The present tense is all we know regrets of the past we don't show
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The sight of a vehicle is fading in front of my eyes. He's going to leave me alone. I can't see his face. "Please don't go, please don't leave me alone," I shouted on top of my voice but he didn't listen, he just vanished.
"Amanda wake up! Wake up!" Someone shouted in my ear.
Slowly I opened my eyes, everything is in a blur but where am I? I was getting confused when I saw mom's face. Again that dream. I saw that dream again but I couldn't recall anything, everything was in a blur.
"Hurry up girl otherwise you'll be late and I don't allow tardiness." She demanded then walked away but wait for what? How did I end up here? As far as I remember I was in Cole's car yesterday when we were heading towards my home. He was driving his car so fast and then I fainted but how did I end up here in my living room? I removed my blanket when I felt something in my hand. Wait what is it? It is a bracelet quite simple but elegant made with black pearls but it isn't mine. Whose is it then? I never saw this before.
"Maybe it's Cole's," My inner voice said.
Yeah maybe it's his but how did it end up in my hand? I think I need to ask him what happened yesterday. Hopefully, I didn't do anything wrong. With that in mind, I stood up to get ready for school. My so-called plan of escaping from Cole already failed so there is no need to be at home all day. I was heading upstairs towards my room when my cell phone started ringing. I took it out from my pocket and looked at the caller id, it's the Vess. Do you know what sucks? Forgetting about your best friend in your mess. I answered the call "Amy I'm going to kill you." She yelled and I mentally slapped myself.
"What? But how? Why?"
"Yes you heard me I'll snatch away all your food and eat them myself so that you can die from hunger."
"Ok, but first tell me what happened? Why do you sound like you watched something ridiculous?"
"He's not ridiculous he's hot." She uttered.
"Seriously you need to, oh forget it!" I ran out of words and let me tell you Vess has a new crush and she's not telling me who he is. She is always talking about him like he's this he's that like he's a superhero ugh!!
"You're changing the topic, Amy! Anyway, now that your mission has failed you're coming to school right?"
"How do you know about it? And yes I'm coming otherwise mom will torture me with her lectures." I sneered.
"I'll tell you how I know but firstly get ready I'm coming over to pick you up." Then she hung up.
I ran towards the washroom to shower. I came out after ten minutes and wore a plain shirt and pants and sneakers. I made a ponytail and was collecting my things when I heard a car horn. It's Vess. I collected all my things and went downstairs."Mom I'll eat something at school," I uttered and ran towards the car.
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Can you guess how she knows that my plan got flopped or worse that she also knows that I was with Cole yesterday? She didn't tell me how she got to know. What did she ship Cole's name with mine? She keeps blabbering about Camanda and Amole like seriously? These names are more disturbing than Cole himself. Vess has gone mad, more than that she's hiding something from me which I need to find out.
We reached the school in less than twenty minutes. Vess had a different class so she went the opposite way, I headed towards the lockers to keep my bag in it but when I opened my locker there was a big board placed in it like very big which filled all the space and what was written on it?
"Cole is the sexiest man alive." was written in bold letters. Shit, how did it end up here? It isn't mine definitely but the main question is what should I do?
Oh just shut up and also shut the damn door, will you? Otherwise, anyone will see it.
My tremendous inner voice yelled. I was just about to close the door when someone started chuckling.
"Look girls this nerd doesn't have any guts to pursue a man by herself so she's doing this kind of stuff to satisfy herself! How are you? Still in kindergarten? Still, dreaming that one day everything will change like magic and you will get your prince charming? But let me tell you one thing straight this is real-world and you're nothing but a piece of crap that nobody wants. So, don't try to worship my boyfriend!"
Ladies and gentlemen, I just got insulted by the bitch Veronica herself and she so-called two fake girls. Who the hell is she saying all this shit to me? I need to say something.
Say something damn it.
"Uh, at least I'm not like other fake persons and who said I'm interested in your boyfriend? I'll never be interested in him so I'm not your competition happy? You can relax now" I said with a smirk.
"Look at yourself! You filthy creature you can't even stand by me and you're saying you're my competition." I mentally groaned this girl's brain is not working.
Maybe her brain is also made up of plastic-like her.
Yeah, you can say that she's full of plastic. Suddenly her eyes were staring at something else. Her gaze was fixed on my hand fist or should I say on my fist.
Shittt!
"Where did you get it from?" She saw Cole's bracelet in my fist.
"Listen Veronica it's not what it looks like." I just don't know why I didn't tell her the truth.
"Yeah, it can't." Her face became red with anger and I was stopping myself from laughing so hard when she snatched that bracelet from me and walked away.
Before anyone can see it I quickly closed the locker and headed towards my class when someone grabbed me by my shoulders and slammed me on the wall of an empty class."You liked me that much?" He whispered, his minty breath caressing my ears.
"Uhhh! Who?" Seriously Amy, who? How many of your fans are here? How can you be so stupid when you know who he's.
Yeah you know who he's you just don't want to accept that. My so-called inner voice again mocked. But everything is so dark here.
I don't know how but it all happened so fast, all the lights were switched on, blinding me that I immediately shut my eyes. Then out of nowhere, I felt something wet and a ghastly smell hit my nose.
I opened my eyes and a balloon full of paint directly hit me on my face. It is disgusting. Ughhh I just want to die right now. Then the devil himself appeared in front of me holding that damn balloon again. What should I do now? Should I slap him? But I already did something like that because of which all these things are happening so what should I do?
Oh just forget everything and run.
I gathered all my strengths and before he could do anything I ran towards the door but not everything goes according to you and in my eyes, not a single thing can go according to my wish.
"Damnit! The door is locked." I yelled. In reply, all I heard was a chuckle.
Not just a chuckle a sexy chuckle.
"Oh shut up will you?" I muttered under my breath.
"Parker is so clumsy, clumsy is a nerd but Parker is an idiot while I'm smart as fuck." Oh not that again.
Listen enough is enough it is a door dies situation just face it or-or-- Just face it damn it.
Yeah, it's time for payback playjerk. I went straight towards Cole. He didn't move he just stood there with a smirk.
"Well! Well! Maxwell, you smell that bad? I didn't know that before ughhh." I made a disgusting face and before he can do anything I snatched that balloon from him and ran towards the door.
Well, you all must be thinking why can't I just hit him with the balloon but I was waiting for the perfect moment.
When he came to stop me so that was the perfect moment. His face was so close his breath was almost touching me. Well, he's thinking that he can divert my mind or should I say my hormones but not this time Mr Maxwell. Just when his nose touched mine I dropped that balloon on his head.
"Well! Well! Smelly Maxwell, you stink now." I sing a song or at least I tried but when I waited for his response all I received was a deadly silence then I looked up to meet his eyes he was already gazing at me through his hypnotizing eyes. Seriously? Had I done something wrong? Had I invited all the more trouble for myself? Or all this is going to be over?
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Amanda is in trouble and Cole is mysterious Guess what happens next? XOXO❤
Fallacies are waiting for you everywhere.-----------------------------------------------------------I waited for his answer but a sudden outburst happened. The door opened and in just a moment some girls were looking at me with disgust. Well, I can't deny that I'm looking like some joker covered in paint but what I didn't understand is that they were looking at Cole with their mouth wide open. They were checking him out with lust I think! Eww! Disgusting.How can you say that it's disgusting just to look at him for once?My stupid inner voice can't resist herself. Well, it is not that bad to look at him. So, I moved my head towards playjerk's direction and he's shirtless but when and how he removed his shirt I don't know. His perfect body glorified him and paint colours were all over his body which made him sexier. Yeah, he's sexy but h
Whenever she sleeps, she hooked by the magic of dreams-----------------------------------------------------------Here, what I was thinking is Beyond far away from the reality because I never expected him to be here in my home and cheery on the cake is that he was talking with my mother in my absence."What're you doing here?" I yelled."Oh, I'm here for swimming! Can't you see?" His eyes bored into mine.Only I knew that his stupid sarcasm is not good just like his face.But you thought that his face was sexy remember?''Shutup! I didn't ask for your opinion. " I yelled and regretted. why? Because he heard it."I think you've lost your mind that's why you're blabbering things! Oh, one thing I almost forget is that you don't have a
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Reality is far away from your imagination. -----------------------------------------------------------As we reached there, the palace is very big made up of white marble, It looks like a mansion a very big mansion."wow," I uttered in astonishment.People were rushing to get to go in there, the parking area is full with all the vehicles or should I say Cars because everywhere where my eyes roaming is just the Cars not normal Cars but all the high-class ravishing cars.Seriously, I don't understand why the hell is this gala or whatever it is happening and above all Dylan is throwing? I'm sure it's not what it looks like, I need to do something to find out or else I"all became mad in all this suspense, let me tell you one thing I can't bear suspense If whenever someone tells me anythi
You didn't even get a hint of it, but your heart gets it all. ----------------------------------------------------------Fact: A handsome guy is kissing me.Curious fact: I don't even know him.Strange fact: I liked it.When his lips crashed mine that was a moment when I forget everything. His lips were so soft and a weird tingling feeling ran through them to the tip of my toes.Slowly, he nibbled on my bottom lip causing my stomach to flip.Oh my god, what should I do? He's kissing me and I don't even know him. This is my first kiss and I'm enjoying it? What the hell is wrong with meJust push him away. Will you? Yeah, I need to push him this is the only thing I can do. I moved my hands to push h
Reality sucks, you just have to deal with it. --------------------------------------------------------- My head isn't. good not at all, it is in pain like It was hit by a bat my throat is dry when I woke up and I've still a headache in my forehead. 'Ohh gosh' I growled. Out of frustration from this headache. I need aspirin immediately, it can help me. I got up my sight is still in a blur but before I go to fetch aspirin my stomach growled making unnecessary noises and I couldn't control it anymore, I ran to the washroom and puked all the contents which I'd in my stomach. 'Yuk' is the nastiest feeling in the world. Ughh, I cleared my mouth after several attempts so that my breath can be studied and not be nasty. I look up in the mir
Sometimes miracles do happen. ---------------------------------------------------------- Its Monday morning, I'm on my way to school on a bus and I don't want to go but I don't have any choice because my dear mother came early this morning, she lectured me about rules and regulations and threatened me that if I"ll did something beyond her expectations then. I"ll be grounded for the rest of my life before I can protest and talk to her she kicked me out .so, that I can go to school. You can pity me because I'm doing the same thing in previous hours and one thing I understand about my mother is that she is a dangerous woman very dangerous woman when it comes to rules and regulations. I arrived at school the journey from home to school is not that much affected me, coz I was lost in my thoughts as always.
Sometimes you can't even stand for your decision. --------------------------------------------------------- Days are going faster than anything, and in the blink of an eye it's the weekend again but it doesn't matter to me. well, I can say that weekends are going to be peaceful at least I've some time to relax and do nothing just lying on my bed in Pajamas, walking around at home like a ghost, eating like a pig and not forgetting that watching television ruthless. these things are my priority to do on weekends because I'm most of the time alone on weekends. Mom is always busy with her work, Sometimes I think that she didn't even care about me! She always is busy with her work no matter what the condition is, So, I just have to enjoy myself on the weekends and if you'r
"Loving is a forever thing" --------------------------------&&--&-:%%-------------;;;- It was breathtaking almost breathtaking!No, even that word wouldn't be enough to describe the palace or place what I can say? Well, it was marvellous and beautiful. It was like those whom I had described in my dreams of castles. And here I'm wondering How much rich one can get? And all the luxurious cars were parked in the parking zone when we were trying to find the place for our old model Desire. We have a special pass which the school has given us. I mean all the school students or members or anybody related to the school had this pass of special entry. I don't know why his parents are doing this? And if they want to; why they are inviting every contiguous body of school as if our existence would matter to them.
Who will you believe? your heart or your brain?---------------------------------------------------------------------It's been a week since that exhausting moment of my life happened in my own house but that incident also changed my relations with my mother, my friends and with the ColeI'm not going to admit that whatever happened was correct of course it was not but I admit that whatever happens had a sign behind it.And the school has changed. Changed for good. people started giving no damn to anyone to whatsoever think the popular students. There were not curious glances anymore only overwhelming gestures to hold on to.I think you guys remember the incident here in the school near the parking area at the gateway when Beatrice and Joseph both went furious and kissed each other noncha
"I want to relinquish in you, for- forever"-----------------------------------------------------------------------"Is she dead?"I heard a fainted voice when everything around me was in black. The wind around me has something different in itself. The first time I felt very light; with no pressure like I'm lost in thoughts."No, she can't be dead she didn't even marry anyone or have children. The fuck she never even dated anyone or left alone the kissing thing. I mean at least she should have lost her virginity before dying."" so Vanessa you want Amanda to lose her virginity before dying?""Ah, Mrs Parker I didn't mean that I mean..""After everything clears up we will talk!"Good for Vess because she can't keep her mouth shut. And I wanted to scream so badly that I've kissed Cole many times but then I realized if I did that I would be the one who was going to be in the limelight for asking so many questions for the rest of my life.Great just great perks of being Amanda parker."Wel
Giving up isn't an option anymore!-------------------------------------------------------------------- You know the moment in your life in which you blame yourself for everything, and you just want to go back to the past perspective but you can't and you are stuck now in that situation in which you were not supposed to be stuck, but why can't we get through other people's mind and see how this world works? Is this hard to get the knowledge?You know what? I shouldn't have come here. I should have thought thoroughly about the situation before coming here but I didn't. now I'm stuck in my room. The door is locked which I locked myself with myself and he was beating the door nonchalantly; singing some stupid song
some things are worth taking the risk for!------------------------------------------------------------------The city with its busy life contemplating the hazardous things with itself is back for us. We have left those heart-capturing sights but we didn't leave our memories there.Or specifically, my memories there. Now, I'm revived that I've my memories that no one can snatch away from me.HA!Who said you can't take risks In your life and get through the past? I know this is a risky thing but some things are worth taking the risk for! And some people and worth fighting for, and believing for.Like this guy with whom I am riding a bike on a way to our school. As I've said before I've never been a fan of speed.I was afraid of it, the shore of the wind and the people around on the street
Don't let anyone snatch away your dreams from you because that's the only thing you have got to fulfil.----------------------------------------------------------------"May you shine my dear daughter. May you shine to the fullest of this world.I might not be here consoling your tears with you.Holding you tight against my arms listening to your heartbeat as I had carried you in my arms in those blossom loving days when you were my princess.You have no idea how much I want to meet you. How much I want to look into your eyes and see the reflection of myself. How much I want to call you my daughter; my Amanda. How much I want to see you walking down the aisle. But I know I can't. my time is coming near and there are things which I wanted to do for you but time has its own thing. It is slipping from my hands from my soul.
Time is the worst enemy of humanity. Because when it passes; you feel nothing!-----------------------------------------------------------------Time...What a fierce thing it is. The thing which doesn't care about anybody. Doesn't stop for anybody, but maybe just maybe it has stopped now.It has stopped every little thing at this moment. The moments which has changed everything.This guy who has a polaroid on his hands looking at me with those vulnerabilities is the same whom I have seen in my dreams. He was the one whom I remember calling my name over and over again after a running car.who looks at me in the sleepless nights, who whispers to me in my dreams, but it still looks like a fainted spot in the dark." I still couldn't get over the fact that you didn't reco
You cannot always meet the horizon of your dreams with your eyes.------------------------------------------------------------------------Being paranoid is something in a situation but what about feeling nothing? What about closing your eyes and the little mind of yours stopped working? And there is nothing!That's what I'm here at nothing!I didn't know and I didn't even realize when I fell on my knees in the mud that was sinking me in its power.I was shaking; my heart was throbbing against my chest, and all those blurry memories of him kept coming back to me.I wanted to stop them from coming back at me but it didn't stop, It fucking didn't! Now all I have of him was his memories, his blurry memories.When the realization hits me on top I realized I lost it! I lost everything in me...
Sometimes, the long paths do not take you to your favourite destination.-----------------------------------------+----------+----------+-------- Do you know? When I was a child I've always adored the sky beyond its limit because at that time I didn't know that it does not have any limit it is neverending like infinity.Those ruffly bundled up clouds whenever looked at me they would be made my mind High, so high that I would get thrilled about it, and think about everything which I don't have.Now! I know I'm being stupid by recovering all those things which had happened in the past. And I've no idea why I'm thinking all these things at this moment in time...But still, I couldn't back away from the hollowness of my chest. Every time I thoug