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Stumbling to my feet, all of the blood rushes to my head and the world spins. I focus on Olivia’s jacket on the chair across the room and try to get a grip.
“Please stop spinning,” I breathe.
A firm grip steadies me and my eyes slide over Odis by my side. His hands hold me up as he looks at everything but me.
I swallow.
Breathe.
Breathe in.
Breathe out.
I can do this.
“You can’t,” the darkness whispers. For Ady… I can pretend for today.
“You look like shit,” Odis grumbles, “and you smell even worse if that’s possible.” My lip curls on one side. Funny. I probably do. “You need to be presentable for Luna,” he says quietly.
I nod
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