I huff a breath holding back every ounce of me that wants to cry and tear everything apart, I crack my knuckles then fiddle with the ring on my index finger.Anxiety.A single tear rolls down my face.No, no, no, no.Someone grabs me holding me, I know the hold, the feel of me in her arms. Her scent, her touch, her tears.I stop what I'm doing and look down at her, she's holding me tight crying on my chest shaking her head. "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry." Her voice is soft and mumbled.More tears run down my face, "Rosaleigh, please." I manage to whisper, she looks up at me with bloodshot eyes and a tear stricken face.She still looks so f*cking gorgeous, she mouths the words 'sorry'. I bite on my tongue as we look into each other's crying eyes."I'm sorry, baby please. I love you, I know it's too late but please. Just- just say you remember me." I croak out.She pulls back wiping her tears away, she shakes her head. "Xander son." Her father gives me a sad look.I shake my head, "Give her
Rosaleigh P.O.VOne thing is certain, I am nor pregnant. Dr Ruben mentioned nothing of such, and I'm just glad that it's nothing but temporal lobe damage.I found it weird that Xander wasn't there when we were done, moreover that he looked like hell.I know he brushed it off as a business call but that must've been one hell of a call because his face was blotched in red. I wanted to ask but he brushed it off for a reason I guess, "Can we go to Wendy's?" I ask.He gives me a side eye, I'm confused for a second before I break out into a smile. "I promise not to order half the menu." I stick out my pinkie for him to take.He raises an eyebrow, "or be rude to the waitress, or eat like a pig." He smiles and connects our pinkies."I'm sure you'd still look gorgeous even if you eat like a pig." I don't know why his comment makes me smile but it does."I'll take that as a compliment." I return. We connect eyes for a second."I must be some gentleman if you take that as a compliment." I rais
A car is already parked in the driveway, we pull up next to it and exit the car. Xander said she wanted to move the location to somewhere where we'd or I'd be comfortable to talk about all this, so where other than home?We walk in on time to see Ms Jolene hand Ms Linean a glass of what I assume is juice.She stands up when she notices us, "Mr and Mrs Grey." She acknowledges hugging the both of us."Please, call me Rosaleigh. We haven't signed the papers yet." I say, she smiles with a nod."You can take your leave Jolene. Thank you." My fiancé says, I smile at Jolene which she returns before turning to leave.We sit on the two seater side of the L shaped couch while Ms Linean a seat away from us."Please tell me how you guys met? I like to hear about my clients period together, it helps me get to know them a bit." She asks taking a sip of her juice."I think the whole of the country knows that I'm his assistant, it's how this all began." I answer, I look down to notice Grey's hand sit
I ended up making creamy chicken mushroom with garlic, parmesan and spinach then ended up mixing it all with pasta.I bring the large bowl to the table ND join everyone, I notice that this I'd the first time that we are all seated around the table for dinner.The last few times it was Xander and I because we got home late, but this is better like we're uniting into a family.We say a small prayer and Xander dishes up for himself and Noelle then we dish up for ourselves."Oh my goodness." Lucia moans out, I look at her and raise an eyebrow.I take a bite of my food relishing in cheese that melts in my mouth and the mixture of everything tasting heavenly.I can't help but moan myself, I'll admit that I'm not much of a cook but this is better than I expected it to turn out.The after burn of the spices in it just add on, it's not too spicy but just right. "This is good," Xander comments.We eat silently for a while. "I was wondering, since Lucia is done with her exams; am I right?" He co
"Anyway, goodnight Lucia. I love you." I place yet another kiss on her forehead and stand up."I love you too." She returns, we all make our way out and leave her to be.Grey disappears to his room I assume to clean himself up, Noelle and I walk to her room, she jumps on her bed eagerly.I laugh, "Let's get you dressed first," there are purple 'My little pony' pajamas on her chair I get her dressed and soon she's in the bed.I look at her bookcase, "What would you like for me to read?" I ask."A Princess of Mars please." I find the book and look at the description behind it.It seems like something people around Lucia's age would read, "Are you sure?" I ask, she nods.Well then.I join her on the bed and and open up the book, "I am a very old man; how old I do not know. Possibly I am a hundred..."By the time I'm quarter-way through Noelle is silently yawning trying to keep herself woke."I think you've had enough." I close up the book, she nods silently.I place the book back, and t
It's Wednesday and Jaclyn and I are in one of her empty offices, she calls it her bride's free space to do whatever they want.She's already places some of our ideas on the walls and pin boards, I flip through a magazine and notice a picture of a forest covered in snow.Looking down at the fine print it reads Geneva, Switzerland, December 20th. I smile, it's the exact same picture as I the one I picked up last time."I think we should hold the wedding in Switzerland." I blurt out, she looks up from her magazine and grins.That soon turns into a squeal, she hurriedly gets up and grabs her laptop before settling down next to me.She begins to type up some things and soon we're on a topic of where exactly in Switzerland, I told her in Geneva and from then we spoke about hotels and prices and so on.I had already been there for an hour, another hour passes by before my phone buzzes telling me that Xander is here to pick me up for lunch.I bid Jaclyn a go
We're seated at the back where it's slightly darker than in the front, I ordered the apricot Dijon glazed salmon and Grey some pan seared duck breast with persimmon grapefruit "I was thinking..." I trail, he hums raising an eyebrow."It's Thanksgiving tomorrow and I thought maybe we could bring everyone together, including my dad." I take a break and sip on my water."I'm just not sure if we can take dad out for the night." I add, he nods silently."Where and what time?" I'm actually shocked he agrees, I mean I doubt he'd be comfortable with everyone there.But even so, I need to talk to Julia. Like deep talk, this girl is really confusing. All of a sudden her and Nic have a thing?"Six should be fine, you choose the place." I would cook, but catering alone for eleven plus people is a lot."I haven't had a home cooked Thanksgiving in so long, we could take the day off and dedicate it to cooking." He shrugs, I smile.Not at the thought of cooking for eleven plus people, I'm still agai
"Let's go, I'm sure the guys are waiting." She takes my hand and leads me outside.The moment I step out Grey's eyes fall on me then back to the boys and finally to me, this time openly staring.Pride spreads through me, I notice the boner growing in his suit. Even though it's slightly baggy on him, that specific area just seems to be the opposite.I feel the ache in my core begin to form, when we get there all three of the boys wolf-whistle. "If you ever get tired of Xander, you know where to find me." He winks.He winks telling me he's joking, I give him a sultry smile planning on messing with Xander. "You can give me five years or so, then I can be all yours." I wink back, he smirks whistling.He takes my hand and twirls me around 'pretending' to admire my body, "I don't mind the wai–" Before he can even finish the sentence I'm out of his hold and in my fiancé's."Don't ever talk about or look at my wife like that again. Understood?" He threatens, his hold on my waist tightening wi
*3 years later*Xander's P.O.VI look up from my laptop to see Lucia leaning against my doorframe.It's crazy how she's grown up to look nearly the exact replica of her sister."Hey."I close the device and give her my full attention. "Hi."She scratches her head and gives me a nervous smile, "I-" She stutters as someone behind her clears her throat."We were hoping we could ask you for something." I raise an eyebrow."Well, I'm moving out to college in a few weeks and it's nearly uhm Rosie's memorial day, and we were hoping we could get some things that belonged to Rosaleigh. For memories?"My heart stops for a moment before it continues its job."Haven't you already been doing that for the past three years?" I try to laugh it off even though it's pissed me off every time.Although, Rosie was her sister and she deserves something just as much as I'd love to have kept everything of hers to myself.She hasn't moved things around, I'm grateful for that."I have and I would have continue
"Xander, man. Open up!" It's Nic. I wonder why he's here."The children are with Julia. Open up brother. What is going on?" he asks, I haven't moved in hours.Qaia is asleep in my arms, her face reminds me so much of Rosie's."If you don't open up the door, I am going to break in." Nic announces, he can't but I don't want him hurting Qaia when the door cracks from the impact, so I stand up and unlock it.He walks in, "you look fucked up." He comments the moment his eyes land on me.I don't respond. I don't have the energy to. "What's wrong man? You've got the kids all worried. And where is Ros-" his sentence dies off when he looks at the bed."Fuck." Tears well up in my eyes again.He pulls my head towards his and connects our forehead, "I'm so sorry." Tears are strolling down both our faces. "I-I don't know what happened. Noelle told me she wasn't breathing and... I just shut down. She can't be gone, Nicholas." I sob harder."I know, man, I know. I'm so sorry." His voice is soft,
*Two hours later*"Congratulations, Mr. and Mrs. Grey, it's a healthy baby girl."No words can explain the feeling that is spreading throughout my body. My heart feels so... I just don't know how to describe it.Rosie and I connect eyes, I can see the pure bliss going on behind them like a storm of some sorts, tears stream down her face, and I lean over to wipe them off."You did it, mariposa." I kiss her forehead. Our baby girl's cries fill the entire room, I throw my shirt off and accept her small frame. "8 pounds and 10 ounces," he tells me.Her face is reddened as she cries out, I sit beside Rosie and hand her over. Rosie starts to hiccup as silent tears stream down her face. She runs her finger over our baby's face."Shh-shh baby, mommy and daddy are here." she whispers, looking up at me. She cries even more when she sees me. She reaches out with one hand and wipes away the tears I didn't know I was shedding."We did it," I smile.We hold her for a while longer until the docto
After the heart to heart, if I can call it that, Xander took the pills and fell asleep. I, on the other hand, could not.I sat for hours just staring at him, so many times his face morphed from peace to anguish and from anguish to peace. It hurt me.My heart was broken. It still is.When dawn started to settle in, I spent my time on his laptop till full sunrise. I read up on the email he'd been reading, and a part of me felt guilty for not wanting to take the chemo.The other part of me was still insistent on not taking it. It would be a miserable play for all parties, I know from experience.I felt horrible for being happy and recalling all my favorite memories to my dad when all he could do was lay in his bed, hooked on machines. I ended up getting emotional and stressed, so I shut the laptop and began the day. To get my mind off everything, I had a virtual tour of the institute, then had an interior designer meet me at the house to discuss.After that, I spent time with Noelle as
"I think it's a girl. Only she can allow you to eat something like that," I freeze, my wrap just about to dip into my McShake.Ice cream turned into more cravings.I give him a deadly look, which has him laughing out loud. "She'll be an exact replica of you. She'll have your smile, your hair, your eyes, and your laugh. She's going to break many hearts because she won't be allowed to date until we're the same age." He smiles, I giggle."So, never?" He kisses my forehead."She'll have your smarts too," I finish my shake and turn to him."Well I for one, know it's going to be a boy. He'll have my hair color with your teenage curls. Everything else about him will be yours, his facial features; his voice, his eyes. Maybe he'll be lean," I shrug.His eyes hold suspicion in them, "So Jeremiah Fisher is out of the picture?"Shocked, I playfully slap his arm. "Firstly, that was one time. Secondly, that wouldn't be a bad idea either. Either way I—"Everything I ate in the last hour comes up my
Despite my wishes to keep my birthday small and at home, Xander thought otherwise, and by otherwise, I mean:He bought a private island near the Maldives, we didn't stay at it because it was barren, but we did go to it and suggested that we name it and soon talk to designers, for a beach house.A virtual meeting with a Hermès designer for a custom Kelly bag, I don't know how he did it, but he did. To say I was lost would be an understatement, Xander just laughed at me when i didn't know what to answer when it came to the leather types.He took me shopping, obviously, skiing, and I tried surfing but failed profusely. Xander, on the other hand, looked like Gabriel Medina at his best.There's nothing this man can't do.We spent a day at the villa and gave each other massages and watched movies.I loved those three days, but when we came back to the United States, I realized that I love being home rather than being away, or maybe it just has something to do with being around the girls.I
The next couple of months pass by in a blur, a week after the Logan topic we spent a couple of days in New Zealand for Xander's birthday.In June we finally got to building the institute, it's still a working progress as we speak.In the same month, I don't know what strings Xander pulled but Shane Grey signed over the rights of the company over to Xander with no argument. We celebrated just the two of us together.Ever since that day, Logan and Sophia never got in contact, she finally decided to go see the psychiatrist I recommended her. She was broken when he'd cut contact but as time passed she started to seem more like herself as Xander said.We celebrated Lucia's birthday at Disneyland late June.July fourth we finally took Rosander on a joyride if you can call it that, I think we all enjoyed the night. Xander and Julio put their differences aside for that day and even chatted among themselves, including Nic, as they all sa
His body stiffens for a minute but he continues to walk around like it doesn't affect him, it does."Yes, I guess you've missed out on a lot haven't you? While you were slowly killing a defenseless woman, I was trying to pay for our father's chemo and trying to save our brother from rotting in prison for something he never did." I let the words settle in."Well didn't you do a great job at that?" He chuckles dryly, anger bubbles in me.I walk up to him and stare him down, he doesn't shy away. "What happened to you? The James I know would have never hit a woman or abandoned his family," He chuckles again, "You mean the family that is slowly dying one by one?""That is no excuse James! I thought I could rely on you, even if you disappeared occasionally you would always pull through, but I guess you were too busy weren't you?" "What I do with my life does not concern you," disgust flows through every vein in my body.I ca
The constant beep of the heart monitor is silent.The bed is empty.The entire room is silent.My mind doesn't bother to find any reasoning, and my heart beats achingly.He's gone.There's no going back, and I have to accept it.Of course I cried, he's my father. Whether or not he's alive, he will always be, and he left with a piece of my heart; all of our hearts.A week after we came back to L.A., he left us, and a week later, we buried him next to our mother's grave.I broke down, became sick, grieved, and then I pulled myself together for my sisters.That was over two months ago. My heart still aches for my father, but it's dulled. It was time. He got his last wish, I got married.Lucia has gotten better, I'm happy that it didn't take that much of a toll on her as compared to mom's death.We've moved into the new house, the kids love it. Xander and I love it.Being back though has separated us for a while, he's been stuck in piles of work and complications with his father.Despite