CHAPTER 1

BELLA'S POV

The sounds of moans and skin slapping against each other echoed through the room and I stood frozen by the door as tears rolled down my face at the sight of my husband on top of another lady in our matrimonial bed.

I couldn't speak, couldn't move, couldn't turn away. They were so into the pleasure that they didn't even notice my presence.

“Ethan…” I finally managed to mumble and silence immediately filled the room. Ethan slowly turned to look at me and a groan escaped his lips as soon as he set his eyes on me.

“Why are you back so early? You weren't supposed to be home until the next four hours. Are you slacking off at work now?” He reprimanded and I watched in despair as he placed a soft kiss on the girl's lips before pulling away and sitting on the bed.

“This is what I get after being nothing but a good wife to you for five years?” I asked calmly as tears rolled down my cheeks and he let out a soft chuckle.

He got off the bed, stark naked, as he approached me and then bent a little to meet my gaze. He chuckled again as he poked my forehead and his smile turned sinister before he leaned closer to my ear.

“You keep forgetting your place. Have you forgotten you're nothing but a business deal?” He whispered in a low voice before pulling away with a smug grin and wiping the tears that fell down my face. “What a shame, I didn't want you to find out about this. How about you be a good wife and return to work? You're interrupting my good afternoon.”

“Is she better than me? Is she prettier than I am? I need to know why you chose her over me.” I said as I met his gaze defiantly and he raised his brow at me in surprise.

“You're talking back? What a surprise, you're finally learning to be a defiant little thing. To answer your question, why don't you take a look at the beauty on the bed, hm? You can judge by yourself if she's prettier, smarter, and better than you.” He replied with a smirk on his lips and I took a step back from him as I turned around to leave.

I didn't need him to break my heart any more than it was already broken.

“You think you can leave just like that? Think again, sweetheart!” He suddenly pulled me back by my hair as he dragged me to the bed and made me look at the lady lying on the bed with a neutral expression on her face.

Ethan was a psychopath. And it hurts me to the depth of my soul that I still loved him, no matter what he did to me. I knew struggling only made him happier, given the sadist that he was, so I just let him do whatever he wanted.

“Take a good look. What do you think, Bella? Isn't she a pretty gem?” He asked with a manic expression on his face before he pulled me back and held my face in his hands.

“Don't you ever compare yourself to her. You're nothing but a business arrangement, she's my bed warmer. You belong to the kitchen and office, she belongs to my bed and… here.” He pointed to his heart as he spoke and I couldn't stop the sob that escaped my lips.

“I'm pregnant for you, Ethan. I'm three weeks gone!” I said in tears as I held his hands that were in my face and he let out a scoff of amusement.

“So what? Get rid of it. This isn't the first time. Just swallow those pretty pills you usually take and it's gone. You'll be fine.” He said cooly and my heart sank into the depths of my stomach.

Ethan had turned me into a murderer.

“Ethan-”

“There'll be an auction event at my brother's place tomorrow. Make sure to get yourself ready and make yourself presentable. You can leave now; my member's limp now because of you, and Mabel has fallen asleep due to our boring talks. Go on.” He said as he grabbed my wrist and pulled me out, not giving me a chance to say anything before shutting the door on my face.

I returned to my room and sat on the bed feeling dejected. I took the pregnancy test results that were sitting on the table and tore them to pieces with a heavy heart.

I shouldn't have listened to Mom when she asked me to marry him. She lied to me… They all lied to me… I should have realized that something wasn't right when a billionaire suddenly asked for my hand in marriage when our family was on the brink of falling apart.

My future, my freedom, everything was taken away from me the moment I signed those marriage documents. I didn't even get a white wedding.

I took out the abortion pills stored in bulk in my closet and immediately swallowed it, before gulping down a glass of water with it. He didn't want kids with me, yet he never used a condom.

The most heartbreaking thing was that he only came to me whenever he was frustrated or annoyed. He'd use me like a toy and would only let me go whenever he felt better, even if I was on the brink of passing out.

The pain suddenly hit me hard and I collapsed on the floor as I gripped my shirt while trying hard not to cry out in pain. I heard loud laughter come from Ethan's room as the pain increased with every passing second and I couldn't help but let out a painful whimper.

I wanted to run away… but I knew I was bound to him forever. My life was now his to play with however he wanted.

The pain slowly subsided and I felt blood trickle down my legs, a reminder that I had murdered the innocent child that was growing in me.

“I'm so sorry…” I cried softly as I got myself off the floor and cleaned myself up before cleaning the bloody mess on the floor. My vision suddenly got blurry and I had to sit to stop myself from falling flat on my face.

Suddenly, my door burst open and I stood up immediately as a frown creased my eyebrows at the sight of the lady in my husband's room standing in front of me.

“You? What do you want?” I asked and she shut the door before coming close to me, a scared expression on her face.

“Help me, please.”