Prologue

"I don't want to live in a hell with a beast like you, anymore ........... And, I never wanted to give a meaning to this marriage...........

You had not ever dreamt of that f****** shit neither had I............

I.want.the.divorce...right now"

I shrieked unanimously from the depth of my lungs like a lunatic kitten which just wanted to jump scratch whoever came in front of it.. 

But now one and only this filthy insect Emrys standing in front of me....

His blazing eyes were still glued onto the file in his arm like his ears didn't get what I said nor did he sense my presence in his office now. That made me brew more in hundred pure venom since I had myself heated up rather a roast.  

Streams of tears started to truckle down my cheeks as the anger was rushing through my nerves like an adamant wind. I didn't know where a weird power came from. I strode hurriedly towards his table and tipped out everything which was neatly arranged on it away really like a lunatic.

"I hate you.. I f****** hate you...You are a murderer....." I screamed as possible as I could till my throat pained to hell. 

Hearing my wicked words his weird eyes left the file which was flown off his hand and now prostrating peacefully on the floor. His fingers curled up into a tight fist and his teeth clenched tightly as the visible muscles on his jaw gave the proof for it...

Baaaaang!

The sudden ear piercing sound flinched me to which I instantly jumped back covering my ears not knowing what just happened.. 

As I slightly lifted my head up, I saw nothing, but him seethe in anger as he had his clenching fist banged on his glass table smashing the surface glass into a number of pieces around him... He stood up from the chair pushing it back whilst he was giving his best look of death at me. 

A deep pang of worry which had hidden somewhere inside my broken heart crept into me when the stream of blood started running down the knuckles of his right arm. My eyes went wide in disbelief.... I could not resist myself from jerking my body front seeing him bleeding....

Not because of anything, but Humanity...

But he gestured not to reach at him, yanking his palm ardently to the front...

Instead of being happy, why my heart aches this much?

I must be happy seeing him in pain....

Then why am I feeling worried this much....

Why? Why?

Nooooo... I hate him... I hate him to my death.. 

I can never forgive him for what he did to me and My First Love.... My subconscious shook my weakened thoughts off my skull before pelting my hostile glare at him...

His hazel eyes were now replaced with darkness, mingled with both anger and revenge... The irresistible streams of blood that kept on oozing out of his wound, made this freaking pang which I wish that had never risen, take birth deep within me.. I felt it give him a damn pain that he didn't emanate on his face.. But he obviously supressed it by clenching his jaws.... 

That pain is lesser than the pain you have left deep inside my heart now....

He took his slow steps towards me whilst his thunderous glare had fixiated only on mine.... Following those; my steps moved backward.... 

"Don't come to me! Don't you dare another step front...." I barked loudly wishing that I would find something in my hand for my own guard and rescue. But his each step held the determination which made the tentacle of fear engulf my body.. Finally my back hit the wall behind me leaving me no room... All the gained strength and the energy through out the past few months were dead just by hearing those words about him....

The murderer.... 

Emrys Parker is a freaking Murderer...

Determined, I jerked my body to fly away from his entrapment.. But he had his own way as he caged me in his strong iron arms gluing those on either side of me not letting me go away.. He kept his mascular physique in an uncomforatble proximity which was nearly five inches away from my shivering form. But his face was at an inch distance that had my body shivered like a timid rabbit... I gulped with fear as my hot tears started rolling down my cheeks. His eyes shot the pure hatred at me....

"What. do. you. want? 

What. Do. You. Want. from. me? Do tell me! Dammit!" He screamed through his gritted teeth as he banged his fist again on my side of the wall....

"Di-Divorce" I mumbled the reply through a stuttering; but being audible enough to be heard by him...

His eyes blazed more with anger, revenge, hatred and so called things which I barely could assume right now..

"Yeah.... like I-" he paused for a while..

"Like I do love to spend the rest of my life with you....." the sole sarcasm was immersed in his deep voice...

"Go away from me... You b*****d...!! I don't wanna see you anymore... ....." I said with my broken, but determined voice....

"So, you really wanna go away from me??????" He asked in a low broken voice looking straight into my blurred eyes...

What??? What has got into the mind of this b*****d???

That's what we both wanted since the begining...

Now what's the big deal of letting himself go of me?

"Yeaaaaaaah...... That's what I want from you.... I hate you... God...!!!!! I hate you.... You are the murderer of my Max...." I yelled at him bursting into another river of tears as I thrashed my fists on his masculine chest...

Still was he in the same position focusing his hazel, but now had become dark eyes on mine; not even embarrassing at what I said, but clenching the jaw muscles freaking tightly as much he could beat ten men up at the moment... 

"Well..." he ran his deep pools across mine as if he was composing his words inside his thick skull like a processor... 

"I will give you the Divorce!!" Finally he said making the happiness creep into both my heart and mind in one fluid motion... 

"But one condition is left......" he continued. The intense anger rushed in my veins hearing his words....

"What is that??" I exclaimed wiping my tears off my eyes from the back of my palm....

Anyhow I am gonna have my divorce.. 

So what's the big deal of having grudges with this man....?

Nothing seemed to be important to me than my divorce now...

Now or never..

I was waiting for him to continue with his words and the sooner they slipped out of his mouth my heart leapt out of my chest which left my whole body numb afterwards...  

"Spend one night with me!" He said with no shame, but straightening his voice as if he nominated me for the Year's Bravery Award.

.........Thunder clap.........

I was totally left dumbfounded for a couple of minutes as though all the functions in my brain stopped dead....

My heart beat paused for a while and I felt like whole world revolving around me.. The hot tears spontaneously flowed down my cheeks...

"The first and the last night with me... What do you say Mrs.Sian Cynthia Anderson Parker??? I will give one whole day.. Decide it!" He said looking directly at my grieving eyes..

Shame on you!!

In a flick, I slapped him hard on his right cheek making his fingers follow the same path towards his reddened cheek...

"How dare you....? Shame on you....

How could you expect such a cheapest thing from me?" I asked grabbing fists of his shirt.... "I am not a frail woman who surrenders for your inhumanity and wicked, filthy demands..  You are a shame for your family..... I hate you....." I yelled at him with all my anger trying to push him back which I failed in my own efforts...

"Huh... Scratch it and Tell me! You want the freaking divorce or not?" Removing his hand from the wall he brought it on my face and asked rubbing his thumb on my lower lip; the thumb which had soaked with his salty blood that oozed out of his wound on his knuckles. All of a sudden my body reacted to his mere touch as a wave of shudder passed through me... It succeeded to ripple a pucker of shiver down my spine and in no time it rushed back to my skull bringing me all my senses back... As I venomously stared back at him, his eyes proved he was determined in his decision no matter what.

"I want my divorce.. But not this way.... not this freaking way....." I whimpered thrashing my hands on his hard chest.... The salty tears pricked my eyes as I continously kept crying like a woman who just lost her baby infant..

"Why are you doing this to me, tell me.. Why are you making my life a living hell...? How do you think that I would sleep with a murderer... Why don't you let me walk on my way peacefully.. Tell me..you wanker..... WHY?" My banging on his chest grew harder... "You are not a man... A devil... A beast... An orge... A scoundrel... A monster..... A-rghhhhhh"

My words sunk in my mouth not letting me continue the rest; cause grabbing me by the nape of my neck suddenly my sobbing lips were claimed by him. My eyes grew wide.

Freaking Sh*t!!!

This is the first time he ever kissed me after our marriage.... 

I could not believe myself...

I was shuddered when he brought one of his arms on my trembling shoulders while the other hand possesively slid around my waist... I tried my hard to get out of his tight grip.. I struggled as possible as I could do to get away from him. But he was strong enough to defeat every effort, I was taking to distract myself from him.. 

His kiss was so aggressive as if he wanted to mean me something; that he was giving me a punishing kiss. A kiss of having mingled with all hatred, revenge, anger and everything... He took his efforts to plunge his tongue inside my mouth which went futile each moment. But at last he had his own way that he bit down on my lips to which my mouth instantly opened and in no second he slid his tongue through my lips asking for the entrance; but I stayed steady on my ground not having any emotions... Then his thumb rubbed my numb cheeks softly trying to pull me into his vibes. 

How can this beast think that I am in a mood to kiss the murderer of my only love... 

The miserable tears found their way down my cheeks for upmteenth time. Just before another minute could pass by, he gathered his every feeling and forced it into a passionate kiss holding my body in place pulling me more to him...... 

Out of the blue, I lost somewhere in his touch..... Again I wanted to push him. But my strayed hands fell crippled on my sides....

What has happened to you Sian????

Why Jesus? Why am I letting him touch me...??

I was weakened at his mere touch. 

Is this because he is touching and kissing me this intimate way for the first time after our marriage?

No Sian... No you cannot let this go on.. 

You cannot easily let your guard down nor give your feelings in....

You only belong to your ever loving Max..

This one is the murderer of your Max....

I laid my arms on his hard chest and with all my hatred, I gathered all the hidden strength of mine and pushed him back hard making him stumble on his feet... 

Finally I succeeded.... 

But the moment I held my gaze with him I saw them hold so much pain for the first time...

Pain!!!

In him? 

For what?

No It can never be happened!