{~~Logan Gray~~}
“I don’t trust that girl. First, you bring me a gold digger, with the dumbest look on your face. Saying, oh this is who I want to marry, and now you bring me her sister? At least that one was a thief this one has no backbone. I must have done something wrong to you for you to treat me like this.” My mother was wailing, holding onto my father’s arm while my brothers stared at me.
They had stopped by this afternoon to complain. As if that would change my mind. I was in love no less than six months ago, and not running my own pack had the woman I wanted to share a life with running into the arms of another man. Of course, that shit hurt.
My family was ready to hunt and kill her. I wouldn’t let them. To them, she was a gold digger and selfish. But I know who the real Ava is. I know she would never have done this to me had that guy not brainwashed her.
So I’m going to wait. She didn’t like Avery- what an ugly name- but she seemed to envy whenever her sister got any form of attention. I recall a rant when she was discussing how Avery had the teachers in her school’s attention because she was brilliant. And some teachers even said Ava must have swapped the colors somehow because Avery was too smart and talented to have landed in the four hundred category.
Well, the colors appear on the palm of each sixteen birthday, then it disappears. Someone has to take a photo and send it to the head of your pack so it can be processed into the system built for wolves.
Avery is basic but the girl is brilliant. When I called her university, the teacher in charge there told me about the list of alphas who wanted her as their nurse. If this works, and Ava returns, I was reassured that Avery can get a job anywhere else. Which is just perfect for me.
I won’t have to worry that I ruined her life. And I don’t think I did. I don’t truly care if I’m being real. She agreed to this, it’s not like I forced her or anything like that. But my parents don’t like the Sterlings.
“I have work. Do you people know that? I start in one hour and I haven’t even had the chance to step foot into the hospital. Look, I’m an adult. It was my money that Ava took not yours. And about Avery, the girl doesn’t have a single bad bone in her. She’s pathetic as you said. She can’t argue back. She was always meant to be in her sister’s shadow not in the spotlight. Do your research on her. She’s the top most wanted blue nurse.”
My older brother shook his head. “What is wrong with you? You’re letting your feelings for Ava blindside your way of thinking. Anyone with an eye could tell she wanted to steal from you. She didn’t even accept your advances until you bought her a five hundred dollar ticket to see her favorite band. Like a psycho. Her sister might be here to steal money for herself too. But I can see you won’t learn your lesson with just our words. Don’t come crawling back when this backfires and you have no money.”
I rolled my eyes at him. “I make more money than any of you. I don’t have to worry about anything. Avery doesn’t have access to any of my accounts. She’s doing this so her parents don’t end up homeless. I won’t come crawling back, but if I’m wrong I’ll drive over to your place in my Mercedes Benz GLC three hundred just to tell you that you were right.” I snapped right back at him.
“What if you fall for her?”
I dropped my frown and laughed. It was too funny to see the way my parents and siblings worried. But the likely chance of me falling for Avery is slim. She looks like Ava to some extent. But not enough to win over my heart.
“You have nothing to worry about. She’s basically just a life-sized ticket to me getting what I want. No feelings here. Now, if you’ll excuse me, I have to work. Get out of my house.”
They tried to argue with me but I chased them all out. I drove quickly, clocking it in only a minute before I’d have been counted in as late, it was interesting to return to work knowing I had a wife.
I didn’t even wear a ring. Simply because we’re not really married. And any day I get bored of her, I’ll just take another woman to my bed.
My heart was still aching for Ava. My god did she fill my days with joy. She was so beautiful, and we spent so much time on dates, having sex, and falling in love like a couple in a rom-com. I never thought she would leave me. And I have to get her back.
I went through the first three hours of my day having no clue that Avery was around until I was called to handle an emergency. A man’s hips shattered after he slipped off the top of his staircase and tumbled down.
The chief medical officer was waiting the hallway of the third floor. I waved to catch his attention, his eyes seemed so focused on what was happening in the room. I didn’t know what it was until I got closer, and then I noted that Avery was in the room with the patient.
A medic alpha does the healing, and the treating, they diagnose and do so much. But they need nurses for a reason. A blue nurse can do everything a medic alpha can, but the nurse’s healing energy isn’t as strong as a medic alpha. And while I can smell some symptoms, something that might have been overlooked by a machine.
But in that room, Avery was rambling about something. Something that had my CMO in shock. And not in a bad way. What the hell is she talking about?
{~~Avery Sterling~~}When the CMO asked one of the nurses in training to go and get my husband, I straightened up and told myself to wait for him to arrive. But the patient was screaming, and the CMO couldn’t figure out what to do, so I suggested I take a look. As the medic alpha’s nurse, I should be able to gather information so I can pass it on to him. So the medic alpha doesn’t have to stress himself, he can just focus on the patient.It took me five minutes but I figured it out. The man was refusing to tell us the real truth but I could see it.“You got an infection, that’s what shattered your hips. It’s common in zeta wolves over sixty who have sex with infected omegas.” the man stared at me in shock.“No, I fell.... I-” he looked at his wife, an older woman who was glaring daggers at me.“Are you insinuating that I gave my husband this infection?”“No. It’s a parasite. Something that omegas can contract if they’ve recently swarmed around in murky waters and didn’t clean their bo
{~~Avery Sterling~~}Today was a rough day, and all I wanted was to slip into bed. Tomorrow would be another hard one. I did the night shift until 12 a.m. when the CMO told me to leave. He couldn’t risk the lives of his patients if the nurse taking care of them was falling asleep.I was so grateful. The man was nice. In fact, everyone was nice. The problem stood with Logan and his family.I sighed and got into my car. The drive back was slow, I was too tired to go at the right speed and I wasn’t about to risk my life. I pulled into the garage and turned off the engine. Placing the car in park, I took out the car keys and stumbled my way towards the door. It opened before I could touch it. My face ended up planting in a strong bared chest.I grumbled and tried to straighten up.“You look like you’ve had too much to drink.” Logan’s voice wiped all traces of exhaustion from me. I moved quickly and forced a smile to my face. Goddess, he’s so handsome. Sometimes I can’t breathe around him.
{~~Logan Sterling~~}She wasn’t a virgin. It irked me for some reason. I almost found it on the tip of my tongue to ask who she had lost it to. Last I checked, she was socially inept. No social media accounts, no long lines of boyfriends. The disappointment annoyed me for whatever reason.I value virgins. Ava and I had given our first to each other. I guess I expected the same from her sister. What a joke. I rolled my eyes as I settled behind her. From the back, I could tell she wasn’t Ava, but I will never work on making Ava jealous if I stop making comparisons.At least in the public eye. I murmur to myself, easing my palm over her back. She paler, when she blushes it goes all the way to her back. Not an attractive quality, but I don’t hate it either. I almost sighed, forcing my mind to think of Ava. She wouldn’t just let me do anything, Ava loved being in charge.Sex was whenever she wanted it, and it wasn’t as often as I’d like but I respected my woman. I picked up the lube I’d co
{~~Avery Sterling~~}What just happened? It was a blur. I can’t even explain it. I showered, and my brain tried to process why Logan had left. He made sex weird. Not the good kind of weird, the one that made me regret my choices. Well, I have no intentions of dwelling on regrets. I’m trying to build a genuine relationship here.So the next time I call him my husband. He won’t correct me. He might just go with it. That’s all I could ever ask for.I sigh and turned the knob. I stepped out and toweled my skin dry. The moment I was done, I got dressed for the night. Shoving my foot into some socks. Suddenly, I didn’t feel so hot. My orgasm comes with guilt thanks to the way he bolted. Goodness, he sounded equally turned on and disgusted. I shuddered.Unable to fall asleep despite the energy being wrung from my body, I got my phone and called a friend. Due to time zones, Aisha would be preparing for work by now, or lost in the land of sleep. I can never tell with her.Ethan, he might not b
{~~Logan Grey~~}Who does she think she is? This was a question I asked myself all throughout the day. Wanting to ask how this girl thought she had the audacity to tell me what to do. I almost laughed, if it wasn’t affecting my work. What the fuck!I rubbed my face in my hands and focused on getting this paper done. A patient needs a kidney transplant. The healing he got from another medic alpha is backfiring, and if I tried to add my aura to it, I might kill him. Miss Know It All made sure to remind me. Fuck, I hate this stupid bitch.She doesn’t know how to shut up and stay in her goddamn space. No wonder Ava didn’t like her. She’s such a brainiac. My rank tells me and everyone that I am smart, and well respected by the wolf society. Why is this fucking nurse telling me what the fuck to do?And my CMO loves her. He completely loves her. It fucking pisses me off. I clutched my pen so tight that it snapped. You know what, she needs to be taught a valuable lesson. She wants me to use h
{~~Avery Sterling~~}“I don’t trust him.” Okay, there are two types of women in my life. There’s women like Diane who I can tell something, and she’d focus only on that. Offering me the advice I need for my exact problem. And then there are women like Aisha. Or just plainly Aisha since my friend circle is small. If she has an opinion, you’ll know. She was the one who talked me into leaving this pack.Saying it was for the best. I was already going to do it, but she was the backup I needed to know I was doing the right thing. So when she thinks I’m doing the wrong thing, she’ll let me know.“You’ve made that very very clear. But you don’t need to like him. You just need to trust me. He gave in. He doesn’t know it yet but he’ll be loving me soon.”I heard her snort. “How are you smart? He didn’t give in.” I opened my mouth to counter but she continued quickly, not giving me the opening I needed to speak. “He hates you so much. You gave me the window to justify every bad thing he’ll do t
{~~Avery Sterling~~}We were seated, and Logan ordered for us both. Since I have no idea what the restaurant serves, all the names on the menus are.... weird. With no ingredient instructions. I have some allergies but not very prominent ones so I should be fine. I turned my head, surveying the people around us. In this area, there weren’t more than twelve tables.Logan has gotten us white wine, and an appetizer to keep our mouths busy while the main course was being prepared. It was nice. I could see someone that I recognized. My spine immediately tensed up. I know that face a little bit too much. A guy who’d gone out with me for a day just so he could get with my sister- yes, she went out with him while Logan was pining for her. She didn’t give a fuck. I think she liked it better when the men dated me, and then her.Like they were making the conclusive comparison that she was far better than me. Of course, it never made me feel alright. I was uncomfortable the moment I saw his face.
{~~Avery Sterling~~}I stood before the mirror, my reflection distorted by tears that streamed relentlessly down my cheeks. The sight of my own despair only intensified the ache within me. Each tear was a testament to my overwhelming sense of inadequacy, a reminder of a familiar pain that seemed to echo through the corridors of my past. Fuck, nobody likes an ugly crier. But have I ever been beautiful at anything?"Worthless," I whispered to my reflection, my voice trembling with raw emotion. "So fucking worthless."The weight of those words reverberated through my soul, dredging up memories of high school—of longing, rejection, and the relentless pursuit of validation. Darren had been my misguided beacon of hope once, a flickering light in the darkness of my unrequited desires. I wanted to get a break from mooning over Logan. I hadn't wanted him as much as I wanted Logan, but I had convinced myself that perhaps Darren was attainable. I was wrong."He just didn't want me," I admitted t
{~~Avery Sterling~~}The waterfall is majestic and stunning. Logan suggested we go in naked since we’re the only ones here. I’ll admit, trusting a radically vegan hippie to plan my honeymoon was a bold and disturbing choice. Third year in college she lugged me off to the rain forest where we camped for six weeks so we could connect with the gods who brought us here.It was my worst summer vacation. Six long weeks. But I got so much work done that I felt like I came back even smarter. I love Agatha, but my goodness, her ideas of fun are always nature-like. The lack of wifi is going to kill me, but thank god I got another honeymoon present from Logan’s parents as an apology for the way they acted at the start of my marriage to their son.And that one is for two months on a cruise. We’ll be leaving for that after a week of getting eaten alive by mosquitoes.The water is cold, and the view is even better. I talk alot of crap about Agatha but the woman is far more connected to this world t
{~~Logan Grey~~}My honeymoon is not at all what I expected. It’s one of those situations where you step back and think, How did I not see this coming? But I guess that’s what happens when you go with the flow and don’t plan out every last detail, just trusting that things will fall into place. We decided not to bring Hope with us, even though part of me wanted her to be here. She’s spending the week with my parents—her grandparents—which feels like a huge milestone, not just for her, but for me too. Avery and I wanted this time to ourselves, to really celebrate our marriage without any distractions, to focus on us for a change.We’re an odd pair to most people, and I know some didn’t expect us to last, but we’ve made it work in ways that surprise even me sometimes. Over the last year, we’ve settled into this rhythm that’s become second nature. It’s a good rhythm, one that’s brought us closer, and made us stronger. It’s funny—when you think about it, but it feels like so much longer.
\One Year Later/{~~Avery Sterling~~}So, you know how little girls always dream about their wedding day? It’s supposed to be this big, magical event, where everything falls perfectly into place, and for some, it’s the pinnacle of their dreams, right? But not me. I never had those kinds of dreams. You know how my life was, how crappy my sister and parents treated me. There was never much room in my head for fantasies like that. Growing up, I couldn’t even imagine what marriage would feel like because I was too busy surviving and getting through the mess of my family. But, okay, maybe deep down, I had some dreams. Everyone does, right? I just never thought they’d come true.And marrying Logan Grey—that’s a whole different thing altogether. I mean, when we started planning the wedding, I was so overwhelmed. There were just so many details, and so many decisions, and with everything I’ve been through, I just didn’t have the energy to care about floral arrangements or seating charts. So, I
{~~Avery Sterling~~}The almost-car accident shakes me up more than I expected, but Logan is fine, and I’m fine. It all happened so fast, and yet I can still feel the pulse of my heartbeat in my throat when I think about it. That truck had come out of nowhere. The driver didn’t even slow down. Had I not tripped over that stone while I was looking for a signal on my phone and he’d come to check on me... logan would have died a painful death before my eyes.So of course I was a fucking mess. That driver is crazy. Did he not see the car? Why did the car even stop? What was wrong with the engine? I have like six million questions!He called Ryan to come get us. I was in his arms on the side of the road, watching as other cars drove around the wreckage. They don’t stop but look on surprised at the mess. Whoever that driver was I hope to god his truck breaks down and he’s fired. Because what the hell?He should have at least stopped. Panic fills me but so does anger. The panic wins though.
{~~Avery Sterling~~}Logan and I had left Hope in the hospital. The tiny bundle of life—so fragile, yet resilient—was resting safely in the nursery, surrounded by the quiet hum of machines and the gentle presence of nurses. We’d return tomorrow, once we were sure they’d had time to scan her brain and ensure she was truly safe for release. My heart ached to leave her, but it was necessary. Thank goodness she was a baby, still too young to understand fear in the way that we did. She wouldn’t know the anxiety, the sleepless nights, the never-ending worry. All she knew was warmth and the safety of sleep, cocooned in blankets too big for her tiny form.The snow had started falling again, soft and silent, covering the world in a layer of purity that felt both soothing and unsettling. Logan drove carefully through the winding streets, the heater on low, warming our chilled fingers. We didn’t speak much, but the silence wasn’t uncomfortable. It was the kind of silence that sat between two peo
{~~Avery Sterling~~}I’m back in this beautiful pack, surrounded by familiar faces, and yet it feels so foreign after everything we’ve been through. the rain stopped while I was away and now we have a new season. The landscape is stunning, especially now, with the first snowfall of the season transforming the dense forest and the lake into a quiet, white wonderland. The snow blankets the ground in thick, untouched layers, making the whole world seem calm and serene, but cold—bitingly cold. It's as if the snow carries the weight of my worries. The weather has shifted dramatically over the past few days, moving from endless, gloomy rain to this sudden onset of winter. So, congratulations on freezing my butt off, even with all the layers I'm bundled in.Logan and I had spent last night at the lake house, a place of solace for us, trying to reconnect after everything that’s been thrown at us. It was bittersweet, those quiet moments by the fire, the crackling logs filling the air with warm
{~~Logan Grey~~}Avery is coming home today. Avery is coming home today. I’ve been repeating that sentence in my head for the past 48 hours, counting down the seconds like a kid waiting for Christmas morning. The excitement, the anticipation—it’s all bubbling up inside me, and I can barely sit still. I glance at the clock on my phone for what feels like the hundredth time, knowing it hasn't moved much since the last time I looked but somehow hoping the hands of time have sped up. It's been far too long since I’ve seen her.The air in the terminal is thick with the usual airport chaos—people rushing by, announcements echoing through the speakers, kids whining in the background—but it all fades into the background noise. I’m laser-focused, my heart pounding in sync with the roaring engines of planes outside. She’s been gone for weeks, and though it wasn’t that long, it feels like an eternity. We’ve been working tirelessly on the cure—sleepless nights, constant research, trial and error.
{~~Avery Sterling~~}Agatha and I had been at it for hours, possibly days, though the passage of time had become something of a blur in the dim, candlelit room. The air was thick with the scent of dried herbs and burning incense, their heady aromas mixing in a way that both calmed and invigorated me. I had never spent so much time in the presence of a witch doctor before—not like this, not in such an intimate setting where every movement, every word, every breath was part of a delicate and complex dance of life and death.I’d seen witchcraft before. In university, we had a professor who dabbled in the ancient arts, using it to enhance her knowledge of medicinal plants and natural remedies. It’s why i wished I’d been chosen to be a doctor, it would be so nice to be able to do so much than what a nurse can. But even she had never worked with the sheer precision and raw power that Agatha wielded. It was... mesmerizing. I couldn’t help but be drawn in, watching her every move, the way her
{~~Logan Grey~~}Two days without Avery isn't an eternity, but it sure feels like a long time. I’m surviving, or at least I think I am. Tonight, I’m having dinner at my parents' place, and the whole family is here to celebrate the newborns. Felix’s child, Marley, and my daughter, Hope. It feels good to be around everyone, even if my mind keeps drifting to Avery. The house is buzzing with laughter and chatter. The babies are in their playpen, tapping at toys, oblivious to the joyful chaos around them. My parents are practically glowing as they fawn over their grandkids, doting on every little coo and babbling like they’re treasures.I sit back in a rocking chair, watching the scene play out before me. My brothers are in the kitchen, joking around while they cook, and their wives are on the couch, chatting and laughing. And Ronan’s children are lying on the floor coloring something. It’s one of those moments that feels picture-perfect, like a scene out of some old family movie. Even Rya