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The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Cave dance
How could I still have feeling for him. The bond was suppose to break once I fell in love with Luther. It's not suppose to still be here. He rejected me. It was suppose to go away after so many decades of not being around Christopher. My emotions will never get better now. I can't reel them in. He doesn't even remember me and it still hurts. How is this happening. I've seen Christopher multiple time but it was always under the influence so did me seeing him Sober do something that messed everything up. My soul had to latch on to the one God who doesn't want me. It's not like I can kill him either. The moment I do I will break. He latched onto my soul the moment I used magic on him. I should've never did that spell. Now unless I give myself up my soul will be forever his. I left a hour ago and Im still not calm. Unless I give him back his memories and get him to take back what he said I'll never be calm again. It's like my soul went crazy the moment I seen him, it needs him
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Soul
(warning soft sex scene) For awhile Christopher was just moving me while he twirled me around and swayed us back and forth. It was like I had lost my ability to do anything. After being silent for so long Christopher broke the silence. "Whoever rejected you was a fool. You're to special to let go." He whispered in my ear. My heart leaped for the honesty in his words. "woah." Christopher said as he caught me after my knees went weak. I couldn't stop myself from melting into him. This was all I ever wanted. I should be sad because this wasn't my true Christopher but I couldn't help the feeling that I was feeling. It was like even with the personality swap it was still enough. I absentmindedly wrapped my hands around his neck. I closed my eyes and lost myself to the feeling of contentment. "What are you two doing over here?" Lucas asked from behind me. Pulling me down from the cloud that I was on. I turned around to Luther and Lucas looking at us. Luther had an unreadable
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Etiquette.
I could feel my cheeks heating up. I tried to act as casual as I could but it was nearly impossible. I never had to deal with something like this. I felt guilty as I said "Fine." Instantly Shoving chicken in my mouth to prevent the conversation from continuing. Even with eating sloppy, the food still tasted delicious and savory. The chicken was nice and juicy. This was the one thing mortals had going for them that almost all Gods appreciated. While eating was a necessity for them, it was a pleasure for us and I could say that the taste of this was splendid. "It looks like you really are enjoying that." Luther said as I was stuffing another bite in my mouth. I looked up to see Luther just staring at me like I was a mystical creature and Christopher smirking like this was the funniest thing in the world. I looked back at my food completely ignoring them. Out of sight, out of mind was the new thing I would be going by as of today. I stuffed another bite of mashed potatoes
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Royal God
(Warning graphic scene. skim through it if you aren't for it because important scene is at the end.) As I felt the wards come undone one by one I started to question if what I was doing would back fire on me. Looking at Luther standing frozen was anything but an iced cup of water splashed on me. It was the complete opposite and that's what made it where I didn't stop. He was standing there with his hair ruffled how I love it. His clothes were complementing all his muscles in just the right way. His tie was alittle undone, probably from him pulling at it. And I never noticed it until now but I could see an obvious outline in his pants that was intimidating and enticing at the same time. This was a bad idea but I couldn't stop now. After awhile the wards were officially broken. I took a moment to think about whether I wanted to go through with this or not. One wrong move could cost so much. I would give back Christopher's memories before I could give myself up to Luther
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Garden
"Hello darling you've been gone for awhile. Who is this young lady?" The Goddess of complete Beauty asked as we walked through down the hall. Even though I never met any of them I still knew all Goddesses and Gods because Of my magic. "This is Mazaya The Goddess of Wisdom and Creation." The God of absolute power said. The Goddess of complete beauty's eyes light up when he said who I was. "It's a pleasure to meet you. I'm Isabella" The Goddess of Complete beauty said. "Hello." I said as I looked around at everything. It was magnificent. My kind of beauty. I didn't even realize my hand was let go until I started walking towards the flowers on a table. So beautiful. "You like them?" The God of absolute power asked. I jumped because he was so quiet and I didn't hear him come close. "Yes they are beautiful." I said. Before I could reach out, he grabbed me a flower and handed it to me. I had a huge smile on my face after that. "I have a meeting to go to. It shouldn't be l
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Goddess of time
"Mazaya there you are. I'm sorry about being such a horrible host. Some things came up and took longer than expected. How are you enjoying the party?" The God of absolute power asked. "Boring but its fine. I'm glad you are here." I said with a small smile as I surveyed the room again. "Here this is better." He said grabbing a juice I already tried. I wouldn't say anything though. To my surprise the juice was alittle bit tangier or maybe they added extra stuff to this juice. It tasted good though. "Everyone isn't here yet, the real party will start in a little bit." Alex The God of absolute power said. I looked around not really responding. We would see. I loved partying but in my realm I had to tone it down because they couldn't handle half of what I could. Maybe I could actually enjoy myself now. "A few Gods just came. Let me introduce you to them." Alex said as he grabbed my free hand and started dragging me. We bumped into the Goddess of uncontrollable Lust on t
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) One up
(Warning intense scene. Might be offensive to some readers. Important for the plot though, remember they are Gods and this is fantasy) My knees went weak as the tingling in my lower region got more intense. If Alex The God of absolute power wasn't holding me I would've collapsed. What had I done? I snuggled my head on Alex trying to get me mind and body in check "You don't know how happy I was when you finally took down all your wards." Alex said as he grabbed my hand and twirled me around and brought me against him again causing another moan. I couldnt think, I was so hot and it was getting more intense by the second. "I've waited years for you to take your wards off. Tapping into the source to create them was smart. Taking them down not so smart." Alex said. My mind was a jumbled mess I needed this tingling to stop so I could think. "You see when The God of the Future and Goddess of time came to me and said you just unfroze time and your wards were off. My wait wa
Last Updated : 2021-09-18The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Came to realize
Pain. Why was I in so much pain? Every time I moved I winced. For awhile I tried not to move but it was impossible. As I went to sit up an arm wrapped around me, pulling me into a solid chest. "Ahhhhhhh." I screamed as I elbowed my attacker in the ribs. "Fuck." A Gods voice said before the blinds were pulled open. The sun blinded me instantly making have to use my hand to block out the sun. As whoevers grip on me loosened, I was able to break free and roll off the bed. Big mistake the bed was way higher off the floor than I anticipated. "Ahhh." I screamed as I hit my head on the smooth floor hard. I laid on the floor for awhile because the pain I was already feeling got worse. Why was my body in so much pain? It felt like someone beat me. "That was a little dramatic don't you think?" The God in question said. I rolled over onto my back, to get a good look at the culprit. I did not expect to come face to face with Alex The God of absolute power looking over the be
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The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Change his memories
Somewhere hidden "Mazaya is dead." Christopher yelled at Klaus as soon as he teleported into their base. Klaus slowly looked up at him with anger. "I know." He spit out as he turned back to the God of broken realities and memories. "You have to do it now before his power is to much for even you." Klaus ordered the God. The God of broken realities and memories gave a slight nod of his head before he was pushing his power out with the help of Klaus. "What are you doing? I said Mazaya is dead and you are ignoring me." Christopher stated angrily. Nobody seemed to care that Mazaya was dead and it made no sense. "Relax, I am making sure Alexander's memories are distorted so that he wont realize what he's missing until it's too late." Klaus said to Christopher. "So you are erasing his memories?" Christopher asked slowly. "Clouding them, he's too powerful so we can only cloud and alter them. All he will know is that Mazayas soul is missing. Nothing will add up to what r
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Ruler of the universe
Alexander The God of absolute dark powers Pov (3 year later royal time. 2 day temple time) "I have summoned everyone here to announce the death of my beautiful wife Mazaya. The Goddess of wisdom and creation." I said as I looked over to Zavier who was now holding her lifeless body for all to see. Multiple murmurs and hushed whispers went around the hall as all the counsil members took her in. "This is a trick." Someone in the back yelled out causing a rippled effect. Within a instance I had them by the throat. "Alexan how nice of you to join us." I wryly chuckled as I slowly squeezed his neck until the air stopped flowing. His face went purple and the hands that were clawing at my hand was slowly losing its strength. Right as the life was close to leaving him a hand on my shoulder had me looking over and narrowing my eyes. "Let him go. You still can't kill him and now that Mazaya is dead he is irrelevant." His words had me gritting my teeth and pushing Alexan away. "Ge
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Not so powerful part 3
"There's nothing in here." Tod mumbled as everyone walked into the circle sized room. My chest tightened and my soul was now extremely active and desperately trying go get closer to Alexander. I tried to move away so it did not somehow make him aware but his hold was tight. I jumped a little from Alexander leaning into me and whispering. "What's wrong my love." "Nothing." I choked out not meaning too. "I was not talking to you but since you answered can you tell me what's wrong with your soul." He whispered softly. I stiffened a little and willed myself to be strong. The black dagger was right in front of me in its glass case. All I had to do was put my hand through the magical barrier and all would be back to normal. I slowly looked over into Alexander's eyes and all my fear dissipated. Not one ounce of love was in them. The gray was darker and it looked like he was daring me to betray him. Daring me to make him have to punish me and lock me away because his fathe
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Not so powerful Part 2
"What are we exactly looking for?" Alexander asked me as we walked down a set of stairs. "I don't know." I lied as I willed my chest to relax. My soul was quiet and it made me wonder did it know what was about to happen. "She's lying." Tod exclaimed loudly. I ignored him and the few mumbled from some of the other Gods following me. "I believe you." He lied. We both knew that he didn't. No matter what he said he would never trust me again and he had good reason. "This way." Zavier said once we descended the stairs completely. I went stiff causing Alexander to look at me. "Is everything okay?" He asked. I gave a small fake smile and shook my hand. He lifted my face up and leaned down and gave me a soft kiss. My lips moved on there own and before I knew it I was against a wall. Alarms were going off in my mind reminding me of my goal but I was helpless. Alexander pulled back and smirked as he licked his lips. I looked into his gray eyes that were smothering. "We
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Not so powerful
"Are you ready yet?" Zavier asked as he knocked on the door softly. I stayed silent as I looked at myself in the mirror. Slowly I wiped my face to rid myself of the tears that wouldn't stop. "We don't have much time before Alex comes looking." He continued when I said nothing. I sniffled alittle and took a deep breath. My eyes were a little red and my cheeks were a light pink. Anyone could tell that I was crying but it wouldn't matter because I could feel the hate coming from Alexander every time he looked at me. "Mazaya." Zavier snapped when I still said nothing. "I'm coming." I finally was able to say without my voice sounding scratchy. I blinked a few times as I readied myself. "I'm sorry for what I have to do." I whispered softly to my soul. I turned towards the door and took one more deep breath before I was opening it. Zavier was looking at me with narrowed eyes as he took in my appearance. "Sorry." I apologized as I walked forward and put my hand out. Zavier l
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Dead father
Alexander The God of absolute dark powers Pov "How is she?" Blake asked as soon as he walked into the room. I payed him no mind and instead slowly rubbed her hair in a comforting way. "I said how is she." He angrily yelled at me when I ignored him for to long. I slowly looked up at him with narrowed eyes that he ignored. Instead he walked forward and sat down in the bed neck to his mother. As I opened my mouth to blink she slowly moved a little bit. I looked down at bright green eyes staring at me. A small smile formed. "I thought I lost you." I whispered softly. She blinked a few times as her eyes zoned in on her surroundings. "You are alive." She whispered happily. The small smile I had dropped. Her words were a reminder that my father had died. Blake was quick to make himself noticed as he cleared his throat. Mazaya looked over at her smile grew wide. "Blake." She whispered softly. He was quick to grab her and bring her close to him. "Don't ever do that agai
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Give up on her
Alexander The God of absolute dark Powers Pov I stared at the tumbler as I slowly swirled the dark bane that I had become accustomed to. The pain I felt never truly went away but atleast the edge was gone. "Are you really going to drink your life away?" Angel asked softly. I slowly looked up at her with a scowl. "Didn't I divorce you?" I asked lowly. She rolled her eyes and reached for a glass. "I am here for your fathers ceremony. It's very mundane of you and honorable." She said with a chuckle. "You know It's not to late to add another Goddess to mourn." I dead panned. Her soft smile dropped and she was quick to look away. "I think maybe." I paused and looked at the Gods that had barged into my office. Anger filled me before I was stiffening. Zavier walked forward with Mazaya in his hands. I narrowed my eyes after I got over the initial shock. "Why is she here when I said I was done with her lies and betrayal?" I asked angrily. I was done fighting fate when it clea
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) All black
(Magical realm 5 years later. (5 days royal realm) Mazaya's Pov) "Eat your food." I softly said to Alax who was playing with his broccoli. He looked up at me with a frown that had my chest hurting. His eyes were greyer today only help to remind me of Alexander. "Not until my dad comes back?" He exclaimed as he pushed his plate away and banged his head on the table. I reached forward and grabbed his head and gently lifted it up. "You hurt yourself." I whispered as I looked at the small cut that was on his forhead. He pushed his hand away and ran his hand through his blond hair the same way his father did. "Let me see." Mia demanded in her soft and babyish voice. Alax looked at her angrily as he pushed his chair back. "I am not a baby." He snapped as he walked away. I closed my eyes and willed the tears to not come out. I had been so strong even though Alex had been gone for years. It was getting harder each day though. Every day that Alexander did not come ho
The Goddess of Wisdom and creation. (A dark gods novel) Nothing without her
Alexander The God of absolute dark Powers Pov As soon as I stepped into the palace I was slammed into a wall. The impact had me wincing reminding me that I had never stopped myself from being able to bleed or feel pain. "It's nice of you to join us." Klaus wryly said in a menacing way. I slowly looked up at him with hooded eyes and a smirk that was anything but welcoming. As he opened his mouth to say something I raised my hand and conjured up a knife. He looked over and chuckled mockingly. "The pleasure is all mine." I said as I threw the knife at the Goddess of magical restrictions torso. A scream sounded which had everyone look over. Klaus seemed to pale instantly. His hold on me loosened as he stared at the mess I created. "Maybe you should have thought before you touched me." I whispered as I pushed him away from me. I knew I could do nothing to him but that didn't mean I couldn't kill every single one of his Allies. His eyes glowed as he teleported to her
