~Avila My throat is tight as I stare down at the pictures Crimson holds in front of me. "This was you when you were only a little girl," she breathes, pointing to the centre of the photo. "You were so vivacious, so energetic. Your Kingdom became enamoured by you immediately, predicting that you would be a fair, but responsible Queen one day."The photo is of me, a young girl wearing a fluffy red dress, standing in a grand courtyard. Pink petals rain down around me. A cold feeling shudders through me at the absence of any recognition. "My Kingdom?" I whisper. Crimson, my mother, rests her hand on my arm. "It is to be yours one day, of course."The thought is so daunting my vision becomes fuzzy for a moment. How can I rule over a Kingdom I know nothing about? "Perhaps keep the bigger information for later. We need to be gradual about introducing her to her old life,” Roel says. He sits on the other side of the bed, watching on thoughtfully. I could kiss this strange old man. "O
~AvilaI stare down at my hands, deep in thought.Regardless of how long I spend scraping at the very edges of my mind, there are no memories to be found.Pressing the heels of my palms against my eyes, I let out a frustrated groan.Who am I meant to be? What am I supposed to do now? My initial confusion has melted away into frustration, and I just want to scream.I cast my gaze off to the window.The moon is round and full tonight, casting an ethereal glow into the room. My eyes flutter closed, a sweet, flower-scented breeze ruffling through the curtains, blowing over my damp skin, finally cooling it.I need to get outside. I can't be in this room a moment longer.Snatching a sheer dressing gown off its hook, I slip it on and make my way out the door and into the corridor.Everything about this place is vast and cold.The ceilings are tall and sweeping, adorned with ornate fixtures and painted various shades to create intricate patterns.My bare feet pad against the cool wooden floor
~AvilaI clear my throat, shifting uncomfortably.This isn't how I wanted to meet my future husband. I've got dirt and blood on me, and he stands amidst the shadows like they bleed from him."So...You're him," I let out, trying not to take a wary step backwards.He raises his brows. "Him?”It's frightening, knowing that he knows more about me than I know about myself. There was a whole life I lived before dying, and I'm the only one not privy to it.“The man I’m supposed to be marrying," I breathe.My gaze drifts down to his hand. No ring. Maybe it isn't confirmed that we are still to be married. I mean, what if in the time that I was gone, he moved on.I wouldn't blame him...He takes a step toward me, his hands gliding into his pockets.What I've deduced so far is that he's an intense person, and I've only been in his company for a few minutes. His gaze hasn't shifted from me since he stopped trying to see what I was chasing after. I'm not even sure those steely grey eyes have blink
~Avila"This is a beautiful room," I comment, wandering in.Roel jumps, whirling around. After breakfast I saw him wandering off down the hallway and decided to follow him. He's the only one here who understands me, and as far as I'm concerned, the only one that can teach me what I want to know.He rests a frail hand on his chest, letting out a shaky laugh."Avila, you frightened me," he murmurs. "How are you feeling?"I look around the room, impressed.The ceiling is mostly a dome shaped skylight, letting in a satisfying amount of natural light, right down onto a large old table piled high with books and paper. One wall is smothered by bookshelves laden with books, while the opposite wall has a variety of stained maps depicting unfamiliar lands."I'm feeling tired," I admit, letting out a long breath. Being doted on by nurses constantly is starting to get on my nerves.It's like they think they will find something off about me...nothing has turned up yet."It must be strange seeing m
~AvilaEveryone sits stiffly around the table, staring down at their food.They have all about half cleared their plate, while mine remains mostly untouched. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but it's some kind of soup with absolutely no seasoning.My stomach turns just looking at it."It was your favourite meal," Crimson states, eyeing me warily.I'm tired of everyone looking at me like I'm something to fear, like I'm going to explode at any moment. Maybe they don't want to lose me again, but I feel fine."It tastes plain," I say, picking up some of the reddish brown liquid on my spoon, letting it drip back down into the bowl."That's what you liked," Vade mutters from across the table. "Plain and simple."He's been avoiding my gaze since dinner was served. Crimson set up a whole introduction that includes this dinner, knowing nothing about my previous meeting with him in the middle of the night.It's a good thing she doesn't know. She's been flustered since Vade numbly introduced hi
~Avila"Please don't hurt me!" I shriek, pressing my back against the headboard.He frowns a little, dark brows drawing together. He looks the picture of darkness, the shadows drenching him and his cloaked figure.If there is any reason for a hooded figure to climb through my window at night, it's to kill me."Av, it's me," he soothes, approaching.I hold my hands out in front of me, causing him to stop in his tracks. Whether I knew him before I lost my memory doesn't matter. There's something dangerous about him, which frightens away my curiosity."I know you-"He cuts me off by approaching quickly. Before I can so much as scream, his wet, gloved hands grasp the back of my neck, pulling me in for a kiss.I gasp. The pressure of his lips is a vaguely familiar feeling. His hand grips tightly to my neck, keeping me still. The feeling of being kissed, which is entirely foreign to me until now, is pleasant, although slightly terrifying.Realisation hits me like a rock in the side of the h
~AvilaThe fabric around my waist is pulled tighter, pressing the breath from my lungs."Ow," I yelp as a needle pokes my skin, leaving a stinging sensation in its wake.I look ridiculous. I'm standing in front of a large mirror, staring back at a version of me I don't recgonise.Since my memory has returned to me, I've struggled to relate to the person I see in the mirror. Coming to terms with the fact that this is me has been harder than I anticipated."Apologies Princess, the needle is awfully sharp," the seamstress murmurs, securing the fabric in place with her safety pin.I stare at the dress she is working on. The fabric, on the outside, is light and flowy, but the structure of the dress is suffocating as it pulls at my rubs and presses into my lungs."Stop flinching, dear, and the seamstress won't poke you," Crimson exclaims, brushing my hair back over my shoulder so she can admire the sweeping neckline."This is very uncomfortable," I grit out.When Roel isn't around, Crimson
~AvilaI stare down at the paper in front of me, my scrawlings so ambiguous in nature, anyone watching me would have no idea what I'm trying to convey.It turns out, whatever artistic abilities I had before I lost my life are now gone, because I can't muster up anything half decent.Groaning, I drop the coloured pencil, resting my forehead against the desk.Who am I?The sound of shuffling feet have me whirling around in my seat in panic. Despite being the middle of the day, my mind immediately jumped into assuming it would be Emerick visiting me again."It's okay, it's just me," Vade soothes, stepping into the room. "I wanted to bring you this. Roel asked me to." He holds a pile of books out to me, seeming uncomfortable. He generally avoids me at all costs, so I imagine Roel really had to push him to come bring me some books.I take them gently, resting them on the desk.The way we are standing reminds me of the flashback I had yesterday. We are in a similar position, and instead of
~AvilaI settle into my seat, looking at the two unfamiliar people sitting before me.Roel has called them in to gather information on me. It's in the pursuit of finding out why this has happened to me.I've been told I can back out of this at any moment. Still, I'm nervous.What if something bad is uncovered?“Thank you for speaking with us today, Avila. This is an interesting case," Marie, the female researcher says with a pinched smile. The others introduced themselves to me as Jeremy.“Can you help me find out how this happened?” I ask, clutching the arms of the chair as if I might fall off.“We are hoping to." Marie exchanges a look with her colleague. “We have been told that you are experiencing different tastes in foods, different interests etc since coming back to life.”I swallow past the dryness in my throat. The term 'come back to life' is a little daunting to think about.I mean, is that really what happened? Was I ever dead?“I have flashbacks of being good at art, and ye
~AvilaI take my seat in front of the desk, wiping my damp palms over my clothed thighs.“Well, this is an interesting situation isn’t it?”The man on the other side of the desk is yet another unfamiliar face. He arrived this morning, and with his presence came a shift in Crimson's behaviour. She strolled downstairs wearing more clothes than I've ever seen on her body with a necklace shaped like angel wings.It didn't take me long to realise this man represents the Angel's through the church, and is here to consult with Vade and I before our wedding.“We appreciate your discretion with Avila. She isn’t ready to come out to the public just yet," Vade exclaims.The minister rests his forearms on the desk, smiling at me. “Of course. Your mother informed me that you have lost your memory, so we must conduct this pre-wedding interview again.”The amount of traditions around here is frankly ridiculous.“We’ve done this before?” I glance at Vade.He looks incredible this morning. Considering
~AvilaThis morning, I woke to four maids crowding me.They practically dragged me from bed and started dressing me, muttering about how my father returned from business.Once I've been sufficiently dressed in suffocating clothing, I'm dragged downstairs to meet him.Considering how I was prepared in the morning by the maids, I expected my father to be a stuffy, haughty man with too much power and little interest in me.Much to my surprise, he immediately engulfed me in a warm, loving hug and launched into a spiel about how grateful he is that I'm alive, and how sorry he was to be held up on his attempt to return here.I like him already.Now, we sit at the table, enjoying a beautiful lunch that is far more exotic and lavish than anything I've had so far, when my father hasn't been home. I've piled my plate with so many foreign fruits that I have no more room for anything else of substance.“I am so pleased you're back, Av," father exclaims, smiling at me.I see the resemblance betwee
~AvilaI stare down at the words in front of me, wishing they weren't swimming in my vision.“Been swimming recently?”I jump, glancing up. Roel is pinning me with that cloudy gaze hidden being his thin framed glasses. This is one of many sessions I've agreed to that should inform me about this Territory and how I should rule one day.“No.” I clear my throat.I haven't had much time for anything. My mind has been full of thoughts of Emerick and of Vade, and how I'm supposed to marry the former. I haven't been thinking much about pursuing hobbies that I previously had.“Worked on your art?”“I gave it a try and I’m useless," I drone, flipping the page of the book despite not absorbing any of the information.Roel studies me quietly for a moment. His scrutiny makes it difficult to concentrate on my studying, although at this point I'm ready to accept that this is a lost cause.“Fascinating. It seems this experience has reset your brain entirely," Roel murmurs. He scribbles something on
~AvilaI stalk into my room, leaning my back against the closed door.Ugh. What a miserable day.Breakfast consisted of Vade giving me the cold shoulder, and when I went to ask him to spend the day helping me go over some flashbacks I've been having, he brushed me off and disappeared.At this point, I think I need to take a hint and leave him alone.Sighing through my nose, I push off the door, dragging my feet to the bed. I was cornered by Roel, who spent the entire day stuffing history down my throat. I now know everything about all the King's and Queen's that came before me.Something shifts on my desk. The breeze coming through my window lifts it up, causing it to drift down to the floor.Frowning, I stoop down to pick up the piece of paper, folding it open.Avila.Meet me in the gardens this evening. Midnight.E.A shiver rolls through me. Emerick wants to see me again.***I get through dinner without much fuss and excuse myself to my room early. It's not the best idea, because
~AvilaI stare down at the paper in front of me, my scrawlings so ambiguous in nature, anyone watching me would have no idea what I'm trying to convey.It turns out, whatever artistic abilities I had before I lost my life are now gone, because I can't muster up anything half decent.Groaning, I drop the coloured pencil, resting my forehead against the desk.Who am I?The sound of shuffling feet have me whirling around in my seat in panic. Despite being the middle of the day, my mind immediately jumped into assuming it would be Emerick visiting me again."It's okay, it's just me," Vade soothes, stepping into the room. "I wanted to bring you this. Roel asked me to." He holds a pile of books out to me, seeming uncomfortable. He generally avoids me at all costs, so I imagine Roel really had to push him to come bring me some books.I take them gently, resting them on the desk.The way we are standing reminds me of the flashback I had yesterday. We are in a similar position, and instead of
~AvilaThe fabric around my waist is pulled tighter, pressing the breath from my lungs."Ow," I yelp as a needle pokes my skin, leaving a stinging sensation in its wake.I look ridiculous. I'm standing in front of a large mirror, staring back at a version of me I don't recgonise.Since my memory has returned to me, I've struggled to relate to the person I see in the mirror. Coming to terms with the fact that this is me has been harder than I anticipated."Apologies Princess, the needle is awfully sharp," the seamstress murmurs, securing the fabric in place with her safety pin.I stare at the dress she is working on. The fabric, on the outside, is light and flowy, but the structure of the dress is suffocating as it pulls at my rubs and presses into my lungs."Stop flinching, dear, and the seamstress won't poke you," Crimson exclaims, brushing my hair back over my shoulder so she can admire the sweeping neckline."This is very uncomfortable," I grit out.When Roel isn't around, Crimson
~Avila"Please don't hurt me!" I shriek, pressing my back against the headboard.He frowns a little, dark brows drawing together. He looks the picture of darkness, the shadows drenching him and his cloaked figure.If there is any reason for a hooded figure to climb through my window at night, it's to kill me."Av, it's me," he soothes, approaching.I hold my hands out in front of me, causing him to stop in his tracks. Whether I knew him before I lost my memory doesn't matter. There's something dangerous about him, which frightens away my curiosity."I know you-"He cuts me off by approaching quickly. Before I can so much as scream, his wet, gloved hands grasp the back of my neck, pulling me in for a kiss.I gasp. The pressure of his lips is a vaguely familiar feeling. His hand grips tightly to my neck, keeping me still. The feeling of being kissed, which is entirely foreign to me until now, is pleasant, although slightly terrifying.Realisation hits me like a rock in the side of the h
~AvilaEveryone sits stiffly around the table, staring down at their food.They have all about half cleared their plate, while mine remains mostly untouched. I'm not entirely sure what it is, but it's some kind of soup with absolutely no seasoning.My stomach turns just looking at it."It was your favourite meal," Crimson states, eyeing me warily.I'm tired of everyone looking at me like I'm something to fear, like I'm going to explode at any moment. Maybe they don't want to lose me again, but I feel fine."It tastes plain," I say, picking up some of the reddish brown liquid on my spoon, letting it drip back down into the bowl."That's what you liked," Vade mutters from across the table. "Plain and simple."He's been avoiding my gaze since dinner was served. Crimson set up a whole introduction that includes this dinner, knowing nothing about my previous meeting with him in the middle of the night.It's a good thing she doesn't know. She's been flustered since Vade numbly introduced hi