00 - PROLOGUE

"Hey? Where are you going?" the woman demanded huffily, not a single clothes was still in her body

Of course, her pale white naked skin was exposed to me.

She was naked on my side, standing in front of the large hotel window, and we stayed here for a short time doing things because of her lust and my own reasons.

Yes.

I fucked her several times until she passed out. As she fought against my stamina, her body simply gave up.

Because of the aggressiveness, she eventually fell asleep in the middle of me, fucking her senseless.

"Celare!" the lady called out again, causing me to glare back at her grumpily.

"Shut up. You just wasted my time," I said, bored, and went back to getting dressed because I didn't want to waste any more time with this woman.

She's not what I'm looking for.

Ha ..

"W-what?" she stutters the question.

As she wrapped her arms around my waist, I could feel the breeze.

Because of our speed and agility, she was able to reach behind me and hug me without difficulty.

Her fang was also threatening to sink into my shoulder.

I simply clicked my tongue out of irritation.

I close my eyes to her weak cry as her fang sinks into my skin. "Y-you can't leave me, Celare... Y-you can't!"

God-damned, woman.

"Stop everything already," I hissed, but she merely shook her head at me and went back to warming up my body.

This woman is a devil. She has a knack for seducing her kind.

My body will give in to what she is doing if I don't handle things now, even if I refuse to touch her again.

Shit.

Biting is, after all, a part of vampire sex.

So, even before I started carving it, I fiercely touched her face and brought her small body in front of me with minimal fuss.

"C-Celare.. Why?" I can see the lust in her eyes in the redness of her eyes. After passing out earlier, she wanted me to fuck her again?

I shook my head and with force, I let go of her face causing her to come to my feet.

"Ah!" She moaned.

I looked down on her, she was looking up at me now.

"Stop wasting my time, fucking whore," I said firmly as she stared at me. "You can't even keep up with me, and you still want me to fuck you again?" I asked, her eyes widening.

"H-hela—!"

My eyes grew redder as she wanted to speak for herself. She began to tremble in fear as my eyes darkened.

"Shut up. You're not deserving of my touch again. You're a fucking mess, and last but not least, you're not what I'm looking for. Calm your pussy down, little slut," I said as I put on my black coat and walked away from her.

Damn.

I'm wasting my energy to this kind of woman?

This is exhausting.

It was so exhausting that I wanted to kill her out of annoyance.

"Ah! I forgot something about you, Celare!" she exclaimed as I hopped onto the hotel balcony.

I was immediately taken aback by the tone of said voice.

What?

Is she ..

Is she planning on—

"You are sick! You fucked women and men!" She hollered at me, I clenched my fist at what she said.

No..

That is not the case fucking case here!

"You are the most loathsome woman I've ever had the pleasure of sleeping with! Everything about you is fucking disgusting!"

"Shut up," I said, unable to contain my rage at what she was about to say, but she just laughed at me foolishly.

"Ha! After bad mouthing me?! I gave my body, you bitch! I let you touch me because I can't disobey you because of your fucking family's power and you, a motherfucking sick-sex-addict bitch!" She shouted again so I was distracted in no time.

She was crying.

"You can't find what you're looking for, Celare!" She almost yelled at me which made my eyes widen.

No..

You cannot say that to me..

No! 

D-don't you dare.. Don't you dare!

I want to beg.

I wanted to beg not to say what she wants to add to the term she said because I feel like I will lose my strength every time the truth slaps me in this part, in the situation where I feel like I can't do anything no matter what I do. I'm powerless to everything in any way or for any reason.

I said threateningly, "Don't you dare."

My eyes widened as she smiled.

"You fucking mateless sex addict! You are the shame of your family, and you don't belong here!"

Mateless..

I was constantly stabbed by a million knives in my chest.

Is this woman aware of how upsetting it is for me to hear what she just called me repeatedly in my face?

It hurts.. It hurts me that I always wanted to waste my life and find my mate in another life but I can't..

I cannot do that, I'm not going to do that because deep in my heart, I'm still hoping.

Hoping that one day, my mate will be finally in my arms.

Like them, those people kept on mocking me because of being mateless.

"You are the worst! Open your fucking eyes, Celare! You are destined to be alone, you don't have a mate! You exist to become our laughingstock! Even your family denied your existenc—!"

Full force, using our speed ability, I easily made my way to her front.

"Shut the hell up!" I found myself choking her. "You don't know everything, fucking slut. For someone who slept with different people to kill their own mates, you don't have a right to mock me." I tightened my hands around her neck as I spoke.

Of course, I let her stand up. This whore is shorter, her height was just in my shoulder. 

"My mate is still alive and I find her no matter what." I declared. 

"C-Cel.. a.. re.." She called my name using her shattered voice.

I locked my gaze on her for 5 seconds before whispering to her ears; her eyes widened as she heard what I said.

"Kill yourself," I said in soothing voices as I let go of her body.

I left the hotel where I was staying after letting go of her body and drove straight to our house, and guess what? I'm having a bad fucking day.

Because I saw so much of that scene, I didn't watch her burn herself. Manipulation is one of my skills, and if I don't get out of there, I'm going to writhe in pain.

"You killed someone again, Celare Hikari," my mother said solemnly.

I was about to enter my room when I noticed that my mother was already there, sitting in front of my bed with a book that I always read when I was in our house.

My mother was dressed in a lorde dress, which was black. Nothing has changed; my mother stands firmly out.

Anyway, nothing came out of my mouth.

I went straight to my drawer to pick up the medicine because I was gradually feeling the side effect of my ability.

The side effects are very painful so when I run out of patience, I always use mine recklessly.

All of the elite vampires have special abilities, but they all have drawbacks. There is no such thing as perfect ability in this world.

"Hand me my medicine, mom," I said firmly as my hand flew through the air.

My mom stared at me, "Why can't you accept the fact, Celare? That girl is right, isn't she?" my mother asked, and I burst out laughing.

God help me, my head hurts like fuck!

I try to control the pain by placing my left hand on my head.

"This is nonsense, mother," I said flatly. "If you're here to mock me, with all due respect, get out of my room."

My mother's face was blank when she looked at me. She's already enraged, I know. I killed a lot of people even though I wasn't supposed to, but because of our family's influence, my crime was quickly covered up.

I can freely do whatever I desire as long as I have my surname under my name. 

But fuck! My head hurts really bad!

I couldn't even see the things clearly, my vision is getting blurry.

"Leave this world already, Celare," mother said as she tossed my medicine bottle back into my hands.

I got my medicine, but what my mother just said stopped me from moving for a few seconds.

Leave this world?

Ha!

"What does it mean, mother?" I inquired, my voice cracking with laughter. My mother had never heard such a sarcastic laugh.

"Leave this world before your father returns, Celare. Your father knew your crime; do you think he'll let you off this time?" My mother replied and yes, god damned, I felt the chilling aura of my father even though Father was not here right now.

I instantly let out a small mocking laugh.

I.. I couldn't believe what I was hearing.

But, what the hell, where am I going?

"No," I say emphatically.

Before I heard another voice from behind me, my mother's brow furrowed at me.

This smell..

It's them, I'm sure.

"Stop being a brat, Celare, and get out of here."

"Seriously, you couldn't be satisfied by bringing shame to our family?"

"Your crime and being mateless is literally a fucking shame, Celare."

My three fucking older brothers.

"Albert, Hoshi, and Nicholas, stay out of this," our mother said, calling out their names one by one.

"No, mother. This brat should know her place." Nicholas smirked at me as he finished his statement. "Being the laughing stock of Silvania is pathetically shameful enough for us, the Helans. If Celare leaves Silvania, she won't be able to drag us down any longer."

My hand was clenched.

Their words hurt me, and they are insensitive to my feelings at all times.

Whatever I do to ignore my siblings' opinions, I always fall short of my own expectations.

It was painful for me because the entire Silvania was mocking me, including my siblings.

My brothers should be on my side but why?

Is not having a mate that shameful?

Yes, it's because I'm the only person in Silvania over the age of 20 who doesn't have a mate.

God damned.

Why do I have to be in this situation?

"Mother, Nicholas is right. Celare needs to leave. We can just pretend she died suddenly," Hoshi, my twin brother, agreed.

Really? Right in front of me?

Fine.

"Seems like you wanted to kill us as well?" Albert inquired.

Because of his question, I smiled.

I didn't realize my eyes were piercing them, the risk of murder was too great.

"Of course, who wouldn't desire to end your useless life? I may be the fucking first mateless daughter of elite noble family but I am no weak like you three." I firmly said and finally take one pills of my medicine. 

Damn this side effect of my ability.

"Y-you—!" 

"I said, stop meddling boys!" Our mother's anger immediately shut my brothers up.

"Celare Hikari, leave our family already." Our mother said causing me to bite my lower lip until it bleeds. "Here, take this and don't let another people know about your existence." Well, all I can say is this is too much for me to handle.

My family finally abandoned me.

I know, I already know one day this time will arrive but hell, this is so early. 

God shit.

Do I have a choice?

No, I don't. 

I just shrugged my shoulder and took the necklace my mother wants to hand over.

Not a metal since we cannot touch such a creation like that. 

It has a key-shaped glass pendant with blood inside.

"Farewell," I said in a normal tone before turning away to leave.

I didn't think twice about leaving my room. I left immediately after saying my goodbyes, wearing the necklace my mother had given me.

I mean, where am I going with this?

Because I was annoyed, I shook my head.

Someone comes to mind, and I know she can always help. As I ran full speed on the branches of the overhanging trees in Silvania, I began to whistle.

A crow appears on my side after whistling for several minutes.

From the crow, I heard my long-time friend say, "What do you want this time, dude?"

A smirk suddenly painted on my lips.

"Lend me a hand, Sarreth. I need to get out of Silvania. Help me." I said without second thoughts.

Sarreth's laugh rings in my ears. 

This motherfucker.

"Well, I'm in mortal world right now. Wanna come here with us?" Sarreth, asking me.

I just raised my right brows.

Mortal world? 

Sarreth was in humans world?

Ha!

Living with a lot of food?

I smirk. "Sounds fun." I replied.

"Settled, then. Meet me at the old spot." Sarreth and the crown finally flew somewhere.

Ah, just what kind of world this mortal world looks like?

Does human's blood that delicious like what I read in a book?

I shook my head as I arrived at my destination.

Sarreth is already in front of me, she's standing behind the portal that I guess this is the way we will use to the world of humans.

"Ready, Celare?" Sarreth asked me.

I smiled sparingly. "Let's go."

And just like that, we jumped in the portal.

After we went inside, The chances effect on my body so I lost consciousness.

My head hurts again, before opening my eyes, a southing voice took my attention. 

Damn, it's very sweet and gentle so even before it disappeared, I opened my eyes and the face of a goddess in front of me was exposed to me.

"Hello? Are you all right? Dear? Can you hear m—!"

I smiled. 

I couldn't utter a single fucking word. 

She's so fucking beautiful, innocent looking young lady.

She smell so good.

Sounds awesome.

Very interesting but before I could touch her skin, everything went black.

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