CHAPTER 2

AUDREY’S POV

Lucas had become almost like a legend, a myth told to children, just like waiting for Santa. He was nowhere to be found. Almost like he never existed in this world.

“Have you tried going to his house to check on him?” Claire asked, her voice dripping with concern and I let out a frustrated sigh.

My hand shook slightly as I subconsciously rubbed my already protruding belly, a loud and painful reminder of the truth I wouldn’t be able to hide any further.

“You know his mother isn’t exactly my biggest fan, I doubt she'd let me see him,” I muttered and I just knew that Claire was rolling her eyes at my words.

“But Rey, you know this silence isn’t normal. It's been three months! March over to his house and demand his attention,” Claire growled and I sighed for the billionth time.

“Uhm, Rey? I gotta go, the lecturer is in class now. I will call you immediately after I'm done, okay? Please don't cry anymore.” She whispered before hanging up and I released a silent sigh, taking the air pods out of my ears.

I could feel the tears forming in my eyes and I was shocked that I could still cry with how hard I've cried these past months.

I had tried thinking of what I did wrong but I always ended up with nothing. All I remember was that passionate night we shared and then he just vanished.

It was getting hard to hide my changing body from my parents. I had started wearing large jumpers and hoodies to hide the fact that I was pregnant from their knowledge, but it was only a matter of time before the truth would be made public.

With a determined mind, I rushed out of the house and made my way to Lucas’ family house. I just couldn’t handle the pain of it alone anymore.

My stomach felt uneasy as I knocked gently on the door, waiting for an answer. I glanced up at the sky and it was obvious that it was going to rain in the next few minutes. I tried to keep my heart calm from how loudly it was pounding in my chest as the door swung open.

“Audrey?” The maid greeted, her eyes taking in my disheveled look.

“Hi, Miss Gina,” I said in a soft voice and tried walking closer to the door, hoping to avoid the rain that had started to drizzle. A frown formed on my face when I saw the unpleasant look on her face.

My eyes found Mrs Kent, standing behind her with a sneer on her face and she pushed past Miss Gina, pushing me further into the rain.

“What do you want?” She hissed.

“I… I came to see Lucas” I stammered, feeling like an animal, caged in a predator's gaze.

“Haven’t you ruined his life enough?” Mrs Kent spat, her eyes glaring at me and I swallowed hard, my legs trembling under me.

“I don’t know what you mean…” I muttered, feeling chills run down my spine as my legs almost gave way and I stumbled forward.

“Please, can I come in?” I asked, trying to seek shelter from the rain.

“No,” Mrs Kent snapped as she moved back inside the house.

“Please I need to see Lucas” I cried as the rain poured down on me, probably to wash my sins and dirtiness away.

“He is not here, get out of my compound before I call the police on you.” She spat before shutting the door on my face.

The thunderclap startled me, dragging me back to reality as I turned around to leave.

“Audrey!” Miss Gina called, as she ran towards me from the back of the house with an umbrella.

“I am sorry.” She muttered with a sad look in her eyes. “Young master Kent has gone to New York.” She explained and I froze, my brain snapping shut for a minute.

“N-new York?” I stammered as I staggered backward and she moved forward to hold me steady.

“Yes, he wanted to give this to you before he left,” She said as she handed me a letter and I quickly put the letter into my inner clothes, saving it from the thundering rain that was pouring.

My house was quiet when I walked in, it wasn’t like anyone was bothered about my absence. My hands shook slightly as I pulled the letter out of my clothes, my heart pounding harshly in my chest, scared of the words I would find in it.

I didn't even bother to get out of my wet clothes. I just stood in my room as I gently opened the letter like I was a treasure that I was afraid to rip.

“Dear Audrey, it’s only best if we go our separate ways. Truth is I can’t do this anymore. It will be better if you move on and never contact me again.”

A sob broke out of me the moment I fully absorbed the written words. Lucas was gone and this wasn’t just any form of goodbye, this was a letter from him telling me how worthless I was to him.

My silent sobs turned into a loud wail, my chest constricting harshly as I thought of the last time we had spent together in the garden.

“Audrey,” I heard my mom's voice as she knocked softly on the door and I quickly wiped my tears, hoping to look presentable as I ran to the door, pulling it open for her to walk in.

My eyes widened in fear as I noticed our family doctor standing behind her with a solemn look on his face.

“How long did you think you were going to hide that bastard?” My mother growled in anger as she smacked my cheek hard, tilting my face to the side.

“I never raised you to be a whore!” She yelled in anger while I cried and tried to move closer to her.

“Mom please,”

“Don’t you dare call me that! You are a disgrace!” She hissed, throwing the pregnancy result paper at my face.

“Who's the father, huh? Who is the bastard that got you pregnant!?” She screamed, her eyes wide and bloodshot in anger.

“Lucas… it was Lucas.” I managed to mumble and a sharp laughter echoed across the room as she clapped her hands.

“So you're pregnant for that bastard that's no where to be found? Why are you so stupid and hopeless? You should have just died instead of your brother! At least he wouldn't bring us shame like you did.” She spat and I just stood there, crying silently.

Maybe she was right, I should have died.

“Get your things and get out of my house.”

I froze as I looked up and my eyes found my father, standing at the door with a cold look in his eyes.

“Dad?” I called out, my voice dripping in disbelief.

“Get out of this house this instant, I don’t want to see your face” My father shouted and my mom echoed his words as she lunged at me but was stopped by the doctor.

“You are no longer our daughter!” My mom yelled before shutting the door behind her and I crumbled to the ground, Lucas' letter still in my hand.

“Should I just end it all? Isn't that what you'd want!?” I yelled as I glanced at the apple knife sitting on my table before picking it up.

Driving it into my stomach wouldn't hurt… would it?