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Chapter 22: Deja Vu (Audra)

Author: Ruby Nichols
last update Last Updated: 2024-02-03 23:35:20

In nursing school, we were taught compassion while maintaining distance. Avoid becoming emotionally attached to a patient.

I did the exact opposite, and Daniel’s death has devastated me.

I come home and try to sleep after what might be the worst day in the entirety of my career. Sleep eludes me. When it does come, it isn’t restful. Instead it is fueled by nightmares and when I wake each time I am drenched in a cold sweat.

I give up on trying to sleep anymore and take a shower. I pray for the hot water to just wash away my sadness. I sigh heavily before turning off the water. I quickly dry off and change into black leggings and a royal blue cropped tee.

It’s late afternoon now so I decide to call Simon. We talk for a while about what happened today before I decide to shoot my shot.

“Let’s be together. Let’s make this official. We’ve wasted so many years pretending to be just friends and I don’t want to let us slip away.”

“Audra… I’m going to be here for another 3 years. I’m 1300 m
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