Chapter 7: Lazy Thoughts

~Xavier~

I lay beside her, watching her as she slept. All through that day till this morning, she had slept without even turning over. In fact, she could have been easily taken to be dead but the only thing that showed that she was still alive was her soft breathing and the way she occasionally sneezes.

Once I was convinced that she was deep asleep, I’d gone on to take care of some other things in the pack. And also, because I just couldn't stand being that close to her. Not that she was irritating or something else. 

I knew that if I stayed close to her, especially with how her arousal harassed my sense of reasoning and clouded them up so badly, I would barely be able to control myself. In fact, the few minutes that I lay beside her then, trying to make sure that she was okay, all I could think about was slipping those damn clothes off her body, throwing her across my knees, and probably spanking those great-looking ass of hers until they turn pink and my fingerprints were enshrined on them.

Fuck.

This Kira of a girl is too much trouble. But how much of a trouble can my mate be?

Talking about mates; she hadn’t said anything since the time that I told her that she was my mate. Did she perhaps dislike the idea? I thought that there was some kind of connection between us some hours back, but now that I think about it, I couldn’t really be so sure. Because she hadn’t acted out of her own will. The damn plant had distorted her mind and thinking process by making her to be on unplanned heat.

All night while she slept, I’d watched over her from a distance, then came back closer when the effect of the pheromones was off. My wolf, Xeros kept on insisting on taking over and having control, but I knew that it would be nothing but trouble. At least for me.

He was going to be irrational and might even do things to upset her, besides, she might wake up and be scared when she sees a humungous grey wolf by her side, boring its red eyes into her.

Nope. Not going to happen. At least not now.

And not even to talk about what would happen if he mistakenly allows me to take charge when I’m, not ready. That would mean me being in her room, butt naked. And then she would start seeing me as a pervert.

I still couldn’t believe how lucky I am. For the moon goddess to have sent this precious gift to me. It was like it had been some kind of fate for our meeting; even though our meeting wasn’t so cute.

I’d decided to go for a run because I was so frustrated with how things had been going for me in the pack. Thankfully, I’d changed to my wolf and was pawing through the woods when I smelt something sweet. Something delicious and enticing. That scent drew me to itself like a bee to honey, and I just couldn’t resist following the scent. 

But there had been something else.

There was a lining of sorrow also in the air. It mixed up with the sweet scent and that made me even more curious. Thanks to my wolf’s special instinct, it didn’t take me long to understand that there was someone trying to take their life somewhere. And the fact that this was connected to this scent, made me paw through the woods even faster. 

Then I saw her.

Standing on the edge of the cliff where the water below swished with ferocity. I saw her hesitate for a moment and then step even closer to the edge, the heels of her feet the only thing keeping her from falling.

But before I could even think, she let herself go and an instinct kicked in me immediately. I jumped in with her, changing to my human form and catching her body before it hit the rocks and splatters her body everywhere. And that moment when she had opened her eyes and stared into my dark soul with those deep brown eyes, I just knew that she was the gift of the moon goddess to me.

At least she didn’t know that I was stark naked when I saved her. it was an unnecessary information. One that she didn’t need to know.

“This is the perfect time to mark her, you idiot. All you need to do is sink your teeth into her sweet spot. And she becomes ours forever”

I groaned at my wolf’s intrusion into my thoughts. The difference between us is that he is the impulsive one while I am the one who takes his time to make decisions. And that decision to mark her without her consent, no matter how tempting the offer might be, was something that I would never do.

“No Xeros. She will hate me forever if she wakes up and sees that I’ve made her ours without her permission. I don’t think I can risk her. We’ll mark her on her own terms, and whenever she is ready”

“Come on, you moron. She’s not gonna hate you. Do you think I’d do something that would take our mate away from us? Because last I remember, you are the one who successfully lost all our mates because of your actions”

Now Xeros was trying to play dirty. Trying to remind me of all the dirty, dark past that I’m trying to leave behind. Is that even playing fair? Well, he should be glad that he is a part of me that I cannot do without. If not, I would have killed him off a long time ago.

“I wouldn’t have done those things to our mates if only you’d just let me be! You are the bad side that I do not need but I’m stuck here with you because I cannot survive without you. You think you need her more than I do? I need her more, okay? I think she’s the one thing that will make me better again. I don’t want to be that killer anymore. I think that---“

My voice must have risen a bit higher than I wanted it to because she stirred and her eyes fluttered open. She looked a little dazed and confused. But what I wasn’t prepared for was the question that she asked me.