HarperShit, Levy looks pale as if the blood has drawn from his face. I take in a deep breath and try to stop the tears from falling. The lump in my throat hurts so bad. He rubs my hand with his thumb, “tell me,” he says with a hoarse voice.The waitress comes to our table. She’s Hispanic looking with gorgeous, long dark hair tied up in a high ponytail. Her eyes are charcoaled and remind me of cat’s eyes the way she has winged them in the corner. I’m useless at that kind of thing, I end up looking like a crackhead when I try to put liner on. Hence, I leave it off.“Can I get you guys anything?” she asks with a bright smile on her pretty face. Levy looks at me.“Give us a few more minutes please.” Levy replies nicely to her.“Sure, no problem. I’m Gisella, give me a shout when you guys are ready.” Off she goes with her hips swaying, no doubt for Levy’s benefit only he isn’t looking at her. His full attention is on me.“Am I going to be a daddy again, Harper?” My heart cracks wide open.
LevyI can’t stop smiling, it’s like a permanent fixture on my face these days. Harper has gone off to college and I can’t stop thinking about our night after dinner. The girl is insatiable, it makes me wonder if I can keep up with her. And I am exhausted, after pleasuring her and giving her five orgasms? Yep, I need hefty amounts of Red Bull and plenty of coffee.“Hey, Man, you look fucked what’s going on?” Lex asks as he saunters into my garage workshop downtown. I place the rag down I was using for the oil on the bike I am working on and take a drink of the caffeinated drink.“Late nights, early mornings. Harper has been staying with me for a couple of nights.”He raises an eyebrow. “What about her sister?”“She has been staying with us too. What? You think we’d leave Taylor at home all the time? No matter how much she tells us she is an adult, the girl is only fifteen.”“Okay, glad to hear that. So, the woman is too much for you to handle, right?” He lets out a loud laugh throwing
HarperIt’s recess and Dylan is going out for practice, honestly, he seems to be hard at it recently. There is a game coming up on the weekend my mother is due home. It’s a bit rubbish since I want to watch but I want to be there for my mother more. Dylan understands.This morning’s classes were grueling and some days I fantasize about giving it all up and being a stay at home mom with Levy as my guy. A girl can daydream. Him telling me that he would love a few babies has warmed my heart. It’s given me even more confidence in our future together. Sometimes I worry that he will think I am too young or immature and leave me for another woman who is more sophisticated and a few years older.Lacey comes over and takes a seat carrying a blue plastic tray with a coffee on it and what looks to be an egg sandwich. “Hey, how was the morning?” she asks as she sits down and places the tray on the table.“Boring, I am not enjoying it right now. I just want to have lots of Levy babies and be at ho
HarperMy heart hammers, something isn't feeling right about his text. Levy wouldn't just get up and go like this, it's not his style. Why didn't he mention yesterday he was leaving down? I read the message again something has come up.... I furrow my brow. What has come up? Why can't he tell me?I feel someone bump into me and look up, it's Dylan. "Did you know your dad was going out of town today?" I ask him as he apologizes for knocking into me."Huh, no. What do you mean he's gone out of town? We were supposed to be having a dinner tonight; you know a guy's night out with his friends. How do you know?"Exasperated I show him my mobile with the message. He furrows his dark brows. "That's fucking weird. My dad never takes off like that. He hasn't messaged me. Maybe he will be back by this evening."We move along as our classes are in adjoining rooms. "It doesn't sound like that to me. I'll try calling him.""Okay and I will message him and ask him what's going on. See you in an hour
LevyFuck, I thought I left my past behind but obviously not as I pull into the car park of the old, beaten-up shack Finnegan’s that we used to haunt as young men. I’m waiting for my guys to turn up as I take my helmet off and set it on the tank. My band has come out of my ponytail – I snap another one off my wrist and pull my hair that is chin length, into a knot on top of my head.And fuck too, that I had to leave Harper behind like I did. It was a damn, asshole move. The worst, what a shit thing to do. Send her a message. Dammit, I spit on the ground missing my beaten up, black biker boots.From my black biker jacket pocket, I pull out my mobile and read the message for something like the thousandth time.You killed him. Now it's your turn. Who has this number? It’s only used for my biker bros, Dylan, Harper and Taylor. Everyone else uses my work number. Someone must be dealing from the inside. And who the hell is it messaging me? Naturally when I messaged back to tell them to go
LevyI nod, what else can I say? It was a fucked-up scenario - one I keep trying to stop thinking about but it will never happen and even though Lex has urged me to go to therapy to handle it, that won’t happen either. The dark memories, the secret that only my brothers know – that will never go away.What if Harper finds out? What the fuck is she going to think of me then? Will she leave me? Fuck, I tip my glass to Finnegan to shoot me another shot. He does just that.My mobile vibrates in my pocket. I check; it’s Harper. “You gonna take that?” Lex says as he looks at me.“I don’t know what to say to her, Man. What can I say?”“How about the truth, always the best place to start,” Michael butts in.“Send her a message to at least say you are okay and with your brothers, that you’ll be home in a couple of days or something. Don’t leave her hanging, Man. That’s just a dickish, cowardly thing to do.” Lex is always right, how did he become the sensible one out of all of us? Guessing he j
LevyDid I sleep at all last night? The long and short answer is absolutely not, maybe an hour here and there.Too much shit was swimming around my mind. And you would think it was because of the threat towards me but no. It was the fact that I had stupidly up and left Harper without so much as offering my girl and explanation. What an utter douchebag and now I feel like a complete asshole.I rake my hand through my messed-up hair and then over the growth on my chin. When did I even last shave? There’s a knock at the room’s door. “Yeah?” I call out as I throw back the duvet and sling on my biker, black jeans. My chest is bare, my nipples peaked since there is no heating in the room and it’s not exactly a warm morning.“It’s Lex. Get your fat, lazy ass out of bed!” His voice is deep and rumbles, the cheeky fucker.“Fuck you, Man. I’ve been awake for hours,” I say as I unlock the door and swing it open. “Jeez did you not get much sleep either? You look like shit.”“Asshole,” he mutters
HarperThe distinct rumble and roar of his bike hits my ears first as I finish up doing the dishes. Taylor swings round on the stool. “Is that Levy?” She hops off and runs through the lounge area to the front window.“Oh my God, he’s back.” Okay - my sister is so happy that Levy and I are together, it honestly warms my heart. Now she’s clapping her hands and looks more like a five-year-old at a Christmas party with lots of presents, than a fifteen going on sixteen-year-old.I throw the towel down that I was drying dishes with and go stand beside her. He pulls up on the drive out front, tuns of the bike and reaches up to remove his helmet. All that gorgeous hair of his spills out, he’s like something off a movie as it falls to his chin with natural waves. I cannot wait to run my fingers through his mane later this evening.“He looks tired,” Taylor says.“He does,” I agree as I move away and go to greet him at the front door.“Hey stranger,” I say as I open it and he comes towards me. I
HarperFear engulfs my body. Who is that man? Momma is talking telling us how happy she is to be free and I am happy for her. I am happy for all of us but now with this man showing me the slit your throat gesture - has shivers running up and down my spine.Taylor hasn’t noticed, she is too engrossed telling momma all about her classes and what she has planned for her birthday and her new boyfriend. Which does make my ears prick up. I didn’t even know my little sister had a boyfriend. I need to pay more attention. Let’s face it all those hormones will be on the rampage and she needs to have the sex talk very soon.“I can’t wait to see what you girls have done with the house,” momma says as I turn to her and force a smile on my face. As soon as we are home, I need to get hold of Levy and let him know what just happened. Maybe this is connected to why he left and went out of town.Am I in danger? Alarm bells start cursing through me as momma chats about her program. “I need to attend a s
HarperI can’t take my eyes off my momma. It is like seeing a new woman just off the catwalk or from a magazine cover for one of those mags that is like, oh, I don’t know – Homes & Gardens or something. She doesn’t seem to fit in a rehab center.“It’s really me, sweetheart. Come here, let me cuddle you,” Momma says. Damn even her voice sounds different. It’s not hoarse or brittle or angry anymore. It sounds soft and gentle, full of love.Taylor wraps her arms fiercely around my mother as if she is scared to let go, like a baby monkey holding on to its mother for dear life. The scene unfolds in front of my amazed eyes making my heart stutter. Is that a thing? A stuttering heart? It is now. Usually, I would have assumed only in a romance novel or for lovers, but honestly it has stuttered.“Harper?” Momma says tilting her head to the side. Her smile is wide and infectious making me smile back. God, please don’t want to slay me but seeing my momma so elegant, so put together and so downri
HarperHe left me breathless, like shaking legs, stars in my eyes and my heart jumping and flipping all over the place. Sex with Levy is out of this world! I am still recovering as I walk back across the street to my house where my sister will be waiting for us to go for my mother.We still have half an hour before we need to leave. Levy said he would come with us and cancel all his plans. Sweet of him but you know, this is something that I have to do with my sister on our own. I’m an adult, a big girl now and all my life it seems, I have done big girl shit. Today is no different.Of course, it would be good to have my man by my side to support me and place his arm around me. Only who would Taylor have? Exactly. I need to be there for her like I always was when it was just her and I against the world.Besides, I know that Levy has some pretty important shit to sort out himself. We still need to talk about that, not today, however. It can wait. I trust Levy implicitly and when he is re
Harper“Where are you going?” Taylor asks as she spoons cereal into her mouth.“Over to see Levy. Are you good?”She looks adorable with her bed-hair and rosy cheeks. The best is watching her eat with an appetite. For a hot minute or two, I thought she was going to have some serious issues with eating. Thankfully, whatever she was going through has passed and her appetite is restored.“At this time? You know we have to go for momma in,” she glances up at the clock on the kitchen wall. “An hour, Harper.”“I know but I feel like a shit about last night and I, you know,” I shrug my shoulder. “Kinda want to go over and see him.”“You better not be late back.” My oh my, she sounds like one of my old school mistresses back in the day.“No, ma’am. I won’t be late.”“Cut that shit out!” she says making me grin.I go over to her at the island and give her a kiss on the cheek. “Thanks, Sis.” She shrugs me off but I give her another kiss in any case.With a light step and fluttering in my stomac
LevyI have been awake most of the night thinking about this whole damn shitshow of a situation. Harper is absolutely right. I need to tell her. After all, if I want a relationship with her that is long-term based on trust, openness and honesty, then Harper deserves to know everything about me and what happened back then.Hell, I’ve carried the guilt and burden of this on me for eighteen years and I need to tell Dylan. My insides churn and I am not a man who suffers easily with a churning stomach. But all of a sudden, I feel like I have way too much to lose.Throwing the rest of the dregs of the black coffee down the sink, I swill out the mug and leave it on the side for later. I’ve got an early start to go meet up with the guys but first I need to drop in and see Harper before she goes off with Taylor to pick up her mother.Dammit, I missed her warm body in bed with me last night. I love the way she snores lightly; it’s like she blows bubbles in her sleep. When she is with me at nigh
HarperI let the tears fall as soon as he left the house. And I am beating myself up for pushing him so hard. It’s not like I don’t trust Levy, of course I do. But whatever is worrying him - which it is, because I could see the angst written all over his face – he needs to tell me.It upsets me that he is treating me like a child, although I know he regards me as an equal and an adult it just doesn’t feel like it right now. God, all these conflicting emotions are too much to handle.A gentle knock to my door, I lift my head and wipe my tears away. “Can I come in, Sis?” Taylor asks from the other side. I’m sitting cross legged on the bed clutching one of my favorite Teddy bears from when I was a kid. Back when things were normal and I had a non-alcoholic and junkie mother. Oh, and a father.“Yes,” I mumble. The door opens and Taylor comes in.“Are you okay? I couldn’t help but over hear most of it.”“I’m fine, it’s not like we’ve broken up or anything. I just need some space. He’s trea
Levy There is no way I can say anything to her right now. All I am going to do is give my woman something else to fucking worry about. Her plate is full right now with her mother coming home tomorrow morning. It is my job to protect her and keep her from harm. Only now with the latest hate message, it is going to be difficult.Some cunt has got it in for me and I am going to find out who the fuck it is. Lex is still on it with his guy. Roger said he would sniff around our old stomping ground and see if anyone is willing to talk. Some fucker will know who is behind this.Harper sits beside me looking at me like she is delving right into my soul. It kind of makes me want to pull back. I cannot have her reading my mind. “Listen sweetheart,” I begin only to be given an arched eyebrow.“Do not call me sweetheart in that tone.”Huh, I always call her sweetheart. Shit, I’m all out of practice in handling mad as hell women and right now I can see dragon fire coming out of her ears. It’s damn
HarperBeing with Levy is the best feeling in the world as I sit at my kitchen island as he preps a dinner for Taylor and I. Dylan said he would try and come over but wants to catch up on his studies since he had to miss a few nights due to his football practice. Between football and Lacey, he isn’t getting much time to be with us. Or maybe he is still weirded out by me dating his daddy. Can’t say I blame him.“So, you girls excited for the morning?” Levy asks as he sautés the onions and mushrooms in the pan to go with the chicken for our fajitas. Taylor and I both nod, “yes, I can’t wait to finally see Momma again,” my younger sister says with enthusiasm. To be honest we have both missed Momma even though she was never like a mother to us after our father left. Who by the way we haven’t heard from for ages. That’s life, right. What can you expect? He’s gone on to have a new wife and children, I guess Taylor and I don’t really figure in his life anymore. His loss.“Aren’t we?” Taylo
LevyDamn, the way she looks right now; her face is radiant and her tan skin deserves to be kissed all over. Her legs wide open and her slit glistening waiting for my tongue to make contact as she squirms on the bed with anticipation.“Fuck, you are too beautiful, sweetheart. How did I get so lucky a second time around?” She giggles and lets out a sigh of contentment.“I’m the lucky one, Levy. You are so good to me and I absolutely adore you.”“Lay back and enjoy,” I tell her my voice gruff. She does as I say and lets her arms go one by one and lays on her back on the bed with her legs bent, feet on the bed. Gently I nudge my shoulders between them and kiss a thigh with butterfly kisses to her apex. She lets out a shudder, my dick responds in a micro second knowing that soon he will have all the pleasure of plunging into her warmth.My balls tighten and I swear to God, I could easily explode just looking at Harper and inhaling her musky yet sweet scent. I place my face closer to her p