Chapter 8: …Unless you want me to take you

~Kira~

“Who killed who?” I asked, looking at Xavier in confusion. “What’s happening here?”

He didn’t answer. Just froze and kept staring at me like he was dumbfounded.

Or had I been dreaming? I was sure that I heard him yell and say that he didn’t want to kill someone. I was very sure that it was his voice.

“What do you mean? Did you have a nightmare?” he asked, coming over to look over me. He took my hand and checked for what I thought was my pulse. But it seemed funny to me because why would he be checking my pulse when I’m currently breathing? I thought that checking pulse was for unconscious people?

Well, what do I know? I’m not even close to being a health practitioner so I guess that there are so many things that I don’t know. But that doesn’t leave him out either. He never mentioned him being a doctor. But I guess being an alpha has its perks.

“Didn’t you just say something about killing people?”

He paused for a moment as if he was considering what I’d just said. Then he burst out laughing. Honestly, his laugh was like a balm to my ripped soul. It was pure and great, and contagious. So I found myself even smiling along with him.

“You must have had a nightmare then. Because I never said anything about killing anybody.” He reduced his voice to a harsh whisper and asked, “Why? Would you like me to kill the ex that broke your heart?”

He looked like he meant what he had just asked. It was like he had been dominated by another person and his eyes that were shining so brightly a few moments ago were now sober. It made me scared. And kinda excited.

Killing Jake was an option that was quite enticing, given the kind of heartache that he made me go through. He and Ella, my former best friend. I suppose they would be gallivanting around the whole pack by now and telling everyone about their unbreakable love.

But if you love someone let them go, right?

I don’t even know who made that stupid saying up. The ones you let go never come back. And somehow if you hold in tight to them, they might stay with you. But I guess Jake is never coming back to me. He made that clear with the pregnancy announcement of Ella. And abandoning me and his baby.

And talking about babies, I’m doomed. Here is Xavier, who coincidentally, happens to be my second chance mate, smiling at me and asking if I wanted him to take revenge on my ex, and he doesn’t even know that my ex’s baby is currently still growing inside of me.

“Were you really thinking about that question? I was actually joking though” Xavier said, a smile creasing the corners of his eyes. “But if my precious mate asks me…”

“What? No! I wasn’t thinking about it at all” I quickly protested.

I was in a new territory and this might be a test for all I know. A test to know if I was a blood-thirsty bitter ex who would be capable of murdering the alpha in his sleep. No way was I going to fall for that. I didn’t have a place to go, so I wasn’t going to do anything that would jeopardize my chances of staying here for the meantime until I got myself together.

“But you’re his mate. He can’t send you away, he needs you” my wolf, Keren, said.

She might have a point there. But one can never be too sure of anything.

“How do you feel now? Do you have a headache? Are you hungry? I can go to the kitchen and fix up something for breakfast”

I raised my brows. “You cook?”

“Yes. I know. I’ve gotten that look in the past when I tried to cook for my mate. But you’d be surprised at the things that I can do behind this aloha title that I have”

Hold on a moment.

Did I just hear him right? He has a mate? Is this supposed to be some kind of harem for him? To have multiple mates? I didn’t want to push it or even think about it but my curiosity got the best of me. I just wanted to know the truth.

“Umm, alpha Xavier?”

“Call me Xavier. I think we already passed the border of using honorifics yesterday”

My cheeks flamed up at his insinuations and I lowered my head. I knew that nothing very intimate had happened between us yesterday, but I couldn’t help remembering how needy I’d been. The scene flashed back before my eyes and I cringed, hoping that the bed would somehow swallow me up so I didn’t have to face him again.

And that kiss with him…that was the best kiss that I’ve ever had. It wasn’t my first kiss, obviously. Jake was. But maybe because he was much older and more experienced, he was able to make my knees wobble.

I could just imagine what could have happened if he hadn’t given me whatever herb that was that he gave to me to drink yesterday. And the way his hands had slid over my body. I took a sharp breath and bit down on my lower lip when I felt the urge hit me down there.

I must be crazy. Very crazy.

“For fuck’s sake, Kira; I warned you not to do that in front of me again”

I brought my head up and saw that Xavier was closer to me now. Too close for comfort. I could see his eyes alternating between his normal green eye color and another color; red, which I hadn’t seen before.

“What, n-not to d-do what?”

He took a ragged breath and whispered harshly “Not to fucking bite your lips in front of me again. I warned you to never do that unless you want me to take you”

But my body kinda wanted that.

I didn’t say that out loud though. Because I didn’t understand why I would be feeling like that towards someone who I barely knew. If I did that, wouldn’t it be true what Jake and his girlfriend said? That I am a whore?

“I-I’m sorry. I didn’t…I wasn’t…”

I just couldn’t get the words out of my throat. I froze as his hands came up to my throat, a little bit too tight for a caress. Then he lowered his head and brought his mouth close to my sweet spot, his hot breath fanning my neck.

It was exciting. And terrifying. Both of substantial amounts.

Make no mistake. I enjoyed his strong hold on my neck. It was a new experience that I loved. I felt his lips brush my spot, and then a bit of hesitation before he finally brought his head and released his touch on me.

“I’ll go and prepare breakfast for you. You can come down in thirty minutes to eat”