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Chapter 18 - Can you heal it ?
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2020-07-26 17:34:54I stared at my phone screen seeing Nikolas's name flash through it, I couldn't help the way my stomach tightened in knots.
I swallowed hard and debated myself whether I should answer it or not-
Roman said that he left, he doesn't know i am here, he thinks i am at the hotel, right ?
I think i should answer, for him not to get suspicious. I took in a deep breath and pressed the answer button. I placed the phone to my ear and no words were able to form out of my mouth.
I heard his low breath before he lowly said, "Hey."
My eyes closed, my other hand fisted around the blanket.
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