Back To My Demons

Rose Amber's POV

The sun's rays touched my eyes and I didn't feel it that much until the intensity increased, I quickly got up from my comfy bed and drew the curtains to cover the sun's hot touch on my tender skin. Traveling back home brought a lot of good and bad memories but sometimes, I did focus on the good only, my life had been filled with fun and trauma these past few years and it felt like a dream come true that I finally graduated from school with the best degree.

I had become the nurse I always wanted to be, all that was remaining was for me to get a job in the federal hospital and kick-start my passion but too bad my long-awaited dream had been cut short. A few days after I graduated from the university, my father insisted that I return home for an important discussion.

He told me with all his boldness to get married to his best friend who was older than me, the old man lost his wife six years ago and my dad never stopped talking about how depressed and broken his best friend was. The man was rich though but the thought of getting married to him freaked me out of my skin and I felt so lost on the right action to take, I gave my dad a dead man's look when he broke the news about my arranged marriage to the old billionaire.

I heard a knock on my door as I glanced through the memories stuck in my brain like prisoners

"you can come in!" I screamed and sat on my bed with no plans of leaving where I sat

my mom walked in, her beautiful face freed from wrinkles and pimples, it did made me smile

"Glad you are awake my darling princess, seeing your face alone is a blessing," she said in her tender voice

"good morning Mom, stop it with the flattering already, I'm not in the mood" I replied

"and who told you that I'm flattering you?, your mood seems odd though"

"I need a break!" I said and stood up

I was about to head to the bathroom when she grabbed my hand

"hey!, I understand you don't want to talk and I see that your face doesn't look like a lady who slept well, your mind is racing through a lot of thoughts. I'm a woman like you and I understand the things happening to you" she said

"you don't understand mom, if you do, then you would have said something when Dad brought up his crazy idea, would you truly allow your only daughter to marry a man that's twice her age?. He's dad's age mate for crying out loud!" I screamed at her and yanked my hand out of her grip

I was mad at both of them and I had been trying so hard to contain my anger in its hard shells

"you know what?, I will arrange for a meeting with you Dad this evening and we will talk like one big family, you are my only child, and seeing you like this hurts me more than you know" she said and walked out of my room

I watched her close the door slowly before I fell and cried my eyes out, traveling back home felt like returning to my demons and pain. I ran away to study in Dubai because I didn't want to be within their reach but I completed my nursing course and I came back to my origin, the epicenter of my problems and depression.

I had always dreamt of the day I will would married to my boyfriend back in Dubai, he was such a sweet young Arab man with the touch of an angel, his handsomeness was comparable to none. We talked about living together and having children of our own until my dad disgraced him in public and warned him to stay away from me like I was a horrible person in sheep's clothing.

He lied to my boyfriend that I was married to a rich man in New York and all this happened a few days before my graduation ceremony. He broke up with me and blocked me even before I got the chance to explain the truth, he cursed me when I went to his house on a rainy day filled with thunderous lightning strikes and I cried on the bus back home as my heart wanted him for all eternity.

I quickly took off my nightgown and walked in the shower, the cold water that touched my skin felt refreshing and I stood under it for some minutes until I shivered in the uneasy arms of cold temperature. I wrapped up my bathing session and took a nice T-shirt and Jean from my wardrobe and wore them immediately before I wore a pair of white sneakers to match.

I went out of my room and took my father's Chevrolet Silverado and zoomed out of the house with it. The only way I could get off the pain and anger was to watch a movie and chill with some cold banana flavor ice cream by my side.

Luckily, I was able to do everything that I planned and after spending five hours in the cinema, watching different movies back to back with a lot of ice cream and popcorn to ease my stress, I felt the urge to go back home. But before heading back, I drove around town and did some pleasure driving before taking my depressed soul back to its cage.

I saw my dad's face immediately after I walked into the living room and he quickly stood up to hug me but I dodged him and went straight to the stairs, I turned around to see his reaction, and believe me, it was priceless, he kept staring at me with his mouth half opened.

"Rose, please freshen up and join us for dinner!" my mom called out to me

"I will be down shortly but don't wait for me" I replied and left the both of them standing like scarecrows in the wilderness

I banged my door hard after I entered my room and jumped on my bed for a quick nap, I felt a bit relaxed as I closed my eyes and sighed. Couldn't wait to hear what my mom had to say, left for me, I had the option to either run back to Dubai and become a sex worker since my father had made his choice to frustrate my life.

At least I would have the perfect chance to write my destiny the way I always wanted.