NateWhat am I doing? What the fuck am I doing?It kept repeating in my head as I slowly pulled Letty to a stop next to Kimberly's house. On the driver seat, Hailey's jaw dropped at the sight of the three-story mansion, Victorian stile with more garden than house. "Oh my God.""Obnoxious, right?" Kimmy grimaced following her gaze from the backseat. Her lips tightly pressed.It was, I believe, the fist honest comment she'd said through the whole ride here. She didn't take well Hailey coming with... she didn't take well giving up the passenger seat. But her stop was earlier so it would have been stupid having her changing seats once we drop the princess home.But she'd made sure to show off how much this new disposition upset her. Another one of her tantrums, no big deal. What worried me was that she was making Hailey uncomfortable. I was already having second thoughts about this tutoring to also have to worry about Kimmy being rude."N-no." Hailey stuttered, thinking she'd offended Kim
I squeezed my eyes shut and reached out, my hand trembling as it smelled it, its whiskers tickling me.Nope, I can't.But right when I was about to pull away, too afraid to fulfill it, the warmth of a second hand covered mine and guided me the lasts inches. I gasped as the soft fur molded under my palm and my eyes immediately snapped open."See? It isn't that hard, now is it?" I sensed Nate's smile, but couldn't look away from the animal in front of me. I felt her under my hand, so fragile and delicate under the long fluffy fur... Almost as if it could break at any hit. Was it really dangerous? Right now it only seemed a little-The thing nuzzled into my palm, making a purring sound and unease clenched my chest all over again, making me flinch away. "Ohh-okay, can you put it away now?"Nate chuckled, but luckily decided he'd messed with me enough and stand with the thing just as it was attempting to step into my lap. I would have had a heart attack if that happened. He took it to one
HaileyWhen I finally made my way downstairs, I was already dreading this whole plan. The analyzing look my mother gave me as soon as I stepped into the salon didn't help either. Ted was in the living room as well, but didn't even glance at me, too focused on whatever video game he was playing.Her eyes narrowed over her glasses as she closed the book on her lap, shifting in her seat to be able to give me that motherly look of utter concern-disapproval she was so good at."Nope." I shook my head before she could even open her mouth. "I'm not going to hear it.""I haven't said anything.""You're thinking it." I grimaced. "I can hear the wheels rolling.""And what am I thinking?"I resisted the urge to roll my eyes. "You think it's too short, too uncovering and that if I can't impress them without showing too much then I shouldn't try at all."Her brow perked and she turned her attention back to the book, but I could tell she wasn't reading for the hint of a satisfied smile tugging her
"Yep.""Hey! I won you two mices." pouted Olly."Riiight. Same thing..."His eyes narrowed. "You're so ungrateful. Here," he took the plastic weapon again, handing the guy more tickets. I stepped aside to give him more room to maneuver, unconsciously finding myself standing by Nate's side, who was also amusedly watching Olly's ego-hurt moment. "You see that bear over there? I'll win that. Ha!"As they argued about it Nate turned to me and with that amused glint when he noticed my attention already on him, he teased: "You know? It's funny you dress like that when indeed you hate cats."I could feel my cheeks warming thinking back about his Freckles. And what happened after. We never mention it again through the tutoring session, but it was there. Instead, I innocently shrugged, fiddling with the toy we'd won. "I don't hate cats." "I'm not complaining." a smirk tugged the hem of his lip with another quick once over. "So hot."And I felt hot all over.No, let's not go there. I rolled my
HaileyAnd I did find a drink. Hell, if I did.I sent a quick text to Vickie, not getting into the details, but telling them I'd run into someone and wouldn't be making it to the movie yet. Or ever! He was there, probably cuddling with Karen, being all lovey-dovey while in his perverted mind he was probably thinking about any other girl.I could see all the signs now. All those secret meetings, his anxiety about me telling anyone... He never had any intention of breaking up with Karen. He was probably bored or whatever and wanted to add emotion to their long time relationship. 'Emotion' as in messing with my feelings. Leading me on when there was obviously nothing to be lead to. I'd been his plaything to spike his actual love life.And I believed every word like a bloody moron!I thought it was sadness what crushed my chest and tightened around my throat like a deathly lace... but. It wasn't sadness, it was anger. Red burning ire that flowed through my veins like liquid fire. Mad at
"Kiss me if I'm wrong, but you're dying to kiss me.""I...""Hellooo." we flinched away at Kimberly's pitched squeal and turned to see her standing barely five feet from the bench. "Are we going to play or I got Brandon got us all this for nothing?" she gestured to the bag in her arms with a couple bottles."Just making time, Kimmy. No big deal." Nate chuckle brushed my red cheeks as he pulled away, pinning me there with his eyes. "Are you playing?" "Uh?"If you added hormonal altered to the tipsiness I already had with me, you got a massive clueless.His lips pulled up in an adorable smirk, amused by my void answer. But it was the raven-haired girl who responds with an eye roll. "We just got the Vodka for truth or dare. I even got us Tequila too. Wanna join?"I... shouldn't. But there was something so exciting in being here. With Nate. Forgetting about anything else with that skill of his to numb my mind... After a brief hesitation I thought, what the hell?, and smirked. "Yeah, why
But I just held Kimberly gaze. She was daring me again, almost mocking. No one believed I could do it. That the plain goody two shoes me could do something like body shots. I was sick and tired of being the boring one, the one left behind. And I got this boldness from alcohol and the perspective of Nate's lips this close... I turned to him and gulping the hesitation I smiled instead. "It's fine. I want to."Nate still looked a bit unsure so I decided to take action. I'd never done body shots before, so I didn't know how to do it without looking like a creep. Instead of embarrassing myself, I decided to play the bodyshot part and brushed my hair off my shoulders, exposing the modest cleavage only that now it felt a lot more daring. Blood burned in my veins when Nate's gaze lingered there and his hold on me tightened. From the corner of my eye I saw Trish frowned and scooped away, but my attention was suddenly overwhelmed in a turmoil of sensations. Kimberly got up to give us more spa
Hailey"Relax." I giggled at how flustered Vickie was getting. Her hands a moving mess over the counter between us as I prepared a new cup. "Don't tell me this is how you were the first time.""N-no, of course not." "Then?" finishing the ice-cream cup I placed a small plastic spoon on it and turned towards the costumer with a bright smile. "There you go. It's 4'95."She handed it and took the cup heading where the rest of her friends had gathered. The place wasn't that filled now that we were in November. In summer it gets handful, but right now it's rather a chill work. So my boss trusted me alone in the shop. Most of the time ever since mid October I used all this free time to do my homework or read or even watch Netflix on certain hours of extreme inactivity. Now it was a good time, it was late enough for there to be someone around, but not too much so people arrived on their hanging outs and I had to fully pay my 100% senses to the work and still get overpowered. Which was also
"Hailey," he whined leaning forward almost instinctively, as if he couldn't help it and in awe I realized I was doing exactly the same. "I love you." he breathed against my lips and my lids fell, making me inched even closer. "But I can't rely my well-being only on you. It won't be fair for neither of us. There's a lot of things I need to figure out on my own, that I need to fix. And I need to do this by myself.""B-but t-this doesn't have to be a goodbye." I muttered resting my forehead against his. "Even with the distance, with the fight... I'm sorry. I am. And if you say nothing's happened with Trish, I believe you. We can still make this work...""Hailey." he sighed through his nose, his head tilting so our breaths mixed and it all felt all the more painful. It was as if he was slipping away when he was right there. Close enough to touch but impossible to keep. He was leaving me behind. Way behind. Where I couldn't reach him. "I don't want to hurt you. Trust me, that's the last th
He let out a disbelief chuckle, dry and humorless. "Is that the only thing important for you? Maybe there's a major reason for me to need to use her place."My guts did a complicated turn. "Yeah, but you won't tell me. I won't keep prying in stuff that clearly upsets you and bring us to fight more, so I focus on the part where I still have a say on... or at least have the right to comment." I finally slid off my ankle boots and met his eyes again, fueled with this bubbling anger as I keep hearing Trish's voice and reliving what I'd felt this morning. "You were with her. Every time we have some problem you run back to her.""That's not true.""It is. She still wants something with you, she's made it pretty clear and you keep going back to her." his eyes darkened at each word passing my lips, but they were true and speaking them out loud only seemed to make them more real. Along with my unease and anger. "And it's completely unfair because you're extremely possessive over me with any gu
HaileyI left Vickie's house after mid-afternoon, not finding more excuses to occupy my mind in things other than the huge mess with Nate. And also, I got a day full of other headaches either way so I didn't have time to overthink it. For starters, I had to go recognize Ryan, and that alone was nerve-cracking and stressful, but also in school people were all talking about the same two things: Kimmy fainting and Vickie's photoshopped pics.What an awful mess. The redhead didn't want to show up at school and convinced her parents to stay in the day. Olly and Bear had been suspended for yesterday's fight and Bear with a plus for distributing the horrible photoshopped picture. They were considering expelling him if there were any prove he was indeed the one spreading it. Shame the account that did was a fake one.But it was a matter of time, I was sure. Then Vickie would be able to forget about this and his vicious ways of getting her attention. Then the only problem would be them being n
"This... Look, she's been calling since we fight, but I was mad and had my phone turned off, but this morning she called and..." I couldn't continue, it was as if the words refused to voice it. Fuck, why so guilty. Why? I hadn't actually done anything."Nate." Kimberly huffed unimpressed when I failed to proceed, even with her weak tone I sense the disapproval. "What on earth did you tell her?""Nothing.""Well, knowing how sensible Gracie is that 'nothing' might as well scar her.""Nothing, okay! Just..." I was feeling too altered to remain sitting so I stood, anxiously pacing in the white, clean room. "Trish took her call this morning and now she's the one avoiding me.""What?" even in her feeble state her disbelief was like a slap. "Are you stupid? What were you doing with the stuck-up bitch?"Where else? "I got nowhere to go." but it disappointed her and my already poking guilt shifted to a whole new level as Kimmy frowned."I'm sure that's not true. And now Gracie has to face the
It was about time to accept that yesterday happened. As shitty as it was, it was. Everything on it. And now that the first shock and betrayal feeling I was able to go through everything again and nothing made sense.Maybe it was about time to stop this stupid childish lock out and talk to Hailey? Let her explain? I was still mad but I haven't talked to her since yesterday and now that my initial emotions were settling a little I couldn't stand the memory of her crying.And it was Hailey. I knew her. She must have had a reason not to tell me, as much as it hurt the lie.I slid on the jacket and picked up the phone, from the table. Had I left it there? Whatever. Yet the second red flag fluttered when I unlocked the screen, halting me in my tracks. "Trish.""Yeah?" she hummed cutting her apple in pieces, oblivious at all the emotions suddenly roaming aggressively in my chest, unsure yet of which one stood out from the others."Have you taken one of my calls?""Mhm? Oh yeah. Gracie called
"Okay." she chuckled as I sat back in my spot, more cheerful now at the perspective of seeing Kimberly.I asked for them to keep me updated, but it shouldn't have surprised me when I got no notification. It hurt, but a part of me understood both Seth and Nate got more immediate things to worry about than to keep me up about it too.The mere reminder of his reaction and how he shut me out made my heart twitched painfully under my ribs.Almost as if sensing where my thoughts were going, my mother tilted her head, taking her cup of coffee. "What about Nate? Have you managed to talk to him?""He's ignoring me.""I'm sure he's not." she retorted instead brushing my hair off my shoulder. "He must be occupied and concerned about your friend too. It must have slipped his mind. He'll get over it.""No, mom, he's ignoring me. Kimmy's mother's just told me they were there until the visiting hours ended and still he didn't answer me at all. In all night. And I've been texting and calling..." my a
Now it all make sense. Her exhaustion, how thin she was getting, the hair falling, her being kicked out the cheer squad, the whole stop hanging out with us... because if she did, we would notice something was off with her eating habits and we would have done something about it.But Hailey knew. And she did nothing. I knew Kimmy was hiding something, but why did Hailey have to lie?What the hell? How could had she allowed that?! I tugged at my hair for the umpteenth time today, but the buzzing in my ears didn't stop. My mind was going overdrive over every detail from the day, over every time my friend acted weird, every chance Hailey had of telling the trust...I didn't get it. Everything was spiraling down to a dark tornado and I saw myself falling and sinking more in the darkness as I lost more and more pillars that kept me sane.How did everything spin out of control from a good birthday to this?I couldn't even cope with everything. Somehow I just wanted to slid into my bed and dre
HaileyMy hands were shaking with apprehension and fright as I talked to the ambulance's assistant as they all attended Kimmy. I hadn't stopped crying since she fainted some moments ago and despites our best chances she still hadn't wake up.I knew this would happen, I knew she wasn't holding up as good as she claimed to be, I knew she was getting worst and lying about it, but I didn't know what I was supposed to do. I didn't want to break her trust, but now seeing as they lifted the stretched to the back of the ambulance I wished I had instead of having to face how she'd fallen to this. And it was my fault. I should have seen this coming. I should have done more, tell someone... I was too focused on hanging in this little confidence Kimmy allowed me, so scared to lose it that I watched and let her fully fell on the abysm. And for the way Nate's been avoiding my gaze ever since he heard me telling the paramedics what was going on. The way he sat by the path with his head in his hands
"Great, look at this." I pulled up my hand to show her the letters and she took them from me."What is that?" wondered Kimmy resting her head on her folded arms over the table, her lids closed. "Please do enlighten the rest of us.""It's- Nate!" cheered Hailey as I took my usual spot in the table and pulled her down with me to sit on the bench as well between my legs. "It's the scholarship."That successfully caught Kimmy's attention, making her straightened in her seat across from us. "They've accepted you?""Three of them have." grinned Hailey, genuinely proud of me and making me feel even lighter as she rewarded me with a proper kiss, for the first time not caring about PDA. "I knew you'll make it.""Yeah, yeah, which ones?" Kimberly took the papers from her quickly scrolling through them. Her brows rose. "Wow, Herond. Three of them. Now this is something to be proud of.""Thanks.""It is." Hailey's smile beamed, but cut my next kiss too short, turning to the table instead. "Here."