- I don't care about that either, what I want is to have you close to me. - Linna felt her body being lifted and suddenly he was holding her ass while her legs were on his waist. Robert climbed the side staircase and entered the room closing the door, the rain outside was falling hard, this time against the window, the breeze also seemed insane it was possible to observe this because of the leaves that swayed quite strongly and intensely. - You won't let me fall. - He joked and his body was thrown against the bed.- I would never be able to think of that, to let you fall? Not in another world. - he affirmed, throwing himself beside her. The light was off, but there was one outside, very close to the big window of the room, which illuminated part of the environment.- Seriously speaking many people judge me for this opinion, people usually think about getting married when they are in a relationship, I think differently. for example, I am 32 years old and technically I am old for a wedd
The day dawned very early, it was around seven in the morning when Robert woke up with his cell phone vibrating beside his mattress. He moved away from Linna so as not to disturb her sound sleep and went into the kitchen to answer the phone, it was still raining lightly outside and the sun was being hidden by heavy clouds.- William! Good morning, I hope you have some great news to call me back with early in the morning. - He yawned and listened to the sound of paperwork on the other end of the line, followed by many voices.- Yes, my friend, yes! The police station is celebrating today because we finally caught Dylan. - Robert felt so happy that he punched the marble countertop making one of the spoons resting there fall into the aluminum sink and make a huge noise. Almost automatically he ducked to look at Linna, she just moved to the other side and continued to sleep.- Are you serious? - he put his hand over his mouth, whispering and screaming inside himself.- Yes! We had a tense
- Yeah. I've been trying to put this love aside for many years, every time I see you it all seems to come back to me, yesterday I didn't even see you two coming together, I saw you when Stefan pulled you in. It had been so long since I had seen him, and he seemed more of a man, much more manly, so handsome. I couldn't help but admire him! You know, Linna, this is very hard. It's hard to know that deep down I was always someone who was here for him, because he always left. Every single time. Because this was his grandmother's house. So we only saw each other during his vacations. Everything that happened was good, for both of us, I feel that he loved me too, but to wait for this until today is...- despair! He did love you, and he said so himself. However, everything has passed, he has loved others just like he loves me today. I understand that adolescent love is what moves us, it is what marks our lives and I also imagine your imagination. However, there is nothing I can do except tel
At eight o'clock that night they boarded the jet, bound for San Francisco. In Ketchikan it rained all afternoon, so they went back to the cabin and watched a few comedy movies, then moved on to animation. Linna discovered by herself that Robert loved cartoons. He didn't know if there was a reason, but whenever he stopped to watch something it was never an action series or even a newspaper. It was just drawings. All possible cartoons, even anime.This was not bad. Not bad at all. Of all the things his childish spirit could like, this stood out. And in a way she understands it. Cartoons often talk about extremely delicate subjects yet children are not able to notice such a thing. Like in the latest Tom and Jerry cartoon. Both of them are trying all the time to conquer a woman they love, and are traded for money and fame, the scene ends with both of them sitting on the tracks of a train and as soon as the screen goes completely black the sound of the train coming is the last thing we hea
- Hi son, how are you? - Robert didn't understand her excited tone, after all it had been over a month since Barbara had apologized to him for abandoning him for so long and then simply disappeared again without proving any interest in helping her own son. He wouldn't go after her at all, not that he wished she would come and stay with him, but the way his parents didn't even bother to ask him if he was okay was just further proof that shows how much they don't care.- I'm doing very well. What do you want? - He was short, but he didn't lie. Since Linna had moved into his house he hadn't even had time to think about his problems with his parents, sure, some nights it bothered him but it was irrelevant to him. Robert knew that he couldn't have any control over it, and if he did he wouldn't make a point of using it.- Goodness son, what's with that tone of voice? - Barbara really felt hurt to be treated that way, she hoped it was okay.- Is this the kind of relationship you were talking
- Yes, and if something hadn't happened that made me stop here, I certainly wouldn't have found out. - She bit her lip ungraciously. She was simply beaten by a man, and when she woke up about the news that she had a disease.- You are young! You have a lot of life ahead of you. I'm fifty-one years old, it's been thirty-one years since I discovered the disease, and I was able to get a transplant because a friend was a match for me and gave it to me. The doctors said that the life span of my kidney was only thirty years, and here I am without any problems.- And you, during all these years, kept coming here? - The woman shook her head.- Yes. Every day I had to because my case was more serious.- I feel afraid. I found out recently, but I've been having a lot of symptoms and I'm afraid that everything is going to get worse very quickly. I don't know if you have children, but I have a ten year old. And I'm afraid to leave him. I'm afraid to leave for good, I don't know if he could take i
There Linna was once again, this time unaccompanied and wearing a long flowered dress and very simple hair with a bad bun. For quite some time she had been staring at the ceiling and all those beautiful chandeliers in the airport. Her mother was about to arrive with her father and his family, and she couldn't wait to see them. Longing was a funny thing to her, since she missed her father, her mother, and of course Matthew so much in such a short time. But with other people it was different. Linna believed that the more someone became distant from her, the more she would become distant from that person. And the word longing didn't even exist in that situation.This happened to many people in her family, close cousins, aunts who said they cared and suddenly became distant. Especially after what happened. Her being left at the altar, to many in her family, was as if she had given reason for a man never to marry her. That was one of the hardest parts to deal with. And she thanked from the
Two weeks have passed since the Gustov family arrived in San Francisco again, Robert extended the invitation to Linna to her uncle's birthday party and she didn't even think twice about it. Her heart felt tight, with no way out. So now she had to make the most of it while she was still able to do so. She got dressed while Robert helped Matt with the shoes, the farm was far from the city, it was about forty minutes to get there. It was one o'clock in the afternoon, and Robert decided to go after lunch. Until then the idea was to spend the night, so they were taking tents and inflatable mattresses.Linna looked at herself in the mirror as she put on the large gold ring, that outfit really suited her, especially her curvy body. She felt a little bloated and already Robert could tell that the hemodialysis was making her lose weight, not much, the difference on the scale was minimal, but on her physiognomy it looked different. She opted for a pair of pantaloons and a long-sleeved white cro
- What do you say we take a trip this weekend Matt?Robert went to pick up his son from school after feeling guilty for not getting up early enough to take him. Matt was happy that his father had gone and recognized that he was also doing his best to do what his mother was doing on such short notice.- Where to? - Going to places away from home encouraged the pre-teen, fortunately. It was hard to get used to a routine without his mother around.- I thought we might go to Orlando, have you been to Disney?Robert didn't have any trips planned, but he knew that he needed to cool off and his son needed that too. When he thought of a trip to take with Matthew the first place that came to mind was Disney, because it was a totally childish place he wanted to make sure that both of them didn't stop to think about it that way.- Really Dad? I've never been there, Mom always said she would save up money for us to go, but we always ended up taking other trips. She seemed to want to go there more
Three days had passed since his burial, Robert remained lying in his bed, staring at the ceiling of his room. Absolutely nothing was funny. He hadn't slept for a day since he had seen her in that coffin. He had been through grief before, but this was much stronger than himself. The love he felt for her was not able to show even half as much as the illness took her away.At the funeral Robert sat beside her, in the white plastic chair that was not at all comfortable, every second from seven in the morning until three in the afternoon he stayed there. Without eating, without drinking. He stroked her loose curls down the side of her face, would it be too much to say that she looked beautiful? He loved her natural shape, no make-up, pink lips and messy hair. This is how she looked. Linna didn't have pale skin, her melanin glowed. Her outfit had been a flowered dress, she liked joy, she never had this kind of conversation with Robert but he felt she deserved the best. So she asked to be dr
- The methodology we use is the fastest, which has a four-day deadline. - he agreed, he was not interested in what it was but how long it would take. - The cross math is basically when we put together her serum samples with her cells, which would serve as a kind of simulation, what would occur in an organ transplant. If Linna has in her blood composition the antibodies against HLA antigens from the donor's cell membranes, she can almost totally reject the organ received through transplantation, which in this case would be hers. Already in this case, the compatibility test is considered positive, and the transplant is contraindicated. The crossmatch test can use only total lymphocytes, without separation of subtypes, and is called an Initial crossmatch test. So basically people who have the same blood type, for example, are not indicated to do it, because it would certainly snow the organ.- That's fine. - She understood almost nothing of what was said by the short, thin nurse. - In fo
- What are the chances that you are a match? Of any of them being a match? I don't have any hope left. - Robert looked at her like a newborn baby that needed a lot of care. That was how he saw her at that moment. If he could take her into a glass bubble and keep her there until she recovered, he would do it. It would protect her from the world, from everything. Including his own body.- Baby, it's going to be all right! - He knew that this was his last hope. The compatibility test. If they all came back negative there was really nothing to be done, and Linna would just be waiting for the time to go out of their lives. Because she was weak, mellow, pale. When you meet someone radiant and see them like this your will is to give all your strength to that person.- Will you lie here with me? - she asked brazenly.- No. You're in pain and you can't move, not even think. If you want I can lower the arm of the bed and you can lie on my chest. - She rolled her eyes and agreed, in fact she at
Linna opened her eyes slowly, blinking countless times in a second feeling a huge pain in her back. Until her eyes got used to the dim lighting of the place and she could finally see everything around her, including the doctor who was waiting for her to wake up, slouched over the arm of the hospital bed. Her mouth was extremely dry, which made her cough before she could say anything.- My back... - Her voice was very low and hoarse, she tried to move, but Talia denied it with her head, touching her arm lightly. - They hurt a lot.- Don't move. - The doctor came a little closer.- How long have I been here? - The rain was falling hard outside, she was still unable to turn her head to look through the glass window.- Today is the fifth day. - Linna would be able to widen her eyes if her head didn't hurt so much. - You've had another alveolar hemorrhage, Linna. - she sighed. - This time much more intense. We had to put a blood bag of a few millimeters for you. Your body is being attacked
She touched her mother's face, it was impossible not to smile with all that innocence. As if it were easy.- Oh my son, I'd love to but you're a child, you can't. - Matthew hugged his mother's body, Linna hugged him back tightly, smelling the baby soap he has been using since birth because he has allergies to some kinds of soap.- Mom, I don't want to introduce you anymore. You can tell the school and then they'll write another paper! - I said, whispering in his ear, afraid that his father was going to make him go to the presentation because of his grade.- It's okay, Matt. If you don't want to, we won't force you to. - He pulled away and touched his even smaller hands. - See, your dad will call the school and explain what happened, and you'll stay here with me.- Are you sure? - Robert walked over and watched Matt's hair flip up and down like it had after the nasty thing he said. His son just nodded. - Matt, I'm sorry I talked like that, but you have to understand that sometimes it's
- I have a headache. This damn headache again! - He put his hand on his temple and snorted loudly.- Hey. It's okay, if you want you can stay home and I'll take Matt to the presentation, or I can ask my mom to take him.- No, we'll go. - Linna forced her eyes to turn to him and tried to look at him, but Robert noticed her distant eyes and held her fat face in his hands.- No. You're in no condition to go. I'm going to stay here with you and call my mother! - He said, already seeing Linna frown several times in a row, which indicated that she was going to cry very soon.- Go with Matthew, he wants his parents to watch him together at least once. - she whimpered in supplication.- I'm not leaving you alone, Linna. Don't be stubborn. What if something happens and you're here alone? That's no idea. - Matt entered the room and his smile vanished when he saw his mother with her head down and apparently sad.- Mom, is everything okay? - They both looked at him in a rush, she in particular sw
On the evening of that day Matthew had a presentation at school, a theater performance of The Wizard of Oz, where he would be the scarecrow. During the day there were preparations inside the school, he didn't even imagine that his parents were dressed as a bride and groom almost lost on a rented farm in the middle of nowhere. The two looked at each other like never before, if before their love could be exhaled, now it was able to shine like an angel. They got back to each other before nightfall, after they had played catch-up and finished with the bottle of wine.Matt was in the shower while Robert and Linna finished dinner, it wasn't even seven o'clock yet and the presentations would start at eight. There was silence, no cell phones, with a few glances exchanged in shy and sincere smiles. The cutlery banging against the plate, apart from all the cicadas, was the only noise.- How could she sleep for so long with those cicadas? - Linna cleaned her plate after the last bite, the cicada
- I love you, Robert. I've never known love before, I've had other boyfriends but they all become insignificant next to you. I've never felt anything like it. My heart is racing now, and it's racing every moment I think of you, think of being with you. - Linna took his hand and placed it on her chest, Robert felt the palpitations as if her heart were in his hands. - With you I've learned what real love is. I've accepted some things that I considered to be love and you were never even a hint of it. We started living together and even exchanging basic words I felt your concern for me, I felt that in the smallest gestures you cared and did things that showed this like leaving the coffee ready. Even if you dared to say it was for Matthew too. - She laughed weakly through her tears. - When we started to talk, to live closer to each other, I understood that there was already love there. There was already admiration, respect, regret. Repentance was crucial for both of us. We both did horribl