Chapter 10|The DifferenceA/N: Light chapter muna tayo ngayon. Desisyon ako, eh. ~×~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Have you forgotten how to knock?" asik ko kay Asver habang nanatili akong hindi humaharap sa kaniya.Nakatingin lang ako sa papel na binaliktad ko nang marinig ang kaniyang boses. Malakas ang kabog nang dibdib ko dahil hindi ko suot ang aking eyepatch. He shouldn't see the scar that killed me years ago.Hindi ko namalayang maliwanag na sa labas. I couldn't sleep that's why I tried to continue 'her' story. Hindi ko alam. Pakiramdam ko, babangungutin ako kapag hindi ako makapagsulat. I needed distractions from those voices who kept whispering in my ears.Dahil kung patuloy akong makikinig sa mga boses na laging nagpaparamdam kapag mag-isa ako, may pakiramdam akong may masasaktan ako sa oras na mangyari 'yon. I know who, but I just couldn't push myself to believe it nor think about it. Kasi, ayokong masaktan.I was too broken to even break for the nth time."Kanina pa kaya ako kum
Chapter 11| Lose itA/N: (___×××××___) - means flashbacks~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Nandito na tayo,"Napatingin ako sa harapan at nakitang nasa may entrance na kami ng sementeryo. "Saan banda?" Asver asked while I was still looking ahead of us. My brain temporarily shut down but seconds later, my senses came back."Park mo na lang d'yan sa may gilid," turo ko sa kaniya at iniiwas ang tingin sa harapan. Bumagsak ang tingin ko sa shoulder bag na kandong ko. Naalala kong inilagay ko sa loob ang mga papel na pinagsusulatan ko. Inayos ko na iyon mula umpisa hanggang sa parte kung saan ako natigil. I planned to make him read it besides, it was only different words combined to form an unrealistic story. If he can read the lines in between, then better.I no longer had to explain my side.It's up to him whether he'll speak his mind or he'll decide to not involve himself in it. Just like what Taira was doing to Lash. She was pushing him to be out of her business which Lash could never do. Ang
Chapter 12|What Happened? A/N: This chapter is dedicated to ajixaya, alexcy_wolf. Thank you, guys!! Labya! ~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Rash, pasabay!""Hindi p'wede! Ang liit lang ng payong ko, oh!""Sige na! Lilibre kita, pasabay lang!""Ayoko nga! Do'n ka sa crush mo!""Ay, bitter?""Shut up!""Rash!"I blinked once as I watched my two classmates arguing over a single umbrella. Bigla na lang kasi bumagsak ang napakalakas na ulan pagka-dismiss ng huling klase namin sa araw na 'to. Kaniya-kaniya naman silang hila sa mga may dalang payong at isa na doon ang babae kanina. If I know, Rash has a crush on her. Hindi niya lang masabi. Siguro may gano'n talaga. There will be a time that you will feel that fleeting surge of emotions in your heart but you couldn't even say a word. Coward? Torpe? Name it however you want, but it's true. Try putting yourself in their shoes and you'll understand. "Prish," napatalon ako nang bahagya dahil sa pagkagulat. "Don't scare me like that," asik ko kay Asv
Chapter 13|Her Reconsideration~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|~×~(Taira)~×~Kasabay ng galit nang kalangitan, tiningala ni Taira ang ceiling ng kaniyang kuwarto. She sighed as if she has been already burned out even if she just slept the whole week. No more killings, no more fires. She doesn't know what happened. She just woke up, feeling like even having to breathe for the day felt like she was slowly losing the life inside her. Or that, she already lost it. "Kumain ka na," ni hindi niya nilingon si Lash na pumasok sa kaniyang kuwarto bitbit ang isang lagayan kung saan naroon ang mg pagkain para sa kaniya. Hindi siya gumalaw man lang. Nanatili siyang nakatitig sa ceiling na parang may nakikita na hindi nakikita ni Lash. He sighed and stared at the black carpet that he was stepping on while carrying the tray. "Ganito na lang ba, Taira?" bulong niya na narinig naman ni Taira ngunit wala siyang sinabi. Katahimikan ang namayani sa pagitan nilang dalawa. Kahit nga yata paglipad ng lamok ay m
Chapter 14|The Paper~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Are you sure you're okay?"Asver's voice halted my thoughts for a moment. Inisip ko pa 'yong tanong niya dahil parang hindi sumasakto sa pakiramdam ko.'Am I okay?'Tanong ko rin iyan sa aking sarili. Ayos pa ba ako? Since when? Inalis ko ang tingin sa labas ng bintana sa aking gilid bago ko nilingon si Asver na kasalukuyang nagmamaneho. We're heading home after I was discharged from the hospital. "Yes, I'm sure. Narinig mo naman ang sinabi nang Doktor kanina. Naghalo lang ang lamig at init sa katawan ko. I feel okay," sabi ko sa kaniya at tumingin na sa harapan.Huminga siya nang malalim pero hindi na nagsalita pa. Which, I was thankful for because my mind was still in chaos. It wasn't just because of what happened earlier. I think Taira has been affecting me for real. Hindi naman sana talaga dapat na maapektuhan ako pero pakiramdam ko, parte na siya ng buo kong pagkatao. Ang tanga ko naman para tanungin pa kung bakit naaapektuhan ako ni
Chapter 15|The Glimpse~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|I woke up from a loud ringing coming from my phone that I left in my bed yesterday. I weakly opened my eye as my lips twitched in pain. Hindi ko na pala nagamot ang sugat sa mata ko dahil nawalan na ako nang malay. Kaya ngayon ramdam ko na ang matinding hapdi. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit naghahanap pa ako nang sakit sa katawan kung ganito lang din naman pagkatapos.I'd just suffer from it afterward.Baliw na nga talaga ako. Huminga ako nang malalim at bumangon kahit parang mahuhulog na lang ang ulo ko sa sahig dahil sa sakit at bigat. I gently wash my face, avoiding getting my left eye further damaged. Baka mamaya nito nakahandusay na pala ako sa sahig dahil may naapektuhang ugat na konektado sa utak ko. Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang sarili ko. I wanted pain but I don't want to suffer from it. I sighed and walked inside my room and fixed myself.Katatapos ko lang isuot ang dark gray kong eyepatch nang marinig ang sunod-sunod na ka
Chapter 16|Their Love~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|Gasping for air, my right eye flashed open. But when my vision got the familiar road that I saw in my dream got me terrified."Pull over, Asver!"I said in panic and all of a sudden that caused him to step on the break without a warning. Napahawak ako sa aking left shoulder kung saan doon lahat napunta ang force na gawa nang pag-break ni Asver. Hindi ko na iyon pinansin at dali-daling binuksan ang pintuan ng kotse kahit hindi pa ito na-i-park sa gilid ng kalsada."What are you doing?" I momentarily shook my head and cover my mouth as I ran towards the side of the road and vomited as if my life was already in the line.Shivers ran down my veins as chills travels on my arms 'till my nape. "Hey," naramdaman ko ang magaang paghagod nito sa aking likod habang patuloy akong sumuka dahil sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. What I saw kept on replaying in the back of my head and it triggered my body to vomit again. Damn, it was so disgusting!"Masama n
Chapter 17|The RedemptionA/N: This is the last chapter! ~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Hi . . . Ma," Ngumiti ako at dinamdam ang maaliwalas na hangin na isinasayaw ang bistida kong kulay puti. I wore my white eyepatch to match my outfit for today. Sunday ngayon at naisipan kong bisitahin ang puntod ni Mama. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero pakiramdam ko kailangan ko siyang bisitahin. And now looking at her grave, I was between feeling fine and nonchalant.Thinking back to the days I felt like life was pulling me down to the ground, I realized, I was just confused. I felt empty.It was because growing up, I didn't have a mother to guide me through everything and a father who will keep me safe from everyone. The feeling of having a family confused me. Hindi ko naman kasi iyon naranasan sa ampunan. The Sisters were good to me but they couldn't give me the right love of a family.They were only obligated to take care of us, abandoned kids, and nothing more. Kaya hindi ko malaman kung papaano ko
Chapter 18|The Epilogue~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Hi!"Tumikhim ako at iniiwas ang tingin sa kaniya. Naupo ako sa gilid ng kama niya habang siya ay nakahiga at nakapikit. Natutulog. Kararating ko lang sa bahay nila at pinapasok sa kuwarto niya. I thought he was in his condo. Natulog pala siya sa kanila. Mahigpit akong kumapit sa kumot, naghahanap nang masusuportahan dahil pakiramdam ko, matutumba na lang ako sa sahig kahit nakaupo naman ako sa gilid ng kama. I feel like I would lose every strength that I have in my body at any moment now."Hindi na kita ginising at baka pagod ka talaga. You need to rest so, I'll just be here, waiting for you to wake up," I mumbled as I blankly stared at the transparent glass window in front of me. Nasa gitna ang kama ni Asver. Nasa isang gilid naman ang mini-sala niya bago ang bookshelf malapit sa may pintuan.Umayos ako nang upo at muling tiningnan ang nakatuping papel sa aking kamay. Tita Rash gave it to me when I arrived earlier. I think that was a
Chapter 17|The RedemptionA/N: This is the last chapter! ~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Hi . . . Ma," Ngumiti ako at dinamdam ang maaliwalas na hangin na isinasayaw ang bistida kong kulay puti. I wore my white eyepatch to match my outfit for today. Sunday ngayon at naisipan kong bisitahin ang puntod ni Mama. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pero pakiramdam ko kailangan ko siyang bisitahin. And now looking at her grave, I was between feeling fine and nonchalant.Thinking back to the days I felt like life was pulling me down to the ground, I realized, I was just confused. I felt empty.It was because growing up, I didn't have a mother to guide me through everything and a father who will keep me safe from everyone. The feeling of having a family confused me. Hindi ko naman kasi iyon naranasan sa ampunan. The Sisters were good to me but they couldn't give me the right love of a family.They were only obligated to take care of us, abandoned kids, and nothing more. Kaya hindi ko malaman kung papaano ko
Chapter 16|Their Love~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|Gasping for air, my right eye flashed open. But when my vision got the familiar road that I saw in my dream got me terrified."Pull over, Asver!"I said in panic and all of a sudden that caused him to step on the break without a warning. Napahawak ako sa aking left shoulder kung saan doon lahat napunta ang force na gawa nang pag-break ni Asver. Hindi ko na iyon pinansin at dali-daling binuksan ang pintuan ng kotse kahit hindi pa ito na-i-park sa gilid ng kalsada."What are you doing?" I momentarily shook my head and cover my mouth as I ran towards the side of the road and vomited as if my life was already in the line.Shivers ran down my veins as chills travels on my arms 'till my nape. "Hey," naramdaman ko ang magaang paghagod nito sa aking likod habang patuloy akong sumuka dahil sa hindi ko malamang dahilan. What I saw kept on replaying in the back of my head and it triggered my body to vomit again. Damn, it was so disgusting!"Masama n
Chapter 15|The Glimpse~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|I woke up from a loud ringing coming from my phone that I left in my bed yesterday. I weakly opened my eye as my lips twitched in pain. Hindi ko na pala nagamot ang sugat sa mata ko dahil nawalan na ako nang malay. Kaya ngayon ramdam ko na ang matinding hapdi. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit naghahanap pa ako nang sakit sa katawan kung ganito lang din naman pagkatapos.I'd just suffer from it afterward.Baliw na nga talaga ako. Huminga ako nang malalim at bumangon kahit parang mahuhulog na lang ang ulo ko sa sahig dahil sa sakit at bigat. I gently wash my face, avoiding getting my left eye further damaged. Baka mamaya nito nakahandusay na pala ako sa sahig dahil may naapektuhang ugat na konektado sa utak ko. Hindi ko na talaga maintindihan ang sarili ko. I wanted pain but I don't want to suffer from it. I sighed and walked inside my room and fixed myself.Katatapos ko lang isuot ang dark gray kong eyepatch nang marinig ang sunod-sunod na ka
Chapter 14|The Paper~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Are you sure you're okay?"Asver's voice halted my thoughts for a moment. Inisip ko pa 'yong tanong niya dahil parang hindi sumasakto sa pakiramdam ko.'Am I okay?'Tanong ko rin iyan sa aking sarili. Ayos pa ba ako? Since when? Inalis ko ang tingin sa labas ng bintana sa aking gilid bago ko nilingon si Asver na kasalukuyang nagmamaneho. We're heading home after I was discharged from the hospital. "Yes, I'm sure. Narinig mo naman ang sinabi nang Doktor kanina. Naghalo lang ang lamig at init sa katawan ko. I feel okay," sabi ko sa kaniya at tumingin na sa harapan.Huminga siya nang malalim pero hindi na nagsalita pa. Which, I was thankful for because my mind was still in chaos. It wasn't just because of what happened earlier. I think Taira has been affecting me for real. Hindi naman sana talaga dapat na maapektuhan ako pero pakiramdam ko, parte na siya ng buo kong pagkatao. Ang tanga ko naman para tanungin pa kung bakit naaapektuhan ako ni
Chapter 13|Her Reconsideration~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|~×~(Taira)~×~Kasabay ng galit nang kalangitan, tiningala ni Taira ang ceiling ng kaniyang kuwarto. She sighed as if she has been already burned out even if she just slept the whole week. No more killings, no more fires. She doesn't know what happened. She just woke up, feeling like even having to breathe for the day felt like she was slowly losing the life inside her. Or that, she already lost it. "Kumain ka na," ni hindi niya nilingon si Lash na pumasok sa kaniyang kuwarto bitbit ang isang lagayan kung saan naroon ang mg pagkain para sa kaniya. Hindi siya gumalaw man lang. Nanatili siyang nakatitig sa ceiling na parang may nakikita na hindi nakikita ni Lash. He sighed and stared at the black carpet that he was stepping on while carrying the tray. "Ganito na lang ba, Taira?" bulong niya na narinig naman ni Taira ngunit wala siyang sinabi. Katahimikan ang namayani sa pagitan nilang dalawa. Kahit nga yata paglipad ng lamok ay m
Chapter 12|What Happened? A/N: This chapter is dedicated to ajixaya, alexcy_wolf. Thank you, guys!! Labya! ~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Rash, pasabay!""Hindi p'wede! Ang liit lang ng payong ko, oh!""Sige na! Lilibre kita, pasabay lang!""Ayoko nga! Do'n ka sa crush mo!""Ay, bitter?""Shut up!""Rash!"I blinked once as I watched my two classmates arguing over a single umbrella. Bigla na lang kasi bumagsak ang napakalakas na ulan pagka-dismiss ng huling klase namin sa araw na 'to. Kaniya-kaniya naman silang hila sa mga may dalang payong at isa na doon ang babae kanina. If I know, Rash has a crush on her. Hindi niya lang masabi. Siguro may gano'n talaga. There will be a time that you will feel that fleeting surge of emotions in your heart but you couldn't even say a word. Coward? Torpe? Name it however you want, but it's true. Try putting yourself in their shoes and you'll understand. "Prish," napatalon ako nang bahagya dahil sa pagkagulat. "Don't scare me like that," asik ko kay Asv
Chapter 11| Lose itA/N: (___×××××___) - means flashbacks~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Nandito na tayo,"Napatingin ako sa harapan at nakitang nasa may entrance na kami ng sementeryo. "Saan banda?" Asver asked while I was still looking ahead of us. My brain temporarily shut down but seconds later, my senses came back."Park mo na lang d'yan sa may gilid," turo ko sa kaniya at iniiwas ang tingin sa harapan. Bumagsak ang tingin ko sa shoulder bag na kandong ko. Naalala kong inilagay ko sa loob ang mga papel na pinagsusulatan ko. Inayos ko na iyon mula umpisa hanggang sa parte kung saan ako natigil. I planned to make him read it besides, it was only different words combined to form an unrealistic story. If he can read the lines in between, then better.I no longer had to explain my side.It's up to him whether he'll speak his mind or he'll decide to not involve himself in it. Just like what Taira was doing to Lash. She was pushing him to be out of her business which Lash could never do. Ang
Chapter 10|The DifferenceA/N: Light chapter muna tayo ngayon. Desisyon ako, eh. ~×~×~×~×~|TAYJA PRISH|"Have you forgotten how to knock?" asik ko kay Asver habang nanatili akong hindi humaharap sa kaniya.Nakatingin lang ako sa papel na binaliktad ko nang marinig ang kaniyang boses. Malakas ang kabog nang dibdib ko dahil hindi ko suot ang aking eyepatch. He shouldn't see the scar that killed me years ago.Hindi ko namalayang maliwanag na sa labas. I couldn't sleep that's why I tried to continue 'her' story. Hindi ko alam. Pakiramdam ko, babangungutin ako kapag hindi ako makapagsulat. I needed distractions from those voices who kept whispering in my ears.Dahil kung patuloy akong makikinig sa mga boses na laging nagpaparamdam kapag mag-isa ako, may pakiramdam akong may masasaktan ako sa oras na mangyari 'yon. I know who, but I just couldn't push myself to believe it nor think about it. Kasi, ayokong masaktan.I was too broken to even break for the nth time."Kanina pa kaya ako kum