CHAPTER 6

Sierra's POV

I couldn't sleep. It was already 1:00 in the morning. I am just looking outside the window of my room. The moon still shines bright and how I wish I could shift right now. But unfortunately, I can't feel my wolf.

I was about to lie in my bed but I saw Asher. He was standing beside a big tree, and he was looking at me. I felt my heart beating fast. I missed him so much, and supposedly, we should be celebrating now. But it didn't happen. I am not his mate and it is breaking my heart into pieces. How can I see him marrying my best friend? How can I continue my life living in this kind of irony?

Asher wears a pleading eye as if he's saying to me that we need to talk. I didn't want to talk to him but my heart said I should. This might be the last time we would talk about ourselves.

So, I quickly grabbed my jacket and put my hair in a ponytail. I silently walk outside the house. My parents should be sleeping right now and I don't want them to wake up. As soon as I walked out of the door, Asher quickly grabbed my hands. He gently pulled me towards the forest.

"I am glad that you came," he said as soon as we stopped walking.

"This might be the last time. The next time we would talk is just because of our pack," I said without any emotion.

"Sierra."

"You want me to be your Beta. Is it okay with your mate?"

In the meantime, I can't say the name of my best friend. I should not be angry with them, but still, I am hurting so I assume it's valid.

"Sierra, if only I have a choice, I will still choose you. I love you very much," he said seriously.

I shook my head. "You shouldn't say those words from now on, Asher."

Asher punches the big tree out of frustration. I know how he feels but I am sure that it would be temporary since he already met his mate. He will quickly forget his feelings towards me. As for me, I don't know. Besides him, I also have a problem with my wolf. She didn't come out in the expected time and I don't know why.

"Sierra, the reason why I want you to be my Beta is because I need you by my side. I can't lose you."

I quickly wiped my tears from falling. I don't want Asher to see me at my weakest. I don't want him to see how affected I am.

"Asher, you're the next Alpha of this pack. I am not angry with both of you. But I am asking you to respect my space. I need some time to accept all of this. And I promise you, the next time you will see me, I already shifted, and I am ready to be your Beta."

I turned my back and was about to walk away but he hugged me from behind. I closed my eyes as I felt his warmth. I love this man and he can calm my nerves just by hugging. He's my comfort zone, my first love, the man I want to spend my whole life with. But we are not destined for each other. The Moon Goddess didn't grant my wish and I need to accept it.

"How can I continue my life without the woman I want?" he asked desperately.

"You can. And, Asher, please love my best friend the way you love me. She deserves you. Sooner or later, I know you can forget me. So please, don't hurt her."

I took all my strength to walk forward so he could release me from his hug. I am sure that my best friend would hurt the moment she found out that Asher went to me at this hour.

"How unfair my life is? I look forward to my future with you. I am so excited to shift because I know in my heart that you are my mate. I am seeing my future as an Alpha and you, as my Luna. How cruel is the Moon Goddess? She witnessed how we love each other, how we grew up together holding on to the hope that we would be together our entire lives."

I turned my gaze upon him. I was shocked when I saw him kneeling while looking up at the bright moon. He's hurting just like me. And I am not expecting it. I thought meeting her mate would lessen the pain of our breakup. But I was wrong.

"Asher."

"I love you very much, Sierra. Can't we just run away from all of this?"

I shook my head. "You accepted your mate, and now, you can't live without her. This is our end, Asher. Let go of the pain you're holding, brace yourself, and be the greatest Alpha in our world. You would do great, and I am counting on you. Bye, for now, Asher. 'Till we meet again."