Chapter 06: Feeling of Love

Bryan sat in his office. It was hard enough concentrating on what he was doing. He had lodged in a hotel last night, but made Taylor think he had gone to meet Stella last night, and he had not come home this morning because he didn't want to see her face, but now, he was feeling so strange.

Probably it was because he had been too harsh on her last night. He suddenly recalled the look on her face when he handed her the divorce papers and what she had said to him, "Why is it so hard for you to love me."

He recalled another. "You still have a chance. We still have a chance to make this right."

He rubbed his face with his palm when he wouldn't stop thinking about last night. Why was she suddenly occupying his mind? He was pretty certain that she would sign the divorce paper as soon as possible, but something inside of him wanted to prolong it.

He needed to get it done before he officially became the next CEO.

He opened a file and began staring at it, hoping his mind would stop thinking about Taylor. It wasn't working and even when he changed to another file, it was like what was written in there was their conversation last night.

He rubbed his eyes and just when he wanted to stand up, his door opened.

Stella walked in.

"Babe." She called, walking towards him.

"Hey. What are you doing here?" He questioned. She arched her brows when she heard him. "Can't I be here?"

"Stella, should you? You know what we agreed on."

She scoffed aloud. "I'm sure she's gonna sign the divorce papers tonight, trust me." Stella replied and smiled. It made his gear thrust for a second. " What do you mean?" Those words suddenly rushed out and it was more like he yelled at her.

She gave him a questioning look. "I don't get you. Isn't that what you want? I thought you'd be happy if I said this."

Finally realizing what he had just said, he fluttered his brows. "Yeah, I want that too," He replied, his voice almost like a whisper. She took two steps and was now standing right in front of him.

"Baby." She called while he forced a smile.

"We finally got what we always wanted. You and I, together like we always dreamt of."

"It's not over yet. Taylor hasn't signed the papers."

Once again, Stella arched her brows. "You're acting strange today Bryan, is something wrong?"

Bryan shook his head in negation. Was the fact that he was being disturbed by the thought of Taylor look so obvious? "I'm fine, Stella." He stared down at his files. Everyday, he always wanted to be with Stella, but today, he wasn't just feeling like it. He felt strange, and the cause repeatedly pointed to one person.

"Let's go out tonight to celebrate." Stella suggested hoping that would cheer him up, but he didn't smile like she expected. Her greatest fear was the thought of him already in love with Taylor without realizing it, and she wasn't going to let that happen under her watch.

She touched his hand. "Did you hear me?"

"Let's do that next time, Stella, I'm preparing for the meeting with my father and the company's members." He said.

She scoffed. She had never been the first to say things like this, but just today that she had decided to, he totally rejected it.

She bit her lower lips. "Okay."

"Let's get married, Bryan." She finally broke the news. This was the reason why she had come.

Bryan arched his brows, but didn't utter a word. "This is what you and I have been waiting for the entire time. It should have been me back then. It should have been me standing beside you and saying our marriage vows and not Taylor."

Her voice had turned cold, and she was almost on the verge of tears.

"Stella." He called softly and tried to touch her hand, but she pulled it away from him.

"Just say yes."

Bryan found out he couldn't say the word that she deeper wanted to hear, and he had no idea why because he did want to conclude it was because of Taylor since he wasn't sure

He had been reminded of their marriage vows and the way she looked at him that day. "I will never forget what I promised you, and I haven't stopped loving you. If you feel so insecure of Taylor, then you shouldn't. Wait a little longer, Stella. Once the divorce has been finalized, I'll come for you immediately." He said.

She smiled. Now, she was certain that Bryan was still hers. Bryan picked up the files on the table.

"I need to go now." He said.

"Where?"

"Home."

She frowned. "Taylor isn't home, trust me tonight."

She nodded her head while he forced a smile on. He opened the door and walked out of his office. As soon as he got to the car, he dropped the file on the seat next to him and buried his face on the wheel. Things were fucking going the wrong way, and he had not expected it.

The feeling of guilt was eating deep inside him, and he repeatedly kept seeing the look Taylor had when he broke the news of the divorce to her.

To clear his mind, he picked his phone and dialled Alex's number.

"Let's drink, man."

*******

"Taylor, you can sign the divorce papers tomorrow. I don't think you're in a good shape to even go back home."

"No! I need to go home now Talia." Taylor replied immediately.

She slouched on the couch staring at the ceiling. "Can you even walk?"

She tried to stand up on her feet again, but it seemed immediately as she repeatedly kept falling down. "You see? You're in no shape to even walk. You drank too much, do stay back, please."

Tears rolled down Taylor's eyes, and even while she was drunk, she couldn't forget everything like she wanted to. She could still recall his hurtful words when she had told him to try to love her. She had foolishly begged for his love even after she had promised her mother never to do such.

This was what angered her the most. Even after everything she did, and every sacrifice she made for him, he still saw her as nothing and hated her.

How could she not cry when she wouldn't forget everything.

"Why do you insist on going back till the very end? It's so clear you can sign the divorce another time except tonight."

"You don't understand Talia. You wouldn't understand how I'm feeling right now. I need to sign it now else I'll end up changing my mind. I'll end up wanting to be with him again so badly. My unwanted desires, I need to quench it now before it kills me completely."

More tears rolled down her eyes. Talia stared at her best friend who was completely shattered. If only Taylor would give her the permission to go talk some sense into Bryan.

Not that she didn't want Taylor to sign the divorce, but it seemed Taylor would hurt even more. To Talia, there was nothing better than her freedom, but what about her feelings?

Talia couldn't help but cry when she saw her friend crying. She sat close to her and hugged her tight.

"Heed my advice Taylor, it'll help. Leave the country and start your life afresh. You're still young and beautiful, and you'll find true love somewhere else if you give it another chance."

Taylor sniffled, struggling with her breath. It was so obvious she was really suffering from heartbreak.

"Stop it. Stop it okay! It breaks my heart to see you cry, Taylor. Please." Talia begged. "I don't know if I can live without him by my side."

"You can. You can't let him keep toying with you anymore. If you do, then he'll never learn to love you like you want. Be the woman that every man desires and he'll come running after you. Bryan doesn't even know what he's losing, and he's gonna realize it the moment he loses you completely. Stop crying and be strong."

It took an hour of consolation. Finally, Taylor was done crying. She had made up her mind to leave the country as soon as the divorce was finalized. Staying back and seeing her husband with her enemy would be even more embarrassing and would be an insult to her.

Once she had sobered up a bit, she got into the car with her friend and the car was ignited.

"If anything happens tonight, call me immediately." Talia said immediately the car halted right in front of the house.

Silently, Taylor hoped she would really be able to sign the divorce paper. Nothing would change her mind, not even the strong love she has for him.

"Are you sure you don't want me waiting for you here.?"

"No Talia. You should go back home. As soon as I sign the papers, I'll be off to bed. Thank you so much for being with me all through. I love you so much bestie."

Talia smiled seeing Taylor smile.

"I love you too." She replied and embraced her for a minute before breaking the hug.

Taylor walked into the house. The living room was dark. She was still a bit drunk and her visions were still unclear. When she found the light switch, she turned around to find her husband seated on the couch.

He was with a drink in his hand. She stared at the table to see the countless bottles he had earlier.

"Huhhh, look who's here? My annoying, but innocent wife." Bryan said immediately he saw her. He rose on his feet and walked towards her. Taylor watched him in silence till he was standing right in front of her.

She didn't have any expression on her face. "I'm ready to sign it now, the divorce papers. I think that's also the best solution for you. It's best we go our separate ways Bryan." She said.

Bryan wasn't really listening to her because he was too drunk to do so.

To her surprise, he held her cheek, and continued staring at her.

Taylor felt her heart beating fast, but she couldn't take his hands away from her face because it was the first time she was feeling so warm. She had never felt his touch before, but today it was happening and she didn't have the mind or courage to stop him.

Something even more shocking happened.

He leaned his head closer and kissed her passionately.