"This can't be happening." My father murmured while putting his hand on his head.
"It's okay," I said trying to comfort him as I stood by his side.
"No, it's not."
"Dad," I whispered, looking down at him sitting on the floor with a bottle of liquor in his hand. "Please tell me you haven't been drinking again?"
He turned to me gravely and shook his head. His sadness was infectious when he smiled at me.
"Why? Why now?" Unexpectedly tears welled up in his eyes and for the first time in a long while I saw him cry. "Why did this have to happen?"
Solemnly, I knelt beside him and smiled "We didn't lose the store," I said reassuring him "It was just a little fire."
"No."
"Yes, it was," I didn't know how the fire started but my father had told me that the circuits in the back had overheated and it had caused the wires at the back of the store to catch fire. Luckily my father was skillful enough to unplug the wires upstairs before the fire could spread everywhere. Currently, there was more smoke damage than anything else because the fire hadn't spread beyond the back of the store.
Even though we were lucky to not lose everything, it didn't help the bearing weight of dread around us.
"You don't get it!" My father shouted before throwing the bottle against the wall and smashing it.
I quickly scuttled to my feet and grabbed his hand as he went to the shelf and began throwing the other bottles against the wall.
He argued and shook his head at me while trying to hide the tears that were brimming in his eyes.
"It's, okay," I repeated. It was hard seeing him in this state. I hadn't seen him this way since my mother died.
"You don't-"
"Dad, didn't you promise me you would make everything okay? Didn't you say that we would do everything for mom?"
"For what?" He asked gravely.
"For mo-"
"For what! Everything was for what!? What did we do!? We've worked so hard! You've worked so hard! For what!? So we could lose everything!? What did we do!?" My father spat while grabbing me by the shoulders and shaking me.
Tears welled in my eyes as I looked into his heated gaze, my body shaking from the strange aggressiveness in his voice.
"Delancy," he said catching himself and realizing what he said. He pulled me into his grasp and squeezed me tightly. "I'm sorry." he wept.
I buried my face into his shoulder and wept along with him.
"I'm so sorry."
***
I stared at the ceiling of my room quietly, trying to picture the fate that awaited us in the future.
My father told me everything and now I understood why he was so upset.
We were bankrupt.
All our money was used up paying for the loan we had borrowed.
We only just started making back a little money from the store and it was only enough to pay the bills.
Apart from that, we were broke.
I laughed at myself as the realization hit me.
We were out of debt but broke.
We couldn't reopen the store unless we repainted and fixed all the fire and smoke damage. We would have to replace whole shelf worths of products. We would have to rewire the store and replace the old faulty socketing. There were so many things we had to do with no way to do them.
I really and inexplicably felt like I had fallen. We had fallen and hit an all-time low.
But only if it was that simple.
My father was in trouble.
How were the bills going to be paid let alone the store reopened?
My father was going to fall into debt again and this time we had no way out.
Our future was uncertain and there was nothing I could do.
***
An unfamiliar voice marked the air when I stepped out of my room. My father's voice conversed with his as I brushed my hair down and stepped into the hallway.
I peered at them as they sat at the coffee table in our house and argued. Unrelenting fear found me when I saw the way he mischievously smiled.
A debt collector.
"Is that your daughter?" He asked loudly when he spotted me.
I quickly patted down my clothes and walked over to them, trying my best to appear appealing.
"Good morning, it's nice to meet you," I said courtly while giving a small smile.
The gentleman smiled back at me and nodded. "Walter, you sure have a nice daughter."
Walter?
It surprised me how he addressed my father so informally but I smiled nonetheless and walked over to him.
"Would you like me to make you a cup of tea?"
"No, that's okay. I'll be leaving now."
My father huffed at him but I followed him up to the door and saw him off.
As soon as he left I rushed up to my father and questioned him.
"Dad, who was he? A debt collector?"
He shook his head at me and sighed. "No, he's my old friend."
"Old friend?" I asked, taking a seat beside him.
"We grew up together in the same place just down the street. We had the same dreams, and we started the same businesses with the exception that took off while I'm still here."
It was odd hearing my father talk about the past apart from my mother because he had always given me the impression that it hadn't mattered.
"So why was he here now?" I questioned.
"He has a son. That was another thing about him. As soon as I was married, he got married too. He always did whatever I did only with the exception that his son was born before you were." He laughed.
"A son?"
"You've never met him."
"I still don't understand why he was here?"
"In all these years we haven't seen each other it seems he's lost his mind."
"What?"
"You would never believe what he asked me. He told me that he heard about the fire and knew about my problems, so he offered to help."
"What!" I shouted with wide eyes.
"Yeah, but he was crazy enough to say he would bargain this if I let you marry his son. How insane?"
"Dad, did he say that?"
"Yeah, he truly has lost it."
"Dad, why does his son want to get married?"
"I have no idea, maybe he's lost it too."
"Dad."
"Truly insane. Who in their right mind would ever agree to -"
"Call him."
"What?" My father paused and stared at me.
"Call him and tell him that I'll do it," I said in a firm tone.
"Delancy what are you saying?"
"I will marry him."
"Delancy you're not serious are you?" "Dad I-" "Has everyone lost their mind today?" He said walking over to the table and sitting back in his chair until he was staring at the ceiling. "Delancy, how could you even think I would consider something like that?" I hadn't thought of it before, but I saw now that my father's pride was at stake. He worked tirelessly to provide everything he could for us and accepting help now wasn't something he was going to do. "It was already so strange and insulting that Charles came and said that to me in my own house but now what you're saying just isn't right." Hurt filled his voice and he seemed so stressed and frustrated. He even looked like he had aged a little over the few days. "Dad, he can help us if I-" "Delancy, I know we have problems, but I told you I would take care of this. There's no need to say meaningless things." "Dad-" "I don't want to hear any more about this!" He snapped and got up from the table before slamming the door be
"Hey Delancy, do you think we should put an ad in the newspaper for the store?" "Maybe," I shrugged. "I suppose it could bring in more customers. "Yeah, I guess it could." My father said flipping through the newspaper. I slouched against the cash register, trying to pull myself together because I didn't want him to know how tired I was. The store was busier than usual today, but I felt no enthusiasm towards it even though I was glad it had reopened and was running much better than before. "Ahh yes, the newspaper!" Daniel smiled while leaning on the broom he was sweeping with. "If I could get in there everyone would know me!" My father huffed at him before flipping to another page. "Delancy, can't you see me in the papers one day!" "Yeah, the obituary." my father cut in just as the store bell rang. "Samantha?" I said realizing that she was the person who had come in. "I didn't know you were coming?" "Delancy I heard that some crazy ass is telling everyone that everything's hal
An hour or two must have passed from the time I was sitting next to the wall waiting to meet the man I was supposed to marry - or at least it felt that long to me.Knots were continuously tied in my stomach as I every strange face that passed me I expected to be him. It was nauseating and tiring to sit around and wait for him because, in all honesty, I didn't know what to expect. My father had only mentioned once that he was older than me - three years to be exact but that was all I knew."Are you the girl who's engaged to Mr. Matthau's son?"I almost didn't hear the question as a thousand thoughts stirred my head, the nauseating feeling I had worsening."Ye-Yes." I stuttered as I looked to my right at the woman in pink who had taken a seat next to me. Her face was plump and pinched but it was cheerful and welcoming, her voice nice and soothing like a mother's."I'm surprised that a young lady like you would be getting married so soon. I must say, it's quite admirable that a girl of y
I patted down the front of my dress as I vaguely looked across the room at everyone that was crossing the floor. I felt the soft silkiness of the fabric against my fingers as I tried to straighten myself up so I could look more presentable because after all, it was my wedding day.I continued gazing across the room blankly at all the people that were there, everyone looking cheerful and happy as they enjoyed my wedding reception while I on the other hand sat tautly and stared.It was extremely difficult for me to partake in anything contently because, in all honesty, I didn't know how to feel. I felt so numb and cold towards everything and everyone that I didn't even know myself. No one knew how numb I was feeling, virtually unable to feel anything. I was unable to laugh or even smile at my wedding but more importantly, I didn't feel like a bride. I didn't feel like I was married and It didn't feel like my wedding day.The tears, laughter, happiness, and overabundance of joy that surr
My eyes slowly cracked open from a gentle nudge I felt on my side before I sat up and squinted from the brightness in the room. I started rubbing my eyes until they adjusted to the light before I began noticing the unfamiliarity of the room I was in. As I looked down at my crumpled wedding dress, the reality of the day before slowly came crashing back down on me."Get up."My eyes quickly shot up to the person standing over me, his appearance grimacing and intimidating."You... I mean -""Change into something else." He abruptly said before I could gather myself."I-, I don't know where you've put my belongings," I whispered softly while tearing myself from his cold gaze.He walked away, signaling for me to follow him so I got up quickly and matched his pace.I rubbed the back of my neck as I ascended the stairs, the crick in my back worsening as I thought of the uncomfortable position I slept in on the couch.As we walked together without saying a word, I reluctantly viewed the walls
I slowly opened my eyes as I felt the morning sun shining on my face before cringing as I tried to sit up because of the pain I felt in my stomach and the area between my legs. I glanced around the room and realized that Kerrick wasn't there so I pulled myself out of bed, the sheets that barely covered my body crumpling to the floor.As soon as I made it to my feet, I went and got a towel to wrap around myself before quickly stumbling out of the room and making my way to the bathroom, my breath hazy as I remembered what had happened.As I showered, recalling what happened, I eventually had to slump down to the floor of the bath because I couldn't stop thinking about it.My breathing was heavy and flashbacks of what had happened came crashing back into my mind, the sound of the water beating down on my body fading.As soon as he began, the pain I felt was so horrible I almost fell apart. I wasn't even sure how everything had ended. My mind eventually sunk away from the mental stress be
I was folding a few items of clothing as I watched Kerrick button up his shirt, his gaze directed toward his reflection in the mirror.I couldn't help staring at his back silently because I was still surprised that he hadn't made any sexual advances toward me in the night.I turned back to the clothes I was folding when I noticed from the corner of my eyes that he was watching me quietly.I didn't utter a single word and only moved to put the clothes away before I noticed he had also moved towards the door before leaving the room.He was just too puzzling for me, his eyes too obscured for me to see the person behind them.I left the room shortly after to meet him downstairs as he gathered his things together. He was already leaving for work even though we had only spent two days together.I knew this was a busy time of year for him as his father had told me - which was partly the reason why we didn't have a honeymoon and only a few days together but I didn't want him to leave yet. Pos
I wasn't strong.I wasn't anything when I was around Kerrick except for a lingering shadow.Since the day I had married him, all I had been capable of doing was cowering and shying away from him whenever he was around. On multiple occasions, I had tried to understand him and his strange ways but my strength was always lost under his scrutinizing gaze. With each day that passed it seemed like I wasn't any closer to unraveling him as the day we'd first met and it was tiring because we were living like two strangers under the same roof.I stared over at Kerrick as I watched him meticulously put his things together for work before sighing as he gazed at me for a brief moment before going back to what he was doing.I didn't know why, but it made me heartbroken to know I couldn't do anything to garner his attention. He didn't seem to care about me in any way and as far as I could see, I did not affect his life.I had given up so much for him, gone through so much, and suffered a lot during
"It's ready!" Charlotte, Eric's wife cat Eric's househimed as she pulled a cake tin out of her oven and beamed at me. Kerrick, Kaleb and I were spending the evening at Eric's house with after he invited us. Earlier I decided to give his wife a hand in the kitchen while Kerrick and Eric were sitting out front talking and the boys were playing in the living room."My Eric and Nathan love chocolate," She laughed while putting the freshly baked cake on a cooling rack.Charlotte was petite and had pale blonde hair unlike her dark haired well built husband and son, but she had a radiant smile and bubbly personality that made her very likeable. "How about Kerrick and Kaleb? What flavor cake do they like?" She asked while looking over at our boys playing."Um well," I said smiling at her eager curiosity. "Kerrick doesn't eat cake, he's Diabetic and Kaleb isn't very fond of sweets.""Oh!," Charlotte exclaimed before blushing with embarrassment. "I'm sorry, I didn't know." "It's okay," I laug
"You're home early," I commented as Kerrick put his car keys in the top drawer of the table in the living room. "Oh, and you're wearing your glasses.""I couldn't read the prompt during my meeting." He sighed in resignation. "I guess I'll have to get used to them.""So how did it go, did they like your ideas?" I inquired as he sat down on the couch."Yea, they did." He murmured as I sat beside him and put his head in my lap."That's good. What are your plans moving forward?" I said running my fingers through his hair.A soft smile traced across his lips as he tilted his head up to look at me. "I'm glad you're taking an interest in what's happening."I smiled back at him and nodded."E&E's sell canned goods as you know so with the new canning machine we have at the factory we can easily output at least ten thousand cans a week." He smiled."Wow, that's great!" I remarked."We also found a manufacturer who can deliver all the raw materials we need at reduced cost and high quality so our
As I put the finishing touches on tonight's meal, I couldn't help but watch in awe as steam slowly billowed out of the pot on the stove. The tantalizing aroma wafted through the air, making my mouth water in anticipation of the delicious meal ahead. I was in the middle of turning off the stove when I heard Kerrick's car pull into our driveway so I quickly headed to the door to greet him. As soon as he walked in, I noticed a glimmer in his eyes that seemed to suggest that he was filled with excitement. "You look happy, what happened at work?" I asked curiously. Instead of replying he picked me up bridal style and spun me around and I clung to him and burst out laughing at his unusual behavior until he put me down. "I did it, Delancy," He said hugging me. "I got a client!" "What!?" I mumbled out shocked but as I locked eyes with him he nodded with confirmation. I hugged him in elation and began jumping around while holding him. "This is amazing news! I'm so proud of you!" "It's, tru
"Do you have everything packed?" I asked Kaleb as he was getting ready to go off to school."Yes Mom," He answered as he threw his backpack on and headed towards the door."Don't forget this," I said handing him his lunchbox as he thanked me. Just then Kerrick came down the stairs and called him."Kaleb," He said going up to him and hugging him. "I love you.""Um, thanks Dad," Kaleb responded bewildered. He seemed caught off guard by his unusual actions but said nothing as he bid us goodbye before heading off to school."Is everything okay?" I asked."Yes, It's just that my dad never told me he loved me so I wanted to make sure I never forget to tell Kaleb." He said looking out the window at our son heading up the road."Wait are you serious?" I asked in disbelief.He paused and turned to me silently. "You were the first person to ever tell me that you loved me."My heart nearly broke when Kerrick confessed this and I instinctively reached for him."It's okay. I don't care about that
A few days had passed after meeting Charles and although Kerrick gave him no answer he was still pushing the idea of a merger. As of right now, I decided to visit my dad while Kerrick was at work and Kaleb was at school so I could get my mind off the situation. As I approached my dad's store and my old home, pleasant memories flooded my mind and a smile broke out on my face when I saw my best friends standing right outside the doors. When they noticed me they ran and hugged me and I burst out laughing. Samantha and Victoria always knew how to lighten my mood and I was so lucky to have them as my friends. "You caught us on our way out!" Victoria said between giggles."Oh, I should've come sooner." I apologized. "It's fine, we'll call later," Samantha added as she hurried up to her car."Where are you guys going ?" I inquired as I watched them."I have to pick up my daughter from daycare," Samantha said unlocking her door. "And I'm meeting up with my boyfriend!" Victoria added with
Kerrick was carrying Kaleb on his shoulders when we came home from the football match. Kaleb was still riled up from his win even hours after and couldn't stop talking about it. Kerrick and I were very proud of him and we laughed as we watched our son could bask in his victory."Kaleb, weren't you nervous when you were about to score?" I asked as I helped him down from Kerrick's shoulders."No, I knew I could make it," He smiled and ran around the living room, still full of energy.I smiled as I watched him beam with happiness but I couldn't take my mind off Kerrick's words."My business deal fell through"Kerrick didn't say anything else about it the entire evening but I knew he must've been crushed after all the efforts he put in. At dinner, he listened to Kaleb's recount of the earlier segments of the match that he'd missed and apologized for not being there but all was forgiven as happiness was the only thing on our son's face."Kaleb, go get some sleep, you must be tired," I said
"Where are you going so early?" I asked my son while clearing the table after breakfast. Kaleb had changed out of his pajamas into a blue jumper paired with a white T-shirt and was currently tying his shoelaces. "I'm going to meet my friends, remember I told you." He said jumping to his feet. "I do but it's still early," I said looking over at the wall clock and sighing. "Okay but remember to come home for lunch," I followed him to the door and watched as he hopped on his bicycle before riding off. "Bye, mom!" He called back to me as he went up the road. "Keep out of the road and watch out for cars!" I responded as he rode away and he paused momentarily to nod before continuing on his way. I turned to go back into the house so I could help Kerrick get ready but not before glancing up the street at my son's retreating figure. Once inside I got Kerrick's things together and put them on the table just as I heard him coming down the stairs. "Where's Kaleb?" Kerrick asked while fixing
Sunlight filtered through the curtains by the window as a cool gust of wind blew in and the sky was still overcast from recent rain. The sound of children laughing and running by putting a smile on my face as I waited patiently. I looked over at Kerrick who was quietly working at the table with a mug near his face, wafts of steam warming his lips but not taking the concentration from his eyes as he reviewed his papers. I turned back to the window which looked up the street that all the children were coming down and searched until finally, I saw Kaleb coming my way, his smile warming my heart as he ran along the street. He was walking between two friends, but he was unmistakable from his dark hair protruding from under his yellow raincoat, his obsidian eyes, and his quick stride. I watched him wave goodbye to them and cross the street before running up to the house and I left the window to greet him at the door. "Mom!" He said surprised to see me already waiting for him. I gave him a b
I ran the tips of my fingers over the soft delicate petals of the roses I carried as I followed my father's footsteps. Slowly he stopped and kneeled on the ground as we made it to our destination, my mother's grave."She was so pretty, your mother." He spoke without meeting my eyes, taking the flowers I was carrying and the ones he also had, he placed them in matching ceramic vases opposite each other by her gravestone. "She was so young and I don't think I'll ever stop loving and missing her.""I'm sorry," I looked at my father sadly but with a tinge of happiness that we were finally able to come here together after so long. "I guess I'll never truly understand the pain you went through when you lost her but that just goes to show how much she meant to you and me."My father tucked the last rose firmly in the vase next to him and touched her gravestone again, closing his eyes for a moment when he did so. "You know, I still feel her with me, regardless of the time that's passed, I ca