages them. it was one of those interesting relationships that Max had filled his life with before he was able to deal with anything really personal.He also then began to explain slightly how they knew about her well before they had become a couple. “so just so you understand that they're going to probably be teasing me a lot and giving me a lot of crap. It's going to be because of you but that's OK.”“what do you mean it's because of me?” Deanna asked if she looked at him she was slightly surprised after being very amused with the way that he was explaining his friends to her. It wasn't like she had a
He meant what he said when he said he wanted to out and celebrate. It wasn't very often that he had the opportunity to spoil the woman that he loved and take his kids out at the same time period though he wasn't exactly short how that was going to work. So he decided that he was going to take them out for a nice meal when his phone began to ring. Halo down and saw that it was a person that he was actually just thinking about Mac Paulin who is another detective in one of the sister police precinct. They had worked a few cases together and they had also worked on a case that had basically changed Mac and his wife henni’s life for a little bit.Mac was one of maxs friends. He didn't really consider many people to be his actual friend but they had actually become rather good friends over the past few years. Henni where's the local medical examiner prefer one of the counties nearby. She also consulted with different police precincts as well.“What
Packing everybody up with a little bit easier and he knew that this would become a routine eventually. He knew that he was going to have them there for as long as he worked in the building. He grabbed his folders and put them in his briefcase and then gave Henry his bag. Henry just looked at him like he had completely lost his mind. “When it's time to go home I'm gonna give you this bag. And we're going to pack up the things that you want to take home with you. We can't come back to the university at night so we're going to make sure that we take everything that we want. Remember you have lots of toys at home as well so you can leave some things here. but I know that you wanna take bear and blankie with you.” Mac said as he looked at him and then he began to help Henry pick up the things that were the most important. “We're going to leave your bed in your sisters bed here so it's easier for mommy and me.”“DD is mommy?
Watching the man storm out of the room and go upstairs with something that Max was going to take huge amount of pride in doing. He was more than happy to sit back and wait for the repercussions to actually happen. None of that actually mattered to Max right now. The way that he had thought of it was it was going to be something that they were going to have to deal with anyway period now the fact that he possibly had another job waiting for him that was going to be better would be the absolute feather in his cap right now.that happened to be the moment that his phone rang right before Deanna could actually say something to him about what had just happened. “hello this is detective Anderson.” Max stated into the phone as he had an idea of what the number actually was. It wasn't the one that he had called before but it was a very similar number so he had to assume that it was a police Academy calling him back.“detective Ande
After about 10 minutes of trying to get around exactly what the man was saying Max had enough. He was absolutely just thoroughly enjoying the fact that the man was so flustered that Max kept coming back with something else. It was like none of the other professors actually never questioned him. Or the fact that he normally had a few students going into his office for a few hours every day period of course those particular students were young females who had no business going into the Dean of students for the department’s office period of course Max wasn't actually going to bring that up but he was alluding to it. The only female that he wanted in his office. Was the one who was sitting in the corner.he looked over to Indiana who was watching the whole thing trying not to laugh as she was continuing to fake read whatever she was reading. Max knew that the man was not gonna give up very easily. And of course then the veiled threats that his course was proba