— H O O R —
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One more week of my life has passed. Nothing new happened in it, nor did I want any new surprises. I was fine with the way my life was going, except for the day when I would be able to start earning a decent income and get my father treated.
Every morning I would prepare breakfast and lunch for Papa and Parul. I do my breakfast with him and secure the lunch before getting ready and leaving for The Cooper's Corner.
There my work would be only till 3 in the afternoon after which I would leave to take up my other job. For the time being, I found a job in a bookstore because my salary coming from only one job was not so enough that I would depend on that single job.
After that, I would leave for home in the evening and inquire about the well-being of Parul and Papa. They both always tell me that they are all right but I know they lie to me.
Seeing the worry and tiredness on my face, they don't want to bother me more, so they give me false consolation, but I am not so stupid and careless as to take all this lightly.
Worrying about them is not only my duty but also my responsibility. I want to be with them in the next phase of my life. Don't want to leave them alone when they actually need me and pretend like everything is alright.
Even if this moment is full of troubles, I hope that everything will be fine. It does not let my passion and desire to work hard break.
“You're leaving?” A voice interrupts me from behind while I am removing the hat that I used to prevent my hair from getting dirty.
Putting it down in its place, I turn around to acknowledge the owner of the shop as I already recognized her by her bored tone. She is always tired. In her late forties, I understand. She has become old, now she does not have the energy like a child.
“Yeah, my shift has ended so…” I shrugged, gripping my bag.
Now do not tell me about any other work because I am very much tired. Plus, this back pain. Standing has become a hard task for me, especially at the moment when I am on my period.
But old ladies ignore that. I remember the lady — who is now standing in front of me — told me that in her ancient times, she used to climb up the mountain just to get herbs. Her mother-in-law was a soul-crushing woman who used to give her such tasks.
I am not lying.
This lady keeps lecturing me like this. Because for her, I am the laziest person alive. What an irony, no?
“Hm… I see,” she murmured, yawning and leaving me alone.
I sigh. Thank goodness! I did not want to waste my time here listening to her another lecture about her ancient times in which ladies used to climb up the mountain.
Quickly grabbing my stuff, I leave the place.
As soon as I come out of the air-conditioned room, the warm air captures me from all sides. The sky is orange once again and I can smell the sweet aroma of coffee and pastries coming from the shop beside the bookstore.
Putting the strip tight on my shoulder, I ignore the rumble of my stomach and leave for my home. I didn't even have lunch today. In the rush of work, I forgot. Today I had to go round and round in the scorching sun for continuous deliveries but I am finally looking forward to the sleep I get tonight.
I am quite happy when The Cooper's Corner keeps getting orders, because this means I am getting a bonus at the end of the month. Today my manager told me that Mathews company has placed a big order with The Cooper's Corner.
He danced around the room and a few customers watched him in awe. He stopped all of a sudden and went into his office because he was flushed.
As much as I wanted to tease him, I kept myself away from this desire and handled my work.
The walk home was peaceful but the pain in my legs. A few kids were met on the way, playing, and I remembered my childhood when everything was fine and I had no responsibilities. I did not want to start a session of self-pity at that time so quickly left from there, reaching my home sweet home.
I go upstairs and knock on the door before getting inside. “I'm home!” I chirp like always, closing the door behind me.
I remove my flats and notice sets of expensive shoes put neatly in some corner of the floor. I see there are Parul's slippers as well.
Has anyone come to meet my dad?
The thought runs in my head while I walk into the living area. Our apartment is very small but comfy. It has different rooms, fortunately for different purposes so I took a sneak peek before entering the room and noticing two men engaged in a conversation with my dad.
Parul sits on a chair, listening to them with keen interest.
But the thing that literally surprises me is that the men with my dad I seem to know already.
The older one is Ryan's grandfather — the kid I met in the park last week. The other man is the one whom I helped in the general store. But the question is, what are they doing here? Does Dad know them? He looks friendly with them, too.
“Papa…” I trail off, putting down my bag and getting everybody's attention in the room.
Well, this is awkward now. I know I am looking like a witch with a tired face and hair like a ruined nest where birds did WWE. And when they smile at me, I smile back, excusing myself the very next moment into the bathroom.
I exhale when I'm in the bathroom. I take a look at my image in the mirror and cannot help but agree with my previous guess. I indeed look like a witch with ruined hair. Well, more stupid. The eye bags make me look malnourished, and the natural rosiness of my cheeks had said bye-bye to them already.
I huff and proceed to wash my face and set my hair.
If I did not have to study along with work, or if such a phase never would have come in my life, where I would have to manage work along with studies, I would have definitely worried about my face at night and do night care but I can't do it when I am forcing myself to remain awake to focus on my studies.
It is sometimes useless to study late at night because mostly nothing enters my brain, so I hug my pillow and sleep for a few hours before waking up around four in the morning and continuing my studies.
At least that time lets my brain eat as much knowledge as I am trying to feed it.
Once I am satisfied with my look, I grab the towel and wipe my face before I come out.
There, Dad looks at me again with a different glean in his eyes that stuns me as well as leaves me happy.
I smile back, going to him.
“Hoor, meet Uncle Harshit, my childhood friend.” He introduces me to the old man. I bow respectfully to him. He smiles and puts his palm on my head as a gesture of blessing me.
“And Adyant, his eldest son.” He introduced me to the younger man whom I helped in the general store.
I greet him, too, earning myself a polite smile from him.
“I remember,” I murmur, catching a glimpse of drinks and cookies served to them already. I am proud as well as thankful to Parul for handling this all behind my back.
I sent her a secret smile.
“And Harsh, this is my Hoor,” Dad introduced me to his friend.
“I see. She was only seven months old when I held her,” he said with a small smile, “She looks just like her mother.”
“Indeed she does,” Dad murmurs with sadness. I sigh, squeezing his shoulder in a comforting way. He sends me a sweet smile.
“Well Hoor, Harsh has come here to ask for your hand for his son.” The few words leave me in confusion as I give him a confused stare before he adds, “In marriage.” And that leaves me stunned.
So stunned that I couldn't answer him for a moment. Seriously?
“In marriage?” I almost whisper before I add what my heart screams inside, “But I don't want to get married at this age. I'm only twenty-one.”
From the corner of my eye, I see Uncle Harsh giving me a hopeful look which I choose to ignore. I look over at my father and say, “I want to do something for you.”
“I know, dear, but how long will I be living? I want you to be happy with a life partner.” He pats my cheek while speaking of the second sentence that irks me more than it should melt my heart.
“Is it necessary for you to think negatively every time? Why am I still enduring everything with such confidence then?” I almost whisper as my throat tightens just thinking of the moment when my dad won't be with me.
This is absurd!
I know he is going to live longer and see me getting successful and living a good life.
“Hoor…” Parul tries to comfort me, putting a hand on my shoulder but I do not listen to her.
I see sadness covering my dad's eyes before I turn to look at Uncle Harshit. He looks dejected but I had no other way to reject this proposal. I do not need a life partner to lead a happy life.
Why can't this society think in some other way? Is it really necessary to have a man by your side? Absurd!
“Uncle, Papa always talks like this but I'm sure that his life is not that short. As far as marriage is concerned, I'm not yet ready for marriage. After I finish my degree, I know that I'll be able to handle everything and I won't need a partner.”
I know I sound rude but it was necessary to drill one thing in everybody's head that I do not want to get married already. Politeness doesn't always work, I have noticed.
Do not care if Mathews are so fucking rich enough to rule half of the country, I am still wishing to get everything on my own. If a man can manage to build up an empire, why can't a woman at least live on her income and lead an amazing life in which she won't need any man to pay her bills?
With technology being advanced, why don't people's brains also get advanced?
“Hoor, that's rude—” Dad tries to interrupt but Uncle Harshit stops him, saying, “It's okay, I understand. Every girl has the right to think and act on how she wants to live her life.”
Dad stays silent. I lick my upper lip in nervousness.
Uncle Harshit is kind and understanding. I did not like the way I answered him but I am glad he understood what I wanted to say.
Giving me an assuring smile, he says, “I'm proud to see you're a mature woman now.” He pats my cheek before he gets up and hugs my dad. They bid their goodbyes while I stand behind and watch them parting their ways.
Dad sighs and rolls the wheels of his wheelchair, coming back into the room. Parul also left after giving me an excited smile and telling me she supported my decision.
Dad goes into his room while I follow him, knowing very well why he is so silent all of a sudden.
“Dad, are you upset?” I ask him, turning the lights on.
He looks at me over his shoulder and then after a few seconds pass, he shakes his head. A helpless smile falls on his lips.
“No, Hoor, I'm not upset. Rather, I'm delighted to see that my daughter can make good decisions now.”
I walk to him and take a seat on a chair beside him. Holding his weak and warm hands, I ask, “Did you like the proposal for me?”
“What's the need for my opinion here?”
I bite my bottom lip. I knew that. I knew that my answer disappointed him but he is not angry with me. The look in his eyes tells.
“Tell me, Dad,” I insist, tiling my head.
He sighs, nodding his head. “I was happy thinking that if you say yes, then your relationship with Harsh's son will be fixed and your life will be easy. I have seen you struggle from a young age. You didn't even deserve so much trouble to tackle at that age, dear,” he says, holding my hands tightly, he adds to his confession, “For a moment, I was selfish for you.”
I knew that.
“How can I leave you alone like this?”
He shakes his head. “Of course, and I know that's why you rejected the proposal.” He knows me more than anyone. “Don't I know how much you can sacrifice for me?” He chuckles gingerly and it is not full of humor. “Seeing so much of your love for me, how can I be upset with you, Hoor? People long for this love only.”
He cups my face in his big palms, sending me some warmth as he adds more to his heart-melting confession, “Such a daughter is in my destiny, the more I am thankful the less it is, Hoor. I'll never force you for anything.” With that said, he leans in to kiss my forehead and a lone tear escapes my right eye.
Oh, Dad, I am so grateful to have a father like you. No doubt I did not make any wrong decision by rejecting the proposal.
— Z A H I R —°°°A week has passed since the day of celebrating happiness but my father's mood has changed completely. I have been noticing for a week that he does not talk to anyone well. His smile, which was inevitable, is no longer found on his lips. He even stopped joking every now and then. Now he does not insult me in front of everyone. How did this change all of a sudden? This change is strange. Sometimes he does not even listen carefully to things. It seems every moment, he is just thinking about something. There is something that is bothering him. And I did not like this change at all. I hate every change that causes my father’s smile to become rare. That is why today I am going to him with the intention of getting to know the reason. I want to ask him what has been bothering him for the last week. Taking a deep breath, I knock on his door. “Come in.” The voice reaches my ears. I push the door open, peeking inside. My dad is sitting on his chair, wearing specs, and he
— H O O R — °°° Knock knock! Hearing the sound, I looked towards the door. I sighed and walked to open the door. Who would have come to Parul's door on such a late night? Yeah, Parul's door because I am here to have a chat with her. I have completed my study hours and was not even sleepy so thought of accompanying Parul. She lives alone. “Who would want to meet you at this time, hm?” I ask Parul who is sitting across from me. Her back leans against the headboard and her eyes get the mischievous glint in my eyes for which she gasps in response. I giggle, seeing her reaction. “I don't know, seriously!” She muttered and I shook my head. I get up from the place and go to open the door for the person. My eyes widen when I look at the person after I open the door. He was the least expected person at our door. “You?” I frown deeply, looking at his handsome face. “Yeah, me. Actually, I wanted to talk with you. Would you mind if I take some of your time?” He asks me gently and I doub
— H O O R —°°°I did not know how the next month passed. The night of Zahir's proposal I was able to easily forget because I was not impressed by his proposal. I was not even affected a bit by it. Two days later that night he came to see me again and he also gave me his contact, saying that if I change my mind, I can tell him. Well, nothing like that is going to happen, yet with some respect, I accepted his number. Nothing affected me at that time. Why would such a strange thing affect me? But that night after Zahir left, Parul asked me a lot of questions. She did not like that I turned down the proposal of marriage because even for a moment she can think that marriage without love exists. I also believe that arranged marriages exist, but love is there for everyone in life. Cannot love happen after marriage? Sure it is possible, but a great personality like Zahir refused to even believe it. But I do not want to give many judgments about that man. Every person has his own different
— Z A H I R — When I got a sudden call from Hoor and came to know that Parul, her friend's health had deteriorated, my suspicions turned into convictions. I had doubts about Parul's health for the past few days. She was visibly ill and for the last four days, her cough had made her life miserable. And I was paying attention to all these things ever since I proposed to Hoor. The day she denied me, I did not give up on her. It had become a habit for me to keep an eye on her all the time because I wanted her under any circumstances and I am waiting for some such situation which I can control and get Hoor to do what I want her to do.By the way, I never twisted the situation to such an extent that I could take advantage of Hoor's bad condition, but here I was going to benefit without any hard work. My dad never questioned me after the night I confessed to him I will propose to Hoor, and it was a chance for me to indulge in my work and give my best. I could not ignore my company for som
— H O O R —°°°"A contract. Our marriage contract. And before getting married, I want you to read every condition and term so that later you don't have to ask any questions." I was surprised to hear this. This is literally surprising. Contract marriage? What will he get by turning the marriage into an agreement? And how did this contract suddenly come in the middle? Till that night there was only a marriage proposal with which Zahir had come to me, then why all of a sudden this contact?"Contract? Suddenly? Why?" There were only a few words that I could use. I was so surprised that I had even forgotten how to use the words. "Indeed, Hoor, this marriage was arranged from the very beginning with a compromise. I came to you only with this contract—," "But you didn't tell me anything about the contract that night." I did not give him time to complete himself till it was over and put my question first. "I would have told you about the contract when you would have agreed to the marriag
— H O O R — °°°By 6 o’clock in the morning, Parul had also been released. When she regained consciousness, she cried a lot. She repeatedly apologized to me that she should not have hidden anything from me. But now there was nothing to be gained by remembering the past. Our today was much better. Parul’s health was better now. And what else I needed? Doctors prescribed some medicines for Parul. By giving medicines from time to time, Parul’s condition could have improved completely. And Zahir also spent all this. When we got ready to leave the house in the morning, Zahir took us home too. He did not talk on the way but Parul wondered why Zahir was with us. She asked me whether Zahir gave the money for her treatment, then I told her that Zahir paid the full amount for her treatment. She wondered why I took Zahir’s help but the very next moment she understood everything. She realized that I was definitely ready for marriage. I could not help but sigh. Her mind is sharp enough to pu
— Z A H I R —Another month had passed and today the results of Hoor’s exams were about to come. I knew this and I was also happy that today she will get the result, but my family was happier than me. Perhaps even more curious than Hoor would be today! Because when I got ready and went downstairs for breakfast, my family started demanding from me that I should also celebrate the announcement of the result along with Hoor. What have they understood about me? A crazy? “What type of idea is that? It’s her result, so she should celebrate, not me.” I rolled my eyes, taking the toast and stuffing it into my mouth. “What? She’s your soon-to-be wife, Zahir. Her happiness is your happiness.” Dad gained my attention and I eventually stopped chewing. What did he just say? “Wow, bro! What a line! I loved it.” I looked at my uncle who praised my dad. Dad smirked and bowed his head slightly, uttering, “Thank you, thank you.” I sighed. Once again drama. I continued eating. “Yes, Zahir, Dad is
— H O O R — “Wow Hoor, your results are very good. Your marks are above 90 in every subject!” I heard Parul’s voice. I was braiding my hair at that time and after hearing her words, I rushed to her in a hurry. “Did you check it?” I ask her. It was not that I did not believe in myself, but I did not want to put anything in a misunderstanding. “Of course! You’re wonderful!” She chirped. I glanced at the screen, finding her right. “Phew,” I sighed. Closing my eyes, I folded my hands to thank God. Whatever it is, it is what He wants because It is His Will. And my hard work also pays off only when God does His justice. That is why I thank Him for everything. It is a different matter that in my displeasure, I never remember Him because the sadness and silence inside me is so much that I cannot remember Him at that time. It is such a bad thing, which I try my best to improve. I remember Him in happiness but I want to call Him in sorrow, too. “How’s it going, my lovely daughter?” Dad’s
— Z A H I R —. . .It's been days since Hoor and I returned home after attending our relative's wedding. It was awesome, by her side, and on the other hand, I was nearly bored. Only nights were the most beautiful to me because we prayed together and spent some time together. I could not even imagine using the guest's room bed for making love with my wife so I restrained myself. However, it turned out to be a little harder when she kept throwing glances at me and getting ready for the functions. I had no other way than to look at her and praise her. I wanted to do more. After we returned, the first thing I did after taking a shower was to grab her in my arms and hug her like my life depended on it. She giggled, asking me about what changed in ms all of a sudden but I had nothing to answer her. I only breathed at that moment, loving her warmth and the softness of her chest against my head. That's my haven. That night we made love again and the more I explored her, the more needy
— Z A H I R —. . .I rejected it and I regret it now. It has been days since she confessed her feelings to me and I, like a bastard, rejected those feelings. Like every time, I only thought of responsibilities and all, not wishing to give our relationship a chance but after she started avoiding me, I had no other way than to realize my mistake. Hoor does not know, or maybe she is well aware of it that she even takes advantage of it that her ignorance brings me to my knees before her. I have felt it. Hoor makes me feel like I have admitted it to myself. Hoor has become a piece of mine, without whom, I am not whole. I am incomplete without her. I feel restless when she is away from me. When her eyes are not on me, I crave even one look at her. I know I can't live without her and she made me see it in those days. I thought maybe it was because we were getting used to each other so I decided to keep myself away from her. However, my own decision made me feel restless in my heart.
— H O O R —. . .He picks up the call while I sit, anticipating what is going to happen next. I fear Zahir's answer to Mr Hunt. I know he is a nice man but Zahir, in anger, says harsh things. I do not want him to start a fight with Mr Hunt. He puts the call on speaker and looks at me. His eyes linger over my face and solely catch my eyes. I swallow when I hear Mr Hunt's voice. “Hoor?” He asks, and I know I have to keep my mouth shut. “Hoor is with me. And stop calling her, okay?” Okay... It was not as gruff as I expected. I literally expected him to grab Mr Hunt's collar right pushing his hand into the screen of the phone and venting out all the frustration of the past night but he controlled it. Phew!“Uh...”“Yeah,” he breathes and disconnects the lines, tossing away my phone. My eyes widen. “Zahir, it's my phone! Have mercy on it!” I utter, trying to reach for my phone when he grabs my wrist and pulls me to him. I gasp, swallowing as I look at his face. I am glad the sheet
— H O O R —. . .“What's your problem, huh? Why are you behaving like a beast?” I utter, fuming with anger after whatever has happened. He has done this all! His jaw clenches but he does not give me a single look. I see his grip becoming lethal around the steering wheel as he drives the car smoothly. “Ask yourself! What's your problem, Hoor?” He asks instead, giving me a sharp glance over his shoulder. I purse my lips, trying not to say any bad words that will make me regret it later. “I'm totally fine. It's you alone who created a drama there. I don't understand why are you behaving like that!” I do not care if I am making it even more serious. I need answers. The atmosphere inside the car seems to change as it drops. He is trying hard to control his anger but I know he is dangerous when angry. However, I am not afraid to see his limits. Have seen his sides before and no doubt he is going to be like that again; harsh and brutal with words. “Behaving like what? A beast?” He tau
— H O O R —. . .Finding Mr Hunt at the party gave me some kind of relief. As Zahir too knows him, we got interacted and there I got to meet the girl with him. He introduced me to her and she felt pleasant. His choice is very good. However, on the other side, I could see Zahir glaring at us non-stop. It irked me. Now what does he want? I ignored that look. Mr Hunt too noticed how Zahir was keeping a poker face and answering him gruffly every time. When he was called suddenly by some of his partners, it was only Mr Hunt and me left alone. The woman he took with him also left to use the washroom. “Why is he behaving like that?” He asks me in a mutter, confused as he looks at me. My eyes remain on Zahir who is busy holding a conversation with an official man. There are two more with him, keeping him occupied. I stare at him silently, not answering Mr. Hunt for a moment being. I do not feel like doing it or maybe I am too lost admiring my husband among them. He is handsome, after
— H O O R —. . .“May I come in, ma'am?” I know what he is taking with him, and it is only for me to handle. I sigh as I look up from the screen that troubles my eyes. My gaze lands upon a man standing at the door and I am not sure how many times I have seen him today with towers of files in his arms. Only for me!“Of course,” I have to pass him a fake smile.He comes in and sets the tower beside other files. Wow. Just look at my room. How amazing it looks filled with files and files alone. And whose hand is all in this? Surely, my husband's! Because he does not want me to meet Mr Hunt anymore and he can't even confront me and order me around, so he is using such methods to keep me here. Not only that but he is keeping me with himself in meetings. All the meetings which were to be held in the next month and whatever was arranged by me, he thought of completing them all in this month itself. He made me make some changes in the schedule and everywhere he carried me. All this just
— H O O R —. . .“So tell me...” He begins nervously, running a hand through his hair as he looks at me. I wait for him. Maybe he is going to take eternity. Who knows? He is always like that around me; shy and all. Even now he is unable to look me in the eyes. I too do not have any obsession with it. To me, Zahir's eyes are everything. Keeping the straw in my mouth as I enjoy my Faluda ice cream, I steal a glance at his already-flushed face. Now what does he see? I roll my eyes back to the setting sun and realize that I have spent more time with him. I do not worry about my work. I know I will complete the pending tasks but I needed to refresh my mind which he helped me having. He is an amazing friend, to be honest. After how Zahir spoiled my mood with that interrogation, he called me and I came out to meet him. He took me to places around and bought me ice cream. Walk with him was nice as he kept cracking silly jokes. I was even laughing. Yeah, I like such stupid jokes. He wa
— H O O R —. . .Three days have passed. Life is going on as before. The only difference is that whatever happened between Zahir and me seems like a dream. Everything disappeared as soon as I opened my eyes.Work and prayer help me to forget all this every moment, but I cannot use them every moment to escape from the past. Because of whatever happened that night, I still feel as if there are wounds in my heart that have not healed yet. But I know that time will change everything and all wounds will heal. God will do it. Right now I am just waiting for these days to pass. Now that I know that our relationship is not going to improve, I do not want to stay here any longer.Another time my phone rings. It is Mr Hunt. I have been ignoring his calls since this morning but he does not seem to give up. I am not in the mood, simple. I do not want to talk to him but I know I have to. I will be responsible for many things then. Clenching my jaw, I pick up the call and I remove my gaze from
— H O O R —. . .“Are you out of your mind, Hoor?” He says, breaking all my expectations just in a second. I stare at him dumbfounded, my heart sinking deeper. My eyes do not flutter as they are set on him but he has my hands clammy in anticipation. I muster up the courage to ask, “Wh-What do you mean, Zahir?” My tone is confused. Still. I am still expecting him to give me an explanation so it can relieve the burn in my chest. “It's simple, Hoor!” He utters, getting up as he releases a deep sigh. His arm raises and he runs a hand through his hair. Once again as he shows he is frustrated. I narrow my eyes at him, staring at his face as he steps away, continuing, “It's simple that I don't wanna be in a relationship. And haven't I told you that already?” The next he turns around, eyes boring into mine. They hold frustration and anger, resembling a darker and deeper shade of ocean. His jaw clenches as he adds, “I made it clear already!”He did but I started having feelings for him.