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31. The Realization
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2024-10-29 19:42:56What Taylor said about me missing Flint really messed up my mind. Now I can’t stop thinking about it.
Do I really miss him?I screamed on my pillow. I am really frustrated right now. I’ve got a lot of things bugging my mind and I shouldn’t be thinking about him. He just used to be that annoying guy who really likes to piss me off, and later became friends with me. Was I not supposed to accept his friendship?“Are you okay?” Taylor asked, her head peeking from the top bunk bed. Now I feel sorry because it looks like I woke her up.I guess I’m going crazy…“I’m so sorry,” I said. I really don’t know what’s going on. “Did I wake you up?”“Nah, it’s okay. I’m supposed to wake up early anyway,” she replied as she started getting up. “So what’s up? What’s going on? Why are you screaming like you havRelated chapters
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The Charmer and the Beast 33. The Red-Eyed Man
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The Charmer and the Beast 34. The Score
That man’s face lingered in my head for days. I tried forgetting about it, but I just can’t seem to erase his face from my memory. It was really bothering the hell out of me. But it was like his face was painted in my head. Whenever I think about it, it gives me goosebumps.I can’t let it distract me, not when I am currently taking my chapter exam. However, no matter how much I tried to concentrate on the test, my head kept coming back to that red-eyed man. Something’s really wrong. I can’t just be imagining it. Or was I crazy? Is academics making me crazy?For the nth time, I sighed and tried to go back to the test.I managed to finish the exam but when I left the classroom, I felt like there was something wrong. I couldn't point out what, but I have a feeling I did something wrong.But instead of dwelling on the present matter, I went straight to the dorm to sleep. I ended up cramming a little last night because I was preoccupied with the thoughts about that man. I have so many unans
The Charmer and the Beast 35. The Grandparents
Well, I did not feel better.I woke up to an empty room. I don't know if Taylor already came back or if she hasn't. When I checked the time, 30 minutes had passed since I decided to just sleep. Maybe that's why I did not feel better.But instead of moping about it, I decided to do better. This is still the first exam. I can still do better. I can still get a flat 1 on this subject if I just do my best to excel in all the upcoming exams or whatsoever. I can still make it.My mom doesn't have to know about what I'm going through. I can still make things right. She doesn't have to know.And I shouldn’t let that man get into my head again.So I stood up and went to my table to get my laptop. I had to check my emails first because I missed my Weekly Mirror duties today.There was indeed an email from Robin containing the details for my assignment this week. He gave me previous articles for references (as he promised from our last meeting when he
The Charmer and the Beast 36. The Difference
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The Charmer and the Beast 37. The Exhibit
It's been a week that I didn't attend any of our weekly mirror meetings. I already asked Robin to excuse me and just told him that I was not feeling well. He was okay with it as long as I did my assignments well.I've already sent out emails to people that I need to interview for my article. Most of them replied a day after so I had no problem with it and was able to submit the article in time.One weird thing though, I think I interviewed someone who looked like the red-eyed man I saw days ago. I’m not sure if my eyes were playing tricks on me or they just looked alike.I haven’t interviewed him in person though because I was told by his assistant that he’s busy so I could just email them the questions I have. I try not to mind it so much, as what I promised myself before- he shouldn’t get into my head.I've also been very careful not to meet Flint along the hallway or anywhere around the university. Why? Because I think I'm starting to get attached. And I feel like this attachment w
The Charmer and the Beast 38. The Day She Hurt Him
I feel like there was a knot inside my stomach. They were chaotic and won't seem to stop anytime soon."Hey, Jasmine to earth?"I was pulled out of trance when I heard Taylor speak. My eyes were no longer on him. However, I could still feel the crazy creatures inside my stomach. What are they trying to do? Tickle me?"Are you okay?" I heard Sean ask. I just shook my head because I couldn't seem to bring my tongue to say anything. They were tangled.Taylor began to talk about her painting. I've been seeing this in our room, but I never saw the finished version.It was a butterfly, but instead of a normal butterfly, the body was a body of a woman without a face. There was a cocoon near it, which I'm guessing that the butterfly just transformed into a full-grown butterfly. Its wings were colorful and the woman's hair was very long. Looking at the painting, I figured it was about a woman getting out of its comfort zone. It's a woman going out of her ho
The Charmer and the Beast 39. The Loss of Consciousness
Days passed by so quickly. This week, we'll be having our first midterm in the University. I worked my ass off the past weeks. The moment I knew that the midterms was coming, I studied double time for my subjects.Mom was right when she said that it's one of the times in our lives that we won't have enough sleep. Yeah, she was right. I barely slept for the past weeks. I guess the longest sleep I got was 4 hours. Even if I decide to sleep the entire day, I feel like my mind is working on its own- waking up at a random time of the day. I don't have many things to do so I always end up studying. But I'm not complaining. I guess it was better this way.For the past weeks, Flint and I haven't spoken. Ever since what happened, we sometimes meet along the way, but we only look at each other for a while and always end up looking away.Taylor and Sean noticed the avoidance but didn't say a thing about it."Jas, do you mind if I ask you something?" Taylor suddenly
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The Charmer and the Beast 73. The Witch
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The Charmer and the Beast 72. The Questions
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The Charmer and the Beast 71. The First Revelation
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The Charmer and the Beast 70. The Foreshadowing
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The Charmer and the Beast 69. The Tension
Relationships really has its ups and downs. All throughout the months Flint and I were together, we had fights and also made up. There were days when I thought we were really going to break up but he would do unexpected things... he would try to win me back each time.I love Flint. And I love how he makes things better for me. I love how he always say sorry even if it's not his fault. I love how he always make sure I had coffee before classes because he knows how I don't function well without caffeine. I love how he brings me food I didn't even know I wanted even when I don't say anything.I love him. Everything he does, I love it.I've always thought that like any other relationships, ours will also have its honeymoon phase just in the beginning. But eversince we were together, Flint does everything that exceeds my expectations. In return, I also do the same. I make sure that I give him the same love I'm receiving.But no matter how perfect a relationship may seem, there will always
The Charmer and the Beast 68. The Jealousy
"Hi!" I happpily greeted. It took a few seconds before Flint looked my way. When he did, he then smiled."Hey," he murmured. I scowled a little when I realized that there was tension between him and Bailey. I don't know what's up. I just know something doesn't sit right with them.I tried to dismiss it though. Maybe it was just me reading too much into the situation. "Hey, we have a new applicant," I said smilingly. I then turned to Bailey and smiled at him. "This is Bailey. He's a transferee and we have the same major! He's interested in joining the Weekly Report," I mumbled."Hey," Bailey mumbled. He offers his hand for a handshake. Flint took it as he introduced himself."I'm Jasmine's boyfriend," he said."And the Weekly Report's layout artist," I added."Great. Nice to meet you," Bailey mumbled."Ditto," Flint said. He then turned to me. "Are you still needed here?" He queried."Yeah, I guess. Eya will be alone if I leave," I replied."Oh, no. It's okay. You can go, lovers. The
The Charmer and the Beast 67. The New Guy
It was officially the first day of the second semester. Like the first day last semester, it was pretty much like introduction of syllabus and other stuff about our subjects. We also had some activities and most of the professors only talked to us for a while and then dismiss us.On the oval, there were a lot of booths organized by the different clubs here in school. It was recruiting season again so after the class, students come and visit the booths to see and check what clubs are available.Since I don't have a class anymore, I proceed on our booth. It was currently headed by Eya and Robin. Robin will have a class in a few minutes so I'll take over. We will cater students' questions regarding the rules and regulation of the club, as well as how our organization works.We also handed out flyers. There were some new faces which I bet were transferees and they're looking around. They reminded me of me when I was still new here in the university. Well, I'm technically still new, but I'
The Charmer and the Beast 66. The Phone Call
Days passed by so quickly. My last duty at the admin office was yesterday and now I'm just here at the apartment, resting and preparing myself for the upcoming semester.I've already applied for the scholarship that I was eyeing and received a reply that I passed. This semester, I'm officially a scholar which means that my parents don't have to pay for my tuition. It was a really big help especially that Dahlia will be in college soon. Mom and Dad were happy about the news. I didn't tell them I applied for the scholarship. I just told them that my average qualified and I just thought of applying.I also received the news that I was one of the students who got a high GWA for the first semester. In the first week of classes, there will be an activity to be held for those outstanding students. Certificates will be handed out and parents are invited. I thought it wasn't that huge of a deal for my parents because they've been doing it ever since I started going to school. They pretty much
The Charmer and the Beast 65. The Grades
After saying I love you to the person you love, what comes next? Do we take this relationship to the next level? If so, what's the next level? There were a lot of things running through my head when we first exchanged those three words. I know I already felt it and it's the truest it can be. I love being with Flint. I love telling him how my day went. I love how he listens to me everytime. I love how we become so comfortable with each other. I love Flint. It wasn't my plan to tell it to him while we were doing the deed, but at that moment, I just couldn't keep it in. I love him, and I'm afraid this love is overflowing. He's my first love. He's the first ever guy aside from a family member that I ever loved. I've written romance stories, and also read those kinds, but in reality, it was a different thing. For starters, it's reality. There's no pause, no cliff-hanger scenes. In real life, things go on. After we did it, we fell asleep. Now, it's already morning and all I did eversi
