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I know I haven't been updating a lot lately, and I decided to clear out that, midterms are coming up at my school and by coming up I mean this Monday and for the next two to three weeks, I will be writing.So updates will be slower than normal, and I apologize. I have to be more focused on my studies, than writing.I will try to update every chapter I'll be lucky enough to write.Again, I apologize for this, it saddens me as much as it might sadden you but I hope you understand.Please have a good day or night.Sweeetluvie.Something wet lands on my forehead, moaning in protest I bring my hand out and push it away making it slide over my temple."Shh shh." Someone cooes, I let my hand fall back where it was and then try to open my eyes.Thankfully when I do, the room is dimmed down like before.I take a second to stare at the ceiling before turning my head, I'm not shocked to see my boss besides me looking down at me.What does shock me is, why did I faint again? I've been taking my pills, and the week difference makes me even more confused.The more I look at him, the angrier the looks, I don't think it's at me though. Looking way, I try to sit up, he immediately helps me, placing some cushions behind me for comfort.He reaches over to the nightstand and pours some water into a glass, then hands it to me. I take some greedy gulps, relieving my throat. Feels like I haven't felt the coolness of water in days.When I hand him the glass, he places it to the side and brightens the room a bit allowing me to
He doesn't waste any time before his hands are firmly placed on my hips, his phone digging into my skin just a bit and he pulls me closer him.I feel every inch of him pressed against me, my fingers find a way into his hair, gripping and pulling him closer.I moan in his mouth when he nibbled on my bottom lip, right after; his tongue dives into mouth, exploring every inch inside.His hands travel the curve of my body until he reaches my thighs, he hoists me up letting me wrap my legs around his waist. He takes a few steps inside and closes the door by slamming me against it.I wince in his mouth but relish in the pain.Forgive me for loving a bit of masochism in intimate situations.He wastes no time ripping the dress shirt open as he leaves open mouthed kisses along my jawline and down my neckMy fingers find their way between his hair, pulling him closer to me. He starts to suck on the skin between my breasts, my heart rate increases and a small moan leaves my lips.Gripping on his
Pain courses through me and tears fill my eyes.My back arches and eyes roll back into my head as I grip the sheets with a pained moan.I can feel every inch of him invading my inner space, he starts moving in and out of me in slow rhythms. Gradually the pain turns into pleasurable strokes that I never want to stop, his lips travel up my abdomen and he palms one of my breasts, kneading it as the kisses travel to the other.His slow rhythms turn into him pounding mercilessly in and out of me, a mixture of our moans and groans fill the place.His mouth works on my nipple, with quick licks over it and harsh bites which increase the pleasure within me. I grip the hair at the back of his head and bring it up for us to connect our lips.He increases his pace and depth of his thrusts, a thin line of sweat coats our bodies as the bubbles start in my body and he hardens even further.Pulling away with my lip between his teeth, "F*ck!"his hand goes around my throat pressing lightly, almost lik
I find it odd that I can feel the happiness radiating off him, he is my boss after all. He should've kicked me out the moment we were done like I read in all my other books.What's worse is that I'm so happy about this, spending the day with him but who knew Xander Grey was a softie below his hard exterior.Would I be hurt if he turns on me when we go back to work?If he was just using me?Why are all of these things coming to my head right now?I mean I knew what I was doing or aiming to do was bound to cause problems, not that there are now, but I prepared myself for a 'it was just one night' thing.So why am I hurt at the thought of him using me? I used him too didn't I?I feel his fingers stroke over my cheek snapping me out of my daze, I look up at his concerned eyes and smile.Again he doesn't believe me but ignored it, "Julia brought some clothes for you earlier." I nod getting up, fully exposed to him now.His eyes darken making me feel some self-pride. Turning away from him I
"You're glowing." Julia comments the moment I step through the door."For someone who's been out for three days." Julio adds on, I smile shyly."It's my birthday. I have a reason to glow, now speaking of birthdays where's Lucia? We are going out for lunch." Rapid footsteps meet my ears as the devil herself appears.She crashes into me as her arms tighten around my neck. "Don't ever scare me like that again." She scolds, I hug her back and place a kiss on her temple."I won't. I've just been overworking myself. " I lie, I set her down and she looks at me with wide eyes."You had fun." She traces her thumb over my neck and shoulder. I shoot a glare at Julia.Of all clothes she could've brought me she brought a off the shoulders woolen sweater which does nothing to hide the hickeys my boss decided to mark me with.On top of that I had no make up to hide it with. Thankfully they can't see the next dozen."Anyway, be ready within an hour." I tell her then make my way to my room to change.A
I dust up my chest in some gold glitter along with my collarbone and neck. Turning back to Lia and Lucia I smile hesitantly, "How do I look?" I ask.Thumbs up from both of them, "Perfect." The say simultaneously. The moment I saw that message, I may have had my 'girly' moment then I got ready, for three hours.My hair is done up, in a very complicated way thanks to Julia. Lucia helped me pick which shoes and bag to wear with the dress.The dress has sheer long lace sleeves and a sort of corseted torso and a fully covered lower body. It ends mid thigh and accentuates my breasts in a way that will 'grab every man's d*ck, including his' Julia's words not mine.Lucia decided on some five inch red bottom heels from Chanel and a gold chain strap purse from LV. To top it all off, some simple make up with glossy lips and smokey eyes.I feel like a different person tonight, a good kind of different.I'm happy.Our heads turn to the closed door as we hear Jul call my name, I take in a deep bre
I pick up the menu and my eyes widen, "I swear-""I won't." We lock eyes and I nod, "Promise." This time a waiter comes and greets us, "What would you like to order?" He looks at me, I look down at the menu."I'll have the lobster shiitake salad with the spicy lemon dressing." $68.His eyes travel to my chest, "And a side of you not looking at me chest, paired with the Garden Gimlet. Thank you."He gets my hint and looks up at my eyes, I lock eyes with him. He looks down, "I'm sorry ma'am." He then looks at Grey, who doesn't the least look calm."I'll have the Yellowtail tartar with caviar and the sashimi salad with matsuhisa dressing as the main and a grapefruit on the rocks for now. A bottle of Salon, Blanc de Blancs, Brut, Le Mesnil '06." He takes all of that down."A-anything else?" He asks avoiding eye contact with my boss."Yes, please call for a waitress to serve us. Thank you." I stare daggers at him but at the same time wondering how he could be so dismissive and polite at t
I wake up to an empty bed and killer headache, I almost think that last night didn't happen but the strong scent and birthday card on my bedside table tells me otherwise.I smile to myself, even though I don't remember most of last night the happiness is still in me.I reach over and read the card, "Happy birthday hermosa." This makes me grin even wider, I notice the car keys next to it and shrug.He must've forgotten them, I'll give them to him tomorrow.He has so many cars, I hardly think he'll notice. I snuggle in to his side of the bed taking in his scent.An hour later I finally get up, take a shower and clean up my room. I take my phone and head downstairs where the smell of bacon consumes me, I take a seat and watch Lia do her thing."You're glowing...again." She points out, I giggle."I had a very blessed birthday. What can I say?" I sigh in bliss, she slides a plate of food to me and leans on the counter and looks at me with a huge grin."I'm guessing you won't tell me what h
*3 years later*Xander's P.O.VI look up from my laptop to see Lucia leaning against my doorframe.It's crazy how she's grown up to look nearly the exact replica of her sister."Hey."I close the device and give her my full attention. "Hi."She scratches her head and gives me a nervous smile, "I-" She stutters as someone behind her clears her throat."We were hoping we could ask you for something." I raise an eyebrow."Well, I'm moving out to college in a few weeks and it's nearly uhm Rosie's memorial day, and we were hoping we could get some things that belonged to Rosaleigh. For memories?"My heart stops for a moment before it continues its job."Haven't you already been doing that for the past three years?" I try to laugh it off even though it's pissed me off every time.Although, Rosie was her sister and she deserves something just as much as I'd love to have kept everything of hers to myself.She hasn't moved things around, I'm grateful for that."I have and I would have continue
"Xander, man. Open up!" It's Nic. I wonder why he's here."The children are with Julia. Open up brother. What is going on?" he asks, I haven't moved in hours.Qaia is asleep in my arms, her face reminds me so much of Rosie's."If you don't open up the door, I am going to break in." Nic announces, he can't but I don't want him hurting Qaia when the door cracks from the impact, so I stand up and unlock it.He walks in, "you look fucked up." He comments the moment his eyes land on me.I don't respond. I don't have the energy to. "What's wrong man? You've got the kids all worried. And where is Ros-" his sentence dies off when he looks at the bed."Fuck." Tears well up in my eyes again.He pulls my head towards his and connects our forehead, "I'm so sorry." Tears are strolling down both our faces. "I-I don't know what happened. Noelle told me she wasn't breathing and... I just shut down. She can't be gone, Nicholas." I sob harder."I know, man, I know. I'm so sorry." His voice is soft,
*Two hours later*"Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Grey, it's a healthy baby girl."No words can explain the feeling that is spreading throughout my body. My heart feels so... I just don't know how to describe it.Rosie and I connect eyes, I can see the pure bliss going on behind them like a storm of some sorts, tears stream down her face, and I lean over to wipe them off."You did it, mariposa." I kiss her forehead. Our baby girl's cries fill the entire room, I throw my shirt off and accept her small frame. "8 pounds and 10 ounces," he tells me.Her face is reddened as she cries out, I sit beside Rosie and hand her over. Rosie starts to hiccup as silent tears stream down her face. She runs her finger over our baby's face."Shh-shh baby, mommy and daddy are here." she whispers, looking up at me. She cries even more when she sees me. She reaches out with one hand and wipes away the tears I didn't know I was shedding."We did it," I smile.We hold her for a while longer until the docto
After the heart to heart, if I can call it that, Xander took the pills and fell asleep. I, on the other hand, could not.I sat for hours just staring at him, so many times his face morphed from peace to anguish and from anguish to peace. It hurt me.My heart was broken. It still is.When dawn started to settle in, I spent my time on his laptop till full sunrise. I read up on the email he'd been reading, and a part of me felt guilty for not wanting to take the chemo.The other part of me was still insistent on not taking it. It would be a miserable play for all parties, I know from experience.I felt horrible for being happy and recalling all my favorite memories to my dad when all he could do was lay in his bed, hooked on machines. I ended up getting emotional and stressed, so I shut the laptop and began the day. To get my mind off everything, I had a virtual tour of the institute, then had an interior designer meet me at the house to discuss.After that, I spent time with Noelle as
"I think it's a girl. Only she can allow you to eat something like that," I freeze, my wrap just about to dip into my McShake.Ice cream turned into more cravings.I give him a deadly look, which has him laughing out loud. "She'll be an exact replica of you. She'll have your smile, your hair, your eyes, and your laugh. She's going to break many hearts because she won't be allowed to date until we're the same age." He smiles, I giggle."So, never?" He kisses my forehead."She'll have your smarts too," I finish my shake and turn to him."Well I for one, know it's going to be a boy. He'll have my hair color with your teenage curls. Everything else about him will be yours, his facial features; his voice, his eyes. Maybe he'll be lean," I shrug.His eyes hold suspicion in them, "So Jeremiah Fisher is out of the picture?"Shocked, I playfully slap his arm. "Firstly, that was one time. Secondly, that wouldn't be a bad idea either. Either way I—"Everything I ate in the last hour comes up my
Despite my wishes to keep my birthday small and at home, Xander thought otherwise, and by otherwise, I mean:He bought a private island near the Maldives, we didn't stay at it because it was barren, but we did go to it and suggested that we name it and soon talk to designers, for a beach house.A virtual meeting with a Hermès designer for a custom Kelly bag, I don't know how he did it, but he did. To say I was lost would be an understatement, Xander just laughed at me when i didn't know what to answer when it came to the leather types.He took me shopping, obviously, skiing, and I tried surfing but failed profusely. Xander, on the other hand, looked like Gabriel Medina at his best.There's nothing this man can't do.We spent a day at the villa and gave each other massages and watched movies.I loved those three days, but when we came back to the United States, I realized that I love being home rather than being away, or maybe it just has something to do with being around the girls.I
The next couple of months pass by in a blur, a week after the Logan topic we spent a couple of days in New Zealand for Xander's birthday.In June we finally got to building the institute, it's still a working progress as we speak.In the same month, I don't know what strings Xander pulled but Shane Grey signed over the rights of the company over to Xander with no argument. We celebrated just the two of us together.Ever since that day, Logan and Sophia never got in contact, she finally decided to go see the psychiatrist I recommended her. She was broken when he'd cut contact but as time passed she started to seem more like herself as Xander said.We celebrated Lucia's birthday at Disneyland late June.July fourth we finally took Rosander on a joyride if you can call it that, I think we all enjoyed the night. Xander and Julio put their differences aside for that day and even chatted among themselves, including Nic, as they all sa
His body stiffens for a minute but he continues to walk around like it doesn't affect him, it does."Yes, I guess you've missed out on a lot haven't you? While you were slowly killing a defenseless woman, I was trying to pay for our father's chemo and trying to save our brother from rotting in prison for something he never did." I let the words settle in."Well didn't you do a great job at that?" He chuckles dryly, anger bubbles in me.I walk up to him and stare him down, he doesn't shy away. "What happened to you? The James I know would have never hit a woman or abandoned his family," He chuckles again, "You mean the family that is slowly dying one by one?""That is no excuse James! I thought I could rely on you, even if you disappeared occasionally you would always pull through, but I guess you were too busy weren't you?" "What I do with my life does not concern you," disgust flows through every vein in my body.I ca
The constant beep of the heart monitor is silent.The bed is empty.The entire room is silent.My mind doesn't bother to find any reasoning, and my heart beats achingly.He's gone.There's no going back, and I have to accept it.Of course I cried, he's my father. Whether or not he's alive, he will always be, and he left with a piece of my heart; all of our hearts.A week after we came back to L.A., he left us, and a week later, we buried him next to our mother's grave.I broke down, became sick, grieved, and then I pulled myself together for my sisters.That was over two months ago. My heart still aches for my father, but it's dulled. It was time. He got his last wish, I got married.Lucia has gotten better, I'm happy that it didn't take that much of a toll on her as compared to mom's death.We've moved into the new house, the kids love it. Xander and I love it.Being back though has separated us for a while, he's been stuck in piles of work and complications with his father.Despite