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The Ganglord’s Girl 115: Evil
I run out of the hospital.I couldn't breathe in there for a second. It's like the white walls of the room were closing in on me. I held onto her bed for support, but after a while, even that wasn't enough.I couldn't believe what she was telling me.I breathe in deeply. The night's air cools my clammy skin. My head is full of haunting images, of the full story. Ferdinand is a son of a bitch. He's the Devil's incarnate.And he has full control of me.My mother met him when she was seventeen. She came from a poor family—that I always knew—and so she dropped out of high school and worked full-time to help pay the rent.She started working at one of his family's many businesses, a flower shop. She hadn't been there for too long when he came in one afternoon. He was twenty-three at the time, and she found him handsome. He asked her to prepare a bouquet of roses—it was his mother's birthday—and when she handed it to him, he asked her for her name."Edith," she said, smiling demurely, offer
The Ganglord’s Girl 116: Alive
Devon orders another drink.He plans on getting drunk tonight. Kaitlyn called with news, confirming Bertha's story. However, there's still a piece of the puzzle missing, and that's why he's getting fucking drunk tonight.Who's Daisy's and Gabriel's son?He should've known that finding that out would be a damned difficult task. He knows that Bertha's son took his place, but Aaron didn't know it when he first showed him that grave. Now he's dead, and Devon doesn't even know if he found out the whole truth before he died. It's unlikely, right? Because who would've told him? Ferdinand probably believes that the kid is dead, which means only Daisy would know, and whoever helped her, because there's no way she did all of this on her own.The bar's red lights makes him feel safe. It's why he chose this place. White light means a clear face which means someone might recognize him, and as much as it fucking sucks, he's still dead. And if he doesn't catch Keller and those fucks he works with, f
The Ganglord’s Girl 117: Mercy
Damien watches Jasper stumble out of the club.This new driver of his is efficient. He ordered him to keep an eye on Jasper the entire day, and that's exactly what he did. "Tail him," he says. "I'm getting this son of a bitch tonight."He's going to kill Jasper Remington-Keller.Their fight earlier didn't relieve him at all, even though he won. In fact, it fueled his fury. He showed up at the bar to straighten things out, to bring peace. But as soon as he arrived, he saw Ethan's face and knew that something wasn't right. He looked hopeless and resentful, and when Ethan looks that it's never a good thing. He was excited to see his brother again, it's the only reason why Damien decided to put the past behind them, but upon arriving, it took him a minute to figure out that nothing good would come from their reunion.Pompous asshole.He nearly killed Theo, and he's still acting nonchalant about it. Damien saw when he pushed her down the stairs, the look of utter shock on his sister's face
The Ganglord’s Girl 118: Euphoria
He was covered in blood when he walked in this room.That should've been the sign for me to leave while he was in the shower, because he hadn't seen me. I've been sitting here in the dark and waiting for him. The only certainty I had that he would be coming was the small suitcase on the bed with clothes that were undoubtedly his. When the front door opened, my heart sank. He didn't see me, though. He walked straight to the bathroom, and when he turned on the light that's when I saw him. His clothes were all bloody. What did he do? Something terrible by the looks of it. It made me lose my nerve and I thought of leaving. Maybe I was making a mistake. I wasn't that sure about my plan in the first place, but I don't have another choice. That's what made me stay. He's my only lifeline at the moment. It's either him or Ferdinand, and after what I heard tonight, I choose him.He's confused, but he lowered the gun at least. That's a good sign. Now that we're face to face, I don't really know
The Ganglord’s Girl 119: Distraction
That piece of shit was actually going to shoot him.If those drunkards hadn't stumbled out of the bar, he would've been dead by now. They practically stepped in front of that guy, and stayed long enough for Devon to get away. He sped out of the parking lot, and when he glanced at the rear view mirror, he saw the man watching him drive away.Fucking creep.He needs to warn Amelia about this.Devon's joining the pieces. He said Ferdinand is the reason why he's alive, and that can only mean that Ferdinand never killed the baby Daisy offered to him. He said he did, when in reality he didn't. Why not, though? He's a fucking maniac, of course he'd kill the baby. Or rather, everyone would assume he did. But why would he keep him alive? For what reason? Revenge later on? After thirty fucking years?Something else isn't adding up. Why would Bertha hate Daisy and attack Amelia when she knew her son was alive the entire time? Because he said that she told him that Devon asked her questions. As a
The Ganglord’s Girl 120: Controlling
I'm in the backseat of Damien's car.He has a new driver. I won't even bother asking what happened to Hans. I don't think I want to know. Now that I told him about everything, I feel a little better. I got it out of my chest. He has no idea of who this brother of his might be, but I have no doubt in my mind that he'll want to figure this out. I'm not too concerned about that, however.What I want is for him to get rid of Ferdinand.I need that man out of my life.He's caused enough trauma to my mother, and he's using her life to get me to do whatever he wants. I can't keep living like this. I can't do whatever he pleases; I'm not a puppet.Some days, I can't believe he's my father.This has been a never-ending nightmare ever since Damien found out the truth. But he surprised me tonight, I won't lie. However, I expected this. It's the only reason why I decided to risk it, why I didn't turn back when he stepped inside the shower. I knew that he wanted me, that he'd somehow figured it ou
The Ganglord’s Girl 121: Uninvited
Damien has never been this furious in all his life.He's still registering everything Amelia told him. It sounds like something straight out of a horror novel. He wonders how the fuck his father got Daisy George pregnant and no one in the family ever found out about it. His mother was aware of each and every one of his affairs, that's what Theo said. She was their mother's confidant. Perhaps he'll ask her about this. He'll also have to talk to Ethan. Maybe he knows something, too, but he sincerely doubts it. Ethan wouldn't have known and not told him about it.That's just not how their relationship works.He sits back and relaxes, and allows himself to think about Amelia for a moment before he goes home. He didn't see that coming, that's for sure. When he saw her at the club, she was still furious. He could see it in her eyes, they never lie. So seeing her in his bedroom was the last thing he expected. He could sense that she was being sincere about the way she felt about him, and he
The Ganglord’s Girl 122: Hurt
"Don't forget to smile," Ferdinand says to me as we climb out of the car. I roll my eyes when he isn't looking.It isn't enough that I have to be here against my will? I'm reaching my limit. I don't know how long I can keep living like this, doing as he pleases. I'm an adult, yet I can't make my own choices. Every time I look at him, I feel disgusted. Whenever I remember what mom told me last night, I feel like killing him.I saw her earlier at the hospital. She's getting better, and the doctor said she would be discharged tomorrow morning, but I could tell that she didn't like hearing that at all. She doesn't want to leave. I can only imagine how hard all of this is for her, and she still had to pose as Ferdinand's wife the other night and I crucified her for it. She's been making sacrifices her entire life; she had to giver her newborn son away to keep him safe. If that isn't strength, I don't know what is.I'm worried about her, though. Her health is deteriorating, it has since Aar
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The Ganglord’s Girl 258: Surprises
Six months have passed.They've been peaceful and for the most part, quiet. Tremendously busy, but I'm used to that part now. Working alongside Damien is the best part about it. I get to be with him all day and make sure that he isn't exerting himself. He has a lot more work now; he had to take over Ethan's duties. Theo helps, but there are certain things only Damien can handle. When Ethan was here, he took care of it, but he's been gone for half a year and there's no one capable enough to replace him. I think that deep down, Damien doesn't want anyone to take over Ethan's job, but he'll never admit it out loud. I help him whenever I can. There's a lot I still don't understand, but I'll get there.It's only a matter of time.He doesn't ever ask me to go home when there are people coming over to meet with him. We never talked about what happened with Ash, but it changed a lot of things. I gained some respect after I killed him. I see it in the way people look at me whenever we're at so
The Ganglord’s Girl 257: Sanctuary
I help him peel his blazer off.This day has been mentally exhausting for him. He rarely leaves the office early, but I'm glad he did today. I'm glad, because at least we have the whole day ahead of us. It's going to be just the two of us. Theo rarely comes here, she prefers to stay in the city. It's closer to everything else. I love it here, because it feels like we're all alone in the world. I stare out the window and all I see is the vast sky, green hills, nature. I don't even see the guards surrounding the house. They're invisible to me.It's peaceful here, and breathtakingly beautiful. It's home. I understand why Damien is so attached to this place. It's not simply because he grew up here. I feel safe, here, untouchable. The first time I was here, I felt like an intruder. Our relationship was so different back then, I can't help but marvel at how everything is so different now. I never would have guessed that we'd end up here, closer than ever, madly in love. We've come a long wa
The Ganglord’s Girl 256: Scars
Today's an important day.I've been on edge all morning. Damien has called for a Keller family meeting. We're all going to be there, including Ethan and Penelope.He announced that there'd be a meeting only last night during dinner, and he asked Theo to give Ethan a call. I was startled by the news and so was she. He didn't tell me what he'll say to Ethan, but we can guess what it is. He wants closure. Ethan owns a third of everything, and that matter needs to be resolved. I doubt that Damien will allow him to return to the company. I just don't see it happening. Ethan himself never mentioned it to Theo, not that he'd dare to.Theo told me that he's out of the hospital. She said he hasn't left the country yet because he wants to see Damien first. Damien, however, wanted nothing to do with him until yesterday. He's asked after him, but he didn't want to see him. He's still hurt by what Ethan did to us, his betrayal is a wound that will never quite heal for him. And if it ever does, it'
The Ganglord’s Girl 255: Worth It
I'm afraid of opening the door.I've been standing here for a full minute with my heart in my throat. My hand is on the knob, ready. I can't bring myself to turn it, though, simply because I know that Damien's on the other side. There's a lot we need to talk about, so much in fact that I wouldn't know where to start.I hold my breath and close my eyes. I've been standing out here for too long. I remind myself that he's my husband, he's the man I love, and we'll get through this. We'd get through anything together. I've been in a far worse position before. This time, I was actually focusing on the well-being of our family.I open the door slowly.Only the bedside lamp is on. I see him right away; he's seated on the couch across his bed. He's staring out the window with a distant look in his eyes. I take a few steps towards him, my eyes on his handsome face. My heart's thumping against my chest. I'm overcome with emotion, but I put a hamper on them for now. He's a little pale, I notice
The Ganglord’s Girl 254: Leaving The City
Amelia's going to hate him for this, but that's okay, because he doesn't plan on ever seeing her again.He means it this time. He's done with this shit. He had his chance, he fucked it up a hundred years ago. It's time to get over it. If there was ever a part of him that thought he'd get a chance with her, that part of him died a while back. She loves Damien Keller. He lost her a long time ago. That doesn't necessarily mean that he's content with the outcome, but he'll admit defeat. Staying here is slowly killing him.She's going to be alright. Leaving her back there was a dick move, sure, but he stands by what he said to her; when everyone finds out that she did it, there will be no revenge. He helped her along the way, but no one needs to know that. The Huntingtons won't dream of touching her, especially when the truth about Damien comes out. It would be an entirely different story with him.He glances at his watch. Five more minutes in there and he'd miss his flight. He can't miss
The Ganglord’s Girl 253: Courage
I've never been so glad to see him in all my life."Devon," I say, the word a gasp. "How did you—"He doesn't let me finish. "Did he hurt you? Are you hurt?"I shake my head. "No, but how did you—""I'll explain later," he assures me. "Right now, we've got to get this asshole tied to that chair. Quickly, before he wakes up. Bring that chair over there. I have rope under the bed."I grab it and Devon grabs a duffel bag from under the bed. He opens it and fishes out rope and a couple of knives. He's been lying under the bed the entire time. It's clear that he planned this thoroughly.He didn't abandon me. He said he'd help me kill Ash and here he is. I tell him, "I thought you weren't going to show up. I thought you tricked me.""I don't blame you for assuming the worst," he says, looking up at me. His eyes are glinting with mischief and something else, something I won't dare name. He points at my gun. "You know how to use that thing?"I stare at it. "Yes."He's watching me intently. "A
The Ganglord’s Girl 252: Regret
It's quarter to midnight.The clock is ticking and my heart is racing. I'm ready, my small gun is hidden in my underwear. I've made sure to wear an extra tight pair just for the occasion. The dress is scarlet and flowy, perfect for tonight.I'm waiting for him in the lobby. This time, I'm early. It makes me feel more in control of the situation even though that's far from the truth. I take a small sip of champagne and look back at the entrance. My heart's in my throat, making it hard for me to breathe. I have to remain cool, though. There's a lot at stake.Everything depends on this."Anything else?" the bartender asks me while pouring someone else a drink. I shake my head, I can't even speak at a time like this.I'm taking another sip of champagne when I finally spot him. There are two men walking behind him. He's saying something to them as he looks around. For me, no doubt. I fix my gaze on him and hold my breath as I wait for him to see me. He doesn't, which is fairly disappointin
The Ganglord’s Girl 251: Collapse
"Leave," Damien says to the nurse. She scurries out of the room as soon as he mutters the word.He's in a terrible mood and he doesn't want anyone around him. He has finally moved from that awful, desolate place and he's home. He made sure that they didn't change any decorations. They lost a lot of antiques and furniture that was in their family for decades, but he's made sure that everything else remained the same. He's sure that he'll recover in no time here, he already feels better. He's not in bed, he's sitting on the sofa beside his bed. He's supposed to be resting, but he's done enough of that.He can't sleep when he's worried sick about Amelia.The fact that no one gives him any news is a bad sign as it is. They're hiding something from him, he can feel it. The last time he spoke to her, she told him that she wasn't going to turn back, that she'd go ahead with the plan. He has no idea of what her plan might be, but he knows it won't be anything he'll agree with. He wonders if p
The Ganglord’s Girl 250: Anxiety
I can't stop chewing my thumbnail.I force myself to put my hand down. I'm in agony; I don't know what to do and I'm running out of time. I'm supposed to be meeting Ash tonight. This was supposed to end it all, according to Devon, but he let Ethan go so what happens now? The only reason why I'm agreeing to everything is because of him. It isn't, but that's what Ash thinks. Am I still expected to show up? Why would he do this?I can't figure it out.I wish I had a way of contacting Devon to let him know that everything went to shit, but I don't have his number. I don't know where he's currently residing. I don't think I'll be seeing him anytime soon; tonight, maybe but not earlier. In the meantime, what do I do? I can't ask anyone's advice. My family is against me entirely. Theo probably thinks that our negotiations with Ash have come to an abrupt end, but she doesn't know half of it. I'm planning on killing him once and for all, I made a promise to myself that I would.For Damien.I h
