ANTHONY’S POV
I stared at Anderson with my mouth hanging open, praying silently that for once he didn’t get anything on that stupid camera of his.
“I didn’t realize you guys were…occupied. I’ll come back later, Tony,” he said and scurried off, but not before giving me a disapproving look. I hurried after him, abandoning Blake to deal with this new experience of kissing a boy even though it was just a surface touch.
“Anderson, wait! Slow down!” I managed to catch up with him halfway through the hall. As if confirming his countenance from before, he gave me another disgruntled look.
“What the hell Tony? Of all people to kiss, you chose Blake Lindell? The guy that bullies you with the rest of his douchebag friends? Have you forgotten what he did to you in ninth grade?”
The mention of the Ninth-Grade Incident, as I liked to call it, puts me in a mood. I was immediately transported back to that moment in freshman year when my entire high school experience got ruined before I had the chance to even attend my first class.
“Of course I haven’t forgotten what he did to me,” I snapped back, fuming at the little faith he had in me.
“Oh yeah? It didn’t seem that way to me when you guys were licking lips and exchanging DNA!”
He continued walking, heading towards the Calculus class room.
“I slipped, okay?” He stopped and turned to me, giving me a listening ear even though he was having second thoughts about doing so. “I wanted to punch him because he made a typical Blake Lindell comment about Crystal but I slipped and fell on him and when we crash-landed our lips…meshed.”
“If it was an accident, why the hell are you blushing right now?” My hands flew to my cheeks and cupped them, feeling them grow warmer with each second that passed under Anderson’s scrutinizing glare.
To any other person and Anderson who was angry at the moment, it would have seemed as though I was blushing because I liked Blake Lindell or the action of kissing him had brought me some kind of warmth and fuzziness, but the truth was I was just so embarrassed at having slipped and fallen on Blake when I was supposed to be sucker punching him. If he wasn’t so mortified at having kissed me, he would have been making fun of me for that slip-up.
“Tell me the truth, Tony. Do you still like Blake? Are you guys in some kind of secret relationship?” His assumption was so preposterous that I ended up laughing out like a maniac. And just when I was about to give a snarky reply, his question sank in.
“Do you still like Blake?” Emphasis on the “still.”
That’s when my face turned really red, but again it wasn’t from liking him but from the sheer embarrassment that I once did, followed by anger for having liked him in the first place.
My family had just moved to Elm City when I was four and our neighbors just happened to be the Lindells who coincidentally were my dad’s former college friends. So, it was natural for me to be friends with their four-year-old son. Blake pretended to be my friend and I ended up liking him as stupid as I was. He was the one that made me realize I was gay in the first place. And then we entered ninth grade and he pulled that stunt and showed me his true colors. I hated Blake Lindell and absolutely nothing was going to stop me from hating him no matter how many dinner parties our parents threw that forced us to be in close proximity even outside school.
“Anderson, Blake Lindell will sooner be a monk than be gay. Also, even if he was gay, I’d sooner be the first Asian guy to step on the moon than get with him.”
“You’re white,” he deadpanned.
“Exactly my point.” His eyes surreptitiously move to my cast and I feel the pain shooting through my arm to my brain for the first time since I fell on Blake. Ignoring the ache, I moved closer to Anderson and took his camera from him.
“How do you even work this thing?” I asked looking for a button that showed me how to delete a video. Anderson tuts and snatched it back from me.
“You have to delete that video, Anderson. I can’t have something that humiliating lying around. If it gets out…”
“Oh, stop your whining. I’ll delete it. See you after Calculus.” He didn’t bother to ask me if I’ll be joining him. Well, I guess years of friendship with me has taught him that I’d rather spend that time in the Clay Room. Although now, that option was unavailable.
He reached the end of the hall way before stopping and turning around, his eyes set on my cast.
“And Tony, you be careful man. I know Blake Lindell is cute and everything, but he is bad news. You’ll be spending more time together in that little mud room. Just make sure to not let your guard down.”
I opened my mouth to say “if I could spend years with him as his next-door neighbor, on the court and in the changing room without catching any feelings, I wasn’t about to do that in the Clay Room”, but closed it right back when a thought occurred to me: How the hell did he know Blake was taking Pottery Class?
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The one thing about school that I hated asides Calculus was basketball. Don’t get me wrong, I was amazing at it, but I just didn’t like the idea of bouncing around a ball on a wooden court for almost forty minutes while simultaneously trying to get it over to the other team’s hoop. The fun thing about it, however, was that I got to play while Blake sat on the bleachers and watched. Oh, and also sweaty, buff guys.
“Pearce! How’s the arm holding up?” I looked up from the bench to see Gary, the hottest guy on the basketball team (despite what last year’s poll said about Blake being the hottest) smiling down at me, his eyes the deepest blue you ever saw. I struggled to maintain my cool.
“Can’t shoot yet according to coach, but I’m pretty sure I can make a basket.” His smile broadened and I swear he even winked at me. I was about to say something witty when a huge ass figure blocked my view.
“Where the hell is Anderson?” Blake looked ravenously mad, like he could kill at any moment and get away with it. A shiver ran down my spine and I quickly shook away the rising thought that he looked quite sexy mad.
“Probably in the dark room, why?”
He didn’t wait for the question to leave my lips completely before he lifted me off the bench. Since he was a little bit taller than me, I was literally on the tip of my toes.
“Listen here, Pearce! You and your friends may have some sick kind of humor but I’d really appreciate it if you left me out of it. Two videos at the same time? The first one I quite like, but the second one with me and you…” He faltered here and looked around him. People had started to gather and stare and Gary approached us like a stealth Alpha, surveying the situation. Reluctantly he let me go and I felt the ache in my arm multiply.
“I thought you had the good sense to tell Anderson to delete that video earlier today. I guess I was wrong.” My mind was blank and unable to make sense of the words he spoke and I stare at him utterly confused. Anderson did delete the video. He said he would…
My eyes widened in horror as I watched the rest of the team and some cheerleaders pull out their phones and gazed at their screen, the sound of their notification going off one after the other. They seemed to be watching the same thing because a few seconds later, all eyes were on Blake and I.
“You are so dead, Pearce! Prepare to have the most horrible senior year experience in the history of high school. And tell Anderson that he should better hide away in a freaking hole like the rat that he is, because the moment I lay my eyes on him, he’s a goner.”
He stormed out of the gym, his angry strides echoing in the spacious room.
Malia, one of the cheerleaders who was my science partner last year walked up to me and shoved her phone in my face.
“I think you’re gonna wanna see this.”
I looked at her screen and watched in horror as Blake kissed my little sister, Crystal. It seemed like they were by the fountain close to the external library. I could make out the flowers there just as my eyes were most unfortunate to see him grope her breast. I felt a surge of rage course through my whole body and I wanted to hurt Blake Lindell more than I wanted to do anything else in the world. But before I could process my rage, the video switched and suddenly it was Blake and I in the pottery room from earlier this morning. It only showed when we were already on the floor and my lips were on his.
It’s funny how quickly my rage turned into embarrassment and then back to rage. This time though, it was directed at Anderson.
I didn’t say a word and left just as angrily as Blake did, ignoring Gary’s call to me. After locating Anderson by his locker, I grabbed his collar and slammed him against a locker, the pain in my arm shooting up to my brain again. He looked frightened and I almost felt bad for him.
“What the hell Anderson? I thought I told you to delete that video? Why the hell did you post it online? And that video of my sister? What’s wrong with you, man?”
“I swear to you, Tony, I didn’t do it.” His eyes were misty, and I could feel him tremble underneath my hands. His eyes flickered to his locker and that was when I noticed how disorganized it was. His books were strewn all over the floor and his bag had been turned upside down.
“Someone stole my camera, Tony. I have no idea where it is or who it was.”
Shit!
BLAKE’S POVThe minute I stepped foot inside school, I was bombarded with questionable gazes from the other students. I tried my best to not think murderous thoughts towards them as I found my way to my locker. The moment I opened it, Luke and Dante accosted me.“What the hell Lindell?” Dante asked. “What the hell did I see on the students’ forum?”“Are you gay?” Luke had a disgusted expression on his face when he asked this. I remembered then how much of a homophobe he was.“No, I am not gay, Luke. And what you saw was not true. Anthony and his stupid friend are playing some kind of sick joke.” I slammed my locker shut with so much force it rattled the others beside it. Dante and Luke look relieved at my statement.“He tried to punch me yesterday in the Clay Room but tripped instead. The moron fell on me instead and…” I couldn’t even bring myself to say the words. I felt so mad and angry at Anthony that I wanted to ram my fist through his face over and over again.“If Anthony wants t
ANTHONY’S POVMy head was spinning a bit and my hands were trembling slightly, but other than that I felt completely fine. Mr. Cornell along with the school’s nurse insisted that I went to the hospital so now I was lying in one of our town’s general hospital’s beds, watching the doctor as he stared at the EKG machine monitoring my heart rate.I turned my head to the side because I did not understand what the machine was displaying and I was a little bored. Blake was sitting by the window, his hair a little bit messy and falling all over the place. His face had a little more color now since the last time I looked at him in school. I wanted to be mad at him; after all it was his stupid friends that almost killed me, but I couldn’t because he saved me. And if he saved me, didn’t that mean he wasn’t part of their little murder-plan?“Well, you look fine Anthony. Your heart rate’s normal and all the swelling has gone down. Your airway is all cleared up too. That EpiPen really did help you
BLAKE’S POVFor the first time since I could remember, I was glad to be going to school. I don’t know why, but I felt extra happy when I drove my Mercedes to school that morning. Even listening to my dad retell the Tale of how he got injured while playing golf with Kyle, Anthony’s dad, didn’t bore me to death like it usually would have.When I got to school however, and had to face my almost-murderers friends, I felt all that joy leave me.“Dude, we had absolutely no idea that Pearce was allergic to peanuts. We wouldn’t have done that if we had known,” Dante said. Luke on the other hand didn’t look like he was at all sorry about almost ending someone’s life.“Look, I know you guys don’t exactly pick up on social cues, but I believe that when Anthony blatantly refused to eat the peanut butter and Jelly sandwich that Gary offered him last year during basketball practice, and said the words ‘I’m allergic to peanuts. I’ll literally die if I had just a tiny bit of it’ it was quite clear to
ANTHONY’S POV“I come late to class one time and you are already frolicking with the enemy,” Anderson said angrily and he stuffed his locker with his books and polaroid camera. He had been using that ever since his digital camera was stolen. Even after reporting the incident to the school authorities, not much was done about it. Now he had to work extra shifts at his after-school job to buy a new one.“Don’t be dramatic, Anderson. I wasn’t ‘frolicking’ with Blake. It was just a misunderstanding.”“It always is, isn’t it?” He faced me now, his brown hair falling into his eyes and making the angry green glow of them almost impossible to see clearly.“I almost fell over the foot pedal cord and he caught me. Trust me, I didn’t want to be engaged in an arm lock with Blake Lindell of all people.” He appraised me for a few seconds more, as if contemplating whether he could trust my story. Finally, he exhaled and nodded.“Okay. But I don’t like these near misses you keep having with him. It’s
BLAKE’S POVThe softness of her lips. The way she moaned as I kissed her and caressed her breasts. How she pulled at my hair gently but with passion. Her overall femininity made me fall for her even more.It had been almost a week since Crystal and I started hooking up and I was loving every minute of it. She was smart, funny and ridiculously gorgeous and she had this ethereal glow around her that made her look so angelic, you couldn’t even begin to comprehend where she came from. And to think that earlier this year, she was just Anthony’s little sister that used to peep at me from underneath her table napkins when we were having dinner together and always spied on me through her bedroom window to know if I was at home or guess where I was headed.“Blake…” she said, in between kisses. We were in my bedroom, way passed her curfew, getting into the most exciting part of our night.“Yes Sweetie?” It was hard for me to disengage my lips from hers long enough to respond. I could feel her s
ANTHONY’S POVMy hair was dripping wet and with a towel wrapped around my waist, I strolled lazily back to my room. I didn’t expect to see Blake clad in baggy sweats and an oversized black sweater, sitting on my bed, going through my music collection.“What the hell, Lindell? How’d you get in here?” I asked him, shutting the door behind me with a loud bang. He looked undisturbed by my outburst and just tossed aside my most prized vinyl like it was paper.“You have way too many vinyls, Pearce.”“What are you doing here?” I tried to sound intimidating, but that didn’t work on Blake. No one could intimidate him.“We need to talk Pearce,” he said calmly. I rolled my eyes and moved to my drawers, intent on getting my clothes and leaving my room if he insisted on staying put.“I’m not taking no for an answer Pearce.” I didn’t realize how close he’d gotten until I spun around and almost collided with his lips. He didn’t move at all and I was obstructed from moving backwards by the highboy. W
BLAKE’S POV“Okay Blake, let’s see what you’ve made so far.”I stared at Miss Clara unflinchingly and just shrugged my shoulders.“What? You don’t have anything you’ve been working on?”“He has been too busy fornicating to care about his studies.” I gave Anthony a deadpan look.“You do realize I have been ‘fornicating’ with your sister, right?” My response brought a light shade of pink to highlight his cheeks and made his scowl deeper. I looked away from him, annoyed at the very presence of his being in the same class room as me.“Blake, this is a practical class. We don’t really write exams here in the traditional sense. At the end of the semester, you’ll have to present at least one sterling work of yours in order for me to pass you. You have to practice on your own. Anthony, have you been helping him out like I instructed?”“No, he’s too busy calling truces off and getting into fights with people that were bigger and stronger than him.”When I got out of the hospital and saw his fa
ANTHONY’S POVHe did not break up with Crystal.I groaned and rolled over on my bed as I listened to Blake and my sister through the now-magically-thin walls of my bedroom. They were so irritatingly sweet with each other I found myself gagging every once in a while. But inasmuch as I was getting severe second-hand embarrassment from all their sickening sweetness, it was absolutely nothing compared to the first-hand embarrassment I got from having shared my feelings with Blake earlier today.I hate being gay…I cringed so hard remembering this statement I made and screamed into my pillow. The lovely couple in the next room were too engrossed with each other to even pay me any heed.Why, oh why, did I say that? What was I thinking telling him that I hated being gay? He didn’t have to know that. In fact, he didn’t have to know any of the things I said to him!He probably thought I was crazy right then. Or maybe he really didn’t care that much about me so he wouldn’t even consider the wor
ANTHONY’S POVI laid there frozen like a deer caught in headlights. When Blake opened his mouth and my lips were covered in his, I felt the tingles of desire bubble in me. My heart was beating rapidly and I feared that Blake might hear it.What the hell was he doing? Why did he kiss me? Should I kiss him back?All these thoughts ran through my brain in the span of three seconds. Before I could start getting into the lip mesh, my sister ran outside and found us like that.I quickly pushed Blake away and he rolled over, his back on the wet grass. I was turning all shades of red and I searched my brain for a reasonable excuse as to why I was kissing my little sister’s boyfriend right after she called me and asked me to drive them home.I may have just imagined it, but for a brief second Crystal looked at me with hatred and disdain. I probably imagined it because the next second she was all over Blake, checking to see if he was still alive, and her voice had this worried tone. And when sh
BLAKE’S POVI was slowly but surely losing my mind.What the hell was I thinking touching his lips like that? And what was that question about?God, I felt so embarrassed I couldn’t even stay a second without cringing and screaming internally – and externally sometimes.When it was time to head over to Luke’s house for the party, I went to the house next door to pick up my girlfriend. I was worried and anxious about meeting with her brother again, but I willed myself to not look so bothered about it and act like everything was alright.“Queen of hearts?” I asked the moment I saw her. She was clad in all red with little cards sticking out here and there. She painted red hearts on her cheeks and tiny stars close to her eyes. Even her hair was red. She looked way too beautiful and I couldn’t help but smile at her, the uneasiness I felt earlier ebbing away.“Just yours,” she responded with a flirty smile and a wink. I laughed and kissed her.“C’mon. Let’s go.”“Where’s Anthony?” I asked l
ANTHONY’S POVI haven’t felt so giddy in a very, very long time. Like ever-since-I-found-out-I-was-gay-and-I-had-a-huge-crush-on-Blake long. I had my very first proper kiss with Michael yesterday and it was heavenly!Today was Halloween which just meant Blake was most definitely throwing a huge Halloween rager after school. I haven’t spoken to him since he was in my room, asking me about my relationship. Well, now if he asked me, I’d just tell him about the new update.As I shut my locker, Anderson’s face popped up, giving me a fright. “Where the hell were you?”“Jesus, man, you scared me.”“You left Blake and I to mold tiny chess pieces so you could do what exactly?”“Hang out with Michael Tema,” I responded casually. Anderson froze like a deer caught in headlights.“You skipped school to hang out with Michael Tema of all people? How does Blake feel about this?”“You’re supposed to ask me how I feel about it. Why do you care what Blake thinks? He’s been nothing but an ass towards you
BLAKE’S POVAnthony didn’t show up for lunch, neither did he show up to pottery class after lunch. I had a feeling a certain overrated member of the NCH basketball team had something to do with it. I was going to say something to him about skipping class to hang out with a boy who was most likely only spending that much time with him because of his vendetta against me, but he never showed up to the fixed pottery session Anderson and I planned for our assignment after school. We had less than ten days to get it all ready but we still hadn’t gotten passed molding the chess pieces.“He’s not answering,” Anderson said with a solemn look on his face. I have known Anthony for all his life and there was absolutely nothing he put before pottery. He loved playing with clay so much that he skipped our senior Prom just so he could spin wet clay around the pottery wheel. He even once pretended to be too sick to play a game just so he could go to some convention for potters! And it was a major gam
ANTHONY’S POVI sat by my desk in my bedroom trying so hard to understand the calculus homework we were given. I wasn’t dyslexic or anything, but the more I stared at the page, the more the letters and numbers seemed to float out of it. I was getting frustrated and frankly speaking, my brain wasn’t processing anything anymore.I grabbed my headset after shutting my book tight and got in my bed. Then I played Paper Rings by Taylor Swift, closed my eyes and tried to imagine Blake…I mean Michael and I dancing to the song.I was only deep into the beginning of the second verse when I felt someone breathe down my neck. Startled, I flung my eyes open only to come face to face with the beautiful smiling face of my sister’s boyfriend.“What the hell, Blake? What are you doing here? How did you get in?” He was laughing at me like it was the funniest thing in the world to witness someone freak out by an intruder’s presence.“You gotta stop asking me that question, Anthony. I’ve told you before,
BLAKE’S POVMy girlfriend was sulking. As a good boyfriend, I should fix it and make her feel better. Instead, I was sulking and not talking to Anthony because of his audacious decision to betray me so openly.“Honestly, man, it’s like you guys are in a relationship,” Dante said. I was picking at my fries in the cafeteria during lunch on Monday. I haven’t spoken to Anthony since last Friday’s dinner that ended sourly.“I’ve told you before to stop saying shit like that, Dante!” Luke scolded him. His face was contorted in the most disconcerting facial expression he could muster. I didn’t even have it in me to reprimand him for being such a homophobe.“But it’s true. Just last week, they were all buddies and now Anthony is having lunch in the Clay Room. It had something to do with him losing that game, right? Did you give Michael your sneakers?” They both peered at me intently. At the mention of Michael Tema, I lost whatever little appetite I had left.God, this was frustrating me! I co
ANTHONY’S POVNever have I ever been so confused in my entire life!As we sat down round the dinner table that was set up at our backyard, I couldn’t help but notice the nasty glare that Blake kept sending my way. He was so pissed after the game that I didn’t even have the guts to look him in the eye. Now I may be wrong, but I had a feeling it had nothing to do with me actually losing the game and had everything to do with Michael’s proposal. That was exactly what confused me.You see, prior to that little chat we had at the end of the game, Michael and I had never spoken to each other before. He has had more interactions with the ants that occasionally trudged up and down the court in school than he has had with me since I knew of his existence. The only people he paid any notice to when we had a match together were Blake and his posse. Hearing him say that he thought I was gorgeous and then going ahead to ask me out was just weird and as shocking and terrifying as pineapple on pizza
BLAKE’S POVIt was so unlike me to hum, yet it was all I could do the morning of the match between our school and NCH.I was so happy yesterday when I found out that Anthony won. Even though I didn’t exactly see it and thanks to the absence of the cameraman I had assigned the task of capturing every beautiful moment I couldn’t ever see it, I was still very proud of him and I was certain he wasn’t going to disappoint today either.“You look happy,” Crystal said as we loaded up the trunk of my car with two coolers of beer and a shit ton of chips for the after party. Even though Anthony, Crys and I wouldn’t be able to make it to the party because of the little pre-Halloween dinner our moms had planned out, I still felt obligated to contribute to our little celebration. Dante and Luke would take it off my hands after the game later on.“That’s because I have an autographed basketball with my name on it and it’ll be mine in less than three hours.”“Don’t you think you’re being presumptuous
ANTHONY’S POV“You know, you guys’ on-again-off-again relationship is way worse that Blake and Susan’s.”Blake frowned and looked at Dante. “I never had an on-again-off-again relationship with Susan.”“Uh, yes you did,” Dante countered. “From the summer of tenth grade up until you started dating that hot chick in freshman year.”“Excuse me,” I said interjecting, “That ‘hot chick’ happens to be my little sister.”“Which is exactly why the bromance between you and Blake is weird.” I blushed at the word he used. I know he didn’t mean anything by it, but I still felt a little bit giddy that the relationship I had with Blake would be described as a bromance by none other than his friend who also participated in torturing me for years.We were all seated in the cafeteria – Blake, Dante, Anderson and my humble self. I was so surprised when I saw Anderson and Blake walking up to me together, laughing like they were old friends. Turns out, Anderson and Blake bonded over some mean joke they pla