Chapter 3- Something Worth Fighting For

For several moments after Grayson’s puzzling outburst then abrupt exit, Amberleigh and Leo were quiet. Both trying to process what had just occurred and what their friend was thinking. Was Grayson feeling guilt over their threesome? Guilt that he’d tasted Amber while Leo was asleep and had intended to fuck her after?

Amber pulled her body from Leo’s and sighed.

“Do you want to go talk to him or should I?”

“You can Love. And I’ll make us some breakfast.”

Amber raised a brow, “You think he’ll listen to me?”

“I think you have a better chance getting him to talk than I do Love.”

Amber didn’t know if she agreed, but she was willing to give it a shot. Leo was the one who could usually get the tight-lipped billionaire to open up. But Amber figured she’d made some progress lately with the father of her child.

She gave Leo a kiss, “Wish me luck. And cook us something with meat. Need to replenish after last night.”

“Of course they’ll be meat. What kind of man do you think I am?” he grinned.

“Mine,” she answered huskily.

She slipped off the bed with a smile. As Amber searched the floor in hopes to find a pair of house shoes against the cold marble, she felt Leo’s hand on her shoulder. His kiss was gentle against her cheek.

“Are you okay Love? After what happened with him?”

“Why wouldn’t I be?”

“He got a bit rough. I just wanted to make sure he didn’t hurt you.”

Amber gave her kind hearted man a sweet kiss. His heart was so big and he felt all the emotions of those around him. Tried to fix the aches and hurts and make it better.

“He didn’t hurt me, babe. I encouraged him. I’m going to go check on him.”

“Okay Love. I’ll get started on that breakfast.”

Amber left Leo and headed towards the other love of her life. She paused to knock on the bathroom door, already knowing she was entering regardless. It was just a formality really, as she pushed the door open.

Grayson stood with his hands gripping the sink, head down, body shuddering. The shower ran unoccupied behind him. He lifted his head to watch her approach in the mirror.

“What’s wrong?” she asked.

A strangled laugh escaped his throat, “What’s wrong? I lost control and crossed a fucking line! I practically raped you Amber. I was too rough. You told me to wait.”

Her heart thudded in her chest. It wasn’t what she’d expected to hear.

“Grayson no. I didn’t tell you to stop. I was into it. You were into it. I liked it. Fuck, I came hard because if it. You didn’t hurt me Grayson. And I know if I’d told you to stop, you would have.”

She laid a hand on his shoulder. She could feel the tightness in his body. He didn’t relax beneath her touch but only stiffened more.

“Would I have though?...Don’t make excuses for me Amber. I got too aggressive and I could have hurt you. And I don’t know if it was because I got too excited or if it was because of my…”

Grayson ran a hand through his hair, unable to bring himself to say the words. Amber’s heart clenched inside her chest so tightly it hurt. Oh God, he was wondering if he’d gotten so aggressive because he was into it or if it was because of his disease. If his symptoms were getting worse. Aggression and anger could both be caused by Huntington’s destroying brain tissue. Her heart went out to him.

She wrapped her arms around him, “Grayson don’t think like that. We all were having fun. You didn’t do anything wrong. You have nothing to apologize for. Don’t fucking beat yourself up over this. Besides we probably should have come up with a safe word beforehand.”

He breathed deep, “I don’t want to hurt you Amber.”

“You won’t. I love you Grayson.”

“I love you too. And that’s why last night can’t happen again Amber. I don’t want to risk it. And I don’t want Leo getting hurt either. I’m unstable. And this is only bound to end badly.”

Amber pulled back from the hug. If that was what Grayson really wanted, then she would respect his decision. But while his mouth said those words, she doubted it was what his heart wanted.

“Is that what you really want?” she questioned, “because we all had a good time. And it felt right. You know it did Grayson.”

He turned around to face her head on.

“And what do you propose Amber? That the three of us keep carrying on and fucking? Like it’s some sustainable relationship?”

“Yes I do. I love both of you. And I’m not going to choose between you. Fuck what the world has to say about it Grayson! All that matters is what we want.”

“There will come a time when you have to choose Amber,” he said softly.

“I already fucking have. It’s the three of us. Always and forever.”

Amber cupped his cheeks and pulled his lips to hers. She poured her feelings for him into that kiss. This would work. It fucking had to! At first he kissed her back hesitantly, but soon enough his lips molded to hers, his tongue found hers.

When he broke the kiss, breathless, still entangled in her arms, he said the words which both hurt her heart and made it feel better at the same time.

“I don’t have forever Amber. But the time I do have, I want to spend it with you. And our daughter. And Leo.”

She took a deep breath and fought back her tears. No need to fall apart in front of him. It was the last thing he needed. What Grayson needed to help him get through was for her to be there for him. To be strong. To love him through all the ups and downs. Even his quiet moods, his angry ones, his sad ones. It was easy to love him and hold him when he spoke words like this, kissed her, and held her close. But it was harder to do when he had anger in his eyes, shut her out, or said hurtful things. But Amber was ready to love all those shades of Grayson unconditionally and be there for him until the end. Always and their forever.

“We'll make it work,” she promised him, “you. Me. Our daughter, and Leo. One big, happy family.”

“We can sure as hell try. The selfish part of me doesn’t want to let you go. So I’m willing to try anything if it means I get to be with you for even a moment more,” he confessed.

She brushed another kiss upon his tender lips.

“You don’t have to let me go Grayson. I’m not going fucking anywhere. I’m right here and this is where I’ll be. Nothing you do or say will push me away this time.”

Amber had made that mistake last time. Letting him push her out of his life. She hadn’t fought for him that day Grayson had announced his engagement to the cunt Courtney. She’d left without a fight. Never fucking again. Amber would fight for this life. For him. For Leo. For their daughter. No matter the odds stacked against them. Because she finally had something worth fighting for.

Amber gave Grayson a final kiss and excused herself to give him the privacy to shower. It had been tempting to join him, but she figured he could use some alone time. Besides Leo was waiting for her. No doubt just as concerned for Grayson as she had been. Leo had loved him first after all.

But when Grayson had stepped into the black and white marbled shower and Amber headed towards the door, she heard him gasp. She turned around to see him shivering. She stuck her hand under the steam of water and immediately recoiled. It was beyond cold. Beyond what a person would stand to cool off their temper or arousal.

“For fuck sake Grayson! Don’t punish yourself like this! You don’t deserve it,” she scolded.

Amber reached into the shower and turned on the hot water while his teeth chattered. His dick had shriveled up alright, but so had his fingers and toes.

“I forgot actually. I thought it help me cool down.”

“Don’t do that shit again. That was just barbaric. Besides we can’t have your dick falling off now can we?” she smiled to lighten the mood.

“I think my balls already have,” he teased.

She patted his wet shoulder, “No, I took them. They belong to me now. Now wash up like a good boy. Then join us for breakfast. And they’ll be no arguments on the fuckin’ subject.”

He laughed, “Yes my highness.”

“Glad to see your finally figuring out who’s in charge around here.”

Amber left the bathroom then. It warmed her heart to hear him chuckle again behind her. To hear his muttering about the power going to her head. Damn straight she was in charge. Amber was the fucking queen. And God help those who hurt her boys or the princess she carried. God help those who stood in her fucking way to her happy ending.