13: Celebration Chaos

They say, it is hard to push someone you love away, but I was able to do it with Carter. Yes, I do still love him after everything that happened, only that it is not as potent as before. My anger, pain and the urge to avenge my loved ones are more stronger.

I looked at Carter with nothing but empty, cold eyes. His image was the idea of comfort for me back then. Whenever he is near, I always feel safe and good, that nothing bad will happen to me because he is there always, ready to do everything just to protect me. He was that person to me—that person who I can't leave without. But everything change in an instant. When he left me to get ruined by his own kind. I do not think I will ever forget how I loved him, I will never forget all those memories because it was embedded in my soul, and that with my vampire mind, my memory is a lot sharper that I can remember all the details of the past. But even though I will not forget about it in my mind, it doesn't mean it will fore