4| One day

                                                                          ~6 years ago~

                                                                       { Vivienne's POV }

I couldn't stop my laughter as we stumbled into my room.

The day had been full of training

Well every day has been full of training since a few months ago.

Lucian's dad had finally accepted me into the house, he started my training 3 months after I moved in.

We were still laying low from the law as technically... we were escaped convicts.

"I can't believe you got knocked on your ass" Lucian laughed, falling on my bed casually

"Yeah well if you trained me better I wouldn't of been" I whined, jumping on top of him

He groaned, rolling us over until he hovered over me.

"Get off you're all sweaty" I complained, pushing him away, he grinned, snuggling his head in my neck.

"Gross" I whined, he laughed at me, winding his arms under me and around my waist

"You love it" he mumbled against my skin.

I could feel his lips against my neck

It made my whole body erupt in goosebumps

I had to admit, over this past year I had developed a slight... crush on Lucian.

He was funny. And nice to me

I'd seen the way he was around the house, around other members of the mafia

He was a stone cold bastard. But he was nice to me.

He spent most of his time with me. It made me sometimes think he might feel something more too.

I mean yeah, he called me baby girl a lot, and he'd always get angry whenever another guy came near me or spoke to me.

And there was the few kisses we'd had here and there.

"Come on I need to get up" I groaned, pushing him off me

"Fine... movie night?" He asked, I nodded

I made my way into the shower, washing off the sweat and blood from the day.

Yes I got 'knocked on my ass', but I also pinned down every opponent that challenged me.

I was getting better in combat, all my fighting skills had come from the... the organisation, but Lucian was teaching me official military moves as well as mafia fighting techniques

As well as tricks he's picked up over the years in street fights.

When I'd gotten dried and dressed I made my way down the hall to Lucian's room

Clad in one of his shirts I had stolen ages ago, it was comforting and smelt just like him.

When I opened the door I expected him to still be in the shower, but instead I found Lucian lying on his bed, in a pair of sweatpants

His naked chest on view

All his tattoos... little scars... abs...

Fuck.

"You laying down or you gonna stare at me all night?" He smirked

I snapped out of my thoughts and climbed into the bed next to him.

I settled beside him as he put a movie on

I loved and hated nights like these

My heart would scream at me to move closer to him, but the voices in my head told me he would just reject me.

That I wasn't good enough for him.

I bit my lip, trying to focus on the film

But just as I was getting into it, I felt his hand swipe along my waist, before he pulled me into his side, laying my head on his chest.

His other hand began playing with my hair, he always liked playing with my hair.

"Do you think life will ever be like that?" I asked softly, watching the couple in the film

They looked so happy, so content

I wanted that. I wanted to stop hiding, to stop killing.

"One day" he smiled, looking down at me.

I smiled back, not truly believing it

This world was a hard one to get out of.

"What's going on in that pretty little head?" Lucian asked softly, his rough hand coming up to stroke the side of my face.

I looked up at him, blue orbs connecting with blue

Why did he have to be so cute?

Maybe my crush was more than a crush, because all I wanted to do right now was kiss him.

"Lucian" I whispered, inching closer to him

He leaned in with me, our lips inches from each other as I looked down at them.

They were so tempting, so soft

My eyes connected with his again for a millisecond before they closed at the feeling of his lips on mine

They were soft, god they were soft...

the hand that was stroking the side of my cheek, softly grabbed the back of my neck, pulling me closer into him.

My lips moved against his slowly, hesitantly.

I'd never kissed anyone else before.

I was too wrapped up in drugs, crime and fighting to ever care about boys.

Then I got thrown in the fucking asylum, and everyone there was as batshit crazy as me.

So Lucian was the only guy I'd ever kissed.

We both pulled away after a minute, catching our breath as we lingered inches apart from each other

"Doll" he whispered, his hot breath against my lips as I anticipated his next words

But he didn't speak, he simply swooped in again, capturing my lips with his.

I moaned softly against him, my dainty hands coming up to tangle in his dark hair.

Everything seemed to slow down, like it was just me and him in our own little bubble.

His hands trailed down my arms before encircling around my waist, pulling me across his lap so I was straddling him.

data-p-id=e86e04be0d06cdb5f44ff3b4166313bd,style=text-align:left;,My hands found his nape, kissing him with vigour as his tongue swiped along my bottom lip

I allowed him access, his tongue softly caressing mine as soft moans filled the room

I wanted this, I had wanted this for nearly a year now.

No matter how annoying he could be. He was also sweet, and kind to me.

He looked out for me, he made sure I was always okay. And he never failed to make me smile.

Even on the days the voices would get so bad, I would try and cry them out.

"Lucian" I half moaned as I pulled away, his lips trailed my neck, kissing, sucking and biting the skin. No doubt leaving marks.

"Lucian" I tried again, a bit firmer

His hand had just slipped under my tank top

His thumbs rubbing the naked skin of my waist back and forth.

"Yeah" He asked, snapping out of his daze for a moment

"I uh... I-I..." I stuttered over my words

What the fuck was wrong with me? I didn't stutter. I didn't get nervous.

"Baby?" He asked, cupping my face to look at him

I felt vulnerable. I didn't like it. I had to leave.

To protect my sanity if anything.

"I-I... I've never... done anything like this before" I mumbled, my eyes locked on his whilst his were fixated on my lips

But as the words stupidly tumbled out of my mouth, his bright blue eyes flickered up to mine, before he smiled.

"Really?" He asked happily

I nodded. Well as much as I could whilst locked in his large hands

And before I knew it I was flipped over, Lucian's large muscular frame hovering over me as he stared down at me, one arm propping him up whilst his other hand grazed my waist.

Slowly pushing up my tank top till my waist was bare to him

"I want you doll. Hell I don't think I've ever wanted something as much as I want you" He said sincerely, his eyes raking up and down my body before settling on my face.

"Kiss me" He said simply

"What?" I asked, slightly taken aback, he smirked

"Kiss me" He repeated, his voice deep and rough as he teasingly brushed his lips against mine.

"But I've never-"

"Me neither" He said confidently, still beaming down at me

"You've never..." I trailed off, feeling awkward

He shrugged

"Girls are annoying. Everyone's annoying... except you" he thought out loud.

He looked at me expectantly, so with the little courage I felt in this moment, I leant up, pressing my lips against his in a soft chaste kiss

But his arm snaked under my back, deepening the kiss as he leant into me.

It was overwhelming. His touch. His kisses

His warmth

That was the night I gave myself over to him.

The night I lost my virginity. And he lost his

We gave ourselves to each other, body and heart.

The feeling of him inside of me was indescribable. The way his hands wrapped my hair around them

The way his lips kissed every single part of my body, leaving every part of me marked.

He was gentle, and caring.

"One day" he sighed, catching his breath as he stared up at the ceiling, my body tucked tightly into his side as we both lay naked

"What?" I asked confused

My head was still hazy after the 3rd orgasm.

"One day. We'll have our happy ending. We'll move away, on a beach somewhere. Just us" he said, making me smile

"Tell me more" I mumbled quietly

"We'll have anything we could possibly want, the dog you're always pining for, the garden you've always wanted... a family" he described

I just stared at him.

This... this was it. This was the happiest I would ever feel... wrapped up in his arms dreaming about a future.

And in that moment I believed it. How stupid was I? Dreams don't come true. I should have learnt that by now.

"What?" He smiled, realising I hadn't said anything

"I love you"

                                                                                       •

I woke up early, and practically bounced down to the coffee house to buy me and Lucian breakfast.

I was on cloud nine.

In my own little bubble of happiness

A bubble that effectively popped when a man sat down opposite me whilst I was waiting.

I just ignored him. Weirdo, there are plenty of other tables

"Vivienne Vixen" He stated, making me look up

"I have a proposition for you" He smiled.

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